God's Blue Book Meeting July 17, 1994

These meetings were called by Jesus on the 17th of each month, beginning February 17, 1994.

Our Lord asked us to include the books from these meetings on the Internet and to read and study the events of the meetings held on the 17th of each month in 1994.

GOD's BLUE BOOK MEETING JULY 17, 1994

Theme: The rosary.


July 6, 1999

Mary's Message - AN EXPLANATION

Messenger: Yesterday our Lord asked me to put a writing on the Internet from July 5, 1994. It was that day Mary first appeared to me in the series of apparitions that would last 14 months with daily apparitions.

In those months and during those apparitions I learned more about the beautiful Woman we call Mary, Mother of Jesus. She shared with me the emotions of her Heart and deeper understanding into the tender, loving Heart of her Son, Jesus.

The writing of yesterday came at the beginning of the apparitions that lead to messages given from the depth of Their hearts given during the rosaries. Many of these messages are published in books under the title Rosaries from the Hearts of Jesus and Mary. They are messages given to us to take us into a deeper oneness with God and to know Him most intimately. The writings that are appearing on the Internet are there at the request of our Lord. The writings were given in a booklet at the monthly 17th Meeting in July, 1994, at the request of our Lord. They are important writings, for they tell us much about what our Lord and our Lady wanted us to know when this series of about 500 apparitions from our Lady followed. Some apparitions from our Lord also took place.

These writings have never been released to the public. We include some of these writings here.

This series of messages were to lead us into a deeper intimate love with Jesus and Mary in Their Hearts.

Please read all the messages dated July, 1994, within this context. I knew nothing of the events to follow in July of 1994, or in the daily apparitions of Mary. This material, had it been published, would have appeared in God's Blue Book IV. Some day we hope to release these writings. These writings were to take us more deeply into Their Hearts and lead us to a deeper consecration to Their Hearts.


Explanation of a live rosary

(Excerpt taken from November 4, 1998, daily message)

Messenger: The live rosaries consist in this. On the direction of Our Lord, I do this rosary. Mary and Jesus give messages verbally as we pray the rosary. Usually another person leads as I receive the messages. These rosaries are then transcribed and typed. They are reviewed by a competent priest theologian. The last book of rosaries for children and parents has been approved for the Imprimatur. Future rosaries without messages, now will be sent for approval to the Chancery in the hope we can circulate rosary meditations to the schools. These rosary meditations are to help the love of Jesus and Mary come alive in men's hearts. They are called Rosaries from the Hearts of Jesus and Mary.


  1. Message of July 12, 1994, 1:49 a.m., Rosaries from the Hearts of Jesus and Mary
  2. Song: Spirit of the Living God
  3. Holy Spirit Prayer
  4. Consecration prayers to the Sacred Heart of Jesus and the Immaculate Heart of Mary
  5. Prayer for Union with Jesus
  6. Thank yous
  7. Song: In This Very Room
  8. Song: Turn to Me
  9. Live to Draw Souls to Me - June 12, 1994 - Blue Book III
  10. Content of God's Blue Book
  11. Message of June 22, 1994
  12. Message of July 9, 1994
  13. Content of Second Blue Book
  14. Definition of love
  15. Content of Third Blue Book
  16. Mary, Lead Us to Your Son - June 25, 1994 - Blue Book III
  17. Love Me First Above All Things - July 11, 1994
  18. Inside Cover of Blue Book I
  19. Be Grateful My Child, for the Blessings I Send You - July 16, 1994
  20. Message of July 16, 1994
  21. Message of July 16, 1994
  22. Song: Jesus I Believe
  23. Message of July 17, 1994
  24. Message of July 17, 1994
  25. Poem: Lovely Lady Dressed in Blue
  26. Message of July 5, 1994
  27. Message of July 14, 1994
  28. Message of July 13, 1994
  29. Song: Spirit Song
  30. Song: Gift of Love
  31. Message of July 15, 1994
  32. Rosary Meditations - May 10, 1994 - Blue Book III
  33. Rosary Meditations Walk My Passion
  34. On His Passion - August 23, 1993
Excerpt from Rosaries from the Hearts of Jesus and Mary Book

July 12, 1994 1:49 a.m.

Jesus speaks: I am the Way. I am the Truth. I am the Light of Life. My candle is a candle that shines bright in the darkest night for love of all. I shine with warmth and joy and love for you. Come in the night. I miss you, every day. Continue to pray the rosary at 6:30 at the Center. No questions asked. The gifts of God have unfolded upon you.

Song: Spirit of the Living God


Holy Spirit Prayer: Come, Holy Spirit, almighty Sanctifier, God of love, who filled the Virgin Mary with grace, who wonderfully changed the hearts of the apostles, who endowed all Your martyrs with miraculous courage, come and sanctify us. Enlighten our minds, strengthen our wills, purify our consciences, rectify our judgment, set our hearts on fire, and preserve us from the misfortunes of resisting Your inspirations. Amen.

Act of consecration to the Sacred Heart of Jesus and the Immaculate Heart of Mary:
"Lord Jesus, Chief Shepherd of the flock, I consecrate myself to Your most Sacred Heart. From Your pierced Heart the Church was born, the Church You have called me, as a member of Shepherds of Christ Associates, to serve in a most special way. You reveal Your Heart as a symbol of Your love in all its aspects, including Your most special love for me, whom You have chosen as Your companion in this most important work. Help me to always love You in return. Help me to give myself entirely to You. Help me always to pour out my life in love of God and neighbor! Heart of Jesus, I place my trust in You!

"Dear Blessed Virgin Mary, I consecrate myself to your maternal and Immaculate Heart, this Heart which is symbol of your life of love. You are the Mother of my Savior. You are also my Mother. You love me with a most special love as a member of Shepherds of Christ Associates, a movement created by your Son as a powerful instrument for the renewal of the Church and the world. In a return of love, I give myself entirely to your motherly love and protection. You followed Jesus perfectly. You are His first and perfect disciple. Teach me to imitate you in the putting on of Christ. Be my motherly intercessor so that, through your Immaculate Heart, I may be guided to an ever closer union with the pierced Heart of Jesus, Chief Shepherd of the flock."


Prayer for Union with Jesus

Come to me, Lord, and possess my soul. Come into my heart and permeate my soul. Help me to sit in silence with You and let You work in my heart.

I am Yours to possess. I am Yours to use. I want to be selfless and only exist in You. Help me to spoon out all that is me and be an empty vessel ready to be filled by You. Help me to die to myself and live only for You. Use me as You will. Let me never draw my attention back to myself. I only want to operate as You do, dwelling within me.

I am Yours, Lord. I want to have my life in You. I want to do the will of the Father. Give me the strength to put aside the world and let You operate my very being. Help me to act as You desire. Strengthen me against the distractions of the devil to take me from Your work.

When I worry, I have taken my focus off of You and placed it on myself. Help me not to give in to the promptings of others to change what in my heart You are making very clear to me. I worship You, I adore You and I love You. Come and dwell in me now.

-God's Blue Book, January 17, 1994


Messenger: Thanks to everyone who has helped me especially Ellen and Fr. Carter. Ellen for typing. Father Carter for all the care he gave to discerning the letters and for all that he has taught me through his teaching and his books.

I am forever grateful for his lessons about Jesus and Mary who I love so much.

I felt he shares this book from all the work he did.

Words cannot express my love and appreciation for God has truly loved me through YOU (meaning all the people who helped me).


Song: In This Very Room

Song: Turn to Me


Picture of the Sacred Heart of Jesus God's Blue Book III Cover

Live to Draw Souls To Me

June 12, 1994

Jesus speaks: My sweet one, you cannot be attached to the persecution or the glory. Your life cannot be determined by the world. You must be forever consistent in My love. The world will love you and then will hate you. You are a beloved child of My Father. You are deeply loved by God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit, and you are mothered by My very own mother. You, child, are loved unconditionally. You come to My Heart, you find refuge from all you suffer, you are filled with My love.

A heart fixed on Jesus is joyful in suffering. Do not complain to your brothers. Carry your crosses for the sake of souls. Talk to others about the love of God. Have a smile on your face. Reflect the God inside of you. How, child, are you? Are you an open book? Come to My Heart and be filled with My love. You will have an endless supply of love to give to your brothers.

I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus. I am your refuge. I am your might. I am your love. I wait for you to come to Me.

You suffer not in vain. You suffer for your brothers. Live to draw souls to Me. Be so in love with Me that nothing matters but to promote the love of God. Oh, dear ones, time is so short! Your brothers need you to pray for them. Make sacrifices for souls. Your life is so short! Your time here is but a breath. Spend this life serving Me. You, child, are My hands. You are Me to your brothers.

Come to My Heart. Be in union with Me constantly. I love you so, sweet ones. Oh, if you only knew, you would never be down or lose faith. My Heart is a furnace on fire for love of you. Come to Me and I will warm your hearts in Mine and you will warm the cold world. Light up this world with the fire of My love. Come, come, to My Heart!

I love you. Jesus.


Message of God's Blue Book:

  1. Tells of God's love
  2. Tells about the Real Presence
  3. Tells how God communicates in our hearts

The Blue Book is a cookbook for an intimate love union with Jesus.

Read messages Blue Book I, November 1, 1993, and December 7, 1993, about God's communication in the heart.

We are being called to spread His love.

We are being called to consecrate our hearts to Their Hearts.


June 22, 1994

Messenger: I must focus on God and not myself. I am living to spread His love. Where I am in this world is unimportant. All that matters is I give His love to those I touch.

Jesus speaks: You are not perfect. To think you are, is to hold onto falsity. You commit sins, you offend your brothers, you offend Me. Live to love and ask to be drawn ever closer to My Heart.

Repent for your sins and ask for forgiveness.

Forgive your brothers and love them.

This is My desire that you love your brothers as I have loved you, to lay down your life for your brothers and see the creation of the Father in them.

This is My command: Love God first, love your brother as yourself.


(Excerpt from July 2, 1999 Daily Message)

July 9, 1994

My lack of peace is coming from lack of forgiveness. I am living to love God and my brother.

To have anger toward my brother blocks the flow of God’s love operating in me. I must forgive all to have peace.

Any lack of love for my brother diminishes peace.

Say you are sorry and forgive.

I must come from a place of love rooted in Him Who first loved us.

Jesus speaks: Trust in Me, My child. I will give you peace, not as the world gives you peace. Your job is to love Me and love one another. How can I spread My love if you are upset with your brother? He who angers you is He whom you need to love. Will you love for Me this day or will you focus on yourself and how you have been wronged? Reach for the Kingdom of God. It is won in holiness, in love. Love always. When they persecuted Me, I loved them.


Content of Second Blue Book
This book is about:

  1. the on fire love of God for His creatures.
  2. how we should love one another.
  3. His Passion.
  4. Surrender.

Define love - Love gives to the other; helps other grow; love is on fire.

LOVE is action from the heart.

Love is emitted from your very being, best thing we can do is have an intimate union with God.

We preach the gospel in our very being.


Third Blue Book
continues with love of our brothers

We are all unique creations of God the Father. When I don't love my brother I am criticizing His creation.

God is Our Father.
God is Jesus' Father.
We are brothers in Christ - we have the same Father.

We need the Holy Spirit.
We want intimacy with God.

  1. Ask Mary to help us love Jesus.
  2. Ask Jesus to help us love Mary.
    Ask Jesus and Mary and Holy Spirit to help us love the Father.
  3. Please help us spread the prayer chapters.

This is a fact - God exists this day, this is His world, we are living in it, yet He loves us so, His love is so immense.


Picture of the Sacred Heart of Jesus God's Blue Book III Cover

Mary, Lead Us to Your Son

June 25, 1994

Messenger It is Mary who held her Son so tenderly.
It is Mary who saw it all with her eyes.
It is Mary who held the lifeless body of Christ.
It is Mary, so united to Jesus, who knows Him so well, who will lead us to Jesus.
I can't do it on my own. I need Mary.
She wants to lead us to her Son.
Prepare ye a way for her Son.
As she delivered Him, she delivers us to Him now.
With ardent devotion, she gives us to Him now.

Mary speaks: Behold my Son, I bore for love of you, my child, out of such love, through the Holy Spirit. Through me and the Holy Spirit, He was conceived by the Will of the Father for love, such love for you, my beloved children. You are my very own children, too. I beg you, as your mother, to return to my precious Son. Go to Him, little ones. He loves you so. Go to the Eucharist. Receive and eat His Body and His Blood, given for you. Oh, such love for you. You give yourself with Him to the Father. What a sacrifice of love! Go to Mass, receive Him in the Eucharist, the bread of life.

Jesus speaks: I give you My body, I give you My blood, I give you My life!

Messenger: I am called by you, Mary, to spread the love of your Son. I answer this call, Mary.

Mary speaks: I am calling you, I am calling you.

Messenger: She is calling us to the Eucharist, to Jesus. He is here with us now. He gives us His body. He shows us signs. He gave His life, we want more. Where is the faith? He was right in the boat and they thought they would drown. He is right in our midst and it is we who do not see Him in our hearts.

We want it our way, not His way. The lesson we must learn about the True Presence is that we do not see but believe it is truly Jesus. "Where you were blind, you now see. Blessed is he who has not seen and has believed." The way to God is through faith.

One of the lessons of the True Presence is that we believe, but do not see.


(Excerpt from July 2, 1999 Daily Message)

July 11, 1994, Love Me First Above All Things

Jesus speaks: There is not division where there is love. If you love Me you will keep My commands. My commands I give to you, love God, love one another. A person fixed in love of God will do the Father’s will. That which leads to perfect peace and happiness is complying to the will of My Father.

My dear ones, there is no other way. You want your wills, your feelings are hurt, you want to do things according to your plan. I tell you, unless you follow My way, you will not enter into the Kingdom of heaven.

I call you to holiness in all things, to put aside your selfishness and willfulness and put Me first. The greatest Commandment is to love God first with your whole heart and whole soul.

Do you love Me more than you love yourself? Are you putting My will before your own? If you do not follow the greatest Commandment, how do you expect to win the reward promised to those who love and serve the Lord?

I call you to total consecration to Our Hearts. You want it your way.

There is only one road. The road is to love Me first above all things. The road is service according to the will of the Father. Doing "good works" is not necessarily doing Our will. The will of the Father is doing His will even when you do not want to, when you would rather do it your own way.

Open up your hearts. Pray first to the Spirit to open your minds and hearts, beg to serve God, give yourself to God and come. Do as you are commanded. Love of God before ALL things.

Do you love Me before yourself? The first Commandment commands you to put God first. Do you do it your way and tell yourself it is God’s will?

My way is the only way. All other ways lead you to problems. Why don’t you believe that I am Almighty, that I know all things? Why won’t you surrender and do as you are told?

Be as babies at the breast, do as you are told. Beg to know the will of the Father. This is made clear to you in the inner promptings of your heart. Sit with God after Communion and in front of the tabernacle. Your answers are given there. You must learn to listen to God. He has the plan for your life.

My children, My children, My willful children, do you want things done your way, do you ponder and arrive at your conclusions, or are you striving to do My will? The will of the Father is made clear in your hearts in front of the tabernacle, in the silent moments you spend alone with God. Beg the Spirit to give you His gifts, to open your minds and hearts.

Do not be willful, strive to do only His will. I am Jesus, Son of the Living God. I give you the way to eternal life. Give up your attachments to your own ways and follow ME.

I am the Way, I am Truth and Life (Jn 14:6), He that comes to Me will have the light of life. Come and follow Me.


From Blue Book I

It is in acceptance of all that is before you that you grow in your relationship with me.  Do not try to throw back the opportunity for grace you receive.

Child, I am ever by your side and I am ever teaching you.  Accept all things as happening from Him Who loves you.  Know that My hand is in everything you are experiencing.  I am vigilant and by your side.  Nothing happens to you that I have not consented to.

- Jesus' words to the receiver
December 30, 1993


Be Grateful My Child, for the Blessings I Send You

July 16, 1994

Messenger: God is giving me everything I need.

Jesus speaks: The very hairs of your head are numbered, I allow all that is happening to you. Do you look for that which you do not have? Look for that which I am giving you. Do you seek love and miss the love that is given? Do you want things given the way you want, or are you accepting the way they are? This is willfulness. You think things should be this way, yet they are that way and you become frustrated. I give you all you need. It is in your acceptance of all things that you grow in your relationship with Me. Do not be willful and expect things the way you think they should be. You are receiving so much love in your life today from others, and you are looking for love the way you want it. I love you and I love you through others. Look at the love I am sending you. Accept all others the way they are. I give to you according to your needs. Do you love Me? I give you so much love in your world and in all those around you. Take the blinders off of your eyes and see the gifts I am pouring out to you this day. Pray to the Holy Spirit for vision. God loves you so. God is caring for your needs this day. In your willfulness you want things your way. Accept the love I pour out to you. Accept all others as they are. Strive to give love as I give to you. I am your God and I love you with an undying love. You are Mine, child, I love you so.


(Excerpt from July 7, 1999 Daily Message)

July 16, 1994

Jesus speaks: Do you have trouble with your brothers? Do you know they are as they are? Love all of God's creatures as persons created by God. Genuinely love all persons. I would die for them this very day. Can you offer less to your loving brothers?

Pray to love, children, as I have loved you. Pray to know how to love. Be humble, see your faults, admit your failings. This will lead you to correction of these faults. If you hide your faults, you will never correct them.

Pray to the Spirit to see what needs correcting. Pray to the Spirit to open yourself to the faults that are blocking your relationship with God. Pray to be open to the faults that constantly trip you up and allow you to be caught in Satan's snare. Know your faults child. Know your weaknesses and pray for help to overcome them.

I am Jesus, I love you so. In your pride you overlook your weaknesses, in humility you accept them and try to correct them.

Pray for vision, little one.


(Excerpt from July 7, 1999 Daily Message)

July 16, 1994

Messenger: The soul thirsts after love. I have a loving Father Who created me. I am hungry for the love of God.

Jesus speaks: Do you stalk this barren world in search of love and find none? The Father is ever vigilant in His love for you. He created you and loves you as the most loving Father.

Come, My children, come and sit and pray. Pray in silence, pray to your Father. "Our Father, Who art in heaven..." Sit and focus on His love for you. He loves what He has created. You are so precious to Him. Come and be with your Father

Messenger: Where are you going? Did you see the accident, the woman on the stretcher? She was very pretty and young. How is her soul? Is she still alive? Did she think only of her hair, her shape, her clothes or did she have a relationship with God? Where is she going?

Jesus speaks: I am the Way, I am Truth and Life. (Jn 14:6). It is only through Me that you will gain eternal salvation.

Are you busy for your earthly lives? Where do you go when you are called so suddenly? I come, you know not the hour nor the day. A continuation of life is promised to no man here. You will be called, you will have no choice. All that goes with you is how you were in your heart.

Did you put God first and love Him with all your heart, did you love your brother as yourself?

Where are you going, if you are called this day?


Song: Jesus I Believe


(Excerpt from July 7, 1999 Daily Message)

17th Meeting - July 17, 1994

Study after Mass

Jesus speaks: You were born to new life in Me.

Messenger: How do you see me? Do you see the Christ that is alive in me? Do you know I am a Christian, Christ-like, by how I act? Do you know I am a Christian by how I love?

Do I love you? Do I complain and not even know it? Do I see myself for the way I am or am I blind and never see at all?

Spirit, open me to the love of God within me. Give me vision into the God that dwells within me. Let me see how I can be more like Christ.

Jesus speaks: The more you realize the indwelling of God within you, the more you will be rooted in My peace. Peace comes from knowing God and His love. No matter what occurs around you, remain at peace. This only comes from God.

Messenger: I see constantly how far I am from Him. My son wanted my keys and wanted them now. I must remain in peace.

His will is for me to be with my son at church and to write this letter. I must constantly act as He would have me act.

I see now how He outpours His love to me in others and how I in my willfulness wanted the love given as I wanted it.

How am I when I am in your presence? Am I loving you, my brother, do I receive so much love and don’t even notice because I want it my way?

God in His goodness is sending me such love constantly. It is outpoured to me, and I am so blind I do not see.

Jesus speaks: Pray children, you are children who need to be taught. You are human, to think you are perfect is to be blind. Work against your faults and grow in union with Me. Pray for vision, pray to the Spirit. Open yourself to the new live that I give you as you grow in love with God.

Your life in God is ever evolving. It does not remain the same. You are to grow in your likeness to Me. Pray for vision, pray to see. You may wander the same valley for so many years and never find your way. You need the vision of God to see your way. Pray for His light to shine in your hearts. Pray to see, where you were blind, you now see.

When the Spirit dwells within you, you grow in vibrancy. With the descent of the Holy Spirit, the Apostles were fearless - they were on fire.

Messenger: When Mary was filled with the Holy Spirit, she spoke in a loud voice, the Magnificat.

When the Spirit is enkindled in our hearts, we will shout out with a loud cry the Good News, that Jesus is Lord, He loves us, He is in our midst this very day and we are His chosen ones.

We are called to spread the Good News.

The Lady is calling. She is calling you now.

May we be on fire with His love.


July 17, 1994

Messenger: We are called to model ourselves after Christ. I think of Christ and how He was. Total peace, always. Peace to His death on the cross. He did not talk about anyone. He always was loving and giving of himself in service.

If I am to try to act like Christ, I must meditate on how He was.

Being a Christian is to be Christ-like.

Would Christ act as I am acting? I preach the gospel in my very being. I preach His word by how I am. I must be rooted in Him and His love so that I act as He wants me to act. I still will fall short. But I must try to be likened to Christ in all things.


Poem: Lovely Lady Dressed in Blue


(Excerpt from July 5, 1999 Daily Message)

July 5, 1994

Mary speaks: My anguish I felt to watch them persecute my beloved Jesus! He Whom I loved so dearly, my own, very own Child and they stripped Him, beat Him, hated Him, tore His tender beautiful flesh, everything that they did,...

This was my beloved Son. My Heart was torn in my chest, my sorrow so great! No yelling or other human expressions could capture the torments of my Heart.

My little Baby, to watch such brutality DONE to my precious Child.

Do you know the torments of the heart?

Do you know the pain to behold such vileness done to your own child?

Pain in the heart, I know, I know His love for you, my dear children. I know what He suffered for you. Put yourself there during the Passion. Meditate on His suffering for love of you. Meditate on His love. This is love, to suffer as He did for you. It is so simple, He loved you to His very own death. This is what He would give for you this very day, my little ones. Go to Him and be alone with Him. Turn to Him, love Him. He waits for your love. Praise this good God Who loves you so much to shed His very own Blood for you. Oh children, be present to Him. Live His life, pray the rosary, meditate on His sufferings for you. This will draw you close to Our Hearts. Live Our lives in the rosary. Experience Our sufferings.

Love one another, do not give in to Satan. You cannot accomplish my Son’s tasks if you do not put your differences aside. You must love each other.

Go to Him in the Eucharist. Give your whole hearts to Him. Consecrate yourselves to Us. We will be ever with you, guiding your every step. I am the Immaculate Heart of Mary. I love you as the most loving Mother. Come and find refuge in Our Hearts. We will protect you from the scorching sun. We will hold tight to you and you will never lose your peace.

Jesus speaks: Oh My child, peace I give to you, not as the world gives you peace, but as only I can give you peace. Come and let me hold you in My Heart, deeply placed there by My loving Mother. You will find your joy inside of My Heart.

I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus. I want to be united to you, My little babies. Become as the baby at the breast, total submission, total trust, total yielding to Our ways. Yield to Me. My time is perfect. My ways are set. Yield to Me and I will handle your cares. I love you My sweet ones. Yield. Pray constantly, consecrate yourselves to My Heart and My Mother’s Heart. Let go.


(Excerpt from July 5, 1999 Daily Message)

July 14, 1994

Messenger: The rosary tells us much about Christ and Mary.

How can I be Christ-like if I do not meditate on His Life? My life is to be a model after Christ's life. How can I model myself after how He loved if I am not intimately involved in a love relationship with Him?

Christ shows us the way. Jesus went through His Passion and death for our salvation and for love of us.

The more I meditate on the rosary, the more I see the oneness of Christ and His Mother. They are one in Their Hearts. They shared each Other's pains, sorrows, joys, suffering. They were so connected to each Other.

This is shown all through the Passion, her sorrows, presentation in the temple, finding in the temple, her journey into Egypt, her watching during the scourging, her journey during the Passion when Their eyes met, (this alone could be meditated on to tell Their union and suffering) putting the nails in His hands, standing under the cross, beholding His lifeless Body under the cross, and after His death, laying Him in the tomb.

Their Hearts beat as one, as she suffered so silently with Him, always by His side. No Mother was ever so connected with her Son.

Sorrow increases intimacy. When I suffer and give it to Christ, I am admitting how much He is truly a Person I depend on. I want to depend on Him, to be so intimate that it is He to Whom I run when my heart is torn.

He loves us so, He knows our every thought and feeling. He loves us with such attentiveness and care, and He waits for us to run to His arms and share ourselves with Him.

He longs for our love, He longs for our time. He wants us to go to Him as our best Friend, a real Person, but what a Person and what He can do for us!

You are my Savior Lord, you saved me from my sins by Your brutal death. You give me life in Your Resurrection. I am born into your life in Baptism and You live in my heart. God lives within me. Father, Son and Holy Spirit dwell within my breast in a most special way when I am in the state of grace. Mary is one with Jesus.

Oh, God, I love You so. I want to know you and love you and serve you.

Spirit, open me to know my precious Lord. I am Yours to possess and I live to do Your holy will.

Father, fashion me, mold me more into the image of Jesus, Your precious Son. "...yet it is no longer I, but Christ living in me...(Ga 2:20). I want to be one in You, so that You live and dwell in my heart.

Meditating on the rosary is meditating on much of Christ's Life. How can I be molded more into His image  if I do not meditate on Him and His Life?

The First Commandment commands that I love God above all things. What is love? Is it lip service or is it a fire that burns within the soul?

May my love of God be this flame that burns for love of each Person in God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit and for Mary also. May I grow in intimacy with each Person and Mary, and may Joseph be close by her side as he stood close to Jesus and guarded Him.


Luke 1:46-48

And Mary said:
My soul proclaims
the greatness of the Lord
and my spirit rejoices
in God my Saviour;
because he has looked upon
the humiliation of his servant.
Yes, from now onwards
all generations will call me blessed,


Messenger: He has created us in His own image and likeness. We are His creation, the creation of Him Who loved us first. Ought we not love Him with all our hearts and love one another? All of us are His marvelous creations.

Jesus died that we all might live. He shed the last drop of His Blood, He gave the last beat of His Heart for each and every person.

Let us be united as brothers in Christ. God is my Father, He is your Father, He is Jesus' Father, He is the Father, we are His blessed children and He loves what He creates.

Song: Because I Love You

Jesus speaks: I am the Lord, thy God, I am Jesus, Son of God. I came that you might have life and have it abundantly. I will hold your hand and be forever with you.

My Mother is your very own Mother. She loves you and Mothers you as she Mothered Me.

My Father is your very own Father. He created you and loves you so much He sent His only Son to be a living Sacrifice so you might partake in His life.

I give Myself to you totally in the Eucharist, Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity. I wait for you to come to the tabernacle, I love you so.

The Spirit loves you so and in Him you have the life you need to be united to God. Pray to Him for this life, beg Him for the gifts whereby you will grow in your love and union with God.

This is My Commandment to you: Love God above all things and love your neighbor as yourself.

Be united to the one, true God, for He is truly present and lives in your hearts.


(Excerpt from July 7, 1999 Daily Message)

July 13, 1994

Birth of Our Lord

Jesus speaks: I was born in a stable.

There was not a bed for My Mother and Joseph.
They had not a pillow to lay their head.
They did not have a bed and she just had a baby.

This is the surrender I call you to.
I was born in such poverty.
I came silent in the night.

Do not be attached to your bed, your sleep, your life. Come and be attached to Me, little one.

Look how I was born with nothing.

Look how I died, in total surrender.

Not a place to lay My head, a manger for My head at birth, nowhere to lay My head on the cross.

You cry for your discomfort.

Did I show you the way? I lay in a manger at birth, I died on a cross, BOTH BARE WOOD.

Total submission to the will of the Father.

I am God, I was born in silence, I was crucified as a criminal.

I am the King. I was crucified with a crown of thorns, I was born on a bed of hay.

I was crowned King of the Jews--

What do you want? If you follow Me do you expect more?

My Kingdom is not of this world. Your crown is not the crown of glory, My child, it is the crown I wore and I share this with My precious ones.

Share My life, follow My way. I am God. What no eye has seen and no ear has heard, what the mind of man cannot visualise; all that God has prepared for those who love him; (1 Cor 2:9)


Song: Spirit Song

Song: Gift of Love


(Excerpt from July 7, 1999 Daily Message)

July 15, 1994

Jesus speaks: Live My life with Me, be united with Me in My suffering and death on the cross. Live Our lives in the rosary. Make the rosary a prayer that is so alive in your hearts that you grow in such love of Mary and Jesus from praying it.

Re-enact Our lives in the rosary, feel Our sorrow and Our joy. Be united to Our lives in the rosary.

The rosary is not just a prayer to say, it is a prayer to live. Live your life as We lived Ours.

There are so many distractions in this world. Be totally lost in the life of Jesus and Mary when you pray the rosary.


Picture of the Sacred Heart of Jesus God's Blue Book III Cover

ROSARY MEDITATIONS
The Sorrowful Mysteries

May 10, 1994

Note: These letters were received on April 25, 1994, at Medjugorje, from Our Lady.

1. The Agony in the Garden.

Jesus speaks: I knew full well every blow, every wound, the crowning, the crucifixion. I saw My mother's suffering. I knew all that would happen. I sweat blood. I suffered so much mental anguish for you, beloved one, for you. I said yes to all I knew would follow, yes to you, knowing how you one day would love Me, too. Oh, how I love you. Will you say yes to the suffering I send to you? Will you say yes to loving My beloved ones? Say yes to Me today. I loved you so.

2. The Scourging at the Pillar.

Mary speaks: I am the Immaculate Heart. I love you with my tender Heart. I heard the blows they gave my Son. I could scarcely look up. I heard the blows, the awful blows. My Son stood in silence while they beat Him.

Jesus speaks: All the whipping, all the brutality! The blows covered My entire body. I bled profusely. I stood in My own blood. These were My beloved ones who beat Me. They tore My flesh until it hung from My body and they laughed at their handiwork.

Do your brothers persecute you and say mean things to you? Do as I did. Respond with love. Anyone who is hating you is suffering from connectedness to Me. Pray for their conversion. Live to help them get to heaven.

3. Crowning with Thorns

Jesus speaks: Think of someone you love very deeply yelling awful accusations at you. How it wounds your heart, My child. I sat there while they crowned Me with thorns and they hollered awful accusations at Me. They were My beloved ones, yet they stood there spitting at Me and hollering awful things at Me. Those whom I dearly loved, and they mocked Me and insulted Me and hurled their ugly hatred and lies at Me. I accepted all they did with a bleeding Heart and forgave them and loved them still.

Oh, you do not know suffering. Suffer for Me and lessen My load. This world is wounding My aching Heart. People are indifferent and hateful. They mistreat one another and are proud of their actions. Pray for your beloved persecutors. Don't hate them. It is as with those who tore My flesh and mocked Me. They were so engulfed in darkness! They did not know what they were doing.

All that matters is how you love Me and one another. Love those who hate you. My way is a hard way. When they hurt you and holler every ill thing at you, look to heaven and praise the Lord for the trial. It is in suffering that you are drawn closer to My precious Heart. I shed My blood for you. I suffered for you. Will you not suffer when I ask you to?

4. Carrying of the Cross

Mary speaks: I could scarcely stand to walk the way with Him. I was so sick at what they had done but I wanted to be with my Son. I walked by the grace of God.

Jesus speaks: My suffering was intensified by the sorrow and suffering of My mother. My eyes met hers and I saw her red, teary face. All they did to Me, but to watch My beloved mother suffer! She heard the cross as it thumped up the hill. The sounds were so loud and, at the sight, she had to look away.

Stand by Me and walk this road to Calvary. Listen and see My beaten body. Hear the jeers of the crowd. Hear the thumping of the cross. Listen when it falls hard on Me and I can scarcely go any more. Walk with Me and be there, then think of the little crosses I ask you to carry. Do not put them down. Accept them for Me. It is in your crosses that you are drawn closer to Me. I endured all this suffering for deep and ardent love of you and I would do it today for you alone.

5. The Crucifixion

Mary speaks: They hung Him on the cross. I was so weak I could barely stand. I was held up by John. I watched my Son in such agony. Oh, my beloved Son! What had He done to deserve such suffering? He loved you to His death. He was crucified for love.

Jesus speaks: How do I tell you that I died for you? Do you even know I would do it today, just for you? They nailed My beautiful hands and feet to the cross. Big, gigantic nails they pounded into My precious hands. Such hard hearts! They pounded the nails through My feet. Blood spurted out and they continued. Such hardness of hearts. Look at your hands, My child. Would you allow someone to nail them to a cross? Would you withstand this torture for love? This is My love for you. It is not a little lip service love. It is the love that made Me lay down My life for you.

Surrender. I call you to surrender. Open your arms as I did when I died on the cross. Let all your worldly possessions drop around you and you will experience the joy of being free, united only to Me, of letting go and knowing that I, God, tend to your every need. To My death on the cross I loved you and I love you this way this very day. Let go and give it all to Me. I will care for you far better than you could for yourself. I am God and I love you more than you can love yourself.

Messenger: Jesus is dead, hanging on the cross, arms outstretched. His feet are not even on the ground. He is hanging by nails on a piece of wood. What do we hold on to? He wants us in midair in total surrender.

Jesus speaks: Oh, little ones, how you squander your possessions. How you hold on to people, how you won't let go! See Me in total surrender. I gave My very life for you. What do you hold on to, My little ones? Little bits and pieces you give to Me and you hold tightly to your lives. All will go up in smoke and only the things of God will remain. Not one pair of shoes do you take with you, only your love given to God and to others.


Walk the Passion

Through the Five Sorrowful Mysteries

Mural over Altar in China, Indiana

From God's Blue Book I - December 18, 1993:

Take Up Your Cross (excerpt)

Jesus speaks: Take your crosses and truly endure them. Accept them. Know that everything that happens in your life I have allowed. Accept it with the love with which I give it. You are being taught in that pain. You are suffering for yourselves and others. I endured all that pain. Did I once say, "Father, take it away?" I am your model. I showed you the way. I took it all, every last wound, every kick and smack and vileness. I took My cross and I carried it without a word. This is what I ask of you. Know that when you are experiencing pain or suffering, or being taunted by those around you, look to the Master for your course of action. I took it all, every last wound, and accepted it to My death. I did not say, "Oh, how awful." I did not complain. I walked in silence that bumpy road with a heavy cross, with My mother suffering by My side and I never complained. I accepted it all for love of you.

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- From God's Blue Book I - November 3, 1993

Pray For Your Brothers (excerpt)

Jesus speaks: Oh, children, pray for your brothers. Your prayers and sacrifices may save their lives. Prayers can help a troubled soul. Do not underestimate the power of prayer. Your brothers are engulfed in so much darkness. They will never see the light except through you or they may never be touched if you do not pray.


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Agony in the Garden

From: God's Blue Book I, November 15, 1993 - after Mass

The Agony in the Garden - Holy Spirit Center Window
The Agony in the Garden
THE FIRST SORROWFUL 
MYSTERY

I Love You to Death, Today! (excerpt)

Jesus speaks: Oh, My passion, My child! Meditate on this every day. Think of My agony to know what would happen, to see only as God could see every detail of every event that would follow. To feel the pain before it happened and know how horrendous it would be. All the kickings, whackings, not to mention the names and slanders against God. They were doing this to God! In all My dignity and honor, I would experience such vileness and take it for love of you.

My passion is a wealth of material to study. But I will reveal such things to you. The bottom line is what I suffered for love of you. I would do this today. I love you just the same. Oh, if you only knew! It feels good to tell someone when you are wronged. I was so silent. The incredible things they did and I was silent. My mother suffered so with this. She watched her beautiful baby in such anguish. She was silent. Her agony was so great. She endured this for love of you. You are so loved, child. Why do you ever think you need to go anywhere for this little human love? It is nothing. My love is all encompassing. My mother loves you intently. Forget those who shun you. Who cares? You need My love. You don't need their love. Come, get My love and then give it to the unloving. Don't worry.


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Scourging at the Pillar

From: God's Blue Book I, November 20, 1993

The Scourging at the Pillar - Holy Spirit Center Window
The Scourging at the Pillar

THE SECOND SORROWFUL MYSTERY

Study My Passion (excerpt)

Jesus speaks: They beat My body, My beautiful body, God-made-man. They tied Me to a pole and they beat Me. There were more than one beating Me. They took turns. I was the victim. They in their hate and anger lashed at Me, My beautiful body, tore My flesh over and over. They laughed and taunted Me. They were so happy to be so guileful. Oh, the laugh of the great deceiver! Like a thief in the night, he steals your hearts and you wonder why so hard. Where did their gentleness go? The great deceiver who laughs at hurting others.

It is the devil operating from the hearts of man! The heart is no longer kind and gentle, but merciless and debased in behavior. Oh, the great deceiver! To beat God-made-man and to laugh at his own ill deeds, to watch the blood of Jesus fly in the air and to laugh. It is by this blood that they and all others who abuse others and laugh will be made whole. I, in My love, forgave them for their deeds. They beat Me. They tore My flesh and I loved them. Can you not love your brothers when they are cruel to you? Can you forgive them and love them as the soul created by God, but dead in sin by the devil's hands? If I could love those who spit and laughed at Me and tore My flesh, who crowned Me with a piercing crown and hit Me on My head, can you not forgive him who offends you with a nasty word?

The way to Me is to study Me, to model yourself after My behavior. You must take up these crosses I give you every day. It is your love for your brothers that might save their crippled souls, dead in sin. See Me in them. Look beyond their deeds and see the God Who made them. Do not focus on their sick ways. Study My passion with Me. Study how I loved the unloving, how I loved those who persecuted Me. Study Me and My ways. Don't waste your time thinking about Satan and how he is taunting you through your brothers. He uses them to get you away from Me.


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Crowning with Thorns

From: God's Blue Book I, November 20, 1993

Crowning with Thorns - Holy Spirit Center Window
The Crowning with Thorns

THE THIRD  SORROWFUL MYSTERY

Study My Passion (excerpt)

Jesus speaks: The thorns in My head cut through to My skull. How to describe such an experience? And I was God! Blood trickled down My face all day. It didn't dry up because, as My heart beat, it would open the wounds. Think how tender your head is if you pull a hair! The thorns pulled My hair, like the tightness of curlers, but they cut Me and when they put them on, they hammered them into My skull. This was for the sins committed in people's minds. The hatred, the anger, the sex signs, contemplating evil deeds, sneering and envy of your brothers-ugliness! The eyes are the windows of the soul. What you look at you reflect on your soul. If your eyes look at evil things, your soul is dirty. If you look on others with hatred and anger and getting even, on dirty pictures, sinful stories, bad TV and movies, what you, through your will, take in with the beautiful eyes created by God, sparkling and full of light, reflects in your soul.

Keep your eyes light and sparkling, full of love. Relax the area around your eyes so you are not looking hard and anxiously at your brothers. Let your eyes reflect My light in your soul.

My eyes were stained with the blood that poured down My head. My vision was blurred with blood and My eyes were matted with dryness. Blood came from My mouth from the blows to My head and blood came from My nose from the hitting on My head. I was beaten on My head with the crown of thorns. I was spat at in My face. Oh, such ugliness in men's hearts! It was their minds that thought such ugly thoughts and why I suffered such brutality to My head. It is paradoxical I suffered for that which they did.


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Carrying of the Cross

August 23, 1993 - Message from Jesus

Jesus Carries His Cross - Holy Spirit Center Window
Jesus Carries His Cross

THE FOURTH SORROWFUL MYSTERY

On His Passion

Jesus speaks: My dear child,

I was condemned to death, death on a cross. They gave Me a big cross and made Me carry it. They stood around and glared at Me. It weighed on My shoulder and I pulled at it until it finally moved. Every step was almost impossible as I dragged it, weighing so heavily on My shoulders.

My shoulder felt as if the bones inside would crack and the cross would fall through to the ground. I couldn’t drag it any more. I tried, I fell. I fell and its weight fell on Me. A guard hit Me with something sharp. It really hurt because he wanted Me to move, and fast! People were watching -- on with the show! How dare I fall in the middle of the show! He hit Me again and the blow really stung Me. I got up because it hurt so badly. I tried to walk on.

My Mother was in the crowd. She looked at Me and her face looked red and hurt. Tears rolled down her cheeks like rain and as her eyes met Mine, I was hurt so by her sorrow! She was always by My side, silent and loving. She was My mother of love! She is always there next to you when you suffer.

I fell again and he (the guard) really hit Me. It (the cross) was so heavy that he and I together could barely move it. It seemed as I walked, heavier with the sins of the world heaped on it. My hands were bleeding. Blood ran from the wounds of My thorns and My head throbbed, seeming to make the wounds in My head bleed even more. Some of the Blood was dried, some of it running all over My Body. I had so many cuts and bruises -- and people watched and laughed!

I am Jesus, Son of the Living God, and they laughed and mimicked Me! Oh, such hardened hearts! How vile can men’s heart become? The devil’s grip is paralyzing and crippling.

The walk was so long up a hill and over rocks -- the cross had to be lifted over the rocks. My Body was bleeding so badly! My heart was pounding. I knew that the salvation of all men depended on My love. Therefore, I went through such agony.


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Crucifixion

August 23, 1993 - Message from Jesus

Jesus Dies on the Cross - Holy Spirit Center Window
Jesus Dies on the Cross

THE FIFTH SORROWFUL MYSTERY

On His Passion

Jesus speaks: I thought of My intense love for you -- that many would go to heaven because of My suffering -- and I continued to the top of the hill. At the top they laid Me on the cross and with a big hammer nailed My hands to it. It was the worst (suffering) yet. My hands were nailed with big nails and the big hammer. Oh, it was unbelievable! Then, as if that weren’t enough, with a big nail they nailed through both feet.

Then they lifted the cross and banged it into (a hole in) the ground. My shoulders ached from how I hung. My head bobbed and My neck ached and they laughed and said, "Now save Yourself." I hurt so much! I suffered this way for hours -- which seemed like forever -- and they glared at Me and laughed! My Mother watched in such agony.

For love of you, to My death I gave you My Body. My child, I shed My Blood and gave you My life that you might be with Me forever in heaven -- not for a day, a month or a year, but forever with Me in heaven.

I am the true Bread come down from heaven. He who eats My Flesh will have life forever. For the drink I give you is My Blood and food you eat is My Body. Who would lay down his life for a friend? I did, for you. I love you this much, child. Forget about those who reject you. You have My life that I gave you and I give you life eternal.

I am the One true God. I am the Light of life. He who abides in Me will have life eternal, for the drink I give is My Blood and the food I give is My Body. Drink and eat and have everlasting life.

My child, that is all you need to know. Love one another and be good that you may enter into My Kingdom.


(Excerpt from March 29, 1999 Daily Message)

On His Passion - August 23, 1993

Jesus speaks: My dear child,
I was condemned to death, death on a cross. They gave Me a big cross and made Me carry it. They stood around and glared at Me. It weighed on My shoulder and I pulled at it until it finally moved. Every step was almost impossible as I dragged it, weighing so heavily on My shoulders.

My shoulder felt as if the bones inside would crack and the cross would fall through to the ground. I couldn’t drag it any more. I tried, I fell. I fell and its weight fell on Me. A guard hit Me with something sharp. It really hurt because he wanted Me to move, and fast! People were watching -- on with the show! How dare I fall in the middle of the show! He hit Me again and the blow really stung Me. I got up because it hurt so badly. I tried to walk on.

My Mother was in the crowd. She looked at Me and her face looked red and hurt. Tears rolled down her cheeks like rain and as her eyes met Mine, I was hurt so by her sorrow! She was always by My side, silent and loving. She was My mother of love! She is always there next to you when you suffer.

I fell again and he (the guard) really hit Me. It (the cross) was so heavy that he and I together could barely move it. It seemed as I walked, heavier with the sins of the world heaped on it. My hands were bleeding. Blood ran from the wounds of My thorns and My head throbbed, seeming to make the wounds in My head bleed even more. Some of the Blood was dried, some of it running all over My Body. I had so many cuts and bruises -- and people watched and laughed!

I am Jesus, Son of the Living God, and they laughed and mimicked Me! Oh, such hardened hearts! How vile can men’s heart become? The devil’s grip is paralyzing and crippling.

The walk was so long up a hill and over rocks -- the cross had to be lifted over the rocks. My Body was bleeding so badly! My heart was pounding. I knew that the salvation of all men depended on My love. Therefore, I went through such agony.

I thought of My intense love for you -- that many would go to heaven because of My suffering -- and I continued to the top of the hill. At the top they laid Me on the cross and with a big hammer nailed My hands to it. It was the worst (suffering) yet. My hands were nailed with big nails and the big hammer. Oh, it was unbelievable! Then, as if that weren’t enough, with a big nail they nailed through both feet.

Then they lifted the cross and banged it into (a hole in) the ground. My shoulders ached from how I hung. My head bobbed and My neck ached and they laughed and said, "Now save Yourself." I hurt so much! I suffered this way for hours -- which seemed like forever -- and they glared at Me and laughed! My Mother watched in such agony.

For love of you, to My death I gave you My Body. My child, I shed My Blood and gave you My life that you might be with Me forever in heaven -- not for a day, a month or a year, but forever with Me in heaven.

I am the true Bread come down from heaven. He who eats My Flesh will have life forever. For the drink I give you is My Blood and food you eat is My Body. Who would lay down his life for a friend? I did, for you. I love you this much, child. Forget about those who reject you. You have My life that I gave you and I give you life eternal.

I am the One true God. I am the Light of life. He who abides in Me will have life eternal, for the drink I give is My Blood and the food I give is My Body. Drink and eat and have everlasting life.

My child, that is all you need to know. Love one another and be good that you may enter into My kingdom.