Sidney Rosary will be

March 16, 2004 6:20 pm

at the Morrow Center.

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Schedule for March 15, 2004

Today's Gospel

Luke 13: 1-9

It was just about this time that some people arrived and told him about the Galileans whose blood Pilate had mingled with that of their sacrifices. At this he said to them, ‘Do you suppose that these Galileans were worse sinners than any others, that this should have happened to them? They were not, I tell you. No; but unless you repent you will all perish as they did. Or those eighteen on whom the tower at Siloam fell, killing them all? Do you suppose that they were more guilty than all the other people living in Jerusalem? They were not, I tell you. No; but unless you repent you will all perish as they did.’

He told this parable, ‘A man had a fig tree planted in his vineyard, and he came looking for fruit on it but found none. He said to his vinedresser, “For three years now I have been coming to look for fruit on this fig tree and finding none. Cut it down: why should it be taking up the ground?” “Sir,” the man replied, “leave it one more year and give me time to dig round it and manure it: it may bear fruit next year; if not, then you can  cut it down.” ’

March 8, 2004

Jesus speaks:      My child why do you forsake Me
                            I give you so many gifts and
                            I love you so very much.

                            You worry for little details.
                            You make little problems mountains,
                                when they are mole hills.
                            You seek after details involving
                                your money and yet you
                                abandon your spiritual life.
                            That you would focus on the
                                life hereafter.

                            Oh My child do you not wish
                                to be with Me for all eternity
                                forever and ever and ever?
                            And some say the prayers
                                forever, and ever and ever. Amen.
                            And no sooner has the breath
                                left the words they spoke
                                and it seems they have forgotten
                                what they said.

                            Some go to Church for only
                                one hour a week.
                            Some do not go at all.
                            For so little time given
                                "How do you expect to have a relationship
                                    with your God."

                            Relationships are formed from time
                                spent together, love in the heart,
                                willingness to focus on the loved one,
                                to ponder their ways,
                                to want that connection with them.

                            Some do not recognize Me.
                            Some give Me a little mite
                                just in case there might be something
                                to this "God stuff".

                            "I will dole out my little 45 minutes
                                a week to you my Savior
                                and go out and cheat my neighbor
                                and call myself a Christian."

                            A man going on a journey
                                has before his eyes
                                the destination.

                            His heart is forever aware
                                of this vision.

                            His actions are purposeful
                                directed toward this end.

                            Nere does his mind wander,
                                for this is his focus and his end.

                            Every action being purposely directed
                                toward that end,
                                every desire in his heart
                                ignited with fire for the finish line.

                            You are like the little blind men
                                wandering in uncharted territory.

                            Your eyes see nothing.
                                Your heart is not ignited.

                            The fire in your eyes
                                is gone.

                            Oh My little dumb one,
                                I speak to you this way
                                to prove a point of your
                                ignorance, but My voice
                                filled with such love that
                                it would melt your heart.

                            Sing the song Come Holy Spirit.

                            Pray that your hearts are ignited
                                with fire that you realize the
                                direction that a man on a
                                charted course, that your steps
                                are steadfast, that your breath
                                comes in short pants of enthusiasm
                                from the excitement within your
                                soul.

                            Oh stop for no man for My
                                Words are your truth for
                                I wish you to write to my
                                world that their eyes will
                                be enlightened.

                            For the dumb man has a life
                                full of folly, a wanderer is
                                he, one who has no charted
                                path, one who breaks a leg
                                to get to the end of the dead
                                end street and when he
                                gets there, goes back the way
                                he came to find a new dead
                                end street, where one that is
                                filled with sick pleasure.

                            Oh the man has no dimension in
                                his mind -- not real dimension,
                                he does not have a chartered
                                course, he is a vagabond,
                                a wanderer. The guy who
                                sees nothing more than the
                                walls of the bus, his life
                                flows aimlessly in no direction.
                                His money to him is his god.
                                His fame is so important.
                                He looks for love in all the
                                wrong places and he misses
                                My love and I woo him and
                                he says to Me, "Nay Jesus
                                Christ, I do not want to love
                               You, I do not want to give You
                                my time, my thoughts, and
                                my heart."

                                "For I seek the foolish pleasures
                                of this earth and I want to be
                                stimulated by them. A day is a
                                day, a week is a week and I
                                wander aimlessly in no direction
                                that involves my spiritual life.
                                I wake to the sound of birds, but
                                I really do not hear them and
                                reflect on the Creator that made them;
                                I see the blue skies and the trees
                                and my heart is focused on my
                                own fame, my acceptance by others,
                                my love of foolish recognition here
                                below."

                            "I want the 'dumb' man to look up to
                                me."
                            "And the smart man to 'bow' low to
                                me."
                            "I want to be noticed. I want them
                                to know that I am really something
                                to talk about."
                            "And when I get recognition from
                                others, I want more, I want
                                more to bow at my feet and
                                worship me a man. I like to
                                hear them talk about me as one
                                who is great."

                            "I want them to see me walk tall
                                and for them to say, 'There he is
                                the great man.' "

                            "For I had a friend close to me
                                that died and when I looked in
                                his coffin, I really didn't look
                                at all. The reality of his death
                                I would not let settle in my
                                soul, for I didn't want to think
                                it would ever happen to me for
                                my focus is on the here-below
                                and breath others used to praise
                                me makes me happy or so I
                                think."

                            Then Jesus says:

                                Oh My senseless brother why
                                worry you for the man who praises
                                you one day and disowns you the
                                next for he is but an imperfect
                                soldier in this rat race of this
                                earth trying to make his way,
                                he may change as quickly as the
                                wind that blows or he may
                                try to be your buddy life long
                                but your soul was created for
                                My everlasting love and you
                                scorn Me your God, your Creator,
                                your Friend, your Brother, your All.

                                Your life is temporary here
                            below. Learn a lesson from the
                            flowers that died and the trees
                            that bend to the ground and
                            wither and fade, some are struck
                            down dead by lightening.

                                For I am your God, the Creator,
                            the one who made you, watches you
                            like a little animal in a maze
                            run from one foolish pleasure to
                            another to be left empty, thirsty,
                            heart broken and longing for the
                            taste of My life inside of you
                            that can fill you and make you
                            free.

                                Oh child that you would know
                            Me, that you would long for Me,
                            that you would know My gifts are
                            everlasting, that you would know
                            that you were created for Me
                            that you would know these things
                            you search for are leaving you
                            empty.

March 8, 2004 message continues

Jesus speaks:         My dear priests, My Heart is
                            on-fire for My people. I have called
                            you to My Heart, to My Eucharistic
                            Heart to taste the pleasures of My
                            love, to tell My people of My
                            undaunted love for them -- to show
                            them through your peace and love
                            inside that you are a man of
                            holy cloth, that you have taste, the
                            joy of the Eucharist and your heart
                            is burning to tell them of this pleasure.

                                Oh My beloved priests, how deeply
                            I love thee and want to lavishly
                            outpour My love to you. You have
                            been chosen by Me to reach My
                            people, oh My priests -- they are so
                            hungry, I want you to feed them
                            with My Body and Blood.

                                Come to My Heart, give yourself
                            to Me. I am a vat of endless love --
                            you are searching and I can fill you.

                            Song: God's Love

March 8, 2004 message continues

Jesus speaks:          Can you only spend a few moments
                            with Me? You have 24 hours a day.

                            I help you to know what to do
                            when you come to be with Me. You
                            can sort out all the information all
                            that you have been given from others
                            more easily and see your answers
                            more according to God's will.

end of March 8, 2004

This book was used for our retreat

This Passion Book was designed by Jesus

         The Passion Book

For Love Of Us He Suffered

January 29, 1994 5:00a.m.

R. Quietly the Son of Man accepted death. He was led as a little lamb to the slaughter. Mary followed the nightmare path. She did not cry out to stop it. She followed. Jesus complied totally with the will of The Father!

He was God. At any moment He Himself, with all His power, could have stopped it and fixed His attackers. He could have stopped them but He continued on His way in silence and torture. He accepted the will of The Father. He was slain, He was bruised, He was bloodied, He was hit and spit on, He suffered and suffered and suffered, yet He accepted His sufferings without rebuke to His death.

He was the innocent lamb. He was led to the slaughter. He was the victim. He wore a crown of thorns. His face bloodied and beaten, blood pouring down His cheeks, His eyes covered with blood, His ears full of blood, His hair matted up, and He did not say a word! He was the Word! He could have, in an instant, stopped it all but He came to do this and He accepted it all willingly for love of us.

What love He has for us, to go through such torture to a death on the cross! He hung, His arms outstretched in acceptance, nailed down as if not able to move. But He was God. He could have at any moment come off the cross, but He did not. He was silent. He loved us so much!

This is God. Out of greatest love for us and obedience to His Father, He went through this torture in silence and to the point of death. His love so great, His thoughts on us, He gave us His beautiful mother as our mother.

Who are we that God loves us so? Who are we that God came to earth a man and undertook all this for us? Who are we? We are His chosen people. What does He ask of us in return? Only love! He, in His great love, went through such a brutal Passion and death willingly and He asks us to love Him and love one another. He gave love that we may see how to love. He gave His all for love of us.

Who are we that we feel alone and unloved? We only need to see Him hanging on that cross, His hands outstretched, crowned with thorns, nails pounded into His hands and feet, covered with blood, to know how God loved us! God The Father, to send His only Son as a victim, God the Son to suffer so brutally and God the Holy Spirit for His love in the Blessed Mother to bring forth such a child, God-made-man!

God is as He is. He is all loving. Do we understand this love? Never can we, with our feeble minds, understand this love of God. I do not understand His love. It is the love of God and I am a mere human. I know He loves me. I have no idea what the love of God is all about. I cannot understand it, not in my earthly form.

Oh, Jesus, open me to Your love. Let me meditate more on Your Passion to realize how You truly love us. It is in understanding Your love that I am freed. I need worry of nothing when God loves me this much. What more do I need when I see His love? I need not the love of the world. I can give His love back to the world. I see His love. I love Him and I love my brothers. Help me, Lord, to know Your love, to love my brothers and to love You.

The more I realize His love for me, the less I need human love. I need only His love. The more I realize His love, the more I can love my brothers. I do not come from a place of needing love, but from a place of giving love, giving His love to others through me.

Help me, Lord, to be closer and closer to You. Help me to accept my trials and learn of Your love. Do not let me throw back into Your face the opportunities to know You and Your ways better.

Oh, sweet, loving lesson taught from Our Lord! He sits with us at His feet. He is clothed in a white tunic and a red mantle. With His hands outstretched He tells us His beautiful lessons. We, His little ones, sit and listen to His teachings.

Every day in our lives is such a day for His teachings. Every day He sits and every day we can listen and be taught by the Master. Oh, Lord, make me know Your ways more clearly in the teachings You give me every day in my life. Thank You for the little trials which so sweetly teach us Your ways. We are tested in fire. What comes forth is a sinner or a saint. Lord, help me to emerge from Your fire a saint. Let my eyes be opened wide by the Holy Spirit so I have the wisdom and understanding to know all You teach me daily. Open me up. Let my life be an open door for You to come in and use me as You so desire. Mold me, fashion me, teach me, live in me, make me selfless to You, my Lord, so You can operate from me. I am Yours. I give You my all.

Oh, Lord, it is not we who do this work. It is by the fire of Your love that we are tested and emerge as Your vessels. Oh, how I love Thee, Lord, all holy, all magnificent, all good. Who are we to have such a good God. We are His heirs. We have a divine lineage. We are His! If I run to the heavens or to the mountains, wherever I go, I will never be able to run from my God. He begot us to be His and I am fooling myself. Make me Yours, God. I give You my all!

Jesus: You will learn mighty lessons in your trials. I am the teacher, you are My pupil. Walk the Passion with Me, take up your cross, follow Me. The way to Me is the Way of the Cross.

The world is out for the world. It follows idle pursuits. Its main goal is to have instant pleasure. It seeks not for the hereafter. It busies itself with all the details at hand. It operates in a box, unable to see the view in front of it, instant pleasure and gratification.

R. There is before you the unseen world. You can see the workings of the Lord. You can know how real this world truly is, but only by power of the Lord. Lord, make me know Your ways. Holy Spirit, remove the blinders from my eyes and give me clear vision. Take the box from me and let me see with new eyes. Give me Your gifts and open me up.

Jesus: I am Jesus, Son of God. I am present at every moment, by your very side. I am your teacher. I am your love. I am your God. If you do not pray, pray to the Holy Spirit and The Father, you will miss all there is to see.

end of February 29, 1994

          

PASSION

March 12, 1994 (excerpt)

Jesus: ...Surrender your life to Me. I am asking you to give Me yourself and let Me operate from you. You give Me bits and pieces--this is not what I ask.

Look at Me, dying on the cross for love of you. I spread My arms, I gave My all. I had not even a place to lay My head. It hung in midair. Can you not surrender yourself to Me? This is My urgent plea.

I loved you to My death. Come and let go. You cannot love Me and hold on to anything. You cannot let go and hold on at the same time. I want your all.

I love you. Jesus.

 

March 12, 1994 (excerpt)

Jesus: ... I want a love affair with My people. This will feed the sick world. This will light the lights that shine in the darkness. Satan wants this stopped. He hates Me and he wants no one drawn to My Sacred Heart. I am calling on you. Pick on details and all are suffering for the loss of the love of God. I am present and am crying, bleeding, suffering from the indifference to Me in Communion and the lack of love for Me. ...

end of excerpt from March 12, 1994

Excerpt from Rosary on December 5, 1996: Jesus speaks:  I am alive, I am alive. I am alive. My beloved ones, I show you My face. Do you see the body of a man? Do you see Me alive on the cross? I am speaking to you but the world does not hear. They do not hear the message that I deliver to them. You must pray fervently. You must come to Me that I can be one in you and that I can operate through you as you go into the world this day. I love you. I love you with the most tender love. I am Jesus. I am alive. You are My main soldiers that I will send into the world to lead the strayed ones to My Heart. The days ahead will be dark days. You must come to My Heart and take shelter in My Heart. It is there that you will be rooted on a firm rock. For My Heart is your home. You will not know the terrors of the night if you stay rooted in My Heart. Division is blackness in the heart. You must not be divided, divided from anyone. You must remain in union with all men. You must see yourselves as part of the Father's family. Each one of you is so important to the Father's plan.

end of excerpt from rosary of December 5, 1996

I Want You Holy (excerpt)

January 27, 1994 2:00 a.m.

Jesus: ...Meditate on My Passion. Think of My scourging, My Blood, My sorrowful mother. Think of all I suffered. Such horror your mind cannot comprehend, and I was God. Meditate on My wounds and My mother by My side and then know more our love for you. I loved you so much as to suffer for you. The understanding of My intense love is enhanced by studying the Passion.

I loved you to My death, beaten, battered, bruised and bloodied--weak almost to the point of death all the way. But My death came slowly and My suffering was intense, all out of love for you. I stretched My arms wide and I surrendered as a little lamb being slaughtered, willingly and lovingly for love of you. My mother suffered so by My side. She suffered with such pain and she loves you so because I loved you so! My mother is indeed your mother! Such a mother to behold!...

end of Excerpt from January 27, 1994

I Long For You! (excerpt)

February 2, 1994 5:10 a.m.

Jesus:  ...Read and re-read anything that is a worthy source concerning the Passion. It is in studying My way to Calvary that you understand My immense love. It is in understanding My immense love that you are able to love your brothers for Me.

I am the Way, the Truth and the Life. I come to you in Holy Communion, the same Jesus that died on the Cross out of so much love.

end of excerpt from February 2, 1994

Your Bridegroom Waits for You (excerpt)

February 11, 1994 4:00 a.m.

Jesus: When I died on the cross, My arms were open wide. My whole position on the cross was that of greatest surrender. I call you to this surrender. Hold not back your feeble hearts. Open wide the gates and let My love pour from your very souls. Do not come to Me with your arms closed or open halfway. Come as I came to you. The way to Me is the Way of the Cross.

Feel the love of Jesus deep in your breast. Meditate on Me, hanging so selflessly on the cross for love of you. I am Jesus, Son of God, I loved you to My death. I love you this same way this very day. Sweet one, if you were the only one, I would die for you alone this very day. 

I am this same Jesus. I am in your midst. I live and dwell in your brothers. I come to you, Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity, in Holy Communion and in the tabernacle. I am Jesus Christ, Son of the Living God! I am alive in your hearts. ...

end of excerpt from February 11, 1994

His True Love

March 12, 1994

Jesus: I am Jesus Christ and I alone sustain you. I am testing you, child, for what you will suffer. You will be taught constantly. You will know truly. Others move in and out. I am your lover. I wait by your side. I never leave you. I do not change--one day I am here, one day I am not. This is how people are! They are self-centered. Love is giving of oneself for the love of the other. I held not back one speck of Myself. I died for love of you. I do not make you wait. I am there at every second in the tabernacle and I wait for you. I do not get angry. I love you only as God can. No man can ever come close to My love for you. I love you unconditionally.

You will learn the lessons I so sweetly teach you. You need this testing to grow in your assuredness of Me. I am truly by your side. I talk to you all day. You know this. Never doubt Me for I am always with you. I am Jesus, the Son of God. Look what they did to Me. They persecuted Me. They led Me away as a robber. They scourged Me. What had I done? When they persecute you, remember what they did to Me. They did not listen to Me and I was God. Man is filled with ego and self. He goes to the world to check the story of God. He misses all that I am giving Him here. The world does not know what I tell you here. Only I know these things. Do not go to the world to check out the things of God. How silly to check out divinity by humanity. Man is so foolish in his ways. I sit here, the Son of God, and who pays heed? I am Jesus Christ, the Son of God. I write to you. The wise will listen. The foolish will remain ignorant.

Whatever I give you is not enough. I, Jesus Christ, the Son of God, write to you and you want more proof. My love I pour out to you at this very moment. Relish the gifts you are given and the gifts I give to you at this very moment. The gift I give to you in the Eucharist is Myself! I am Jesus Christ, the Son of God, the same Jesus that was born and died for you, and I come now and dwell in your breast. Oh, little ones, to behold God, with all His love, in your heart! God, Son of God, comes to you and is within your body. I am the source of all love. I loved you ardently to My death. How can I shake you?

I am Jesus, the Son of God. I am speaking here in your heart after Communion. Do others hear or do they do their own will? I cannot make this any clearer. I am Jesus Christ, the Son of God. You, child, are missing God because you go to the world for your answers. The world knows no answers about Me. Come to Me and I will teach you the ways of God. Go to mere mortals and you receive answers from mere mortals. I can tell you in one instant what the world will never know. This takes faith.

My children are so lucky and yet they do not relish such a gift. I want to give My love letters to My people. I am asking you to do this for Me. You go to people who have no knowledge and they create doubt in you. You cannot doubt! If you do not believe, who will deliver these messages?

I am talking to you, My children. I am giving you these messages. Who will do this work? You want proof? Look at Me, dying on the cross in total surrender. I held not back one speck of Myself. Judge for yourself by My selflessness. Become selfless and unattached to all persons, places and things that take you from My intimate love. No man can give you what God wants to give you in His abundance.

Search you this barren desert and find a dry land. I have a land brimming with milk and honey. I give you all you need. You look, you search, you find mere mortals with opinions. I speak directly to you and you do not listen. Only God could have accomplished what you have done here. It is love that you received from Me in Communion and in front of the tabernacle, and these letters that have given you strength, and you doubt the source of all that has fed you?

What more can I do? Go ye to mere mortals and get mere mortals' answers, when I, God, have chosen you and am talking to you? You are missing the source of your strength. My ways I am making clear to you in My way. You want Me to come and give you a hand-delivered message. I talk in the inner promptings of your heart. You want someone to make you sure. Faith is faith!!

If you operate for love of Me alone and know that I ardently loved you to My death and would die for love of you this day, why do you offend Me by going to mortals and asking questions when I am talking just to you here?

Your trials I allow to strengthen you. My hand is in everything you experience. I allow you to go through trials to draw you to Me in the tabernacle. Your answers are found from Me. Satan is working so hard to stop these letters and people talking about Me. He will work hard on anyone he can to stop this. You know how you have been fed and grown in your love of Me.

I am the Son of God. I have all the answers. I am talking to you and your problem is coming from your doubt. You hold the key to spread the ardent love of Jesus to the world, to bring men to Me and share My love with them, to sit in front of My tabernacle, and you go to those who scarcely speak about the love of Jesus and listen to what they say?

I want a love affair with My people. This will feed the sick world. This will light the lights that shine in the darkness. Satan wants this stopped. He hates Me and he wants no one drawn to My Sacred Heart. I am calling on you. Pick on details and all are suffering for the loss of the love of God. I am present and am crying, bleeding, suffering from the indifference to Me in Communion and the lack of love for Me.

This society is godless. Time is so short. My seeds need to be planted. Surrender your life to Me. I am asking you to give Me yourself and let Me operate from you. You give Me bits and pieces--this is not what I ask.

Look at Me, dying on the cross for love of you. I spread My arms, I gave My all. I had not even a place to lay My head. It hung in midair. Can you not surrender yourself to Me? This is My urgent plea.

I loved you to My death. Come and let go. You cannot love Me and hold on to anything. You cannot let go and hold on at the same time. I want your all.

I love you. Jesus.

end of March 12, 1994

Surrender

March 10, 1994

Jesus: This is surrender. I want your all. I do not want you attached to any person or any thing. I want you completely dependent on Me. Do I teach you such lessons on how attached you are to others and things? I have all the answers. If I do not tell you, you do not need to know. You want your will. My will I make known to you in front of the tabernacle. I have spoken here.

Surrender is doing the will of God and it is not your deciding and doing your will. I want your all. I want you to do those things the way I tell you. It is not the way you want to do them. Sweet surrender, only to find I want more. Look at My position on the cross. Did I ask you to die for Me? I ask you to do My Will. I ask you to surrender. I ask for time in front of the tabernacle. I ask for love. Watch this world go up in your face. Then where are your possessions, the things you held on to? You only have limited vision. I know all things.

I am so tired. You do not give but bits and pieces. You hold on to what you want and give Me some. I want your all. I want total surrender. I showed you how to surrender when I died on the cross. I am not asking for this. I am asking for you to do My will. You are so attached to pleasing people that you do not see the whole picture. I make My ways clear here. You do not listen. You do what you think is a good thing and you do not even come to Me. I want your all. I want surrender.

R. Love includes giving up what you don't want to give up. Love is saying, "Yes, Lord", even when you would rather do it your way. It is in your surrender and love of God that you teach mighty lessons to those around you. You teach by your being in love with Jesus. I love you, Jesus. I give of My bounty, not little bits and pieces I stingily let go of. Jesus, my Lord, my God, my All, how can I love You as I ought? Do I give My all, or do I say, "Oh, Lord, you can't mean that you want this," and hold on to what I want.

Do I hold on to people and don't even know it, or do I put You first, Lord, above all persons, places and things? I see how really attached I am to everything, things I do not even know I am attached to. It is easy to give lip service to surrender and tell God to possess our soul and make me selfless, but do I really mean it? This is what keeps us from increased union with Him! It is in total surrender, of living for love of Him and Him alone, that we are free. And what freedom! The bittersweetness to let go, to find freedom from all we hold on to! The things we hold on to most are what keeps us from our increased union with Him.

"Oh, not that, Lord! Oh, do I look at your crucifix and see You letting go?" You held not one thing back. Your arms open wide, nailed to the cross! Total surrender!

What does He ask of me today that I want to hold on to? Holding on to things stops my freedom. To be totally free, I must let go. I cannot hold on and let go at the same time. Freedom is obtained in letting go. See yourself with your arms tight, holding on to all you possess.

Jesus: I call you to surrender. Open your arms as I did when I died on the cross. Let all your sacred worldly possessions drop around you and you will experience the joy of being free, united only to Me, of letting go and knowing that I, God, tend to your every need. To My death on the cross I loved you and I love you this way this very day. Let go and give it all to Me. I will care for you far better than you could for yourself. I am God and I love you more than you can love yourself.

Jesus is dead, hanging on the cross, arms outstretched. His feet are not even on the ground. He is hanging by nails on a piece of wood. What do we hold on to? He wants us in midair in total surrender. Oh, little ones, how you squander your possessions. How you hold on to people. How you won't let go. See Me in total surrender.

I gave My very life for you. What do you hold on to, My little ones? Little bits and pieces you give to Me and you hold tight to your lives. They will be up in smoke and all that will remain will be the things of God. Not one pair of shoes do you take with you, only your love, given to God and others.

end of March 10, 1994

Could I Die On A Cross? (excerpt)

March 14, 1994 Before Mass

R. Could I see myself giving willingly as Christ did, allowing people to do to me what they did to Him, and be silent? To be led away, when He had all the power? To see myself put on a cross and let people nail me there when I could have stopped it? Could I see myself giving my body over like that?

He does not ask this of us. He is asking for our surrender and to do His will. To think of giving my body over and having someone nail me to a cross, with little clothing, then hanging in midair! And He did it willingly, for love of us and in obedience to His Father!

What does He ask me to do that I hold back? What does He ask me to surrender? What is He calling me to?

Song:  Jesus walked this Lonesome Valley

After Mass   

R. The world is numb to God's existence. He is totally here with us this very day. The things of God are all that matters. It is so sad to see the people walk around, so blind to God's existence, as if they are here and this life is the end in itself. ...

end of excerpt from March 14, 1994

My Heart Aches for You (excerpt)

March 13, 1994 5:45 p.m.

Jesus: I suffered, sweet one. I suffered, bloodied, bruised and beaten. Blood rolled down My cheeks. My head was pierced with sharp thorns. They spat on Me. They whipped Me. They beat Me on My head, My precious head. They hit Me on My thorns and the pain was so intense--the piercing thorns! I was slapped hard by these senseless ones. Oh, such evil in the hearts of those who beat Me, the Son of God!

My whole Body ached from head to toe. I suffered so, My child. You will never know how I suffered for love of you. I am God and I loved all My precious ones to My death--and they ignore Me!

Oh, how I suffer from this wounded heart. They will never know what love I have to give them. They will never know how I, God, love them. They are so busy with their worldly lives!

You must tell them how I wait for them. I wait. I want them to come and I will give them such love! Tell them, Rita, tell them! Your discontent is from what emotions I give you and you keep them inside. I want all to know Me and My love. I am crying out to you, little one. Tell them, tell them. Do not waste any time. I am crying out for you to spread this message. I want you to tell all of My love and how I am waiting. Emotion! Emotion! I am crying out to you in your heart!

Ready yourself for a big boom. No one is listening. I am crying out to you. Prepare your brothers. They are in darkness. Their souls are dying inside of them. Some come to Me with such indifference in Communion. I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus.

end of excerpt from March 13, 1994

   

    

I Am Calling You to Love (excerpt)

February 21, 1994

Jesus: Focus on My Passion. See Me bloodied, bruised, beaten, crowned with thorns, My hands tied. See Me weak and worn and and trudging on My way to Calvary. See Me agonizing over love of you. Think of this, My child, how much I love you to come to this earth--God, to be born a mere human for love of thee and then to suffer such brutality for love of you.

I loved you to My death on this cross. I withstood such horridness, profuse bleeding, wounds, insults, mistreatment, kicking, spitting and poking. I, God-made-man, walked this awful journey to Calvary. I walked it alone. I watched My mother suffer such anguish! This alone was such torment! What more could I do for love of you? What more can I say now? What more do you want? What more, My child?

end of excerpt from February 21, 1994

  

Song: Jesus walked this Lonesome Valley 

      

   

You Love Always (excerpt)

March 18, 1994 7:15 a.m.
At All Saints, After Communion

R. Dear Jesus, how holy is my soul? I do not see it as you desire. Do I judge my brothers? Do I compare myself to them and tell myself that I am right and they are wrong? Why do I judge at all? My job is to love, to love You with all my heart. My job is to preach Your gospel, to emit Your love from my very being!

When I am caught up in being wronged by my brother, how can Your love radiate to anyone? I am a clogged vessel and the love You want to give to those around me is trapped behind my anger.

Oh Lord, open my heart to Your ways. How easy for Satan to talk in my head and tell me how I should be feeling when I have a job to do. This job is more serious than any worldly job. This job is to spread Your love to a world that is hurting. When I am a clogged vessel, all those around me suffer from the loss of love they would receive if my heart were open and love were flowing out to them.

Oh, how Satan is so crafty as to steal our hearts away and fill them with such impurities, thoughts of anger at our brothers! How easily I comply. This is the self in me. Have I been wronged? Have I been threatened? Will someone think badly of me? Lord, help me to be selfless, to live only for love of You and to know You truly love me, to want not to answer any accusations of others, to remain silent when attacked unless You prompt me to speak.

Control my tongue as the doorway from my heart. Control my heart. Keep it full of Your love and free of all impurities. I want a heart that is free of hate and anger. I have a job to do, Lord, and it is to spread Your love. This job is a top priority. I receive all my love and support from You, Lord. Is that not enough or am I not thinking of how immense is the love of God?

Sing: Your Love is Enough for me

Sing: Come unto Me all who are weary

Jesus: Come to Me, all who are weary and heavily burdened and I give you rest. I fill you with such love. I am God. I am love. Why focus on your suffering brothers? Because they are suffering from the evil of this world. You need not suffer if you turn to Me. I have all you need. I never abandon you or leave you. I am by your side. I, Jesus, walk with you where you go, and with such love. The love of God is all-encompassing. When I am by your side, why do you fret because of your ailing brothers? Pray for them. Some are in total darkness. How will My light shine from you if you are clogged with any anger or hatred? You must remain fixed only in love--love of God, love of one another!

Put your anger aside and look to My suffering face. I loved you all to My death. I did not count the cost. I did not number your sins. I loved you. I forgave you. I loved you unconditionally. I gave My all for you. Can you not do this for your brothers? I suffered for the sins of men and I was silent. I speak of My love. I do not speak of your sins. Who of you are sinless? If you expect Me to forgive you, can you not forgive your brothers when they have wronged you?

I am the light that shines through you to the dark world. I want to shine from your hearts. To have the least taint of hate and anger blocks My light from your souls. Clean out your hearts every minute. Let the hate and anger go! Do not let it fester and grow in your hearts. Keep your hearts pure only in the love of God. When your brother wrongs you, forgive him instantly. Do not let Satan talk in your head. Do not let self come to the front lines. Be ready to withstand the attack. Remain selfless and unattached.

I live in you and you live in Me. You are immersed in a vat of My love. My might shines from your being. Your brothers are suffering. Love them, watch them in their suffering and see them as My precious ones in need of My love. They are hurting so. Will you not tend to their bleeding wounds? Or will you scoff at them and go on your way?

This world is suffering. The only cure is the love of God. You have the opportunity to spread My love or act like the world. How can I love My sick ones if you act as they do? Did I argue on the way to Calvary? Did I answer their accusations and say, "Oh, I didn't do that?" I was silent! Can you not remain silent when you are accused? Can you not turn to Me and pick up your cross and see My suffering face?

I suffer for how they are hurting you. But to strike back in anger is not the way of love. This is not My way. My way is to love. I loved those who whipped Me. I loved those who crowned My head with thorns. I loved those who spit at Me and yelled obscenities at Me. I loved you all in all your sins! I loved you to My death! I showed you the way to love. I showed you the way to forgive. I showed you the way.

Why do you look to the ways of the suffering? If they scoff at and persecute you and yell any slander against you, focus on the love of your Father in heaven Who gave His only Son for love of you! The way of God is the way of love. Any taint of anger, of hatred, of getting even, of being wronged and making yourself right, is the way of the evil one.

My ways are steadfast and direct. I operate from love. Stay rooted firmly in the love of God. See Me suffering, beaten, bloodied, crowned, slapped, kicked, slandered--and every vile thing yelled at Me. See Me, see Me and then see Me dying on the cross in sweet surrender, arms outstretched, hanging by nails, head hanging--all out of great and ardent love for you!

I showed you how to love. Can you not forgive your suffering brothers? Can you not love? I loved to My death. Can you not let go of such little things coming from them who are hurting? You are My soldiers in this cold war. Your weapons are your hearts filled with the ardent, on-fire love of Jesus. Your hearts are powerful. God has all the power. Love finds the way. The only way to warm a cold heart is through the warmth of love, true love, unconditional love, that I give to you. Love always. I loved you to My death. Will you love My hurting ones for Me? Can I use you to light the dark world? I call this day. Will you answer?

The way to Me is the Way of the Cross. Do you see your life as the way to Me? Each day is a day on the way to the end which is heaven, hell or purgatory. Do you see yourself as making it for this life or for everlasting life? Oh, if only children were taught to see their lives in their entirety, from beginning to end, only to go to another place. If only children were taught to see that this is a "layover", not the end in itself!

Look at your life. You are on your way to somewhere else. This is a journey to get you to another place. If you are traveling, you do not camp out on the train, or try to make your vehicle an end in itself. You are in transit to another life. You have not arrived. You have not come to your destiny.

I am the Way. I am the Truth. I am the Life. To have eternal life you must model yourself after the Master. I loved you to My death. I love you this much this day. I gave My life for you. Do you not believe that to turn to Me is to give you all you need?

Follow Me. I show you the Way. You need to be led to the kingdom that waits for you. If you follow other leaders, they take you from the correct way. Only one way leads to My kingdom. It is the way I showed you. It is the way I show you this day. Would you go to a tour guide who knows the way or to one who is guessing?

Your brothers are following paths that lead to destruction. I show you the way to the kingdom of heaven. Why would you follow an amateur who knows not the way? You pay the price for your foolishness. My way is the Way of the Cross. If you try to find another way more to your liking, you get off course. The way to My kingdom is led by Me. I am with you this day in the Eucharist and in the tabernacle. Will you come and sit with Me in silence and listen when I give you your directions or will you go to a bad guide and try to find a short cut?

There is no short cut to My kingdom. My way is the only way. Pick up your cross and follow Me. Do not try to put your crosses down. Accept what I send you as coming from Him Who loves you. It is in this acceptance that you grow in your relationship with Me. My hand is in everything you experience.

See Me clothed in a white tunic, My love radiating from My being. See My hand outstretched as I walk before you and say, "Sweet one, this is the way to My kingdom. I bring you such love along the way. You will suffer, but My love will see you through. Come and follow as I lead. I walk before you backwards, right in front of you. Do you not see Me? Keep your eyes on Me, sweet one. I love you so. I will never lead you off the right road. I lead you with such love and peace. You will not know all My love here, sweet one, but when we get to My kingdom, what a reward for following Me! My house has many mansions. I have a place prepared just for you. I ardently love you. I am your Jesus, Son of the Living God. I come, you follow. We will live in My kingdom soon."

9:45 a.m.

Jesus: Unless a grain of wheat dies, it does not produce fruit. Such dying must be cultivated by obedience and your covenant with God, rooted in love and forgiveness. Die to yourself and live in My love, child. Child, I love you. Do you know now?

R. Jesus, I believe. Jesus, I believe. Jesus, I believe. I believe in you.

You know that what I tell you is truth. Do not even think. I will bring them to you. You remain set in your place. Pray all day. Be busy about My work. I need you to do My work for Me.

end of excerpt from March 18, 1994

Words of Surrender of a Soul

I Loved You to My Death

March 26, 1994 4:30 a.m.

R. I want to cry and cry out, "Oh, how He died for you! How He suffered! How He was beaten and bloodied, how He suffered and how dear, dear Mary, watched her precious Son with such suffering!" The Father, to allow this, to will it for love of us!

By His death, we were saved. He suffered so for love of us! What does He ask of you this day? Meditate on His Passion. Ask Him to let you feel His pain. It is in feeling this pain, His surrender, that you will come to know His great love.

To lay down your life! He stood there and allowed them to beat Him and tear His flesh, to whip Him. God allowed this because He loved us so much!

Jesus: I loved you, My sweet ones. When you love someone, you can endure anything for love of them. They hit Me and tore My flesh. They yelled every kind of false word against Me--Me, God-made-man-and I endured it because I love you.

If you only knew a little of My love, child! I suffered all this for love of you and I would do this again this very day. I love you this very day. I would walk My walk to Calvary again today. What made Me endure it was My ardent love for you. Oh, sweet ones, listen to Me this day. Do not turn a deaf ear to My pleading. I am Jesus Christ, the Son of God. I am He Who suffered a brutal death for love of you. I walked the walk. I, in surrender, subjected Myself to death on the cross and I did it for love of you, My sweet ones.

Think of this Passion. Think of My suffering. It is in this you will come to know how I love you.

Tell your brothers. Tell them, I beg you, to spread this message. I am Jesus Christ, the Son of God, and I am alive this day in the Eucharist and in the tabernacle. I am the same Jesus who died a brutal death for you.

I wait for you. I cry for your love. I am suffering this day because I see this suffering world. I feel your pain, I suffer with the souls who are hurting. I have all you need. I am God, I have all the power. You were created to know, love and serve Me. I have all you need.

To My death on the cross, I showed you how to love. Your brothers are hurting, they are blind. Do not respond to them with hatred and anger. Respond with My love. You are My light to this world. You are My voice. You I call to deliver My message of love. Will you answer My call?

Sing:  You Are the Voice

My mother suffered so for love of you! She is My beautiful mother of love. She loves you. She is always with Me. When you receive Me in the Eucharist, she is there. She is beside Me when you come to the tabernacle. We are always with you. Do not fret and fume and despair. This is from Satan. He wants you bowed down. I cannot operate if you are giving in to Satan. He hates Me and wants you to hate your brothers, to be divided. I want you united to light up My city. You are the lights that shine in this dark world.

end of March 26, 1994

You Are the Light in the Darkness (excerpt)

September 18, 1993

Jesus speaks:  Your power radiates from within or it is squelched by the devil and does not radiate at all. I create an energy in you. Stay focused in Me. You are not affected by those around you. When I died on the cross, nothing they said or did affected the way I was. My light was fixed. It shone on them who nailed Me to the cross. It shone in the darkness and many were saved who watched Me. Let your light shine for all the world to see. It is I Who am your generator. Like the houses in Medjugorje, only the houses with generators lit up the night. Others were pitch black. When the generator kicked in, the lights shone so bright in the darkness. You shine more when you are surrounded by darkness if you stay fixed in Me. I shone brightly at My death. In such brutality My light shone as the brightest light. In the night you must shine. Many are living in darkness. You do not go there.

end of September 18, 1994

                         A city set on a hill will shine to
                            this darkened world. Many will
                            come and carry the light to other
                            places. Like the ripples on a pond,
                            the light you shed will go to the
                            ends of the earth.

                         Vision from Mary July 2, 1993
                             The seas are parted
                             the edges are dark, but
                             the center is white light.

Mary speaks:     The light surrounds you.

                         The darkness presses in on most sides,
                             but a pillow of light surrounds your life and
                             although it is troublesome and a burden,
                             you are surrounded by light -
                             The light shines, shines in the darkness
                             and you are not engulfed by the fears of
                             this world.

                         You have peace in your heart.

                         I am the Queen of Peace.

                         Warmth is upon you -
                             feel the chill, but the warmth
                             is not far behind: it is
                             definitely there, my beautiful child.

                         I am your Mother and I am with you.
                             See this pillow of light.

Messenger:     Saw Our Lady - July 2, 1993
                             surrounded by light, with
                             the Child Jesus.

Jesus speaks:   A city set on a hill will shine 
                             to the world.

                             Mary has called you to this Center.

                             Mary wants you to shed light to
                                 the world through these letters.

                             Mary appears to lead you to My
                                 intimate love.

                             Mary is the Lady of Light.

Messenger:          The love of Jesus in
                         our hearts will light up the
                         world.
                         Jesus wants union with Him.
                         This oneness we have with Jesus is
                             so important.

                         His love will shine from us.

                         His light will light up the dark world.

                   Sing: City of God

You Love Always

Excerpt from March 18, 1994 7:15 a.m.
At All Saints, After Communion

Jesus:  I am the light that shines through you to the dark world. I want to shine from your hearts. To have the least taint of hate and anger blocks My light from your souls. Clean out your hearts every minute. Let the hate and anger go! Do not let it fester and grow in your hearts. Keep your hearts pure only in the love of God. When your brother wrongs you, forgive him instantly. Do not let Satan talk in your head. Do not let self come to the front lines. Be ready to withstand the attack. Remain selfless and unattached.

I live in you and you live in Me. You are immersed in a vat of My love. My might shines from your being. Your brothers are suffering. Love them, watch them in their suffering and see them as My precious ones in need of My love. They are hurting so. Will you not tend to their bleeding wounds? Or will you scoff at them and go on your way?

This world is suffering. The only cure is the love of God.

end of excerpt from March 18, 1994

Forgive and Ask For Forgiveness

March 26, 1994

Jesus:  My sweet one, the heart of God has no room for any anger and hate. You must stay rooted in love of Me. Relinquish any attachment to being wronged. You must forgive and be sorry for any of your words. You must always remain steadfast in My love. To get angry is not to spread My love. I am constantly by your side. Satan wants to create division. Only in union will My work be accomplished.

Pray for forgiveness. Forgive all those who have injured you. Your heart must be pure and full of love. I am Jesus Christ, the Son of God. You need a pure heart to love. I command you to love God and love one another. If others offend you, be silent. I was silent when they scoffed at and persecuted Me.

You will suffer from those closest to you. Pray for their fear. Do not get angered. Pray for union with your brothers. My work is only accomplished in love. Satan taunts all those involved to create division. Speak only from a position of love. You must love as I loved you. I loved those who persecuted Me. Love all those who are hurting. Pray for their fear. I am here, little one. I never leave your side. I will always watch out for you. When God loves you as I do, it wounds Me that you get so caught up in others. I am here and I am God and I love you. Your brothers are suffering. You must always love in order to do My work.

You will be tested. You will be tried. You must rid yourself of all anger. Let go. Surrender. Fall into My loving arms. I am here waiting to catch you when you let go. Clean your heart at every second. Satan is lurking about to divide you and cause dissension. I am God and I speak to you. Do not give in to Satan. You must remain My light that shines in the dark night. I Love You!

end of March 26, 1994

I Need You United

March 26, 1994

R. I realize more now how Mary's hand is always with us. She is present after Communion. I feel her presence all day. Wherever Jesus is, Mary is also. She is our loving mother. What love! Who are we to be so lucky to have such a loving mother and loving Father? The Father loved us so much He gave us His only Son. Oh, Father, you are so good to us. My beautiful Father and mother!

Mary herself suffered at the beginning of Your conception. She was not accepted but she said "yes". Do I say, "Yes, Lord", even when the road is tough? You, Jesus, said "yes" to The Father. Mary said "yes". Doing Your will is saying "yes". It is doing what you want, not what we decide is a good work. Doing Your will is not doing what I want to do. It is doing Your will, whether I want to do it or don't want to do it!

The more I love Jesus, the more I am compelled to do the will of God by such love. I aim to please My God and not offend Him. I love Him so much. What does He ask you to surrender to? Will you say "yes" or "no"?

Jesus: I am calling you to do My work. I am calling you to love. I am calling you to stay united. I am calling you not to give in to Satan's tauntings to divide you. Satan's grip is paralyzing and crippling. He lurks about and seeks to trip you up in your weakness. You must pray constantly to ward off his attacks to divide you. I need you united to do this work. I need you to stay rooted in love, always to love your brother. If he attacks you, be silent, offer it up, pray. See him suffering and needing your love. Do not respond in anger. To act as others act is not to spread My love. I call you to love of God, love of one another!

I am Jesus Christ, the Son of God. Will you say "yes" to love? Love is that by which this world will be healed. You are preaching about the ardent on-fire love of Jesus Christ. I call you to love one another, not to have anger. I call you to an ardent love of your brothers. I call you to love all of your brothers. You cannot be angry at one person and serve Me properly. Will you say "yes"?

I am Jesus Christ. I am the tenderest of all hearts. I come to you with deepest love. Suffer My Passion with Me. My heart was full of love and they whipped Me and beat Me, tenderest of all hearts, full of love for them who beat Me! It hurts to have those you love hurt you. I love you, sweet one, with My Godly love. I am all you need. I never change. I love you unconditionally. I love you the same each day. You learn such lessons in your trials! I am Jesus. I am here and I am your Savior.

R. Alleluia. Praise Him who ministers to our wounded hearts as no human can. He is God. He is Almighty. He is our all, world without end. Alleluia.

Jesus: When they persecute you and yell anything against you, they did it to Me first and they do it to Me again when they mistreat you. You are never alone. My mother is with you. She walked My walk on Calvary. Though we did not touch, our hearts were joined in such union. She walks with you the streets of this cold, self-centered world. She walks with you in your walk toward heaven. She is your loving mother. You are her beloved child.

Oh, child,