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April 2, 2008
April 3rd Holy Spirit Novena
Scripture selection is Day 5 Period II.The Novena Rosary Mysteries
for April 3rd are Luminous.
The April 3, 2008 Prayer Service
will be from 12:00 noon - 4:00pm.
April 5, 2008 6:20
Usual 5th service
Rita will do rosary Florida building
China Retreat Rita
April 10, 11, 12, 13
Mass April 10, 11, 12
April 1, 2008
16 years ago October 5, 1992 - 3:30am Messenger:
Dear Jesus, Give me Your hand to write this book for you. I am your
servant. I want to be Your hand to this world. If you, Lord Jesus,
would write a book, what would you say? Jesus:
My dear children, Today I come to
deliver a message to each of you. I want to tell you of each
person's dignity, of their beauty and their self-worth. Each child
is, oh, so uniquely precious to My Most Sacred Heart. Each child is
full of the talents I have given to them. Each person is divinely
created by God and given all these gifts to be happy and love one
another. The problem comes when
you feel you will be left out. That you will be left by another who
has trodden on you and will do it again. I see you all as My most
precious children. I watch your every move and know all pain and
anguish in your heart. My Heart aches, you have insecure feelings
about yourself. I came to this earth I died for you. I felt cold,
hungry, lonely on this earth. You need not worry that no one knows
the pain and anguish in your heart. God created you with such
special gifts and talents. It is important for you to raise above
your wound and forgive those who hurt you. You need only turn
your will and your life over to Me and I will guide you in all your
ways. I have all the Power. Many are not of My ways. The key to life
is to recognize your faults, but still know you are this precious
gift of My Father a gift to this world. This world is in need of
your strength. Running yourself down, blaming others hurting them
can cause you misery and pain. At this very moment, you are the
precious creation of God!! You must operate with Me in your heart. You need not run
yourself down. I am with you every day guiding your ways, lest your
foot stumble and you lose your way. You will not wander far from
your path if every day you keep bringing your focus back to Me.
If you dare let Me be at the helm, if you dare to really let Me run
your life, I will do with you such wonders that you yourself would
be amazed. But you will know with such ease when you did these
things that you did not do them alone. You will know My power,
moving the mountain, My power chipping at the stone, My power
working on your hardest problem and you will be set free. Oh yes, you will be
set free and know a serenity that only comes from letting go and
letting Me run your life. To you, My child, I have given all that is
good. I made you My holy soldier, My warrior in a world of pain and
hatred. You are the light that shines in the darkness, you are the
coat to a cold child, you are the smile that warms a troubled and
lonely heart. You are the comfort for everyone you meet, because My
most precious Heart powers you, smiles through you, understands and
loves through you. Love your fellows for
Me. There are so many troubled hearts that need to know My love. I
can love through you if you let Me, I can be their friend through
you if you let Me. I am He who comforts you and you are he who
comforts them. My power is endless, it never runs out, there is not
a power failure EVER. In your darkest hour, My light shines in the
darkness and I say to you, "Oh blessed of My Father, look at
yourself with awe, you are My creation, you are indeed so precious
to Me, you are My light to this world, you are My hands and My feet
and most of all My Heart." Oh, you are My loving
Heart, to those who are bowed down, to those who are lost in the
darkness, you carry My smile and wear My armor in a world that is
trying to tear one another down with hate and ugliness. There is
gentleness, there is love, there is hope in you, if you open
yourself up to Me. Be My knight to the world, wear My armor. I am
your God and I will protect you from the darkness. Plug into My
power, be not afraid, I go before you always and you can rest in My
arms when you feel weary. You can put your head in My lap and weep,
you will know, I am truly with you and you are My light to this
world. I created you so special - to cast out fear in the darkness,
to clothe the naked, to give hope to the oppressed, to be as I live
in you and love through you and you are My smile and I touch My
hurting ones through your love. You are he who loves
this world. You must stay plugged into My power-source.
This world is hungry for My love. It needs My love, I
give to them through you. I am your God and I made you as a gift to
the world. You are filled. Focus on Me and your
life will be abundant and whole, joy in suffering, freedom — but
you can take the knocks because you will know you do not go it
alone, but with Me. I love you My precious child. end of October 5, 1992
14 1/2 Years Ago December 26, 1993 - Sunday (excerpt) Whatsoever You Do to Your Brother, You Have
Done unto Me Jesus: My child, It is with a bleeding heart I come to you this
day — the day after My special day! I know all about the trials and
you withstood them very well. When you are suffering, I am the
closest. Try to feel Me right with you always. If someone is being
smart to you, know, My little one, they are being smart to Me.
Whatever others do to you they do it first to Me. It is easy for
satan to use someone to attack you and for them to think you are
weak and I can do anything to push this one's buttons. No, little
ones, you may think I can do whatever I want and get away with it
because this person doesn't fight and forgives. I say to you, "Woe
to you who push your brothers with your ugly speech. You do it to Me
first. Woe to he whose tongue is as a rattlesnake: you rattle roll
to your brother, but you rattle to Me. All those who sit and
watch such an episode or hear are affected."
Again I want to talk about the Agony
in the garden. Think of how it would
be to know the formula for something and
sit amongst people who are seeking it and
no one will listen or even let you talk.
Think of paying for someone's bills — all they
spend and they just keep using your money
and never even recognize it or say thanks.
Think of knowing all things — of knowing God
the Father's Plan, of the creation of man, the
intention of God for man's destiny — how God
created man for a purpose that some men ignore
and some men do evil things — greedy, jealous,
hateful, angry, pushing ahead stepping on
the authority. Man has tendencies that are
not nice from the garden — man must control his
evil tendencies.
Jesus is God, Jesus is a Divine Person, Jesus
came to die, to pay the price for man's sin —
man is blind — God is all knowing — "Learn and
be taught, but first you must listen." I
remember when Mary appeared at Clearwater
and people would say — "Oh that is Mary" then they
would turn away because they didn't want
to change and hear her message —
Did you ever see something like this
God knows everything
God sees everything
John 3: 7-15
Do not be surprised when I say:
You must be born from above.
The wind blows where it pleases;
you can hear its sound,
but you cannot tell where it comes from
or where it is going.
So it is with everyone
who is born of the Spirit.'How is that possible?' asked Nicodemus. Jesus replied, 'You are the Teacher of Israel, and you do not know these things!
'In all truth I tell you,
we speak only about what we know
and witness only to what we have seen
and yet you people reject our evidence.
If you do not believe me
when I speak to you about earthly things,
how will you believe me
when I speak to you about heavenly things?
No one has gone up to heaven
except the one
who came down from heaven,
the Son of man;
as Moses lifted up the snake in the desert,
so must the Son of man be lifted up
so that everyone who believes
may have eternal life in him.
I have tried to deliver the message God has
given to me for 17 years now. People don't like
me getting ahead of them. Even when Mary appeared
after no one would listen at the old seminary and
the corner fell off — in minutes
Then Mary appeared in Clearwater 2 1/2 years after
we officially began the Shepherds of Christ Movement
over 14 years ago.
There are three Persons in one and the same God
and that is a mystery.
This is a quote from St. Thomas' writings.
Goal of human life
In Aquinas's thought, the goal of human existence is union and eternal fellowship with God. Specifically, this goal is achieved through the beatific vision, an event in which a person experiences perfect, unending happiness by comprehending the very essence of God. This vision, which occurs after death, is a gift from God given to those who have experienced salvation and redemption through Christ while living on earth.
This ultimate goal carries implications for one's present life on earth. Aquinas stated that an individual's will must be ordered toward right things, such as charity, peace, and holiness. He sees this as the way to happiness. Aquinas orders his treatment of the moral life around the idea of happiness. The relationship between will and goal is antecedent in nature "because rectitude of the will consists in being duly ordered to the last end [that is, the beatific vision]." Those who truly seek to understand and see God will necessarily love what God loves. Such love requires morality and bears fruit in everyday human choices.Peter Kreeft, Summa of the Summa (San Francisco: Ignatius Press, 1990), pp. 74-77, 86-87, 97-99, 105, 111-112. Kreeft, p. 383 Kreeft, p. 383
If one talks and another won't listen — there is
no communication.
Mary appeared at Fatima to deliver an important message.
Our Lady appeared at Clearwater to give the message
about spreading the Consecration, Prayer Chapters,
Priestly Newsletter, Blue Books.
Our Lady of Clearwater Florida
July 5, 2000
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We chose to put more than just one of each of these 5ths because of
they're importance.
October 5, 2003
November 5, 2003
Jesus instructed the prayer service
be done inside
November 5, 2003
Jesus instructed the prayer service
be done inside
December 5, 2003
Jesus instructed the prayer service
be done inside
December 5, 2003
Jesus instructed the prayer service
be done inside
December 5, 2003
Jesus instructed the prayer service
be done inside
December 5, 2003
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2 days after Mary Appeared
December 19, 1996
Message from Mary, Received by Rita Ring.Mary: My dear children, I give to you, my Son, Jesus, born in a stable in Bethlehem on Christmas morn. He is the Almighty God, the Light of the World.
I appear to you, my children, on a (former) bank in Florida. You have made money your god! Do you know how cold are your hearts? You turn away from my Son, Jesus, for your money. Your money is your god.
I am Mary, your Mother. I do not appear as I once appeared to you. I am asking you today to circulate my message given on a tape on the feast of Our Lady of Guadalupe, December 12, 1996. Please circulate this tape now. Give it to as many people as you can. I am Mary, your Mother. Please circulate my Rosary Book.
In the Agony in the Garden I meditate on how Christ
teaches us so much and gives us gifts, but we do
not listen.
Jesus sweat blood — He knew of the souls that would be
lost —
The motive here is to pray for the priests, the Church
and the world and to preserve the building in
Clearwater as a sign of the Shepherds of Christ mission —
2 1/2 years after Fr. Carter began the Priestly Newsletter
and Prayer Chapters to spread the consecration of
the 2 Hearts — love for the Catholic Church —
devotion for the Eucharist and praying for the priests,
the Church and the world.
Jesus, the Son of God, out of love for us sweat His
precious Blood in the garden — isn't it time
to listen to Jesus —
Scourging at the Pillar
Jesus stood tied to the pillar and they beat Him
they tore His flesh — because of division and
hurt in some men's hearts — they, because
of wounds, may try to control others and
impose division on them so they can
have power over them.
The mission of the Shepherds of Christ is oneness.
God has given to me messages, ecstasies, apparitions,
revelations about oneness for 17 years.
John 17: 21-23
May they all be one,
just as, Father, you are in me
and I am in you,
so that they also may be in us,
so that the world may believe
it was you who sent me.
I have given them the glory
you gave to me,
that they may be one as we are one.
With me in them and you in me,
may they be so perfected in unity
that the world will recognise
that it was you who sent me
and that you have loved them
as you have loved me.
The Trinity is the most perfect community.
By the Blessed Trinity we mean one and the same
God in three Divine Persons.
In Eternity we are to be wrapped in the embrace of the
Trinity — the goal of our lives is the
beatific vision.
People who are wounded may want to hurt others
by misuse of power, creating division
with others for the sake of acting out
their own wounded division felt inside
of them —
To please God we are to work in accord.
The men beat the Son of God at the pillar —
How can men hurt others like that —
In life if one man hurts another enough and
imposes this hurt on them, the man
hurt can find another to try to control and
work out what is being done to him that
bleeds inside him — but this is darkness —
It's acting for the devil!!
Beating Jesus at the pillar
Beating the Son of God — came from men filled
with hatred that wanted to tie up Jesus,
beat Him — tear His flesh, laugh —
spit on Him
These men had hatred inside — They acted according —
to their wounded human nature
Talk about a wounded human nature —
Well man gets wounded by other men
Does he go to Jesus to heal and help others who
are wounded
Or does he lie to hide his wounds and keep
acting them out on innocent others — trying to get power
over others so he really can inflict
punishment on them while he is
in control —
He lost his power here and is hurt
He seeks power to hurt another — Projection
An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth is
one against one
In a man wounded and unable to get back at the
source who wounded them — it is basically
an 'eye for an eye', but using a surrogate
other they can inflict their wounds on an innocent other —
"I was wounded" the man says —
"I have lost power —
I will control another and impose my
unfinished business on them —
now I am in control"
Power lost —
Power gained —
Jesus was beaten at the pillar
Jesus came in pure love to pay for our sins —
Jesus wasn't fighting back one-on-one
Jesus wasn't projecting His pain on others
to make them suffer like was done to Him.
Jesus shows us pure love.
Projection — punishing another for unhealed
wounds, happens especially in people who
have had trauma and want that unfinished
business resolved, but the unfinished
business and its truth they have buried
and they act out their hatred and anger
on others they seek to have power
over and make suffer — hoping their
pain will go away —
But this may be done unconsciously —
they really think the new person is
deserving of combat — division —
but it is projection —
they have the hidden hate —
It is buried under the traumatic wound —
they hid and they hurt they want to make others hurt
they provoke sometimes to get others to cry.
"I'm right."
"You deserve it."
Jesus was the scapegoat.
The Son of God —
The men were full of hatred — It was inside of them
They wanted to hurt someone for their hatred
They beat Jesus — God-made-man
The devil works in this using people old unfinished wounds
as doors in which he enters — Some try to
punish others for their hidden rage from being
hurt and after repeated events doing this to a
partner — they have the sickness to point
a finger at the other's emotions —
Trying to work up another to fury for hidden pain is wrong —
they may say "look at you"
words that they have used in the past over and over again
they failed to even recognize.
Christ was whipped for our sins.
The important thing to see here —
is projection
All of us were wounded
All of us may do things to others that we
do not realize from past experiences
But unless the person with the big trauma
and unfinished business gets over his
pride — he will keep trying to hurt others
and himself like the men who
whipped Jesus —
the innocent Lamb led to the slaughter
Jesus did this for our sins
Jesus paid the price for our sins
We are to look at ourselves and see we are
imperfect — we have hurt others —
whether intentionally or unintentionally —
because of ignorance or people who —
wounded us, but to be pure like Jesus —
We must act in truth —
We recognize that we are sinners and
want to build God's Kingdom —
not prove we have a superior
'face' of perfection —
In the end we face the all knowing God —
It is not our fault many times when we
are wounded —
pride, jealousy, envy, greed —
seeking power for dominance sake
is our fault
We are all sinners —
We were not perfect lovers in every situation
Jesus was beaten at the pillar for our pride
and anger, lust, envy, greed —
We have sinned, we have hurt others
even if we weren't aware of it.
We were put here to learn —
Do we write to God
"Oh God, I'm perfect — I needed no
training — my marriage failed,
my children lived in pain and I will
focus on my perfection, rather than
walk in truth — loving the truth,
embracing the truth — We have all
hurt someone —
lets get to the business of humility
helping to build God's Kingdom —
doing God's work
rather than proving our feet smell
better than anyone in the
world
What does the Scourging at the Pillar
tell me
We were all wounded in some way.
We have hurt others too — consciously
or unconsciously
Quit hiding the big boudoir in
your dark room and running
into it bruising yourself and
others — get it out of the way
Jesus paid the price for our sins —
Hatred filled men — that beat Jesus, and tore His
flesh
We beat Jesus when we hold onto
sins of pride that block God's
plan and say —
"I'm right" "I'm right" —
let me make you cry to do a
simple task
Controlling others in division is
not going to build God's
Kingdom
Remember this
By the Blessed Trinity we mean
one and the same God in
three Divine Persons.
The mission of the Shepherds of Christ is
listening to God —
the scriptures
the commandments
the Church
and living in the truth —
living deeply one as members of the
body of Christ —
The Catholic Church is
ONE, HOLY, CATHOLIC
AND APOSTOLIC
ONE — forgiving
not projecting hate
loving one another
building the Kingdom of God
(not giving into the divisions of satan)
(not giving into our evil tendencies)
Holy
Trying to be like Jesus and Mary,
the New Adam and the New Eve
Jesus and Mary were sinless
Jesus is God
Mary all pure, full of grace
Jesus and Mary did God's will
Luke 1: 46-55
The Magnificat
And Mary said:
My soul proclaims
the greatness of the Lord
and my spirit rejoices
in God my Saviour;
because he has looked upon
the humiliation of his servant.
Yes, from now onwards
all generations will call me blessed,
for the Almighty
has done great things for me.
Holy is his name,
and his faithful love extends age after age
to those who fear him.
He has used the power of his arm,
he has routed the arrogant of heart.
He has pulled down princes
from their thrones
and raised high the lowly.
He has filled the starving with good things,
sent the rich away empty.
He has come to the help
of Israel his servant,
mindful of his faithful love
—according to the promise
he made to our ancestors—
of his mercy to Abraham
and to his descendants for ever.
Catholic
Following the authority
of the Catholic Church
UNIVERSAL
TRUE CHURCH
Apostolic —
We are His apostles in
the world today —
To go out and spread the good
News
We practice the Catholic faith as the
Church tells us.
We are under the authority of the
Church.
The hierarchy are above the laity.
Crowning with Thorns
Who is our King?
Do we do things for our honor and glory —
So we look good for others —
Do we wear the crown?
Jesus wore a crown of thorns for our
pride, for how we have to
'save face' and block His
work while we worry about
how we look to others —
acting like we didn't get enough
or like we are always right.
Did Jesus do that as they spit on Him
and pounded the thorns in His
Head — as He was mocked for our
sins of pride and lying about how
we have hurt others
Lets be humble.
take a fearless inventory
*let some of the people you hurt — you ignore
tell you their side —
get off your 'high horse'
be instruments of unity,
love
and building the Kingdom of God
Be instruments of unity —
acting to do God's work
haven't you tried to lick the
wounds enough
We have so many years to be the
apostles we have been called
to be — to help build and
strengthen the Church
A family is as sick as its members
hiding secrets, acting like they are
perfect — instead of acting to
do God's work —
Should we be stiff ready to jump
like the dog in the street
that will bite because he is
wounded and he doesn't want
to be touched even by a doctor —
Dark is dark
Light is light
Jesus was crowned with thorns
for our sins of pride —
our selfishness —
jealousy —
controlling —
wounding others with revengeful
deeds
God deserves to be loved
It is the greatest commandment
God deserves adoration
Our heart skips a beat
at the thought of our God
God deserves our gratitude
The devil wants us to hurt others —
lie to ourselves, keep our
hearts of hatred
Jesus Carries His Cross
They gave Jesus a heavy cross laden with
the sins of the world —
He didn't do any sins — Jesus was sinless
He carried the cross
He fell under the cross
He shed His Blood for our sins
Who are we kidding when we lie about
our faults —
Let's get about love
unity
communication
forgiveness
Seeing ourselves as we really are
sometimes prideful, angry, jealous,
envious
Let's really be holy —
Work for God because we love Him
Want His will — not punish somebody
Do we give of ourselves to get control
so we can punish them with
our work? (power - if somebody wants
something, work done, how can I manipulate
them before I give it to them)
How controlling are we to want
to use our gifts God gave
us to do His work to control
others to use them for our
slavishly dependent needs?
Look at Jesus laying on the ground
the cross on His back — can't
you get off your 'high horse' —
Paul was knocked off his horse —
God showed him a light —
Get out of the blindness
Fear of Abandonment
Live the Blue Book Writings of
love —
seeing things purely through
the eyes of God
not through our tainted eyes —
We see God through tainted vision
We see others through tainted vision
We see ourselves through tainted vision
The Blue Books shows us pure vision —
see through God's eyes — loving
God purely as He deserves —
loving others purely
loving ourselves purely
through God's eyes
Listen to the talk-shows —
arguing, judging
We must pray — pray for purity —
pray for our leaders, pray
for ourselves —
pray for the media
The Crucifixion
Jesus surrendered
Jesus was hung by nails —
Nothing to hold Him in place
He gave His all
All His Blood
All ————
The last beat of His Heart
He gave His breath
The Son of God sees all
God knows our hearts
God knows our past and how we
need to recognize how we
weren't perfect
As long as we see ourselves as
perfect we are lying —
We are imperfect human
creatures
God has called us to do this work which
can bring peace to the world —
We are our own worst enemies sometimes
Mary by day |
by night |
July 5, 2008 — we will be in the
building 10 years —
how did you waste the time
you could have helped —
blocking God's work —
All those days!! 10 years!!
March 1, 2004
Ezekiel Chapter 31
In the eleventh year, on the first day of the third month, the word of Yahweh was addressed to me as follows, Son of man, say to Pharaoh king of Egypt and his throng of subjects:
“What can compare with you
for greatness?
I know: a cedar tree in the Lebanon
with noble branches, dense foliage,
lofty height.
Its top pierces the clouds.
The waters have made it grow,
the deep has made it tall,
pouring its rivers round the place
where it is planted,
sending rivulets to all the wild trees.
This is why its height was greater
than that of other wild trees,
its branches increased in number,
its boughs stretched wide,
because of the plentiful waters
making it grow.
All the birds of heaven
nested in its branches;
under its boughs all wild animals
dropped their young;
in its shade sat many, many people.
It was beautiful in its size,
in the span of its boughs;
for its roots were in plentiful waters.
There was no cedar like it
in the garden of God,
no cypress had branches such as these,
no plane tree could match its boughs,
no tree in the garden of God
could rival its beauty.
I had made it so lovely
with its many branches
that it was the envy of every tree in Eden,
in the garden of God.“Very well, the Lord Yahweh says this:
“Since it has raised itself to its full height, has lifted its top into the clouds, and has grown arrogant about its height, I have handed it over to the prince of the nations, for him to treat as its wickedness deserves; I have rejected it. Foreigners, the most barbarous of nations, have cut it down and deserted it. On the mountains, in all the valleys, lie its branches; its broken boughs are in every ravine throughout the country; everybody in the country has fled its shade and deserted it. On its wreckage perch all the birds of heaven; all the wild animals have advanced on its branches.So in future let no tree rear its height beside the waters, none push its top into the clouds, no watered tree stretch its height towards them. For all of them are doomed to death, to the depths of the underworld, with the common run of humanity, with those who sink into oblivion.
The Lord Yahweh says this: The day it went down to Sheol, I imposed mourning, I closed the deep over it. I stopped its rivers and the plentiful waters dried up; I made Lebanon dark because of it, and all the wild trees wilted because of it. With the noise when it fell I made the nations quake, as I hurled it down to Sheol, with those who sink into oblivion. In the depths of the underworld all the trees of Eden took comfort, the pick of the loveliest trees of the Lebanon, all irrigated by the waters And its offspring among the nations, once living in its shade, went down to Sheol with it, to those who have been slaughtered by the sword.
Which of the trees of Eden compares with you for glory and greatness? Yet you have been hurled down with the trees of Eden, to the depths of the underworld, among the uncircumcised, and there you lie with those who have been slaughtered by the sword. So much for Pharaoh and all his throng–declares the Lord Yahweh."
Song: Why Do We Hurt the Ones We Love
August 23, 1993
On His Passion
Jesus: My dear child,
I was condemned to death, death on a cross. They gave Me a big cross and made Me carry it. They stood around and glared at Me. It weighed on My shoulder and I pulled at it until it finally moved. Every step was almost impossible as I dragged it, weighing so heavily on My shoulders.
My shoulder felt as if the bones inside would crack and the cross would fall through to the ground. I couldn’t drag it any more. I tried, I fell. I fell and its weight fell on Me. A guard hit Me with something sharp. It really hurt because he wanted Me to move, and fast! People were watching — on with the show! How dare I fall in the middle of the show! He hit Me again and the blow really stung Me. I got up because it hurt so badly. I tried to walk on.
My Mother was in the crowd. She looked at Me and her face looked red and hurt. Tears rolled down her cheeks like rain and as her eyes met Mine, I was hurt so by her sorrow! She was always by My side, silent and loving. She was My Mother of love! She is always there next to you when you suffer.
I fell again and he (the guard) really hit Me. It (the cross) was so heavy that he and I together could barely move it. It seemed as I walked, heavier with the sins of the world heaped on it. My hands were bleeding. Blood ran from the wounds of My thorns and My head throbbed, seeming to make the wounds in My head bleed even more. Some of the Blood was dried, some of it running all over My Body. I had so many cuts and bruises — and people watched and laughed!
I am Jesus, Son of the Living God, and they laughed and mimicked Me! Oh, such hardened hearts! How vile can men’s hearts become? The devil’s grip is paralyzing and crippling.
The walk was so long up a hill and over rocks — the cross had to be lifted over the rocks. My Body was bleeding so badly! My Heart was pounding. I knew that the salvation of all men depended on My love. Therefore, I went through such agony.
I thought of My intense love for you — that many would go to heaven because of My suffering — and I continued to the top of the hill. At the top they laid Me on the cross and with a big hammer nailed My hands to it. It was the worst (suffering) yet. My hands were nailed with big nails and the big hammer. Then, as if that weren’t enough, with a big nail they nailed through both feet.
Then they lifted the cross and banged it into (a hole in) the ground. My shoulders ached from how I hung. My head bobbed and My neck ached and they laughed and said, "Now save Yourself." I hurt so much! I suffered this way for hours — which seemed like forever — and they glared at Me and laughed! My Mother watched in such agony.
For love of you, to My death I gave you My Body. My child, I shed My Blood and gave you My life that you might be with Me forever in heaven — not for a day, a month or a year, but forever with Me in heaven.
I am the true Bread come down from heaven. He who eats My Flesh will have life forever. For the drink I give you is My Blood and food you eat is My Body. Who would lay down his life for a friend? I did, for you. I love you this much, child. Forget about those who reject you. You have My life that I gave you and I give you life eternal.
I am the One true God. I am the Light of life. He who abides in Me will have life eternal, for the drink I give is My Blood and the food I give is My Body. Drink and eat and have everlasting life.
My child, that is all you need to know. Love one another and be good that you may enter into My Kingdom.
End of August 23, 1993 message
Goal of human life
In Aquinas's thought, the goal of human existence is union and eternal fellowship with God. Specifically, this goal is achieved through the beatific vision, an event in which a person experiences perfect, unending happiness by comprehending the very essence of God. This vision, which occurs after death, is a gift from God given to those who have experienced salvation and redemption through Christ while living on earth.
This ultimate goal carries implications for one's present life on earth. Aquinas stated that an individual's will must be ordered toward right things, such as charity, peace, and holiness. He sees this as the way to happiness. Aquinas orders his treatment of the moral life around the idea of happiness. The relationship between will and goal is antecedent in nature "because rectitude of the will consists in being duly ordered to the last end [that is, the beatific vision]." Those who truly seek to understand and see God will necessarily love what God loves. Such love requires morality and bears fruit in everyday human choices.Peter Kreeft, Summa of the Summa (San Francisco: Ignatius Press, 1990), pp. 74-77, 86-87, 97-99, 105, 111-112. Kreeft, p. 383 Kreeft, p. 383
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HE EARTH STOPPED AND TOUCHED HEAVENI long to unite in the deepest union with Him in the Eucharist. I long for the Mass. I long for Thee, oh God. My every moment, I join as I did to You December 15 under the cross, where I felt Your presence. You whisked me away, and I was totally absorbed in that moment of celestial union with You. For that time, I existed only in You, in the deepest union, and I was in this moment existing in You. The earth stopped, and I touched the heavens, all my bodily cares were existent in You. I existed in Your Divinity, my being was in You. There was no desire or wish or wanting, for in that moment, I had all I wanted in You. I was satisfied and wanted nothing but to remain in that embrace. You were the Being, and my being existed in You, but I was only as I was in You - merged in You, knowing and being in Your Divinity and being so full as to feel complete in myself.
You are so enormous, and You surrounded me in a burning embrace, the presence of red fire. I was not little, or "nothing", but existed in this enormous power and being so complete!
I touched eternity, and in that embrace, I knew all the waiting was worth the glory. You enveloped my being, and I was truly merged in the Divine Presence. I was merged in Your being. I existed IN You, with You, in the highest union with You, although I knew I was still distinct from You.
I was fused and absorbed in You, feeling complete and satisfied. To describe this union is far beyond any work of my pen and paper. I pray for the reader of this page to receive the grace to share this experience with Him, I will now live for this union-to be forever merged In Him, to be One in Him, to reach higher perfection as I exist in Him, for He takes the lowly and gives to them a sharing in Himself. He merges with us and we exist in Him. The word "in" - I could write pages about. I long for the deepest union with Him, where I am swept up in the heavenly embrace of the Divine God, and I am IN Him.
This is heaven on earth: to be merged as one with Divinity, although remaining distinct from God, to take our feeble hearts, our lowly status and to unite ourselves with the Divine, Almighty, powerful God and in this union to be meshed with Him, that His power dominates and our humanity reaches its heights of fulfillment in this union, in this oneness with Him.
The word I have looked for is "oneness." I understand some of the meaning of the words "One in Him." Oneness is the word to describe this union of our humanity with His Divinity. The depth to which we could meditate on oneness with God is incomprehensible. In that moment, the earth stood still, and He, my Divine Lover, the Bridegroom of my soul, took me to Himself, and I knew the embrace of the Divine God.
Nothing on the face of this earth can describe our union with Divinity. Oh, good God, that creatures are so ungrateful regarding Your divine love. I am so sorry. Let me help make reparation to Your adorable Heart. Please unite with me now that I may more deeply love Thee.
Oh, Divine Lover of my soul, let me help make reparation to Your adorable Heart for the neglect and indifference against You.
Song from Jesus: I come to you with greatest love. I am your loving Savior. I am your God. I died for you. I come to you this day.
He allowed me to experience such pain in my heart - wanting Him so badly, so many times-and then on Dec. 15, 1995 - He gave Himself to me in the deepest union.
Nothing satisfies the soul but Him. He wants the nuns and priests to love Him. He chose them to spread His love.
Souls are hungry. They will only be fed with His burning love. Priests need to talk about Jesus' love for us from the pulpit. Priests need hearts burning for love of Jesus. This will feed the hungry souls - lip service love doesn't do it.
He is alive today. He is a Person. He wants us to love Him.
end of December 17, 1995 Mass Book entry
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IN THE DEEPEST RECESSES OF HIS HEART
The place Jesus took me was into the deepest recesses of His Heart. I was enveloped in His burning love. It was a red room with heat and an intense glow. I was swept away in this embrace, and I only existed in Him. The power of the Almighty God enveloped me, and I only existed in Him. There was no fear, for I was existent in this Almighty Being. My heart was wrapped in the eternal embrace of this Supreme Being. The security, the power I know was His deep presence in which I existed.
I knew the room was red and warm. I knew His immenseness, but I felt my own completeness in Him. I did not feel little, as a speck, but elevated and empowered for I existed then in Him in a most special way.
I was overtaken by the love of God. The fire of the Holy Spirit filled me. I was absorbed by the love of the Father, and I existed IN Him and in the deepest recesses of the Heart of Jesus. Our heaven on earth is these inner chambers of His magnificent Heart - the Heart of the Almighty God, with all the power, with omnipotence, with the fire of the love of God. He took me to the deepest chamber of this fiery Heart, and in that moment, I touched eternity, for I knew what it was to be enveloped in the deep furnace of His love. I now want to exist in this chamber of His Heart, swept away in His burning love, absorbed in my every cell with His love.
We do not understand the fire of His love. We do not understand what it is to be absorbed by love itself. He took me to the inner, deepest chamber of His Heart, and I felt the heat and knew the presence of love itself, and there was no fear, only a feeling of completeness, omnipotence, all-embracing, penetrating love - a power indescribable in words, a saturation of my being in the presence of God, and I was as I was created to be - living in Him!
This is how I will forever live my life, saturated with His divine life and love deep within this inner chamber of His burning Heart, living in Him as He possesses my being, and I operate with His power in me.
Little creatures though we are, we are His, His power, His life, flowing through us. In Him, we are as the Father intended: one in Him, each one of us, dwelling in this fiery furnace of His love. With our fears quieted and our hearts empowered by His life, we live forever in Him - in the Heart of Jesus.