The Agony in
1. R. As we
meditate on the mysteries of the rosary, I see more and more how
these mysteries merge into one, into the one mystery of God,
into knowing Him, for I know Christ in all His life, and I know
Him now, most intimately, within my heart. And in this mystery
of knowing Him, I know Him as an infant, as God. I know Him in
the Presentation in the Temple. I know Him in the Finding in the
Temple. I know Him in the Agony of the Garden. I know Him in all
the aspects during the Passion. It is like how I know you. I know
you. I know all of the experiences that we have shared together,
and at one time it is as to look into the mystery of you. Each
one of us, being a mystery that is unfolded and as we grow more
intimately with one another, those parts that are within that
are held as a mystery to some are revealed here to each other.
This is how it is with God. We know Him in all of the mysteries
as we meditate on each one individually. And it takes a great
unity which comes together in our knowing God as a Person, as
the Holy Spirit fills us with knowledge and understanding. If you have been my friend for many years, I would
know so many things. A mother that carries a child within her
womb, knows the child through their whole life and knows them
now. It is a summation of all the experiences together. And this
is how it is: when I meditate on Christ in the garden, I see
Christ the child in Bethlehem. I see Christ risen and ascending
into heaven. And I see the Jesus that I know today, the One that
I receive in the Eucharist, the One that I love, the One that I
am most intimate with. And so to meditate on a mystery, I have
so much emotion, for I have experienced this Person of
the depths of my soul, in my intimacy with Him, especially in
the Eucharist. This is the mystery of Jesus Christ as He knelt
in the garden, and I know Him in the garden for I have lived
this agony in the garden in my life. And I know Jesus in His
Word. And I love Him as I love a person, but much deeper, Jesus
is God, that I love. Let us meditate on the mystery of this
rosary and go deeper and deeper into the mystery of our Divine
2. R. It was
Ascension Thursday in 1995 and it was during the Mass, and I
experienced Him in such oneness. All of the mysteries that I knew as
I know Him now, not even in an instant, for when you receive a
light there is not time in it for He takes me to the other side
and it is just existence in Him and not even in a second or a
batting of an eye or a dropping of a pin. I know God to a
heightened intensity. And this is how it was. It was that
summation of everything, the insight into this mystery of God.
This is what I long for, these precious moments when He gives
these lights and there is no time. There is just this knowing of
God to a heightened intensity, and it is that which fills my
soul so much, for it is that, that my soul craves. It is the most
satisfying, this knowing of God. It is the most satisfying, this
intimacy with Him. It was His saving blood that He
sweat in the garden to pay for our sins. We see Him kneeling there in the garden.
3. R. And so, this
is a rosary about our beloved Jesus, the One that we visit when we
go to the exposed Eucharist, the One that we know in our heart
when we receive Him. This is our Lover.
4. Song: Be Not
Afraid - refrain
5. R. Now hear the
words of our beloved Jesus as He speaks to us and He says,
(singing) "If you pass through raging waters, in the sea, you
shall not drown, if walk amid the burning flames, you shall not
be harmed. If you stand before the power of hell and death is at
your side, know that I am with you through it all." And He
speaks to us, and He says to us, "Be not afraid, I go before you
always, come follow Me, and I will give you rest."
6. Jesus: No
rest for the weary heart. There is only rest in Me. You may feel
great turmoil within your heart at times for the world is so
unlike you, but you, My beloved ones, are rooted in the truth.
For I am alive and I am present, and I am teaching you My ways.
I am God. Do not be afraid. Be courageous for I have chosen you
from so many to deliver My Word. And it is in great joy that you
reap the victory to come. For the men will wear the white robes.
You must die to your selfish ways. Long to live more
and more in Me. You are in the process of dying to the impure
that, the true self, as the Father created you, can
emerge more and more into the image and likeness of God. And so
I speak to you, beloved one. Although it may feel very scary at
times, I am telling you this day that you must hear the words I am
speaking clearly in your heart now. I am God. I am a person and
I am with you. I want you to know Me, to know My love for you,
and I want you to hear these words. The words are these:
Sing: Be Not
Afraid - refrain
And so you follow Me and you
follow Me, and you seem alone so many times. But it is because
the world has gone asunder. They have strayed off the path, and
they do not even know the path that they are on. But they run as
in a race to get to the end when the end will be their own doom.
What is to become of them when they do not even care? For they
think that life is life rooted in this world and in the body,
when in fact I stated so clearly in My Word, that life is life in
Sing: Be Not
Afraid - verse 1
Come away with Me. Come
into My Heart and I will give you rest for I am your Lover. I am
your Spouse. I am the Bridegroom of your soul, the One for which
your soul seeks. And you may trod a barren desert, but you only
find rest in Me.
Sing: Be Not
Afraid - refrain
Come Holy Ghost
R. This is the Person that we are singing to. It is the Holy Ghost,
the third Person of the Blessed Trinity, and He is alive and He
is living within us at this moment. He is alive and filling us with
love. Let us sing to the Person, the Holy Ghost, that has been with us for
our life and has led us down so many paths and led to great
knowledge of God. Let us sing to this Person now and thank Him
for the gifts that He has given to us to let us know God as He
has allowed us to know Him. Let us sing from the bottom of our
heart to our Lover, the Holy Spirit, Who dwells within our heart
and waits for our love given to Him.
8. R. Jesus told
me today that the situation with Bob Elpers was like a parable
for us and I don't know if I remember exactly how He stated it.
But life is life in Him. And so many today are so focused on
their body. And even in the hospitals, checking the blood for
everything but not worrying about the life of the soul at all.
Being dead in sin but worrying about every fat cell, exercising,
spending all this time and energy, but not worrying about what
goes in the mind to feed the soul, watching endless hours of
television, that can hurt the soul. And He said
that Bob Elpers condition was like a parable. For he went to the
doctor and the doctor said, "There's nothing wrong. Do not come
back here." And he knew it was his heart because all his life he
has been breathing, he has been thinking. And these actions were
thwarted because his heart was blocked and the blood was not
flowing. But Bob was a
fighter, and he was trying to cover up all these things so
nobody would know. And he kept going to the doctor and the
doctor says, "There's nothing wrong with you." But all his life
he knew how his head worked. He knew how his body worked. He
knew how he felt. He knew the pain in his heart. And when he
went to the doctor, he said, "There's nothing wrong with you."
But he went to the right doctor, and the right doctor got to the
bottom of the problem and he unclogged the valves and blood
could flow and life could get to the different organs of his body.
There are so many hearts Jesus says that are filled with dirt.
How do you feel when you're in love? You are full of life when
you are feeling loved and when you can give love. For it is love
that we were created for. But it does not stop with the
creatures here. God is the Creator with a Divine Plan that
created us to love. And life is in Him. And so He says to us
in John 15: 5 "I am the vine, you are the branches.
Whoever remains in me, with me in him, bears fruit in plenty;
for cut off from me you can do nothing."
9. R. Many in the
world today are living with clogged hearts, and so what do they
do? They try to compensate by pleasures outside the body and by
going to their head. This is our world and it is sick, and He
has given the Mighty Medicine. He is the doctor He says in the
first Blue Book. He is the doctor that will unclog the dirtied
hearts. No matter where we go, the life must be rooted in Him.
Have Been Told
10. R. And so He
works in nature so much in the Bible. God created all those
things in nature. It is how God is, a Creator, a Creator of
things in nature. And so man sees the trees and the fruit on the
trees, and they know that they are being infected by insects,
and they know that they must attack in some way, shape, or form
or the fruit will get rotten. But they do not know about the
snake (the devil). It is burrowing its way into the hearts of men and eating
their hearts until they are rotten. God is the vine grower. And He has put us on this earth
to bear great fruit and to bring forth the fruit for heaven. People do not get it.
He was in the garden, and He was paying the price by the blood
on His brow. The new Adam was in the garden. The old Adam was
run out of the garden because he did not bring forth the fruit
that he was supposed to in the garden.
Have Been Told
at the Pillar
1. R. In the video
of April the 17th, I was in a garden. And as I read about
God's Blue Book, an introduction, the Sacred Heart statue was
directly behind me and I could see His Heart. And when I
introduced God's Blue Book, and talked about Him communicating
in the heart, the sun pulsated. We are in this garden. We are in
this garden. We are carrying the medicine to the sick children
that they will bring forth great fruit - souls for the Kingdom
of heaven. We are helping to bring forth the fruit, Christ being
the first fruit.
1 Corinthians 15: 20-28
In fact, however, Christ has
been raised from the dead, as the first-fruits of all who
have fallen asleep. As it was by one man that death came, so
through one man has come the resurrection of the dead. Just
as all die in Adam, so in Christ all will be brought to
life; but all of them in their proper order: Christ the
first-fruits, and next, at his coming, those who belong to
him. After that will come the end, when he will hand over
the kingdom to God the Father, having abolished every
principality, every ruling force and power. For he is to be
king until he has made his enemies his footstool, and
the last of the enemies to be done away with is death, for
he has put all things under his feet. But when it is
said everything is subjected, this obviously cannot include
the One who subjected everything to him. When everything has
been subjected to him, then the Son himself will be
subjected to the One who has subjected everything to him, so
that God may be all in all.
2. Hail Mary
3. Christ the
first fruit. And then it goes down and it says, "As
it was by one man that death came, so through one man has come
the resurrection of the dead. Just as all die in Adam, so in
Christ all will be brought to life; but all of them in their
proper order: Christ the first-fruits, and next, at his coming,
those who belong to him." 1 Corinthians
4. R. I want to
live in Him. I want to be one in Him. What happens to the branch
that is not attached to the vine? It withers and it dies. He is
the vine. We are the branches. What of our brothers that are out
there, the ones that think that life is only in the body? It is because their
spiritual hearts are clogged. It is because the
debris has piled up. And so they are reaching for life
elsewhere. But it is like Bob. If he did not go to the right
doctor, he would have died because that life support was being
cut off more and more and more and more. And that's what's
happening to our world. All through the Bible it talks about
'dead', the 'dead' men, the 'dead' men are the ones that are
dead in their soul.
5. Jesus: Fear not
what men can do to your body, but fear only those things that
can hurt the life of the soul.
Matthew 10: 28
'Do not be
afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the
soul; fear him rather who can destroy both body and soul in
6. R. And He stood
at the pillar, and they beat Him raw to pay for the sins of the
men this day that give their bodies to senseless pleasures. The
pillar, He is the vine. And then we have the new pillar, the
pillar of light. Adam stood by the tree. Eve listened to the serpent
whirled around the tree, and Adam did his own will and disobeyed
God. Christ was tied
to the pillar, they beat His body. Jesus showed us - the body
can be beat up – it's the soul that counts. The lighted
pillar of Fr. Carter, for it says in the book of Revelations
that the victor will be a pillar.
R. When speaking about the
renewal of the Church and the world, it is through the
consecration to Jesus' Heart and Mary's Heart, reaching the priests, that the light will shine on
the dark world. Adam and Eve were cast from the
7. R. We see the
sun come up everyday, and we do not see the miracle that it is
that God the Creator controls the elements. The sun looked as if
crashing down to the earth at Fatima, and when He came to
introduce those Blue Book messages, the sun pulsated over the
Holy Spirit Center, the Light of the world. And then we see Fr.
Carter, this pillar of light in the photo. He said that he was a
pillar of light to the dark world. And then He talked about the
consecration and how He would renew the world through the
Shepherds of Christ Movement.
as the Lady of Light over 420 times, and after she is ignored
and asking the same thing as at Fatima about the rosary, she
appeared as the woman clothed as the sun on the building in
9. Jesus: Oh
you senseless world, for you are waiting for a miracle and I
have given you so many miracles and signs. This evil world waits
for a miracle, but I will not give you more signs. The sign is in
the love in your hearts. I am the vine. You are the branches.
Those who live in Me will bear great fruit.
10. Song: Come
1. R. God made all
of these things for us.
Genesis 1: 16-19
God made the two great lights: the greater
light to govern the day, the smaller light to govern the
night, and the stars. God set them in the vault of heaven to
shine on the earth, to govern the day and the night and to
divide light from darkness. God saw that it was good.
Evening came and morning came: the fourth day.
‘You are free to eat of all the trees in the
garden. But of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil
you are not to eat; for, the day you eat of that, you are
doomed to die.’
3. R. And they
wove around Jesus' head a crown of thorns made from His own
creation. God created the crown of thorns.
4. R. And they
gave Jesus a cross to carry, and the cross was made from His own
5. Jesus: You
test Me with all of your fancy ways, and you think you are so
smart in your minds. And I am God. They crowned Me with a crown
of thorns, and the saving blood was seen as it came forth from
My brow and it fell to the earth. They are so dumb that they do not see that
it is God that lifts them high. They are creatures of the soil,
and I elevate them to such heights in Me, and they hang on to
such feeble things of the earth. Thou art dirt, man, and unto
dirt thou shalt return.
6. Jesus: And
what think you that your God asks of you? He asks you to love, to
love Him and to love one another. Is this a hard command? Why
will you not love Me, for I have given you the good things of
this earth? Yet I am despised and hated and treated with the
greatest indifference. I come to you, My shepherds, the
shepherds of My flock. Will you lead the sick ones to My Heart
that they will feast on the glories that I have prepared for
them. They will drink of the wine, and they will know that God
is truly present and lives amongst them this day.
7. R. In the
valley of darkness, they walk, and they do not care. They
continue to walk, and at the end of this dark, dark road, is a
pit of everlasting doom.
8. Jesus: Wake,
you senseless earth. Wake from your long slumbering sleep, and
see Me, alive, before you. I am the God of Abraham and Jacob. I
am your God, and you do not recognize Me. Two thousand years
later, I come and I give to you My letters of love, and I am treated with
such hatred and indifference. They make you run and they will
not listen to Me, and I give to them the most sacred letters of
My precious love. How I am offended for the way that I have been
treated by those that have received the letters but did not
recognize the truth that I gave to them. They did not recognize
the truth for they do not know Me. But you know Me. That is why
you listen, and that is why you have become so intimately united
to My Heart. The men that know Me will hear the voice in the
Blue Book messages and will turn their hearts to hearts of love.
9. Jesus: Give
them the letters of My love. I beg you. I beg you and bid you
to give them these letters for they will help heal the wounds in
their heart. For the doctors that they go to are not the doctors
that will heal their sickened hearts. I give to you My heavenly
medicine, the words from My Most Sacred Heart, to heal the
wounded hearts. And they scoff at Me and they laugh, and they
chase you. Their day will come. For My letters of love, I give, and you are
rejected for delivering My letters of love.
10. Jesus: Oh,
little one, will you love Me? Will you come to Me and pour your
love out to Me? For it heals My wounded Heart when you come with
your sweet, soft voice and you whisper so gently with tears in
your eyes, "Oh, My God, I love You so, if only I could love You
more. Give Me the grace, please, My God." And I test you, and I
watch you fall. But you do not know that the tests that I give to
you have drawn you ever closer to My Heart and have helped you
to know My love and My ways. It is always in love that I act in
your life. For I am a teacher and you are My pupil. And I have
instructed you through many trials, in which you suffered. And I
saw you, My little one. I saw you struggle, but I did not pick
you up, for you would not have learned of My ways and My love. I
carried that tree on My back to the top of the hill, and at the
top of the hill, they hung Me on the cross. And I bled for the
sins of the thankless race. Now what do you expect when I ask
you to follow My ways? And you, you whine and complain.
through your suffering that great grace is released for the
brethren, the sick ones that are in this world. I bid you to
come to My Heart, to take your sufferings and to love. No matter
what you are given, you must love. I love you. I love you no
matter what. You do not comprehend My love for you. You are
wishy-washy, and you do not understand how truly I love you. I
am a constant Lover. If you knew My love, you would not be
afraid. But you do not know how much love I have for you. You
think, at times, you are unloved. And you go to the world to
find that which the world cannot give you. It is only found in
Me. Oh, My little ones, so many simple things you do not
understand that would make your life so much easier. You must
know that I love you all the time. Tap on My Heart, and ask Me,
"Do You really love me, Jesus? Will You never leave me, Jesus?
Will You be there always for me, Jesus?" For many of you are
afraid of being abandoned, many of you, you, the chosen ones
that I have given so much love. And you are afraid that you will
not have enough love, that you will be left without love.
the messages of love that I deliver to you for they are from My
Heart! If you, the ones that I give the messages to, do not read
the messages, how will you tell others of the importance in
their lives? And I will allow you to suffer until you turn to
the material that I have given to you, My letters, My rosary, My
Word given for you, My little ones, that you will spread this
word to this earth, that you will give to them the medicine. Do
you believe? Then obey. Listen to the messages. Live the
messages. And you will live in My love. If your heart is
feeling empty, you must turn to the tools that I gave to you,
that you will feel My constant love within your heart. You do
not read the messages I've given to you.
You are so wishy-washy
in your love. If you knew My love, you would not be afraid. You
feel you do not have enough. Sometimes you are so desolate and
so depressed. I have given to you the greatest gifts, and you do
not even comprehend the gift I have given to you. How will you
tell the world? How will you be the voice crying in the darkness
to make ready My coming? You do not believe yourselves. Your
belief is so shallow. I am Jesus. I am with you this day. Will
you believe Me, or will you continue to go in and out and in and
out? You must know My love all day, every second, every
heartbeat. I give to you the letters of My love, and I ask you
to live by this book, to carry this book with you until you know
constantly that I am God, I speak to you, and I love you.
Song: A Song
Jesus: I love
you. I love you. I love you. Hear the words that I speak to you.
Know that I am God. I am a Divine Person, and I love you with a
love that you can not receive from any human person. It is this
love that your soul craves. Search, you foolish men. Push harder
and harder to squeeze the blood from the turnip, and the blood
will not come. The saving blood came through My body that I gave
for you. Are your eyes open yet? Then you must know that
pursue greater love of Me. There is love all around you and it will follow
always in accordance to My love. I am the vine. You are the
branches. The withered branch falls from the tree dead to the
Have Been Told
The Carrying of
1. Jesus: You do not
see the forest from the trees.
2. Jesus: At
times you are so bolted to the earth, and you are so earthy. I
raise your soul to great heights in Me, and you are filled with
My life. It is My life that your soul craves. How do you think
Bob would be today if he kept going to the wrong doctor. Your
doctors in this world today are not giving the souls their
medicine. I give to you the Mighty Medicine for the sick world.
But you, My shepherds, live according to these words that I
give to you. If you do you will know My love.
3. Jesus: I carried
the cross to the hill of Calvary, and on My back were the sins
of the world. This is the love that I have for you that I would
carry the heavy cross and shed My blood for all of your sins,
and I would do it again and again for I love you. I love you. I
did this for love of you. I gave My life.
4. Song: Come
unto Me all who are Weary
5. Song: I
Have Loved You
7. Mary: I
watch my Son that day as He carried the cross on His back, and
it made me cry because it was my Boy, the little one that I held
in Bethlehem. I watched Him, and He was covered with blood and
full of wounds. I watched Him. He gave the saving blood for the
children of this earth, and they neglect my Son and they do not
love Him. And He loves them so.
8. Mary: What
do I say to you my children? For I have told you the ways of my
heart and you will not listen to me. And it is the truth that
many little ones will die for their mortal sins they refuse to
admit. God has a plan for the
children of this world, and they are willful. I am Mary, your
Mother. Will you help me to reach my little children, my
shepherds? If you say 'no' to me, who will I send? I need you to
help me. Please, I beg you from my holy, Immaculate Heart, the
Ark of my children of light.
Tenderness and love in the Heart of my Son. And some hate my Son, and they hate His ways, and they will die. They
will die the death of their soul.
10. Mary: Walk
with me as I walked next to Him on that journey to Calvary. Look
at Him now. Can you see Him? Can you see the love that He has
for all the children of this earth? For each child, He gave His
life, and many will die, die the death of their soul. Do you see
my Son? Look at His face. I looked into His eyes, and I saw His
great love for you. Will you love my Son and make reparation to
Our Hearts for the sins committed against Him? You must love, my
shepherds. It is love that He wants. You can not fight and be
divided with one another. You must love. His way is love.
Please, please, my shepherds, you are the cream of the crop, the
Father's holy family. If you do not love, if your hearts turn
bitter, if they become clogged, who will the holy family be? For
you have been given the greatest gifts of His love in these
messages. Do you treasure the words that He speaks, the words of
greatest love that Jesus gives to you? They are His love letters to
you, to you. Read the letters He gives to you and know His love.
He loves you so. Will you love Him? Love Him so much. It pleases
His Heart so when you love Him.
Mary: I do not
know what to do for my little ones, for I cannot hold back the
hand of my Son any longer. The wrath of God will come on this
senseless earth, and they will know that God is their God. For
they worshiped a molten calf, and when I appeared to them, they
would not listen to me.
1. Mary: Come
to me, my little children. I have a place for you in my
2. Mary: You
will know the power of God.
3. Mary: And the veil
was ripped in two.
4. Mary: He has
lifted the veil for you, my shepherds, that you will know Him
most intimately. Thank your God, for He is the Light of the
5. Mary: It was His
saving blood that He gave for you on the cross.
6. Mary: It is your
heart He asks for in return.
7. Mary: So
senseless are my children, that they look for so many silly
things when God is all that will fill their feeble hearts.
8. Mary: You
will know a black day and you know His Might, for God is a God
of justice and a God of right.
9. Mary: Truth and
justice will kiss, and the moon will be no more.
10. Mary: I
will put darkness under my feet, and I will crush the head
of the serpent. And the children that remained in darkness will
be lost forever, my little ones, so loved. Tell them this
message. I am most grateful for the work
that you have done for my children, for they are suffering and
in pain and many will suffer the loss of their souls. My little,
gentle, tender ones, I am your Mother, come to save you, come to
help you to find the way. But you will not listen to me, and I
love you so. I love you as the most loving Mother, and my Son
loves you. Never, my shepherds, are you to feel unloved. You
must read the messages that I have given in many rosaries of
my love for you in the Rosary Book, and read the messages of my
Son. For you will not feel left out and unloved. You will feel
confident and unafraid. For if you knew His love, you could not
be afraid. He loves you. Every second when you feel fear in your
heart, hear Him gently say to you –
Jesus: I love you, My little one. Do
not fear. Come to Me, and I will make you My little child.
Song: Be Not
Jesus: I love
you, I love you, I love you. I am Jesus, and I wait for you by
day and night to tell Me how much you love Me. Please, My
shepherds, give Me your love. I want your love. I want you to
Jesus: This is
a rosary about love, the love that I have for you and the love
that you have for Me and the love that you have for one another.
For I have molded your hearts together, My shepherds, in My
Heart, and you are filled with great love. Go into the world.
Always love. I am Love. To be like Me, you must love.