Shepherds of Christ Daily Writing        

October 29, 2018

October 30th Holy Spirit Novena
Scripture selection is 
Day 6 Period I.

The Novena Rosary Mysteries 
for October 30th
are Glorious.


   Prayer for Grace for our Country

Dear Father united to Jesus in the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass, the Sacrifice of Calvary sacramentally made present, celebrated around the world, in the Holy Spirit. We offer up all we do united to the Mass. We unite in one mind and one heart as members of the mystical body of Christ, with Christ our head in the pure and holy Hearts of Jesus and Mary, through the powerful intercession of Mary with all the angels and saints and souls in purgatory, and we beg for the saving grace, for our country, the United States. Please help us. We further pray for unity to always do the will of God in love. We spread the Blood of Jesus on the leaders and people of the United States and cast the devil into hell. We consecrate our country to the Sacred Heart and Immaculate Heart and all our dioceses, and beg for an outpouring of the Holy Spirit. God help us. We pray for our families, the priests, the Church and the world. In the Name of Jesus please hear us, we pray. We pray for our president and leaders. We pray that we are united as one nation under God to work together in love as God wants.


                October 29, 2018

                R. God is Almighty –

                He gives us the priest to celebrate
                    the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass.


Through the Eucharistic Sacrifice Christ the Lord desired to set before us in a very special way this remarkable union whereby we are united one with another and with our divine Head, a union that no word of praise can ever sufficiently express. For in this sacrifice the sacred ministers act not only as the representative of our Saviour, but as the representative of the whole Mystical Body and of each one of the faithful. Again, in this act of sacrifice, the faithful of Christ, united by the common bond of devotion and prayer, offer to the eternal Father through the hands of the priest, whose prayer alone has made it present on the altar, the Immaculate Lamb, the most acceptable victim of praise and propitiation for the Church’s universal need. Moreover, just as the divine Redeemer, while dying on the Cross, offered Himself to the eternal Father as Head of the whole human race, so now, ‘in this clean oblation’ He not only offers Himself as Head of the Church to His heavenly Father but in Himself His mystical members as well. He embraces them all, yes, even the weaker and more ailing members, with the deepest love of His Heart. (Pope Pius XII, Mystici Corporis AAS. XXXV, 232-233)


                R. We as members of the body of
                    Christ are to unite everything
                    to the Mass –
                    the sacrifice of Calvary sacramentally
                    made present –
                    the grace flowing out to souls
                        is for this –

                In the Our Father it says
                    ... thy will be done on earth,
                    as it is in heaven –

                So it's all a choice to do God's will
                    or to reject God's will and do
                    what satan wants –

                Our lives are to be lived disciplining
                    our will so we know through
                    deep intimacy with God –
                    what the will of God is
                    and we give God our
                    will and our life –

                Our life is a journey of praying
                    to know God's will and
                    to live by God's will –
                    So God is first in all we
                    do – all of our actions –

                Then the truth will be in us –

                 Because we sought God –
                    we lived for God –
                    we put God first –
                    we obeyed God –
                    we gave our lives and
                        our will to God –

                In the Prayer for Union –
                    God gave me 24 years ago –
                    which is in the root of the
                    messages in God's Blue Book –
                We pray to God to possess our
                    soul –
                    Life in heaven is being possessed
                        by God –

                We prepare by asking God to possess
                    our soul –

                Sometimes when men are pathological
                    liars – they lie and you can
                    tell it on their face –

                But the more satan fills a
                    man with darkness and
                    lives in him –
                    the more he is blind –
                    the more he lies automatically
                        to get what he wants to
                        happen –

                Where is it – where a man is
                    so blind, in wrong thinking
                    he rejects God's laws –
                    and lives a constant life of
                    rebelling against His beloved
                    Creator – who loved him into
                    existence and created him in
                    the image and likeness of Himself –
                    with the promise of heaven if
                    He obeys God's laws and lives
                    as He wants him to –

                We can see a 2 year old that rebels
                    against his parent –

                What about a person who has
                    spent the days of his life
                    disobeying God's commandments
                    and denying their sins while
                    their life is lived to "prove that
                    they are always right"
                    even in sin –

                    They can stand before God –
                    and in impudence insist they
                    did nothing when they grossly
                    lied and hated and treated God
                    and others with the highest
                    disrespect to clutch their prideful,
                    rebellious, lying ways before the
                    face of God.

                    Life is promised to no man – I
                read of a 19 year old who was
                driving and a man hit her going
                the wrong way and she was
                vibrant, a young beautiful
                girl of promise and she died
                instantly because
                of the impact.

                    Another man fell asleep at the
                wheel – didn't have his seat belt on
                went through the wind shield
                and landed on the other side of
                the road and a truck ran over
                and mangled his body –
                dead immediately –

                What of babies ready to be born
                    that have crushed heads
                    due to selfish people telling
                    themselves - it's okay to
                    kill this little one –

                Thy will be done on earth as it
                    is in heaven – 

Deuteronomy 30: 19-20

Today, I call heaven and earth to witness against you: I am offering you life or death, blessing or curse. Choose life, then, so that you and your descendants may live, in the love of Yahweh your God, obeying his voice, holding fast to him; for in this your life consists, and on this depends the length of time that you stay in the country which Yahweh swore to your ancestors Abraham, Isaac and Jacob that he would give them.’


                R. God and demons do not co-exist
                    in a man's heart set in
                    rebellion to God, disobedience
                    to God's will and denial of
                    his actions that are sinful –
                    to prove he is never wrong.

                God is Divinely just –

                God commands we love Him with
                    our whole heart, our whole
                    soul and our whole being –

                He commands this –

                He commands we love our
                    neighbor as ourselves –

                We can't hurt others for fun –
                    punish innocent others for
                    anger and hate we have
                    harbored our whole life
                    and we deny it and do
                    nothing to heal bitter, hard
                    hateful, punishing, rebellious
                    hearts – it is being sinners –

                    Jesus says what we do to hurt,
                and provoke and persecute others
                we do to Him –

                    This is what Jesus says –

                    The lies and hatred we do
                as an example before men
                must be corrected
                to teach truth and love.

                    We are to be witnesses –
                before men – so men know God
                by our holy and loving actions –

                We are to follow God –

                Use what God gives us for the
                    building of His Kingdom –

                God commands us to love –

                God wants us to work in love
                    and unity with our talents
                    to build His Kingdom –

                Treating those over us in just
                    authority is to be done in
                    respect and obedience –

                Men are sinners –

                We are here to die to our bad
                    sinful habits and to rise
                    to new life in Him –

                    What is happening when hungry
                dogs are left out of a basement –

                    What happens when a wounded
                dog bleeding in the street is
                touched by a man trying to help
                him – They can bite the man
                because of their pain – even
                though he is trying to help him –

                    The very hairs of our head are
                numbered –

                    Our hearts are to be open to
                God filling us –

                    We were created for this –

                    We are hungry until we
                        are filled by God in
                        heaven –

                Only God can heal what's going on
                    in this world –

                Men have tried and tried –
                    look at it –

                God gives us the Mass and the
                    priest –

                This is an important lesson –

                We need to unite to the Mass
                    and pray for grace for
                    the souls –

                This is a major message God
                    gives us as members of
                    the mystical body of
                    Christ –

                    If a man was majorly wounded with
                sexual abuse, physical abuse,
                emotional abuse, abandoned
                as a child – he needs healing –
                but the pain can be so great he
                turns to addictions, alcohol,
                drugs, not eating or eating too much
                or he can be addicted to abuse –
                abusing innocent others –
                consenting to tricks, games,
                manipulation, lies, passive-
                aggressive behavior acted out
                with hatred and destruction
                toward people, and things they
                destroy –

                    When a person denies their
                actions of hatred toward others
                they grow in greater and greater
                darkness and blindness – trying
                to prove they are right –
                living a cycle of abuse,
                chaos, confusion, lies
                on innocent others –

                Part of that cycle is lying
                    after a person willfully
                    abused another – saying
                    "I'm sorry, I'm sorry" just
                    wanting to get away with
                    it –
                    to start it again –

                Alcoholics go through cycles –

                (1) thinking about drinking
                (2) drinking
                (3) enjoying it
                (4) then the hangover –

                It's to live in denial of pain –

                    NUMB it –

                    Some are addicted to stirring the
                pot – working up innocent others,
                disrespect, lies to get a climax
                and persecute, abuse –
                    then saying
                    "I'm sorry, I'm sorry"

                    Getting away with it –
                to begin the abuse cycle

                    This blocks dealing with one's
                actions, accountability –
                They trade games of victimizing
                and being a victim – it is
                the waste of energy and love
                meant to serve God and help
                build His Kingdom –

                    The goal and happiness of
                a man depends on his goal,
                this is loving and serving God –

                A man whose goal is abusing
                and manipulating others –
                using others for their whipping
                boy is not coming clean –
                It can be like a fallen down
                drunk who lies about his
                addiction and accuses others –
                blames others for their horrible
                addicted existence –

                We are accountable before God
                to treat each other with
                respect and love.

                Happiness is in the heart –

                Creating crisises and drama
                in every situation 24 / 7
                is sick and it brings
                destruction on those who
                are really victims of another's
                abuse and addiction –

                    God is love and in Him is
                no darkness –

Hebrews 8: 1-6

The principal point of all that we have said is that we have a high priest of exactly this kind. He has taken his seat at the right of the throne of divine Majesty in the heavens, and he is the minister of the sanctuary and of the true Tent which the Lord, and not any man, set up. Every high priest is constituted to offer gifts and sacrifices, and so this one too must have something to offer. In fact, if he were on earth, he would not be a priest at all, since there are others who make the offerings laid down by the Law, though these maintain the service only of a model or a reflection of the heavenly realities; just as Moses, when he had the Tent to build, was warned by God said: See that you work to the design that was shown you on the mountain.

As it is, he has been given a ministry as far superior as is the covenant of which he is the mediator, which is founded on better promises. If that first covenant had been faultless, there would have been no room for a second one to replace it.


                Song: A Priest is a Gift from God









Hebrews 8: 8-13

And in fact God does find fault with them; he says: 

Look, the days are coming, the Lord 
when I will make a new covenant 
with the House of Israel 
    and the House of Judah,
but not a covenant 
    like the one I made with their ancestors, 
the day I took them by the hand 
    to bring them out of Egypt, 
which covenant of mine they broke, 
and I too abandoned them, 
    the Lord declares.
No, this is the covenant
    I will make with the House of Israel,
when those days have come,
    the Lord declares:
In their minds I shall plant my laws
writing them on their hearts.
Then I shall be their God,
and they shall be my people.
There will be no further need 
    for each to teach his neighbour, 
and each his brother, 
    saying ‘Learn to know the Lord!’ 
No, they will all know me, 
from the least to the greatest,
since I shall forgive their guilt 
and never more call their sins to mind. 

By speaking of a new covenant, he implies that the first one is old. And anything old and ageing is ready to disappear.




                R. We must do God's will.


Hebrews 10: 5-7

and that is why he said, on coming into the world:

You wanted no sacrifice or cereal offering,
but you gave me a body.
You took no pleasure in burnt offering'
   or sacrifice for sin;
then I said, 'Here I am, I am coming,'
in the scroll of the book it is written of me,
to do your will, God.


                R. Read all of Hebrews.

                God shows us in Hebrews 11
                    how Abraham obeyed
                    how Moses obeyed
                    how Baruck obeyed –
                    how the prophets obeyed –


Hebrews 12: 5-13

Have you forgotten that encouraging text in which you are addressed as sons?

    My son, do not scorn correction
        from the Lord,
    do not resent his training,
    for the Lord trains those he loves,
    and chastises every son he accepts.

Perseverance is part of your training; God is treating you as his sons. Has there ever been any son whose father did not train him? If you were not getting this training, as all of you are, then you would be not sons but bastards. Besides, we have all had our human fathers who punished us, and we respected them for it; all the more readily ought we to submit to the Father of spirits, and so earn life. Our human fathers were training us for a short life and according to their own lights; but he does it all for our own good, so that we may share his own holiness. Of course, any discipline is at the time a matter for grief, not joy; but later, in those who have undergone it, it bears fruit in peace and uprightness. So steady all weary hands and trembling knees and make your crooked paths straight; then the injured limb will not be maimed, it will get better instead.


                R. God gives us love –
                God loved us into existence –

                I don't have to get the
                    approval of others –
                    I am loved.

                God intends us to have joy
                    and hope in this world
                    for ourselves and others –

                As you think
                    so shall you be –

                It says in 12 steps –

                    "Made a list of all persons
                        we have harmed and
                        become willing to make
                        amends to them all"

                Starting with God, ourselves, others

                Self - Parenting –
                    you can't do what you
                    think you want and
                    abuse innocent others –

                Self - Forgiveness –
                    not proving the wrong
                    you did in right!

                Making amends to your
                    inner child –

                Not shutting out your
                    wounded insides! !


Luke 7: 36-50

One of the Pharisees invited him to a meal. When he arrived at the Pharisee’s house and took his place at table, suddenly a woman came in, who had a bad name in the town. She had heard he was dining with the Pharisee and had brought with her an alabaster jar of ointment. She waited behind him at his feet, weeping, and her tears fell on his feet, and she wiped them away with her hair; then she covered his feet with kisses and anointed them with the ointment. 

    When the Pharisee who had invited him saw this, he said to himself, ‘If this man were a prophet, he would know who this woman is and what sort of person it is who is touching him and what a bad name she has.’ Then Jesus took him up and said, ‘Simon, I have something to say to you.’ He replied, ‘Say on, Master.’ ‘There was once a creditor who had two men in his debt; one owed him five hundred denarii, the other fifty. They were unable to pay, so he let them both off. Which of them will love him more?’ Simon answered, ‘The one who was let off more, I suppose.’ Jesus said, ‘You are right.’ 

    Then he turned to the woman and said to Simon, ‘You see this woman? I came into your house, and you poured no water over my feet, but she has poured out her tears over my feet and wiped them away with her hair. You gave me no kiss, but she has been covering my feet with kisses ever since I came in. You did not anoint my head with oil, but she has anointed my feet with ointment. For this reason I tell you that her sins, many as they are, have been forgiven her, because she has shown such great love. It is someone who is forgiven little who shows little love.’ Then he said to her, ‘Your sins are forgiven.’ Those who were with him at table began to say to themselves, ‘Who is this man, that even forgives sins?’ But he said to the woman, ‘Your faith has saved you; go in peace.’

Luke 8: 1-47

Now it happened that after this he made his way through towns and villages preaching and proclaiming the good news of the kingdom of God. With him went the Twelve, as well as certain women who had been cured of evil spirits and ailments: Mary surnamed the Magdalene, from whom seven demons had gone out, Joanna the wife of Herod's steward Chuza, Susanna, and many others who provided for them out of their own resources.

With a large crowd gathering and people from every town finding their way to him, he told this parable: 

    ‘A sower went out to sow his seed. Now as he sowed, some fell on the edge of the path and was trampled on; and the birds of the air ate it up. Some seed fell on rock, and when it came up it withered away, having no moisture. Some seed fell in the middle of thorns and the thorns grew with it and choked it. And some seed fell into good soil and grew and produced its crop a hundredfold.’ Saying this he cried, ‘Anyone who has ears for listening should listen!’

His disciples asked him what this parable might mean, and he said, ‘To you is granted to understand the secrets of the kingdom of God; for the rest it remains in parables, so that 

    they may look but not perceive, 
   listen but not understand.

‘This, then, is what the parable means: the seed is the word of God. Those on the edge of the path are people who have heard it, and then the devil comes and carries away the word from their hearts in case they should believe and be saved. Those on the rock are people who, when they first hear it, welcome the word with joy. But these have no root; they believe for a while, and in time of trial they give up. As for the part that fell into thorns, this is people who have heard, but as they go on their way they are choked by the worries and riches and pleasures of life and never produce any crops. As for the part in the rich soil, this is people with a noble and generous heart who have heard the word and take it to themselves and yield a harvest through their perseverance.

‘No one lights a lamp to cover it with a bowl or to put it under a bed. No, it is put on a lamp–stand so that people may see the light when they come in. For nothing is hidden but it will be made clear, nothing secret but it will be made known and brought to light. So take care how you listen; anyone who has, will be given more; anyone who has not, will be deprived even of what he thinks he has.’

His mother and his brothers came looking for him, but they could not get to him because of the crowd. He was told, 'Your mother and brothers are standing outside and want to see you.' But he said in answer, 'My mother and my brothers are those who hear the word of God and put it into practice.'

It happened that one day he got into a boat with his disciples and said to them, 'Let us cross over to the other side of the lake.' So they set out, and as they sailed he fell asleep. When a squall of wind came down on the lake the boat started shipping water and they found themselves in danger. So they went to rouse him saying, 'Master! Master! We are lost!' Then he woke up and rebuked the wind and the rough water; and they subsided and it was calm again. He said to them, 'Where is your faith?' They were awestruck and astounded and said to one another, 'Who can this be, that gives orders even to winds and waves and they obey him?'

They came to land in the territory of the Gerasenes, which is opposite Galilee. He was stepping ashore when a man from the city who was possessed by devils came towards him; for a long time the man had been living with no clothes on, not in a house, but in the tombs.

    Catching sight of Jesus he gave a shout, fell at his feet and cried out at the top of his voice, 'What do you want with me, Jesus, son of the Most High God? I implore you, do not torture me.' For Jesus had been telling the unclean spirit to come out of the man. It had seized on him a great many times, and then they used to secure him with chains and fetters to restrain him, but he would always break the fastenings, and the devil would drive him out into the wilds. Jesus asked him, 'What is your name?' He said, 'Legion' — because many devils had gone into him. And these begged him not to order them to depart into the Abyss.

    Now there was a large herd of pigs feeding there on the mountain, and the devils begged him to let them go into these. So he gave them leave. The devils came out of the man and went into the pigs, and the herd charged down the cliff into the lake and was drowned.

    When the swineherds saw what had happened they ran off and told their story in the city and in the country round about; and the people went out to see what had happened. When they came to Jesus they found the man from whom the devils had gone out sitting at the feet of Jesus, wearing clothes and in his right mind; and they were afraid. Those who had witnessed it told them how the man who had been possessed came to be saved. The entire population of the Gerasene territory was in great fear and asked Jesus to leave them. So he got into the boat and went back.

    The man from whom the devils had gone out asked to be allowed to stay with him, but he sent him away saying, 'Go back home and report all that God has done for you.' So the man went off and proclaimed throughout the city all that Jesus had done for him.

On his return Jesus was welcomed by the crowd, for they were all there waiting for him. And suddenly there came a man named Jairus, who was president of the synagogue. He fell at Jesus' feet and pleaded with him to come to his house, because he had an only daughter about twelve years old, who was dying. And the crowds were almost stifling Jesus as he went.

Now there was a woman suffering from a haemorrhage for the past twelve years, whom no one had been able to cure. She came up behind him and touched the fringe of his cloak; and the haemorrhage stopped at that very moment. Jesus said, 'Who was it that touched me?' When they all denied it, Peter said, 'Master, it is the crowds round you, pushing.' But Jesus said, 'Somebody touched me. I felt that power had gone out from me.' Seeing herself discovered, the woman came forward trembling, and falling at his feet explained in front of all the people why she had touched him and how she had been cured at that very moment.


                R. Learning Forgiveness and
                    Self - forgiveness

                Changing our life, behavior
                    patterns that are hateful
                    and abuse to God and
                    others –
                    not doing more 24 / 7

                LYING TO ourselves

                Denial - a way of sickness to life.


                R. Forgiving ourselves and others –

                    Admitting our sins and offenses
                        against others and ourselves –

                Healing the past –

                Not carrying it on our backs in
                    every action

                Families raising children
                    that are full of anger
                    hurt the children –

                Hurt and anger is passed
                    down – generation
                    after generation –
                    like incest and abuse –
                    hatred and rage.

                Failures in my life don't
                    determine my self-esteem –

                I am truly valuable –
                    God made me this way!

                I don't have to earn it –

                You don't have to compete
                    and compare yourselves
                    to others –

                If your inner child is
                    wounded it needs
                    healing –
                    not acting-out bad
                    behavior patterns on
                    innocent others –

                Tell the truth about yourself
                    and pray for healing –
                    Make amends for your
                    sins toward God, others
                    and yourself –

                Don't be addicted to working
                    up others, chaos, confusion,
                    stirring the pot, excitement –
                    live simply doing good to
                    God and all men –

                Be humble –

                Humility is truth –

                You don't need attention
                    to control things with
                    surprises and drama –

                Every person is uniquely
                    created by God and
                    has talent and value
                    to work together in
                    strength as one –

                Love your brothers –
                    they are not enemies –

                Commit yourself to bringing
                    joy and hope to others –
                    not hatred, division,
                    chaos, confusion,

                As you think
                    So shall you be

                Self - Parenting –

                Wounded inner child –

                Mary: I appear, I appear, I appear.


October 30, 2015
























                October 30, 2015

                Denial - patterned behavior keeping on, the same junk – over and over again

Given September 28, 2014


John 14: 6

Jesus said: I am the Way; I am Truth and Life. 
    No one can come to the Father 
        except through me. 


Genesis 1: 26-27

God said, ‘Let us make man in our own image, in the likeness of ourselves, and let them be masters of the fish of the sea, the birds of heaven, the cattle, all the wild animals and all the creatures that creep along the ground.’

God created man in the image of himself,
    in the image of God he created him,
    male and female he created them.


                R. I was awaken by Jesus who said

                Jesus: Denial to a trauma in your life –

                R. A person when they have a
                trauma in a relationship or
                a trauma of abuse may have
                to be in denial (for a little while)
                until they face the truth about what
                happened. They cannot
                continue to be shut down
                and live in denial.

                    Living in the truth, working
                through relationships in truth,
                helps us to live and know
                the truth about a situation.

                    In Alcoholics Anonymous a
                whole family can deny the
                alcoholic influences and behaviors.
                There is a dance they may
                do, to cover up the dysfunction
                that hurts every member –
                In an alcoholic family, there are players
                in the family. It is a Merry-Go-Round
                called Denial. There is a user, an enabler,
                a hero child, usually a scape-goat
                and sometimes a lost child in families that
                are hurt by addiction, dysfunction.
                This dysfunctional dance severely hurts normal
                spontaneity – working out problems
                and conflicts in truth, in justice.
                Solving problems and living
                in healthy loving relationships –
                with commitment, honesty, trust,
                understanding feelings, talking about
                issues is severely abnormal in
                dysfunctional families.

                There is a merry-go-round on
                the front of a brochure used
                in alcoholic dysfunction.
                Even if there is not an active alcoholic
                there can be a dry alcoholic situation
                where these dysfunctional behaviors
                are the abnormal rule children are
                taught and forced to live by. In
                the Merry-go-Round called Denial
                once again there is the user (or dry drunk)
                an enabler, a hero child, a scapegoat child,
                and sometimes a lost child.

                    Trauma that can be stuffed
                from the past and in which a person, can
                be left frozen, can lock healthy relationships –
                This trauma can be from the death of a
                parent, a divorce, a person abused.
                It may take denial to live with the
                shock in the beginning –
                that a person, cannot cover up,
                that leaves them frozen, without
                consequences to family and
                relationships. A person, in order to live
                in truth, has to face the
                truth about the trauma
                in someway and not be
                shut down.

                    Relationships must be
                worked through. If a person
                never validates what was
                abusive and keeps abusing others –
                it can be the cycle of
                abuse they implement – as an addiction.
                When pain from unresolved
                relationships come up –
                they can live in denial and
                the pain keeps coming up
                while the inner self is seeking
                resolution from trauma, abuse,
                denial, to live a normal life.

                A healthy person lives
                in the moment, in truth,
                in spontaneity, in love,
                relating to others outside the
                family, trusting others, solving
                problems, talking out problems,
                and having conflict skills
                necessary to solve every day issues –

                A person in denial can run
                from what they need to face
                in normal relationships
                and never solve normal
                problems in trusting others,
                in loving others, in commitment,
                in relationships to others.

                    God made covenants with
                men – Commitment! We
                know God never leaves us
                orphaned –

                A person living in denial is
                afraid –
                they keep pushing down the
                truth and keep denying
                what they need to face.
                Relationships with others
                that were traumatic
                are to be dealt with,
                brought to light, or a
                person may never really,
                live life in the moment –
                reacting and loving and trusting
                as they should –

                Song: Live This Day

                R. A person can be in denial
                about anything that makes
                them feel threatened, insecure,
                vulnerable –

                    A person can minimize
                what happened and the
                inner child keeps trying
                to settle the conflict, depriving
                them of spontaneity and life –

                    Where a short period of denial
                after the trauma may be
                necessary, a person
                cannot live in denial of
                relationships that were
                traumatic and never really
                worked through in truth.

                    Trauma not resolved can
                freeze the emotions, one's
                ability to live in the moment
                and have joy, because they do
                not respond spontaneously
                as they should.

                    Trauma, must be recognized
                for what it is.

                    If one person hits another
                person in the face there are
                wounds, but if a person
                is emotionally abused there
                are unseen wounds that
                can be just as great or worse. 


                R. We see Christ suffered physical
                wounds and went through
                crucifixion, martyrdom,
                but Mary went through the
                suffering in her heart or
                "white martyrdom" her
                anguish and suffering was so great.

                    When we identify with Jesus
                in His sacrifice for our sins –
                we see Jesus making reparation
                for our sins. Mary told us at
                Fatima we were to make reparation
                to God for the offenses against
                her heart and Jesus' Heart.

                    Mary didn't run with pain –
                    Mary, the perfect handmaid of the Lord –
                    endured the pain

                We pray the 7 sorrows in the
                    Shepherds of Christ Prayers Jesus
                    told us to pray –

                Mary trusted –
                Mary was committed to her vocation –
                Mary's Heart was pure –
                Mary loved the Father's will –

                Mary knew from the Prophesy
                    of Simeon - she would
                    suffer –

                Mary accepted this even with
                    Jesus being a baby –
                    Mary sacrificed for
                    our sins also –

Mary's Message
from the Rosary of August 27, 1996

Mary:  I stood beneath the cross of my Son, and my Heart was in such pain for I saw Him before my eyes. I saw Him covered with blood. I saw Him die. My Heart, my children, my Heart to watch my Son, but my Heart, my Heart, how I suffered for my little children of the world that give in to this world and give up the love of my Son. O my little children of light, I give you this message. Carry this light into the darkness for your Mother Mary, for I stood beneath the cross and I cried. I cried for the little ones. I cried for the young ones, the ones that do not care and will lose their souls. How do I make you see for you will not listen to me? What can I do? I come. I appear. I beg. I plead. I give you these gifts from my Son, and you reject me. I do not deliver messages very often anymore for I have been ignored. The message is the same. You do not read the messages I have given to you. Please help me. Help the little children. I appear. I appear. I appear, and I am ignored. I stood beneath the cross, and I cried. I cried, and my Heart was in such anguish for my little children, for I am searching for them this day as I searched for the Child Jesus. Please, please help me. I cannot hold back the hand of my Son any longer. I am Mary, your Mother. I ask you to help my children. You are my children of light.

end of Mary's Message


                R. For example there is pain for children, where
                    parents fought or divorced or separated.

                I listened to a few moments of
                    a Christian tape with children
                    whose parents divorced.

                They cried how they wanted their
                    parents to get along
                    and they did at one time –
                    the parents at one time were
                    loving each other, the children said.
                    Then the children said they hated
                    each other, or separated, remarried
                    and the children suffered and still
                    suffer –

                Validating their hurt feelings
                    from this is truth and
                    helps children work through 
                    this trauma of
                    separation and divorce –

                Telling our children we are
                    sorry for wrong behavior,
                    hurt behavior, trauma,
                    is facing the truth
                    and helps the children to not
                    live in denial of what was a "train
                    wreck" in their lives –

                    Validating the truth of hurts
                    children suffered, helps them
                    work through the trauma of
                    divorce, of wrongs done to
                    them, of hurts they may have
                    endured because of wrong behavior
                    of parents (selfishness, anger, busyness,
                    neglect, not teaching the children what
                    they needed to learn about relationship,
                    problem solving, admitting what was
                    wrong, asking for forgiveness, and
                    giving forgiveness to others)

                In Alcoholics Anonymous,
                    Children of Alcoholics,
                    Alanon –
                    People must work the steps –
                    they tell the truth –
                    they work with others who
                    support and love them
                    despite the trauma


                Excerpt from February 24, 2014

                Jesus: The devil doesn't rest, he wants your
                soul, he reads you and knows your
                weaknesses and he tries to tempt
                you so you are sad and focused on

                Like the surprise of wind and hail,
                the devil comes and wants you
                caught in his design.

                How can you escape the weather –
                You can't.
                You cannot escape satan who
                    wants to stop you, but
                    some give into him –

                    Denying or minimizing what has hurt you
                in the past, is what takes that freedom you
                want to feel from you.

                    Getting in touch with anger over years
                in which you feel robbed of life is necessary
                if you are to be free and recover from
                the dysfunctional, survival behaviors
                practiced in your lives.

                    What zaps your energy in living
                under the false way you may have told
                yourself about the past.

                    All of you, if you honestly look at
                the past, in this journey of growing to
                be like Jesus had to get over spiritual
                pride telling yourselves you were perfect.
                In the life of a dysfunctional person
                one can be an enabler for so many years
                and hurt so many in the process of
                seeing yourself as perfect and others
                as the sinners or the "poor guy" in need
                of our rescuing.

                    Children of dysfunctional homes can be
                harmed until they seek recovery and embrace
                the truth about how imperfect relationships
                were in their homes.

                    A person must ask for forgiveness
                and give forgiveness to others – those
                who were stuck in enabling never
                saw themselves except as perfect and
                the merry-go-round called denial
                played their song life-long until
                they wanted the truth and sought recovery.

                The 12 steps of Alcoholic Anonymous and


                    Here are the steps we took, which are suggested as a program of recovery:

                    1.  We admitted we were powerless over alcohol,
                            that our lives had become unmanageable.

                    2.  Came to believe that a Power greater than
                            ourselves could restore us to sanity.

                    3.  Made a decision to turn our will and our lives
                            over to the care of God as we understood Him.

                    4.  Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.

                    5.  Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human
                            being the exact nature of our wrongs.

                    6.  Were entirely ready to have God remove all
                            these defects of character.

                    7.  Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.

                    8.  Made a list of all persons we had harmed,
                            and became willing to make amends to them all.

                    9.  Made direct amends to such people wherever possible,
                            except when to do so would injure them or others.

                    10.  Continued to take personal inventory and when we
                            were wrong promptly admitted it.

                    11.  Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our
                            conscious contact with God as we understood Him,
                            praying only for knowledge of His will for us and
                            the power to carry that out.

                    12.  Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps,
                            we tried to carry this message to alcoholics,
                            and to practice these principles in all our affairs.



                        CHILDREN OF ALCOHOLICS:   These are the characteristics we seem to have in common
                                                                            due to having been brought up in an alcoholic household:

                        1. We became isolated and afraid of people and authority figures.
                        2. We became approval seekers and lost our identity in the process.
                        3. We either become alcoholics, marry them or both or find another
                            compulsive personality such as a workaholic to fulfill our sick
                        4. We are frightened by angry people and any personal criticism.
                        5. We live life from the viewpoint of helping and seeking victims,
                            and are attracted by that weakness in our love and friendship
                        6. We have an overdeveloped sense of responsibility, and it is easier
                            for us to be concerned with others rather than ourselves.
                            This enables us not to look closely at our faults, etc.
                        7. We get guilt feelings when we stand up for ourselves instead we
                            give in to others.
                        8. We become addicted to excitement.
                        9. We confuse love with pity and tend to "love" people we can pity and rescue.
                      10. We have stuffed back our feelings from our traumatic childhoods and have
                            lost the ability to feel or express our feelings. It hurts so much (denial).
                      11. We judge ourselves harshly and have a very low sense of self-esteem,
                            sometimes compensated for by trying to appear superior.
                      12. We are dependent personalities who are terrified of abandonment.
                            We will do anything to hold onto a relationship in order not to experience
                            the pain of abandonment. We are conditioned to these types of relationships.
                      13. Alcoholism is a family disease and we became para-alcoholics.
                            We took on the characteristics of that disease even though
                            we did not pick up the drink.
                      14. Para-alcoholics are reactors rather than actors.



                        1. I feel comfortable and involved with people and authority figures.
                        2. I have a strong identity and give myself approval.
                        3. I accept and use personal criticism in a positive way.
                        4. I am becoming free from trying to fulfill my sick abandonment need.
                        5. As I face my own victim role, I am attracted by strengths and understand
                            weaknesses in my love and friendship relationships.
                        6. I am getting well through loving and focusing on myself.
                        7. It feels great to stand up for myself.
                        8. I enjoy peaceful serenity.
                        9. I love people who love and take care of themselves.
                      10. I am free to feel and express my feelings even when painful.
                      11. I have a healthy sense of self-esteem.
                      12. I am freed from the fear of abandonment in relationships as I rely
                            more and more on my Higher Power.
                      13. Through the ACA group, I examine and release para-alcoholic behaviors
                            I learned while living with the family disease of alcoholism.
                      14. I am an actor in this world.



                        1. We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness.
                        2. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.
                        3. We will comprehend the word serenity, and we will know peace.
                        4. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see
                            how our experience can benefit others.
                        5. That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear.
                        6. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows.
                        7. Self-seeking will slip away.
                        8. Our whole attitude and outlook will change.
                        9. Fear of people and economic insecurity will leave us.
                      10. We will know intuitively how to handle situations that used to baffle us.
                      11. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.


                Jesus: A person can be numb from hiding
                    the truth. To try to protect oneself
                    from past pain and grief, a person
                    can learn survival tactics to
                    turn off feelings, but they need
                    to want to know how numb
                    they have become to live and
                    respond in the moment to the
                    events around them.  


From a Lenten Homily, March 24, 2000

Live in the Moment

    Today’s Gospel in its story certainly points ahead to Jesus in His Passion and death. And as we read passages such as this during the Lenten season, we are reminded once again that the Church in her Liturgy of the Word gives us an opportunity to undergo a purification, an ever deepening cleansing of ourselves so that we may be a more fit instrument for receiving the great graces which are to be given to us at the time of the Resurrection memorial on Easter. And so all in all, Lent is a time of purification to prepare us for ever-greater gifts of the Lord. It’s a time of self-discipline, a time to renew our efforts to be self-disciplined in the service of the Lord. Self-discipline is an aspect of purification. And I suggest that one of the most difficult acts of self-discipline in the spiritual journey is to concentrate on the present moment. We have a very strong tendency to disregard the importance of the present moment by focusing in a wrong way on the past or in a wrong way on the future. There are proper occasions for thinking of the past and the future. For example, we have to learn from the past and we have to prepare for the future, but our great emphasis has to be upon the present. There is a Latin axiom which says, age quod agis, age quod agis, which means: do what you are doing, concentrate on the present. And of course we are familiar with that term in the history of spirituality: the sacrament of the present moment. And so the discipline of Lent certainly encourages us to include in a deeper self-discipline a greater determination to get as much as we can out of the present moment. People with a terminal illness have an opportunity as they prepare for death for increased prayer, contrition, love of God. However, some are taken very, very quickly. But for those who have the opportunity of knowing with some certainty the time of their death, I’m sure as they look back on their lives, they are saddened by the many times they did not use time and opportunities for the service of the Lord properly, and are overjoyed at those times in which they did use the present opportunity properly. A great means we have of living in the present properly is a greater focus upon our Lord. For if I have that awareness of the fact I am united with Jesus here and now, why should I be concerned so much about the future or the past? Yes, a great help in living in the present and deriving all the good we can from it for ourselves and others is an ever greater focus upon Jesus, because the more I focus upon Jesus and the more I live with Him in the present moment, the more I am satisfied with the present moment. And so let us in our Lenten activity resolve to grow in that self-discipline - which is very difficult at times - to really live in the presence with the fullness of our being as much as is possible, with the help of God’s grace. Now is the day of salvation. Now is the day of salvation.

end of Father Carter's homily


                Song: Live This Day

                Jesus: Alanon focuses on
                    "One day at a time".

                Satan comes and wants a person
                    to be overwhelmed with
                    the future and tries to
                    tempt them to flee to be
                    out of a situation God wills
                    for their lives.

                Satan's pressure to overwhelm a
                    person and try to get them
                    to flee their vocation, can
                    be constant as he presses
                    and presses on a person
                    to act.

                Without the focus being God and
                    God's will and right reasoning
                    the person is lost, when satan
                    uses faulty reasoning, pressing
                    the person to engage in run-on
                    thinking and they give in.

                Faith is most important now –

                Love of God, others and oneself, but
                    satan gets in, in pride (a
                    person thinking they do no wrong).
                    With this attitude of pride, they
                    will have nothing to do with themselves
                    ever being wrong, so they are stuck
                    serving a false god, the god is
                    their own infallibility.

                Meantime satan moves in as their
                    best friend, puffing their ego.
                    Instead of honestly using right
                    reasoning to access the situation
                    their goal is being right at all costs –
                    even when that is at odds with
                    their vocation and is not working.
                    What is wrong is what they are
                    being told by satan about the facts.

                R. Discernment is important.
                    Ideas come from the Holy Spirit.
                    Ideas come from the devil.
                    Ideas come from oneself.

                Ideas from the devil will tear us
                    apart if we stay stuck
                    in them and they will
                    be opposed to God's will.

                Satan wants you to act opposed
                    to God's will.

                Jesus: Satan is a roaring lion looking for
                    someone to devour.

                Satan tells the person they are
                    all that counts and they become
                    selfish and caved in –

                    they don't see the big picture and
                        others involved –
                        reasoning is distorted –

                Satan plays the blame game and
                    the person entertaining satan
                    becomes divided with those
                    that it is God's will they
                    work with.

                What a mess for the prideful
                    person seeking to prove
                    they are right when they
                    are indeed, wrong.

                Satan's way is trying to prove right is wrong
                    and wrong is right.

                A person who is numb doesn't even
                    recognize they are hurting,
                    they can strike out at others,
                    and then blame others when
                    they are mean and now
                    filled with unhappiness,
                    sadness and anger.

                Song: Why Do We Hurt the Ones we Love

                Jesus: A person who is prideful and
                    listens to satan – will obey
                    satan before those in authority
                    over them.

                It is My will you obey just authority
                    sent from God over you –
                    when you oppose those I send
                    for your own will opposed to
                    My will – you are obeying
                    satan and disobeying God
                    so you have trouble due to
                    your pride and bad choices.

                Not trusting those I send, means
                    you trust yourself and
                    those who I don't send.

                A person who is numb doesn't
                    want to feel, say for example,
                    from past hurtful relationships.

                So they close down, shut down
                    and there is not spontaneous
                    response to the moment –
                    they are in a state of what
                    can be almost –
                    permanent shut-down or
                    numbness –

                People who are numb are afraid
                    of what they would do if
                    they faced the truth of
                    what caused the pain.

                When asked about it – they
                    can look elsewhere and
                    if they say something
                    about it – they do not feel –
                    when they are numb.

                One must let go of denial to
                    get in touch with feelings
                    from the past.

                R. Step 4 says you make a
                    fearless moral inventory
                    of yourselves!

                Jesus: You must examine messages you
                    have from how to act in
                    relationships from past
                    parental training.

                Try to understand how dysfunction
                    past on to you - could
                    also have been taught to others.

                TRUSTWORTHY –
                    to grow in relationships –
                    you must trust

                These situations not addressed
                    force a situation in which
                    one needs healing.

                First to thine own self be

                Dysfunctional homes teach
                    people not to trust others.

                How can you spiritually mature with
                    this attitude?

                Love your life –
                Live your life –
                Seek life –
                Have courage to change!


                Satan wants hatred, chaos and
                    anger in your hearts –

                Satan is the grand deceiver.

                I am the way, the truth and
                    the life.

                Because of relationships in the past,
                    a person who is shut-down
                    can be numb and untrusting.
                    They were disappointed by people
                    in relationships who should have
                    loved them and do not want
                    any more pain – so they can
                    become numb and shut down.

                They are then lonely because you
                    were created to love –
                    to work with each other
                    in love – to trust those I
                    put in your lives.

                Some are numb, frozen and
                    afraid, shut-down and
                    pompous to see themselves
                    perfect and always right.

                They can trust those who they
                    should not trust and
                    do not trust those they could.

                Have relationships in your lives
                    been bad – so you have
                    survival tactics to never
                    get close or trust anyone.

                Relationships – instead of learning
                    how to love –
                    can be completely closed.

                How were you taught about
                    relationships as a child,
                    were some bad and

                For every problem there is a solution.
                    Believe it – go to God –
                    Listen to God –
                    Don't ask in impulsive ways
                        that give relief instantly,
                        but make life-long problems.

                Seek to do God's will.

                Know God is always there and
                    believe this –
                    in the silence - wait for
                    His timing –
                    Don't try to force a solution
                        for relief –
                        (a wrong solution)

                Pray for the problem – pray to
                    the Holy Spirit, believe God will help –

                Trust in God

                Pray in Church, at least in
                    quiet –
                    be quiet in your mind!

                Open the Blue Books –

                Pray the Prayer for Union with Jesus

                A person at peace, may have
                    turmoil, but if you go
                    deep enough there is
                    peace and calm.

                Think happy thoughts, children
                    at play, parents and families
                    loving one another –
                    don't give into hateful
                    dark, stagnant thoughts
                    don't give into
                    thoughts with no where to go but
                        down –
                    don't give into fear –
                        panic –
                        satan tricks people to act
                            in panic 


Isaiah 26: 3

This is the plan decreed: you will guarantee peace, the peace entrusted to you.


                Jesus: Accept God's will; seek God's will,
                    act according to God's will.

                Pray with positive thoughts.

                Empty your mind of negative
                    thoughts, hates,
                    fears, regrets –

                Who is in charge of your thoughts –

                Satan wants you fearful dependent
                    on him.

                How are your habits of thinking
                    positive thoughts?

                How are your fears?

                Did you ever improve a situation
                    acting in fear?

                In helping others, I can help

                The wife of the alcoholic can
                    be sicker than the one

                How were you taught to work
                    through problems?

                Keep it Simple!

                Easy Does it!

                Let Go and Let God!

                Confusion is from satan.

                Let go of stubborn
                    self - will

                When a person has lived in fear and
                    has developed survival tactics –
                    all they need is a life threatening
                    situation for their old ways
                    of handling things to surface.

                They can become numb –
                    shut down –
                    and forget I am the source
                    of all hope.

                They become locked in a
                    vault of their own
                    misery from not seeking
                    God's solution, but acting
                    in their paralyzing fear.

                R. If my mom died when I was little,
                I must learn trust in God regards
                sickness or death or I am
                vulnerable to bad habits of
                behavior regarding sickness
                and death.

                    Fear and running –             


                September 28, 2014 continues

                R. On October 5, 1992 – 22 years ago
                I asked God if He wrote a book
                    what would He say –

                He said He would use my

22 Years Ago

October 5, 1992 - 3:30am

R. Dear Jesus, Give me Your hand to write this book for you. I am your servant. I want to be Your hand to this world. If you, Lord Jesus, would write a book, what would you say?

Jesus:   My dear children,

   Today I come to deliver a message to each of you. I want to tell you of each person's dignity, of their beauty and their self-worth. Each child is, oh, so uniquely precious to My Most Sacred Heart. Each child is full of the talents I have given to them. Each person is divinely created by God and given all these gifts to be happy and love one another.

   The problem comes when you feel you will be left out. That you will be left by another who has trodden on you and will do it again. I see you all as My most precious children. I watch your every move and know all pain and anguish in your heart. My Heart aches, you have insecure feelings about yourself. I came to this earth I died for you. I felt cold, hungry, lonely on this earth. You need not worry that no one knows the pain and anguish in your heart. God created you with such special gifts and talents. It is important for you to raise above your wound and forgive those who hurt you.

   You need only turn your will and your life over to Me and I will guide you in all your ways. I have all the Power. Many are not of My ways. The key to life is to recognize your faults, but still know you are this precious gift of My Father a gift to this world. This world is in need of your strength. Running yourself down, blaming others hurting them can cause you misery and pain. At this very moment, you are the precious creation of God!! You must operate with Me in your heart.

   You need not run yourself down. I am with you every day guiding your ways, lest your foot stumble and you lose your way. You will not wander far from your path if every day you keep bringing your focus back to Me. If you dare let Me be at the helm, if you dare to really let Me run your life, I will do with you such wonders that you yourself would be amazed. But you will know with such ease when you did these things that you did not do them alone. You will know My power, moving the mountain, My power chipping at the stone, My power working on your hardest problem and you will be set free.

   Oh yes, you will be set free and know a serenity that only comes from letting go and letting Me run your life. To you, My child, I have given all that is good. I made you My holy soldier, My warrior in a world of pain and hatred. You are the light that shines in the darkness, you are the coat to a cold child, you are the smile that warms a troubled and lonely heart. You are the comfort for everyone you meet, because My most precious Heart powers you, smiles through you, understands and loves through you.

   Love your fellows for Me. There are so many troubled hearts that need to know My love. I can love through you if you let Me, I can be their friend through you if you let Me. I am He who comforts you and you are he who comforts them. My power is endless, it never runs out, there is not a power failure EVER. In your darkest hour, My light shines in the darkness and I say to you, "Oh blessed of My Father, look at yourself with awe, you are My creation, you are indeed so precious to Me, you are My light to this world, you are My hands and My feet and most of all My Heart."

   Oh, you are My loving Heart, to those who are bowed down, to those who are lost in the darkness, you carry My smile and wear My armor in a world that is trying to tear one another down with hate and ugliness. There is gentleness, there is love, there is hope in you, if you open yourself up to Me. Be My knight to the world, wear My armor. I am your God and I will protect you from the darkness. Plug into My power, be not afraid, I go before you always and you can rest in My arms when you feel weary. You can put your head in My lap and weep, you will know, I am truly with you and you are My light to this world. I created you so special - to cast out fear in the darkness, to clothe the naked, to give hope to the oppressed, to be as I live in you and love through you and you are My smile and I touch My hurting ones through your love.

You are he who loves this world. You must stay plugged into My power-source This world is hungry for My love. It needs My love, I give to them through you. I am your God and I made you as a gift to the world. You are filled.

Focus on Me and your life will be abundant and whole, joy in suffering, freedom but you can take the knocks because you will know you do not go it alone, but with Me. I love you My precious child.

end of excerpt


                Excerpt from August 15, 2010

      What we do to others, we do to Jesus,

            The 12 steps have helped
            many whose lives have
            become unmanageable because
            of dysfunction due to
            pain and addiction to
            something that relieves that pain.

            Addiction can be to substance,
                drugs that alter a person's
                mind or it can be
                addiction to control
                addiction to abuse
                addiction to persecution
                addiction to work
                addiction to unavailability
                addiction to rage
                addiction to excitement

          When one rules and they are
                addicted they can fall
                into denial
                and the Merry-Go-Round
                called denial keeps it in
                place  — one person is the addicted
                person and another person the enabler keeps
                the merry-go-round going  —

                The addicted person can be
            tolerated and the enabler can
            make every body else live by
            dysfunctional rules  — that enables
            the person to continue
            their addiction  —

                The days go by while
            those in a dysfunctional
            family are robbed of life
            while one forces their rules
            on the other members of
            the family so they can numb
            their pain with their addiction  —

                Here are the 12 steps
            of many who have worked
            through addiction  — after
            their lives became unmanageable
            because of their dysfunction
            and their addiction  —

                    end of excerpt


                September 28, 2014 continues

                R. What helps a person have
                sanity is that one validates
                what has happened and you
                work through the disturbing
                events, but a person in
                denial forces others to put
                up with their disassociated
                behavior –

                    Over and over again a
                trauma that is not validated
                because they do not live in
                reality and live in denial!

                    Validation and working
                through issues keeps people

                    A person who can do what
                ever they want contrary to
                what they should and refuses
                to be accountable and
                responsible for their wrong
                behavior –
                damages the whole family with
                the denial and lack of truth
                they inflict in hurting others
                by division and relationships
                that allow hurts continually
                to the family –

                    The man or woman in
                denial – disassociates
                themselves from the truth –
                they have frozen themselves
                to normal, spontaneous
                reactions to events and problems
                because of their own
                denial to come out of their
                frozen trauma –

                    Life is to be lived

                    Relationships to be experienced
                        according to God's will –

                    Solving conflicts and
                        working on deeper
                        union –
                        deeper oneness

                A person frozen in denial –
                    is disassociated from the truth –
                    a mummy going through
                        motions –
                    that is frozen and doesn't

                    And so it is impossible
                        working in sensitivity
                        with anyone frozen
                        in denial and forcing
                        others to live with their control
                        and dysfunction –

                    Unity is the purpose of the
                Shepherds of Christ Movement

                    Teaching people to be in
                one mind and one heart –

                Living in reality –
                Living in the truth –
                Living in spontaneity in
                the moment –

                A person who suffered trauma
                and in denial are pretending
                they are not hurt – when
                in fact they were hurt
                very badly –

                    Unresolved trauma creates
                big problems in people's
                every day lives such as

                Addictive behavior –
                    to work, to drugs, to abuse –
                    all in an attempt to push the
                    emotions and pain out of the
                    way –

                    The inner child wants to
                        resolve the conflict –
                        the child is stifled
                        and forced not to feel –
                        not to talk –
                        not to trust
                        REALLY not to live
                        in the moment –

                Running from conflict –
                    Not solving it as it should
                        be solved –
                        not developing conflict skills
                        in relationships

                Avoiding feeling in life

                Not believing in themselves –
                    darkness, seeing themselves
                    as unworthy and
                    compensating by running down
                    others and
                    trying to validate themselves
                        as okay
                    Seeing darkness inside
                    themselves, failure –
                    not having goals in
                    relationships –
                    hiding behind a dark mask

                They have black and white thinking –
                    they do not see that things
                    are gray. They see things
                    as one extreme or the other.
                    Even when it hurts themselves
                    to see it in this extreme way –
                    one way or the other
                    all black or all white.

                They can indulge in love/hate relationships
                    hurting those who have loved them,
                    who have trusted them,
                    even when the person gave them
                    another chance after they were
                    so untrustworthy.


Romans 8: 5-9

Those who are living by their natural inclinations have their minds on the things human nature desires; those who live in the Spirit have their minds on spiritual things. And human nature has nothing to look forward to but death, while the Spirit looks forward to life and peace, because the outlook of disordered human nature is opposed to God, since it does not submit to God's Law, and indeed it cannot, and those who live by their natural inclinations can never be pleasing to God. You, however, live not by your natural inclinations, but by the Spirit, since the Spirit of God has made a home in you. Indeed, anyone who does not have the Spirit of Christ does not belong to him.


                R. People that are in denial and
                    operating in this severe dysfunction
                    can experience disassociation –
                    losing time – missing time, spacing out
                    they can act like two different people
                    depending on where they are
                    and what is going on inside of them
                    (experiencing denial, suppressing
                    pain, using addictions to deal with it, etc.)

                They can blame themselves, have
                    deep hidden guilt and cover up the
                    immense war going on inside of them
                    in darkness.

                Many who have these issues in relationships
                    with others outside the family,
                    can have inappropriate attachment
                    to mother or father figures – 

               They can have deep depression
                    because of the disassociation
                    with themselves and their
                    own life. They therefore
                    can compensate by their need
                    to rescue others and try to live
                    through others, not themselves.
                    They can see themselves in
                    darkness and failure. They
                    can try to control situations
                    by passive-aggressive measures,
                    attacking others through passive
                    ways in order to punish and hurt
                    others because of their own failure
                    to live, really live life.
                    They can have a fear of people,
                    a fear of trusting anyone outside their family.                   

              They can have suppressed anger.

              Running from your trauma
                    will not make you feel
                    better –

              Face your trauma for life!


Serenity Prayer

God grant me the Serenity
to accept the things I cannot change...
Courage to change the things I can
and Wisdom to know the difference.


                Sing: Take Lord Receive



Take, Lord, and receive all my liberty, my memory, 
my understanding, and my entire will, all that I have 
and possess. Thou hast given all to me. To Thee, O 
Lord, I return it. All is Thine, dispose of it wholly 
according to Thy will. Give me Thy love and Thy 
grace, for this is sufficient for me.


        Soul of Christ

Soul of Christ, sanctify me
Body of Christ, save me
Blood of Christ, inebriate me
Water from the side of Christ wash me
Passion of Christ, strengthen me
O good Jesus, hear me
Within Thy wounds hide me
Permit me not to be separated from Thee
From the wicked foe defend me
at the hour of my death call me
and bid me come to Thee
That with Thy saints I may praise Thee
For ever and ever. Amen.


From The Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius
    by Louis J. Puhl, S.J. p. 12

                        23. FIRST PRINCIPLE AND FOUNDATION

                            Man is created to praise, reverence and serve God 
                        our Lord, and by this means to save his soul.


From The Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius
    by Louis J. Puhl, S.J.

21.                     SPIRITUAL EXERCISES

    Which have as their purpose the conquest of self
    and the regulation of one's life in such a way that
    no decision is made under the influence of any
    inordinate attachment

                end of September 28, 2014


                Given August 1, 2013

                Jesus: People grow up in family systems
                    where rules are taught,
                    through practice.

                If the rules are dysfunctional,
                    a child, a baby learned these
                    rules from their first breathe.
                    Not only this, family relatives
                    helped enforce these rules
                    many times –
                    What may be very abnormal
                        was taught as normal,
                        accepted, and practiced
                        in the dysfunctional home.

                When one leaves a place where
                    they learned survival tactics
                    at home, where there was
                    favorite children, punishment,
                    a merry-go-round called
                    denial where needs may not
                    have been met for
                    support of one's self-esteem
                    and worth –

                A person in an attempt to stay safe –
                    long after the dysfunctional family
                    in denial is gone – may think
                    relationships with others,
                    trusting others,
                    opening up to be united to others,
                    is unsafe.

                A person can stay locked up in
                    a survival mode – they create
                    now to live in the familiar
                    that once depraved them of
                    the needed emotional support.

                So they can act-out their old behavior
                    patterns to create the familiar
                    life they once knew that was
                    destructive to building unity
                    and love and trust.

                It can be a place of doing little
                    or no work of building My Kingdom,
                    as the person, hides their
                    weaknesses and forces others
                    to live their system which
                    is dysfunctional.

                I have called you to grow more and more
                    in My image and likeness.

                From the time of Adam and Eve – men
                    have lived with a wounded
                    human nature.

                Woe to the man and those who try
                    to interact with him who
                    grew up in great dysfunction
                    and is in denial of the bad
                    patterned behavior they
                    engage in forcing others to
                    live as if they were perfect –
                    when in fact they seek the
                    familiar, which is dysfunction,
                    and resist change because it is
                    hard to change bad habits from
                    generations past – so they use any
                    means to force their way on others.

                    Partners in marriages cannot barely
                    tolerate the dysfunction forced
                    on them, sometimes, and for their own
                    safety can be forced to leave.

                You were created to grow out of
                    dysfunction – to change your
                    bad behaviors, not to force
                    others to put up with your
                    childish, selfish, isolated

                I have called this Movement to
                    lead into the era of Peace
                    Mary promised at Fatima –
                    Mary is the New Eve –
                    I am the New Adam –

                Only in seeking the goal of
                    conversion and living as a
                    Christian - more and more in
                    My image and likeness will
                    men unite and bring forth
                    fruit for My Kingdom.

                When people fight in churches,
                    families, institutions so
                    all want their own way and
                    act-out their dysfunction
                    people cannot grow –
                    they serve satan –
                    and what comes in is
                    pandemonium where satan
                    rules through willful
                    disobedience, lack of
                    order and
                    soon the place destroys
                    itself in some form –

                Growth is nil –

                Satan is operating in willfulness and
                    the problems are self
                    inflected letting satan control.

                Controlling against authority
                    that is just authority –
                    forcing dominion from
                    those under authority
                    are working against
                    what God is calling you
                    to do.

                I work in order –

                The Church is ordered –
                The angels ordered –
                The animals ordered –
                The universe ordered –
                The life in the ocean ordered –

                Then man in his pride because
                    of pompousness –
                    comes in and wants to inflict
                    his ways on others so he
                    doesn't have to change.

                You will bring down blessings
                    when you obey just authority –
                    satan wants you to oppose just
                    authority and
                    to work in opposition to the
                    Father's plan


Romans 8:5-9

Those who are living by their natural inclinations have their minds on the things human nature desires; those who live in the Spirit have their minds on spiritual things. And human nature has nothing to look forward to but death, while the Spirit looks forward to life and peace, because the outlook of disordered human nature is opposed to God, since it does not submit to God's Law, and indeed it cannot, and those who live by their natural inclinations can never be pleasing to God. You, however, live not by your natural inclinations, but by the Spirit, since the Spirit of God has made a home in you. Indeed, anyone who does not have the Spirit of Christ does not belong to him.

        end of August 1, 2013


                Second Message - Given January 14, 2008

        Evil                        Good

        Power                    Being under God


       Revenge                 Living by God's will

        What can bring power

        Power for men over others does not
                bring happiness

        God is all powerful

God gave us talents to do His work
Doing all things for the honor and glory of God
    brings us happiness.
Jealousy - not doing God's will brings us
Power for earthly recognition will not bring
    us happiness
Only doing God's will, will bring us happiness.

Wounded hearts from others imperfections
    and anger, abuse, criticism as
    children, must be healed - parents
Taking responsibility for our anger and
    admitting our faults can help us
    to move out of stuffed anger, 
    from childhood, like a can of anger, ready
    to spray - from stuffed anger
Angry parents teach children to be angry
    from birth - they were taught by
    their parents.
People cannot spray others with life long
    anger without bringing unhappiness
    to themselves and others -
People who were abused by parents - who
    were taught to be angry -have life
    long patterned behaviors being angry
    and many negative tapes - unless they are in
    recovery and praying for healing.
Angry people need to remove the negative tapes
    they constantly play in their heads - As
    hard as it is they can quit playing
    negative tapes projecting age old stuffed
    anger on others who are innocent and now
    become the victim of this generational
    anger. A person can hurt
    their spouse and
    children and pass it down
    to their children.

Greed is another weakness of the
    fallen human nature - one seeks
    dominance for dominance sake over
    those in authority - all of these fallen
    tendencies when acted out bring great
    unhappiness -    

How could giving into imperfections -
    causing hurt for oneself and hurt for
    others - actions against God's will
    bring happiness.

Some people are so wounded they do not
    even recognize the truth of childhood
    abuse and constantly project anger on others
    leaving them shaking - because they will
    not recognize how they are hurting others,
    isolating, focused on self to make
    themselves "okay" they think -

They continue hurting others deeply
    wounding them when their anger is
    triggered - or the stuffed anger and
    depression comes up and is sprayed
    on innocent others -
If their anger, like hungry dogs in
    the basement gives vent - then they
    explode because of how long and how much
    anger is stuffed over peas and
    carrots instead of green beans -
They tell themselves - "I have no anger -
    people provoke me ". They continue
    their negative tapes blaming others
    that are innocent for their life long
    anger and getting more and more filled
    with fury and hate.

    The way of God is the way of the
greatest commandment

Matthew 22: 36-40

'Master, which is the greatest commandment of the Law?' Jesus said to him, 'You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind. This is the greatest and the first commandment. The second resembles it: You must love your neighbour as yourself. On these two commandments hang the whole Law, and the Prophets too.'


    We were created to love
    God is love
A person cannot be angry and hateful -
    and loving and selfless at the 
    same time

Satan works in secrets
What keeps angry people undetected
    abusive people swear all to
    secrecy - so they will not be detected -
People living with angry, unpredictable   
    persons can live a life of fear,
    insecurity and when the anger of
    the abusive person swells they can 
    become frozen and shaking.

All the angry person has to do is
    stand in position, because of
    previous, exploding anger - peoples
    hearts begin beating fast when the
    angry person is agitated. The
    body of those offended becomes tense -
    ready for the attack of the
    other -

A person who takes no responsibility for
    exploding anger -stays stuck - they
    play negative tapes - they need to break
    to get out of this horrible life they
    live - They see themselves as the
    victim while they are the offender
    and abuser themselves - It is
    wrong to make others live in fear

Anger is power

 The angry person wants power

The angry person may not like
    any authority figure over them
When I received the messages - Jesus
    said He had all the power -
    satan wants power so he tries to get
    power from others
God is love

Heaven is for loving

God wants unity and harmony

A person who is an abuser blames
    others for their abuse - they can
    switch the table and the other
    stands innocent and mouth open.

A person in a dysfunctional house
    thinks the dysfunction is normal -
    In an alcoholic home because of secrecy and
    denial - the dysfunction continues - one
    becomes an enabler and
    the alcoholic has all dancing
    to his dysfunctional
    tune -

The whole family can be sick in a dysfunctional
    home - One can control similarly with
    anger and abuse and others live the unpredictable
    behavior of the alcoholic, abuser, or
    rageful person.

People are not free - for they are
    controlled by someone who is full of
    anger, stuffed anger and their agitation
    usually ends in a bad end -
    arguments before others because they
    are blinded by their stuffed rage.
This dysfunctional behavior is
    NOT Normal - denial and secrecy keeps
    it stuck - In alcoholics anonymous it
    is called - the Merry -Go - Round called
    DENIAL - All dance to the unpredictable
    alcoholic -another enables them and keeps
    everyone in line because they both
    grew up in co-dependent dysfunctional
    homes - the dysfunction is "normal
    to them" and it ends in such pain -
    nobody can barely take it.

Soon someone may go to Alynon in a 
    cry for help -
And the secret, sick life is unveiled -
    everybody else tries to get the person trying to recover to
    do the old dysfunctional dance of
    pain and sorrow -
    doing a dysfunctional dance leads to
    pain and heartache and sick families
    on down the line.

Passive - aggressive measures are
    used by one who provokes and denies their
    actions - to control another in authority over
    them, they may have had such a wounded
    childhood that they have hidden
    rage from the treatment which
    caused them to deny and stuff
    feelings and be angry.

When a person has blocked feelings
    and their heart is hard - they provoke
    others to get others to express their
    painful suppressed feelings - they may have
    joy when others suffer - they
    provoke to make others angry then
    they walk away in a white shirt or dress.

    end of January 14, 2008


                Given February 26, 2015

Act of consecration to the Sacred Heart of Jesus

Lord Jesus, Chief Shepherd of the flock, I consecrate myself to Your most Sacred Heart. From Your pierced Heart the Church was born, the Church You have called me, as a member of Shepherds of Christ Associates, to serve in a most special way. You reveal Your Heart as a symbol of Your love in all its aspects, including Your most special love for me, whom You have chosen as Your companion in this most important work. Help me to always love You in return. Help me to give myself entirely to You. Help me always to pour out my life in love of God and neighbor! Heart of Jesus, I place my trust in You!


Act of consecration to the Immaculate Heart of Mary

Dear Blessed Virgin Mary, I consecrate myself to your maternal and Immaculate Heart, this Heart which is symbol of your life of love. You are the Mother of my Savior. You are also my Mother. You love me with a most special love as a member of Shepherds of Christ Associates, a movement created by your Son as a powerful instrument for the renewal of the Church and the world. In a return of love, I give myself entirely to your motherly love and protection. You followed Jesus perfectly. You are His first and perfect disciple. Teach me to imitate you in the putting on of Christ. Be my motherly intercessor so that, through your Immaculate Heart, I may be guided to an ever closer union with the pierced Heart of Jesus, Chief Shepherd of the flock.



                R. Being in one mind and one heart in the
                Hearts of Jesus and Mary is being alive in our
                hearts in God. The Holy Spirit is working in our
                hearts counseling us, filling us with love
                on fire for God, so we operate out of love
                of God, so the Holy Spirit is molding us more and
                more in the image of Jesus and telling us God's
                will for us.

                    Consecration to the Two Hearts means we are
                one in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary and the Holy Spirit
                is in the Heart of Mary, one with Jesus, filling
                us with love and knowing the will of God and
                being what God created us to be more and more
                in His image and likeness.

                    Our whole life is lived in communicating
                and loving God and others as ourselves – striving
                to do God's will in love – striving to put
                on Christ – to be molded more and more in the
                image of Jesus –

                    Just as the heart is the life of the body, it
                must beat for us to have life –

                    We can't be like the world – our heart and
                soul one in intimacy with God brings us
                on the spiritual road of walking with the
                Holy Spirit – being formed in the image and likeness
                of God – knowing God's will and loving on
                fire for God and others – Being consumed in
                the Hearts of Jesus and Mary to love –

                    This takes knowing God. We are developing
                in the capacity God gave us in baptism to
                know and love in an elevated capacity to
                know and love – in our life – in God.
                We share in God's knowing activity
                and God's loving activity. These are gifts
                given in baptism for us to develop.

                    In communicating to God – we ask and
                we receive as God's answers our prayers

                    We want God's will – We depend on God –
                God is to us our Heavenly Father we love –
                Jesus, our beloved Spouse, the Holy Spirit that
                counsels and teaches us and molds us
                in the flames of love and sanctity more
                and more in the image of God.

                    So we live a life of communicating
                with God – of knowing God more and
                more, of loving God more and more –
                We are interior people – living in
                our hearts deeply in love with God
                and be other people – seeing God in

                    The devil wants people – shut down
                inside – working from the outside –

                    The man of sanctity is one with
                God – His strength comes from his
                interior union with God – the grace
                he is receiving in the sacraments,
                greater life in God, his ability to
                trust and love and know God more and more –

                    He is a work in progress – a
                beautiful gem – the beauty of a man
                living in God – the reflection of
                the Trinity – He is one in God –
                And men as they give their hearts
                to Jesus and Mary are one in God and
                thus one with each other –

                    The Holy Spirit works in their hearts,
                pumping love into their relationships
                in Church – love into their relationships
                in families and communities, in parishes,
                in schools –

                There is love –

                It is the love we see – the reflection
                    of the Trinity –

                Men acting out old wounds of the past,
                    hurting their brothers, full of pain
                    and not even in their hearts are
                    tearing down what God is trying
                    to build in men consecrating
                    their hearts, their lives, their
                    businesses, their parishes, their
                    schools, religious communities,
                    places of worship and prayer to the
                    Hearts of Jesus and Mary –

                The devil is hate –

                The evil spirit tears down –
                    works in the deadly sins
                    of anger, jealousy, envy,
                    slothfulness, pride, gluttony,
                    lust –

                The Holy Spirit – unites, is full of
                    love on fire – is unity –
                    is energy – a fire breathing
                    life into the world –
                    God is light and in Him there is
                    no darkness –


                    Feelings can't hurt you –
                    Let feelings come up
                    Be in touch with heart
                    Layers of an onion

                If we want to change how
                    we feel
                    we have to change what
                        we tell ourselves

                    Self-talk comes from
                                – senses or
                                – thoughts


                A person can react by anybody
                    giving a simple direction –
                    destructive tapes from the past

                they have decided – NOBODY TELLS
                                THEM WHAT TO DO AND
                                THEY AGREE WILLINGLY


                LACK of TRUST of ANYBODY

                    They have a reaction –
                        lots of thoughts how to survive
                        and tactics
                        before they do anything

                Let Go of Negative Behavior Patterns

                    Name it
                    Claim it
                    Dump it

                Slow down to hear their own
                    negative tapes

                Correction that is needed is a good thing.

                Fighting all correction keeps you stuck
                    in a bucket

                Correction is not condemning
                    someone to the core –

                Correction given by God and
                    spiritual guides is to
                    make things better

                Some people are TRIGGERED with
                    (1) Correction
                    (2) Direction
                    (3) Authority
                    (4) Being in social gatherings
                    (5) Eating with others
                    (6) Someone being before others
                        giving directions

                Survival tactics – ANGER, FEAR
                    (1) Start your diversion
                    (2) Stop what is going on
                    (3) Flee

                Positive Thoughts

                    I am safe here
                    I am secure
                    I can trust this leader
                    I want peace - happiness –
                        I don't start a diversion –
                        a fire –
                        stir the pot
                    I am one with the program –
                    I don't seek division - negative attention
                    I don't seek power under
                        authority and oppose
                        God's will

                    This makes me unhappy –

                    This hurts everybody –

                Stuffed Feelings
                    Anger                       Loving
                    Division                    Feeling
                    Isolation                    caring

                Are you Social –

                (1) Do you share yourself and
                    can sit comfortable
                    in a group?

                    Or does a group - threaten
                        your security - safety
                        so you
                        tear it down

                (2) Can you be comfortable
                    being at table eating
                    with people?

                (3) Can you be comfortable
                    being in a group
                    praying, playing with

                (4) What Survival Tactics
                    from places unsafe
                    and not secure do you
                    have from childhood?

                (5) Parents taught us about
                    (a) relationships – men and women
                    (b) solving problems
                    (c) communication
                    (d) love
                    (e) trust
                    (f) working in unity

                How was our love in the home
                    – with mom and dad
                    – with brothers and sisters

                Feelings – Survival tactics
                    I need to control everything
                        or things can happen –
                        feelings I could blow up cry –
                        "Crazy rules" in the head –

                Dad could have looked mad most
                    of the time –
                    not give any attention

                TRIGGER – angry man
                                – angry authority figure
                                – any authority figure

                Do whatever you have to to
                    escape it – do something else –
                    Start something opposed

                What is driving your engine?

                    Survival of people who
                        aren't even doing
                        anything, but
                        living life –

                Do you only relate to people
                    that can't do the job
                    so you can control?

                Are you looking for a
                    new mother or father or
                    authority figure –
                    you expect to fix your
                        old lack of the mother
                        or dad you should
                        have had –

                Twisted Reasoning – Survival Tactics

                    Do you create problems to
                        keep division –
                        so you can run things?

                    How is your Self-Esteem?
                    How is your body language?
                    How is your shame?
                    How is your guilt?
                    How is your suppressed anger?
                    How is your addictions?
                    How is your fear?
                    Do you trust others you need
                        to learn to trust?
                    Do you love others?

                Is your life lived to fix
                    your garbage and
                    you haven't started yet
                    because you keep using
                    survival tactics of
                    the past on innocent others?

                Jesus: You are responsible for your
                    actions and how you
                    treat others –
                    I command you to love.
                    Do you push others over you
                    down so you can be on top –
                    I am a God of justice –
                    Loving is the first order.
                    Sins are sins –
                    A man can be afraid because
                        of his past of authority,
                        women and if a woman
                        is over them they do
                        everything to control
                        the situation rather than
                        learn to deal with their
                        dysfunction and do
                        the work that needs to be done.

                You must pray for healing of
                    the wounds of your home
                    and not treat others in anger
                    and unloving ways because
                    you are wounded.

                Confession is good for the
                    heart and soul – lying
                    about yourself is
                    keeping you in sin.

                Work out your relationships
                    in love wherever you go.

                Work for understanding and love
                    and justice and unity –

                Roller coasters, unpredictability
                    is not My way of love –
                    I give you My Covenant
                    with you.

                If you do what parents,
                    caretakers did in your
                    home without changing –
                    you will do what parents
                    and caretakers did if
                    they were dysfunctional.

                Listen to your self-talk and
                    quit blaming innocent
                    others for your angry
                    ways you talk to yourself.

                TRUST others
                Be honest
                Be loving
                Communicate clearly and with love –
                Have humor
                Give respect
                Be consistent

                Be agreeable if you are
                    needed to give an honest
                    opinion – not combatal –
                    rebellious – divided

                Be supportive when it is
                    your role

                How is your wall against
                    living life as the Father
                    wills you to live and

                Your Wall – Is A Wall



          No Trust


   Not Social


   Self-destructive tapes

  Not constant

               No Feel











A Light



                February 26, 2015

Hebrews 5: 1-10

Every high priest is taken from among human beings and is appointed to act on their behalf in relationships with God, to offer gifts and sacrifices for sins; he can sympathise with those who are ignorant or who have gone astray, because he too is subject to the limitations of weakness. That is why he has to make sin offerings for himself as well as for the people. No one takes this honour on himself; it needs a call from God, as in Aaron’s case. And so it was not Christ who gave himself the glory of becoming high priest, but the one who said to him: You are my Son, today I have fathered you, and in another text: You are a priest for ever, of the order of Melchizedek. During his life on earth, he offered up prayer and entreaty, with loud cries and with tears, to the one who had the power to save him from death, and, winning a hearing by his reverence, he learnt obedience, Son though he was, through his sufferings; when he had been perfected, he became for all who obey him the source of eternal salvation and was acclaimed by God with the title of high priest of the order of Melchizedek.  


                R. And Mary is the Immaculate Heart

                    She crushed the head of satan –
                    Mary is humble not proud –
                    Mary is Mother at Our Side –
                    Mary is the pure and spotless one.

1 Timothy 2: 1-8

I urge then, first of all that petitions, prayers, intercessions and thanksgiving should be offered for everyone, for kings and others in authority, so that we may be able to live peaceful and quiet lives with all devotion and propriety. To do this is right, and acceptable to God our Saviour: he wants everyone to be saved and reach full knowledge of the truth. For there is only one God, and there is only one mediator between God and humanity, himself a human being, Christ Jesus, who offered himself as a ransom for all. This was the witness given at the appointed time, of which I was appointed herald and apostle and-I am telling the truth and no lie-a teacher of the gentiles in faith and truth.

    In every place, then, I want the men to lift their hands up reverently in prayer, with no anger or argument.


                R. If you seek you will find.

Matthew 7: 7-11

Effective prayer

‘Ask, and it will be given to you; search, and you will find; knock, and the door will be opened to you. Everyone who asks receives; everyone who searches finds; everyone who knocks will have the door opened. Is there anyone among you who would hand his son a stone when he asked for bread? Or would hand him a snake when he asked for a fish? If you, then, evil as you are, know how to give your children what is good, how much more will your Father in heaven give good things to those who ask him!


                R. Men are to be strong, fathers
                and grandfather to be close –
                to Jesus. Jesus came as a Man.
                Jesus shows us how He loved
                His Father, how He lived as
                the Father wanted. Men could
                really bring strength to the –
                family. Children should know
                about God the Father from
                the example of their fathers,
                the grandfathers.

                    God asks us how we have
                witnessed to people we are
                called to work with. God gives
                us families to be a basic unit
                of strength.

                    We know that God gives us
                only so many days to spread
                the Good News and we are to
                hope to be united to the souls in
                heaven some day –
                We are hope for eternal
                happiness in heaven someday.

Romans 6: 2-4, 12-14

Out of the question! We have died to sin; how could we go on living in it? You cannot have forgotten that all of us, when we were baptised into Christ Jesus, were baptised into his death. So by our baptism into his death we were buried with him, so that as Christ was raised from the dead by the Father’s glorious power, we too should begin living a new life.

That is why you must not allow sin to reign over your mortal bodies and make you obey their desires; or give any parts of your bodies over to sin to be used as instruments of evil. Instead, give yourselves to God, as people brought to life from the dead, and give every part of your bodies to God to be instruments of uprightness; and then sin will no longer have any power over you—you are living not under law, but under grace.


                R. How many men shed their
                blood to help the Church to grow?
                Our own personal holiness is
                so important to our prayer life.
                Prayer is a big part of our lives, to give
                our lives in love for others we
                pray – to be a conduit
                as we pray to God for grace and help.

                    We have such a gift to pray
                through the powerful intercession of the
                angels and saints,
                to love the saints so much.
                We pray through the powerful intercession
                of the angels and saints and souls in purgatory.

                What about the souls in purgatory,
                do we pray for our fathers and
                grandfathers, mothers, grandmothers,
                who have died.

                    We know unity, uniting with the
                angels and saints and
                praying through their powerful intercession,
                souls in purgatory.
                We want to live our lives to be witnesses
                of this truth.

November 4, 2013


                R. When Mary appeared to me
                I saw her praying with all the
                people. I knew from seeing
                Mary how she really prays
                with us.

                    There are struggles in the Church,
                with cardinals and bishops and
                priests, in parishes, in schools –
                God has called us in the Shepherds of Christ
                to pray for the priests, the Church
                and the world. We belong to
                the Church, as members of
                the Mystical body of Christ
                we must pray for the Church.

John 10: 11-15

I am the good shepherd:
the good shepherd lays down his life
   for his sheep.
The hired man,
   since he is not the shepherd
and the sheep do not belong to him,
abandons the sheep
as soon as he sees a wolf coming,
   and runs away,
and then the wolf attacks
   and scatters the sheep;
he runs away
   because he is only a hired man
and has no concern for the sheep.
I am the good shepherd;
I know my own
and my own know me,
just as the Father knows me
and I know the Father;
and I lay down my life for my sheep.



                R. The priests, bishops, cardinals
                are to be witnesses to the rest
                of the world – we must pray for their
                holiness, they live their faith deeply
                and have a deep intimate relationship
                with Jesus.

                    We need unity – not selfish focus,
                not selfish division.

                    In praying the prayers Jesus
                gave Fr. Carter – Jesus makes
                strong promises.

July 31, 1994

Words of Jesus to Members of Shepherds of Christ Associates:

"My beloved priest-companion, I intend to use the priestly newsletter, Shepherds of Christ, and the movement, Shepherds of Christ Associates, in a powerful way for the renewal of My Church and the world.

"I will use the newsletter and the chapters of Shepherds of Christ Associates as a powerful instrument for spreading devotion to My Heart and My Mother's Heart.

"I am calling many to become members of Shepherds of Christ Associates. To all of them I will give great blessings. I will use them as instruments to help bring about the triumph of the Immaculate Heart and the reign of My Sacred Heart. I will give great graces to the members of Shepherds of Christ Associates. I will call them to be deeply united to My Heart and to Mary's Heart as I lead them ever closer to My Father in the Holy Spirit."

- Message from Jesus to Father Edward J. Carter, S.J., Founder, as given on July 31, 1994,
feast of Saint Ignatius Loyola, Founder of the Society of Jesus (The Jesuits)


Apostles of the Eucharistic Heart of Jesus

My dear fellow Associate Members,

Jesus is calling special apostles to join a new division of the Shepherds of Christ Movement. Here is a message from Jesus given to Father Carter:

    My beloved priest-companion, I am requesting that a new prayer movement be started under the direction of Shepherds of Christ Ministries. I am asking for volunteers who are willing to pray before the Blessed Sacrament for one hour, twice-weekly. Members of the Shepherds of Christ prayer chapters, as well as others, are to be invited to join this movement.

    These apostles are to pray for the intentions I am giving you. For part of the hour they are to use the prayers of the Shepherds of Christ Associates Handbook. They may spend the rest of the hour as they so choose.

    I will use this new prayer movement within My Shepherds of Christ Ministries in a powerful way to help in the renewal of My Church and the world. I will give great graces to those who join this movement. The name, Apostles of the Eucharistic Heart of Jesus, is to be given to this movement.

    I am inviting My beloved Rita Ring to be coordinator for this activity.

    I pour out the great love of My Sacred Heart to all. I am Jesus, Chief Shepherd of the flock.

    This is indeed a special calling for us to unite in one heart with His Eucharistic Heart and pray for the following intentions:

    1. For the spread of the devotion to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary culminating in the reign of the Sacred Heart and the triumph of the Immaculate Heart.
    2. For the Pope.
    3. For all bishops of the world.
    4. For all priests.
    5. For all sisters and brothers in the religious life.
    6. For all members of the Shepherds of Christ Movement, and for the spread of this movement to the world.
    7. For all members of the Catholic Church.
    8. For all members of the human family.
    9. For all souls in purgatory.

end of Apostles of the Eucharistic Heart message


October 13, 1994

The Birth of the Full Ministries of the Shepherds of Christ

    "I wish to share with you part of a message which Jesus gave us on October 13, 1994. The message tells us about the expansion of the Shepherds of Christ movement:

    'My beloved priest-companion, today I come to you with another mission. I am asking you to establish Shepherds of Christ Ministries. At My request you have already begun the priestly newsletter, "Shepherds of Christ", and the prayer chapters, Shepherds of Christ Associates...

    'I am giving you this message on this day, the 77th Anniversary of the Great Apparition at Fatima, because of the close connection between the Shepherds of Christ movement and the Fatima message. The Fatima message is centered in devotion to My Heart and My Mother's Heart, especially in consecration to Our Hearts. Shepherds of Christ Ministries is also centered in devotion to Our Hearts. I will use Shepherds of Christ Ministries as a great instrument in helping to bring about the triumph of the Immaculate Heart and the reign of My Sacred Heart. When this occurs, My Church and the world will be experiencing the great era of peace promised by My Mother at Fatima.

    'Today, then, October 13, 1994, the 77th Anniversary of the Great Apparition at Fatima, marks the birth of Shepherds of Christ Ministries. I pour forth the great love of My Sacred Heart to all. I am Jesus, Chief Shepherd of the flock.'

    "Jesus has told us that Shepherds of Christ Ministries includes: the priestly newsletter, Shepherds of Christ, Shepherds of Christ Associates prayer chapters, various publications, including books, whatever else Our Lord directs us to undertake.

    "As members of Shepherds of Christ Associates, you are an extremely important part of Shepherds of Christ Ministries. You have given great joy to the Heart of Jesus by responding to His invitation to become members of Shepherds of Christ Associates. As He draws you closer to His Heart and to His Mother's Heart as Associates members, He will fill you with an ever-increasing experience of His love, peace, and joy."

- From In the Hearts of Jesus and Mary, Newsletter of Shepherds of Christ Associates
by Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J., Volume 1, No. 1, 1995. p. 2.


                R. Marriages and families are so
                important to the Church and the world.

                    We need to pray for the Church and
                the world because Jesus told us
                to pray for them.

                    We see the family; how God
                created brothers and sisters. We
                should see this love as brothers
                and sisters in God's family.
                God tells us we must see each
                other as brothers and love
                our brothers. Sisters and Brothers
                in the family with Mom and Dad as
                the parents should be in
                unity and love.

                    Mary says, the family that
                prays together stays together.
                God has called us to know this
                unity in our family and to
                see this unity in the Father's
                family – We are to be loving,
                we are to be able to share in
                love with each other. Great
                grace is given when we receive
                the sacraments – Jesus wants us
                to go to Mass, to do adoration,
                to go to penance –

Psalm 19: 2-5

day discourses of it to day, 
night to night hands on the knowledge. 

No utterance at all, no speech, 
not a sound to be heard, 
but from the entire earth the design stands out, 
this message reaches the whole world. 

High above, he pitched a tent for the sun, 
who comes forth from his pavilion like a bridegroom, 
delights like a champion in the course to be run.


                R. Christ gives us the sacraments.
                We receive great grace and this
                helps fight satan. God commands we
                love Him with our whole hearts,
                our whole soul, our whole
                being. We are to love our neighbor
                as a brother to us. We are to
                see Jesus in our brothers.
                We are to see the heavenly eternal
                family. We know the unity
                of heaven –

                    We know communication is
                absolutely essential. Satan
                tries to block communication.
                Satan wants people to not
                communicate to be prideful,
                jealous, envious.

                    We need to be Christ-like to the
                world. Many people of this world
                are suffering so much. Many
                are being persecuted without
                any peaceful dialogue, many
                are living in fear of terror and
                are freezing because they have
                no heat.


Matthew 5: 9

Blessed are the peacemakers:
they shall be recognised
   as children of God.


                R. We can be so selfish and
                God is blessing us so very much.
                There is so much violence, now,
                in this world. We need to pray for
                the priests and the hierarchy and
                the pope that bring us the Mass –

                    Pray there is unity more than ever
                in Churches. As people suffer
                so much – they should become
                more holy.

                    There are so many oppressed
                in this world, that are
                suffering so much –

                    We need to give to others –
                to give in prayer, to give
                in love – to be as Jesus
                wants us to be. We need to
                support what Jesus has
                asked us to do.


1 John 1: 5; 2: 2

This is what we have heard from him 
and are declaring to you: 
God is light, 
    and there is no darkness in him at all.

He is the sacrifice to expiate our sins,
and not only ours,
but also those of the whole world.


                R. We pray for hope so men can
                get better from damaged
                childhood – Hoping in eternal happiness
                for ourselves and others – We suffer and
                we pray to deal with childhood pain in recovery –
                pray to deal with it in the right way
                according to God's will so it will bring
                us to greater life. Acting out pain in others
                in relationships brings more pain and more pain
                in the world.

                    Some children have a wonderful
                loving childhood, some are like
                in prison learning survival tactics
                to survive the trauma.

                A child is created by God in God's image.

                    Children can be a victim and have
                a very dysfunctional childhood – even
                though it was awful – it was what
                some children grew up in. They can be still
                so full of pain – acting out pain on others.

                    Recovery is needed, to recover from
                the pain and anger they have inside, to recover
                from survival tactics they learned, from
                bad example and forced to live in
                a dysfunctional home. It wasn't
                a child's fault if they had a horrible

                    People who had trauma in
                childhood need to recover, not
                blame others, for their dysfunction –
                but work through bad patterned
                behavior and quit being angry and hurting
                others from their painful childhood.

                    We, as human beings, have
                tendencies of the wounded human
                nature. God created us in His image and
                likeness. We are to be molded more
                and more in the image of God –
                to advance in the spiritual life.

                    What must happen to recover is
                to come out of denial and admit
                what happened and to grieve for
                their lost childhood not having
                happiness and love as they should,
                the wounded person
                must come out of DENIAL –

                (DENIAL) They must face reality,
                how it really was –

                Some children were abused –
                    and other dysfunctions, but
                    they were swore to secrecy and
                    never permitted to let the world know
                    how bad it really was –

                So they can develop delusions –
                Live inside in a fantasy world of make believe –
                They learn to not admit the
                    truth –

                They cannot trust the unpredictable
                    behavior of their parents or
                    caregivers so they learn to
                    not trust and relate in meaningful

                A person does not heal from wounds they
                    won't admit they have –

                Some people who are wounded have
                    memory repression -

                It can be like shell shock as a man
                    who was at war –

                But where people should have been
                    given love and taught to love
                    and be loved –
                    they were wounded deeply and
                    can be 50 years old never
                    trusting or loving anyone, but
                    projecting abuse and pain on
                    others – trying to work out the
                    deep pain they have inside –

                Trauma victims feel shamed about everything –

                There can be children that had trauma
                    that need repair –
                    parents were not there for them or
                        mistreated them –
                    so they need attention, they crave attention –
                        they hurt inside and it doesn't go away
                        on its own. They are dark inside.
                    They need a bridge to learn to see
                        how God loves them, how
                        they love themselves and
                        others love them and they are
                        precious to God.

                Song: A Song from Jesus

                R. Traumatized in Love

                Some people passively - attack others to
                    store their pain and shame
                    in others through force and abuse

                The Cycle keeps repeating

                    They don't trust or love anybody –
                        They can use the abuse cycle on others –

                They are full of pain and

                    So they drive themselves further and
                        further from God –
                        which makes them
                        angrier and angrier –

                Being close to God brings happiness. God made us
                    to love and be loved.

                A person hurting others doesn't feel
                    good inside – it is rebelling
                    against God's commandment
                    of love –


                R. They can think if they feel bad
                    about themselves it is true –
                    so they act in such a way – they
                    can play games to hurt others and
                    drive them away –

                They can be jealous and angry of others, envious
                    wanting to bring them down to their darkness.

                They can be where they don't
                    let anybody in.

  Can send
them to
abuse others

Love being given

Confidence of the person they abuse

                Trauma from past can be triggered by something
                    and the person goes into a brown out –

                They may have learned to
                    DISSOCIATE from feelings

                So they passively attack others through force
                    to stick their pain and anger
                    in another –

                A person so wounded does not feel
                    good and wants somebody to
                    normalize them –

                They are not structured or consistent

                They misuse power – they can do
                    anything to keep power over others –
                    so they can act out pain and abuse that
                    is filling them.

                It's like a constant war for them –

                Post - Stress - Syndrome – because
                    they are in denial
                    they take out their anger on others

                They need BALANCE

                Some can have serious survival skills.

                They can lose big blocks of time.

                They can listen to a voice in their
                    head that ruins relationships and is
                    not reality.

                Some people were so abused –
                    they check-out – the pain – it
                    hurts so much.

                They need God.

                A person like this can have
                    excessive fantasies so they do
                    not notice pain.

                They use

                ADDICTIONS  –  to anger
                                            to power to handle
                                            their lives

                Instead of living life from
                    inside their body – with a deep
                    meaningful relationship with God
                    they live it from outside
                    their body then
                    they don't feel the pain inside.

                When pain comes up and it does when they
                    are alone, they think of ways to act
                    it out on others. They do not like to
                    be in social gatherings in peace –
                    they can cause things to break it up.

                Laughing at persons misfortune
                    is a survival skill –
                    Stuffed feelings

                CHILDREN ACT OUT what
                    is not being addressed

                CHILDREN DON'T GET

                They learned survival tactics for their
                    lives and stuffed their natural feelings.

                They have problems until they face the truth
                    about their lives – they cause problems
                    with others – they are filled
                    with pain and anger.

                Like - Shell - Shock

                You can change

                    Be positive
                    Smile at Others
                    Love Other
                    You can smile
                    You can be pleasant

                Fear is a feeling
                Fear is like an OLD FRIEND




                R. The Blue Books help men learn how
                    much God loves them –
                    The Blue Books and the prayers
                    God gave us can help people
                    that are wounded to know
                    the truth.







                R. The Holy Spirit Novena can be prayed
                    two times a day for special
                    healing and asking the Holy Spirit to
                    help them –

                Pain inside a person – doesn't go away –

                They need to crowd out the pain with
                    love of God and others and
                    learn to receive love from God
                    and others.

                They need healing in their heart –

                They need to be able to love others –
                    repair the heart inside

                The Consecration of the Two Hearts helps
                    them to be on the way to
                    knowing God's love and giving
                    themselves in loving surrender to God.

                Pride keeps them stuck –

                Acting out hatred and pain on others
                    and denying it drives them
                    further from intimacy
                    with God –

                Intimacy with God is where
                    happiness is –

                God created us to be deeply one
                    with Him and others –

                This takes giving ourselves to God
                    in loving surrender –

                This takes turning your will and
                    your life to God and His care –

                This takes praying to the Holy Spirit and
                    praying for an increase
                    faith, hope and love –

                This takes realizing we are
                    as a little child –

                God is our Father

                Mary is our Mother and
                    we must be sorry for our
                    sins of our past life –

                Sorrow for offending God
                    and others 

            end of February 26, 2015





                Given October 29, 2016

                R. Please spread blessed holy water
You can also mix Jesus and Mary water
                with your blessed Holy Water if you have it.)
                in your yard, around your house,
                in the state you live in.

                And ask God to bless your state
                Ask God to bless the United States

                Pray all prayers through the intercession of
                    Our Lady of CLEAR – WATER.

                Ask the Lady of CLEAR - WATER
                    to help with the blessed water.

                Mary has appeared to me for 22 years,
                    in Ohio and Florida.



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God's Blue Books - Love Letters from Jesus

Blue Books 1 & 2  -  $4 each
Blue Book 3  -  $3
Blue Books 4 & 5  -  $2 each
Blue Books 6A, 6B, 6C, 7,  8, 9, 10, 11, 12 & 13  -  $3 each
Blue Books 14, 15, 16 & 17  -  $5 each


Shepherds of Christ Book Store
Books written by the cofounder of Shepherds of Christ Ministries
Rita Ring
Mass Book
A Journey Into the Heart of Jesus - Author: Rita Ring. Discerned by: Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J. Imprimatur
$ 12.00

  Mass Book, by Rita Ring: Many of the entries in the Priestly Newsletter Volume II from a spiritual journal came from this book. These entries
  are to help people to be more deeply united to God in the Mass. This book is available in English and Spanish with the Church’s


Rosary Meditations for Parents and Children
From the Hearts of Jesus and Mary Author: Rita Ring. Discerned by: Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J. Imprimatur
$ 10.00

  Rosary Meditations for Parents and Children, by Rita Ring, Short Meditations for both parents and children to be used when praying the
  rosary. These meditations will help all to know the lives of Jesus and Mary alive in their Hearts. Available in both English and Spanish with
  the Church’s

God's Blue Book I
Teachings to Lift You Up. Author: Rita Ring. Discerned by: Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J.
$ 4.00

God's Blue Book I by Rita Ring. Open Anywhere    This book will change your life. These are beautiful love letters to us from Jesus. A million books have been printed and circulated. Jesus loves us so much    He wants a personal relationship with us    He wants us to go to the Eucharist and be with Him before the tabernacle. $10

God's Blue Book II
The Fire of His Love. Author: Rita Ring. Discerned by Fr. Edward J. Carter S. J.
$ 4.00

God's Blue Book II by Rita Ring. Letters from Jesus about His on fire love    Jesus wants this great intimacy with us    On fire love    Personal love letters from Jesus about the love of His Heart    A book on surrender Fr. Carter said! $10

God's Blue Book III
Love God, Love One Another. Author: Rita Ring. Discerned by Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J.
$ 3.00

God's Blue Book III by Rita Ring. Fr. Carter's favorite book    It is about loving and forgiving each other    Being pure in heart    A book for unity in family, community, in life!! $10

God's Blue Book 4
The Love of the Hearts of Jesus and Mary Author: Rita Ring
$ 5.00

God's Blue Book IV by Rita Ring. This book is about the love Jesus has for Mary and Mary has for Jesus and Jesus and Mary have for us    It is truly the Love of the Two Hearts. Mary appeared every day at the Holy Spirit Center    Fr. Carter was there. Mary's first apparition July 5, 1994. $5

God's Blue Book 5
So Deep Is the Love of His Heart. Author: Rita Ring.
$ 5.00

God's Blue Book V by Rita Ring. Jesus wants to be the bridegroom of our soul    He is our beloved    Jesus tells us about pure love    how we are to be pure of heart and love God and love others. It is a must, to hear about love from Jesus    Jesus is love    $5

God's Blue Book 6A
He Calls Us to Action Author: Rita Ring.
$ 5.00

God's Blue Book 6A by Rita Ring. Rosaries from Their Hearts during apparitions. Jesus and Mary appeared every day and I received rosaries from Them and They were transcribed from a tape. Also messages of love from Jesus on days of January, 1995    About Baptism    writings from Fr. Carter and the Scriptures. $10

God's Blue Book 6B
He Calls Us to Action - The Sixth Book, Part B Author: Rita Ring.
$ 5.00

God's Blue Book 6B by Rita Ring. Jesus and Mary appeared every day in February, 1995    So beautiful    transcribed from a tape    the Stations, 7 Sorrows, prayers in the Prayer Manual, the Holy Spirit Novena Book and the Song Book. Pure love    loving and forgiving    a book about Jesus' love, baptism, grace and Fr. Carter's Newsletter. $10

God's Blue Book 6C
He Calls Us to Action - The Sixth Book, Part C Author: Rita Ring.
$ 5.00
God's Blue Book 7
Intimacy with God by Rita Ring
$ 5.00
God's Blue Book 8
See thru the Eyes of Mary. Author: Rita Ring and Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J.
$ 5.00
God's Blue Book 9
The Mass and the Hearts of Jesus and Mary
$ 5.00
God's Blue Book 10
God's Blue Book 10 - This is My Body
$ 5.00
God's Blue Book 11
God's Blue Book 11 - Showers of His Grace
$ 5.00
God's Blue Book 12
Solidarity In Chirst
$ 5.00
God's Blue Book 13
$ 5.00
God's Blue Book 14
God the Father Speaks After Clearwater
$ 5.00
God's Blue Book 15
$ 5.00
Blue Book 16
Mary Mother of the Eucharist
$ 5.00
Apostle's Manual
Shepherds of Christ Overview: Very carefully discerned by Fr. Edward J. Carter S. J.
$ 20.00

Apostles Manual. About the Movement — the structure of the Movement    All Ministries — from the time 3 months before Mary appeared in Clearwater and 3 months after. Rosaries of the 13ths, Fr. Carter's Newsletters. Messages from God the Father    Reaching the priests, the Church, the schools and the world. $20

Rosaries From the Hearts of Jesus and Mary - Volume I
Red Rosary Book - Author: Rita Ring. Discerned by: Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J.
$ 10.00

Rosaries from the Hearts of Jesus and Mary Book 1. Mary appeared in Clearwater December 17, 1996 in rainbow color and these rosaries left the printer the same day from Apparitions of Jesus and Mary    transcribed from a tape. $10

Blue Rosary Book
Rosaries From the Hearts of Jesus and Mary - Volume II
$ 12.00

Rosaries from the Hearts of Jesus and Mary Book 2. This is a book of so many rosaries — transcribed from a tape. So many beautiful rosaries.   pages  $12

Messages From Jesus
Messages From Jesus for the Ederly, Ill, and Homebound Given by Jesus to His Messenger - Author: Rita Ring Discerned by Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J.
$ 10.00

Messages for the Elderly, Ill and Homebound. This is a big book of loving messages for nursing home people and homebound from Jesus and Mary    Their lives are so important    united to the Mass offering up their suffering, their lives for the souls of this earth. $10

Short Rosary Meditations for the Ederly, Ill, and Homebound
From the Hearts of Jesus and Mary: Author: Rita Ring. Discerned by: Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J. Imprimatur
$ 10.00

Short Rosary Meditations for the Elderly, Ill and Homebound. This book is so important with pictures they can open it and lay it on their laps and pray the rosary. $10

Songs From Jesus
Given by Jesus to His Messenger Author: Rita Ring. Discerned by: Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J.
$ 5.00

Songs from Jesus Songbook. These loving songs were given from Jesus. So beautiful    Love Songs from Jesus of His love — helping us have pure and loving hearts. $3

Daily Messages From Heaven
From the Florida Apparition Site Author: Rita Ring. Discerned by: Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J.
$ 10.00
Rosary Meditations for Little People and Elderly
Short Meditations for the Rosary
$ 3.00
Color the Lives of Jesus and Mary, Book 1
A Coloring Book with Short Meditations on the 15 mysteries of the rosary. Author: Rita Ring. Discerned by: Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J.
$ 5.00

Color the Lives of Jesus and Mary. Volumes 1 through 7. Coloring books and meditations for grade school children and others on the mysteries of the rosary — really good. $5 each.

Color the Lives of Jesus and Mary, Book 2
A Coloring Book with Short Meditations on the 15 mysteries of the rosary. Author: Rita Ring. Discerned by: Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J.
$ 5.00
Color the Lives of Jesus and Mary, Book 3
A Coloring Book with Short Meditations on the 15 mysteries of the rosary. Author: Rita Ring. Discerned by: Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J.
$ 5.00
Color the Lives of Jesus and Mary, Book 4
A Coloring Book with Short Meditations on the 15 mysteries of the rosary. Author: Rita Ring. Discerned by: Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J.
$ 5.00
Color the Lives of Jesus and Mary, Book 5
A Coloring Book with Short Meditations on the 15 mysteries of the rosary. Author: Rita Ring. Discerned by: Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J.
$ 5.00
Coloring the Lives of Jesus and Mary 6
Mysteries of Light
$ 5.00

Color the Lives of Jesus and Mary. Volumes 6 through 7. Coloring books and meditations for grade school children and others on the mysteries of the rosary — really good. $5 each.

Meditaciones del Rosario
para Pequenos y Ancianos
$ 10.00
Colorea 1
las vidas de Jesús y María (recibido el Imprimátur)
$ 5.00
Colorea 2
las vidas de Jesús y María (recibido el Imprimátur)
$ 5.00
Colorea 3
las vidas de Jesús y María (recibido el Imprimátur)
$ 5.00
Colorea 4
las vidas de Jesús y María (recibido el Imprimátur)
$ 5.00
Colorea 5
las vidas de Jesús y María (recibido el Imprimátur)
$ 5.00
Fr. Joe Robinson
Inspiring Homilist & Author
Fr. Joseph Robinson has dedicated his life to serving Christ and the Church for over 40 years.
Guiding Light - The Word Alive in Our Hearts
Inspiring Homilies by Fr. Joe Robinson
$ 10.00

Guiding Light — The Word Alive in Our Hearts. Cycle B   for 2017/2018 


Guiding Light - The Soul Who Could  
Inspiring Homilies by Fr. Joe Robinson
$ 10.00

Guiding Light — The Soul Who Could. Cycle A   for 2016/2017   


Guiding Light - Trust and Transform
Guiding Light - Trust and Transform  –
  Cycle C   for 2015/2016
$ 10.00
Guiding Light - By God Through Me
Guiding Light - By God Through Me, Cycle B for 2014/2015
$ 10.00
Guiding Light - Inspired To Be Genuine
Guiding Light - Inspired To Be Genuine, Cycle A for 2013/2014
$ 10.00
Guiding Light - Centered In Christ
Fr. Joe Robinson's latest homilies for Cycle C for 2012/2013.
$ 10.00
Guiding Light - Reflect on the Word
Inspiring Homilies Covering Cycle B of the Liturgical Year (2011/2012)
$ 10.00

Guiding Light homily series — Reflect on the Word — Cycle B     The Word leaves an impression on our souls. In my thoughts and reflections are born a more tangible understanding of these eternal concepts presented in the Gospels and the readings. Anyone can read a sentence, but not anyone can absorb it's true meaning. Truth, in this day and age, is almost a matter of opinion or individual entitlement. We believe that Christ's truth is our Roman Catholic Church. We, as priests, champion it's teachings; we are ambassadors for the Pope and Christ to those faces looking at us. We are the light by which our congregation reads to reflect upon real truth and we do it hand in hand. $15

Guiding Light - Steadfast to the Son
Inspiring Homilies Covering Cycle A of the Liturgical Year
$ 10.00

Guiding Light homily series — Steadfast to the Son — Cycle A    The sunflower is a great example of how we should be steadfastly guided by light. What a powerful thought that this exceptional plant is not stuck in one pose day in and day out, yet adaptable and magnetized to the sun. We feel the same about our Son. Our heads turns to face Christ as each day presents its challenges to find light. We join together like plants in a field and soak up the Son through the pulpit. We are a warm circle of strength using the wind of our breath to carry our priests' words, Christ's words, to new rich soil. $15

Guiding Light - Focusing on the Word
Inspiring Homilies Covering Cycle B of the Liturgical Year
$ 10.00

Guiding Light — Focusing on the Word — Cycle B    At times we may feel that our path to Christ is a bit "out of focus". Like the disciples in the Book of Mark, this ordinary life clouds our vision of Christ's Divinity. We may doubt the practicality or possibility of applying His teachings and example to our modern life. Cycle B's homilies are a "guiding light" to help us realize Jesus' Messianic greatness and His promise of better things to come. $15

Guiding Light - Feed My Soul
Inspiring Homilies Covering Cycle C of the Liturgical Year
$ 10.00

Guiding Light — Feed My Soul — Cycle C    In a world rapidly advancing and encouraging personal gain, we are faced with modern problems. There is a challenge to find time in our busy schedules for Sunday Mass or a family meal. We are able to research, shop, bank and even work without hearing one human voice. It is no wonder that we may often feel disconnected and famished at our week's end. In Fr. Joe's third book of homilies from Cycle C, we are reminded of the charity that Christ intended us to show each other. We have a calling to turn the other cheek and be the Good Samaritan to others. We are rewarded with the Father's kingdom and love when we are not worthy. We are not left alone or hungry. $15


Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J.

Here are all the products in this category:

Books written by the founder of Shepherds of Christ Ministries

Response in Christ
Fr. Edward J. Carter gives to the modern Christian a message that will sustain him.
$ 10.00
Response to God's Love
...God Himself is the Ultimate Mystery
$ 10.00

Response to God’s Love by Fr. Edward J. Carter, S.J. In this book Fr. Carter speaks of God as the ultimate mystery. We can meditate on the interior life of the Trinity. Fr. Carter tells us about our uniqueness in the Father's Plan for us, how the individual Christian, the Church and the world are in the state of becoming. Imprimatur. $10

Shepherds of Christ Spirituality Newsletters 1
Selected Writings on Spirituality—for All People Editor: Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J. Imprimatur
$ 10.00

Shepherds of Christ — Selected Writings on Spirituality for all People as Published in Shepherds of Christ Newsletter for Priests. Contains 12 issues of the newsletter from July/August 1994 to May/June 1996. $15

Spirituality Newsletters 2
Selected Writings on Spirituality — for All People Editor: Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J. Imprimatur
$ 12.00

Shepherds of Christ — Volume 2: by Fr. Edward J. Carter, S.J. Contains issues 13—29 of the newsletter (September/October 1996 — Issue 5, 1999) $15

Shepherds of Christ Spirituality Newsletters 3
Selected Writings on Spirituality — for All People Editor: Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J.
$ 10.00

Shepherds of Christ — Volume 3 by Fr. Edward J. Carter, S.J. Contains Newsletter Issues 1 through 4 of 2000 including Fr. Carter’s tremendous Overview of the Spiritual Life $10

Tell My People
Messages from Jesus and Mary Author: Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J. Imprimi Potest
$ 10.00

Tell My People. Messages from Jesus and Mary (As given to Fr. Edward Carter, S.J.)    One of Fr. Edward Carter, S.J.'s Synopsis of the Spiritual Life    From Jesus to Fr. Carter "On Holy Saturday, 1994, Jesus told me that on the following day, Easter, I would also begin to receive messages for others. Our Lord also told me that some of these were eventually to be published in a book  and here is that book." $10

Spirituality Handbook
Shepherds of Christ Associates Spirituality Handbook - A Way of Spiritual Life
Author: Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J. Imprimi Potest

$ 3.00

Spirituality Handbook. Fr. Edward Carter, S.J. did 3 synopsis of the spiritual life. The Spirituality Handbook, the Priestly Newsletter 20he Tell My People book. The way of spiritual life proposed to the members of Shepherds of Christ Associates is centered in consecration to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary. All aspects of the spiritual life discussed below should be viewed as means to help members develop their lives in consecration to Christ, the Sacred Heart, and to Mary, the Immaculate Heart. $3

The Spirituality of Fatima
Fatima: The Setting, The Message, The Spirituality of Consecration
$ 5.00

The Spirituality of Fatima by Fr. Edward J. Carter, S.J. The Fatima apparitions and messages received official Church approval in 1930. In giving her official approval to the Fatima event, the Church tells us that what took place at Fatima involving the three young visionaries is worthy of our belief. $5

Shepherds of Christ 6:20 Prayers CD
Holy Spirit Novena, Associates Prayer Manual and the Rosary Led by: Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J.
$ 10.00
Priestly Newsletter 2000 Issue 1
Audio CD - Read by Father Edward J. Carter
$ 10.00

Priestly Newsletter — 2000 #1 — CD.Christ is Our Strength — Fr. Edward Carter, S.J. read it the year he died. It is so beautiful. "This brief passage contains one of the greatest lessons of the spiritual life. As we progress along our spiritual journey, we become increasingly aware of how weak we are in our—selves, but how strong we are in Christ. To experience our weakness involves suffering. The degree and kind of suffering can vary. The suffering can include the experience of the classical dark night of the spirit as described by St. John of the Cross. One of the main purposes of the dark night is to make a person keenly aware of his or her helplessness without God." quote by Fr. Carter from the newsletter $10


Shepherds of Christ Holy Spirit Novena
  Holy Spirit Novena by: Rita Ring
  $ 1.00
  plus postage

 Holy Spirit Novena Booklet. In four languages with the Imprimatur with 18 scripture readings for two complete novenas – this very powerful Holy Spirit Novena has prayers for prayers for Protection by the Blood of Jesus, Healing, Strength and Light, To Be One with God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit, One with Jesus, To Dwell in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary, Prayer for the Holy Spirit and His Gifts, and the Word Alive in Our Hearts. All these prayers take about 10 minutes daily recited out loud. $1


  Shepherds of Christ Holy Spirit Novena CD
  Holy Spirit Novena Read by: Rita Ring
  $ 10.00 
plus postage

  Holy Spirit Novena CD. Prayers and scripture readings from the Holy Spirit Novena Booklet read by Rita Ring. $10

  Shepherds of Christ Prayer Manual
  Shepherds of Christ Associates Prayers
  Author: Fr. Edward J. Carter S.J.

  $ .50 
plus postage

Shepherds of Christ Prayer Manual. The Shepherds of Christ has prayer chapters all over the world praying for the priests, the Church and the world. These prayers that Father Carter compiled in the summer of 1994 began this worldwide network of prayer. Currently the prayers are in eight languages with the Church’s Imprimatur. We have prayed daily for the priests, the Church, and the world since 1994. Associates are called to join prayer Chapters and help us circulate the newsletter centered on spreading devotion to the Sacred Heart and Immaculate Heart and helping to renew the Church through greater holiness. Please form a Prayer Chapter & order a Prayer Manual.

Statues/Religious Items




 Statues, Crucifixes, and Religious Artwork
These items are very special additions to your home or place of worship.




Special 12" Holy Family Statue with Glass
 Ivory gowns with gold trim.
$ 200.00
plus shipping


Special 12" Our Lady of Guadalupe Statue with Glass
White or Ivory gown with gold trim.

$ 100.00
each plus shipping


Special 12" Sacred Heart or Immaculate Heart Statues with Glass
White gown with gold trim.
$ 100.00 each plus shipping


  Special 12" Sacred Heart or Immaculate Heart Statues with Glass
Ivory gown with gold trim.
  $ 100.00 each plus shipping

Special 11" Our Lady of Fatima/Clearwater Statue with Glass
White or Ivory gown with gold trim.
$ 60.00 each plus shipping

Blue Crystal Rosary
  Rosary with the Image of Our Lady of Clearwater
  8mm - $ 40.00
plus shipping


  Red Crystal Rosary
  Rosary with the Image of Our Lady of Clearwater
  8mm - $ 40.00 plus shipping



  Clear Crystal Rosary
  Rosary with the Image of Our Lady of Clearwater
8mm - $ 40.00 plus shipping





                Given March 21, 2014

                R. Pray for These Things

                1) Pray for the Pope & hierarchy to help us start prayer chapters.
                2) Pray for Dan, Sally Jo, Richard, Carol, Margaret, Sue,
                    Jack, Jean, Amanda, Matthew, Special intentions.
                3) Pray for the priests, the Church and the world!
                4) Pray for the spread of prayer chapters,
                    also for the spread of priests doing prayer chapters.
                5) Pray for the spread of Blue Books.
                6) People going to Florida and China.
                7) Vocations to all 7 categories.
                8) Pray for spread of Consecration and Rosary.
                9) Pray for pope helping us.
               10) Pray for Jeff - sales & health. Pray for Nick.
               11) Blue Book 18 and cover and all involved.
                    For our Publisher and all involved
               12) All intentions on my list, Jerry's list.
               13) Priests getting Fr. Joe's book.
               14) Pray for Fr. Joe's new book, cover & funds for printing & postage.
               15) Donors and members and their families.
               16) Healing of the Family tree.
               17) Dan & Melanie, Catherine & mom, Gary, Mary Jo,
                    Jim & statues, Fr. Ken, Monsignor, Kerry, Tom & wife.
               18) All who asked us to pray for them.
               19) All we promised to pray for.
               20) Rita, John, Doris, Sheila, Jerry, Regina, Sanja,
                    Betty, Sophie, Lisa, Eileen, Fr. Mike, Louie, Laverne,
                    2 Dons, Mary Ellen, Fr. Joe, all priests helping us,
                    Ed, Jimmy, Steve, a special couple, Rosie & all involved.
               21) 2 babies and moms.
               22) Funds and insurance.
               23) Jerry's garage.
               24) In thanksgiving for gifts, graces, & blessings received.
               25) Spread the Blood of Jesus on all of us here.
               26) Consecrate all hearts.
               27) Cast the devil out of all of us here and all in Movement.


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