Song: The Song of the Beatitudes

August 11, 1994  -  I Watched You  (Rosaries from the Hearts of Jesus and Mary pp. 8-10)

Jesus speaks: Oh, how I watched you, child. I watched you as I gave you each little sign of My love. I watched you grow in your faith and trust in Me. I watched you suffer and stood so close you could have touched Me, but you didn't know that this suffering would be that which led you to My tender love for you.

I watched you when you surrendered and turned your will over to Me and I watched you cry, knowing this was the most joyous day of your life. I watched you see visions of doors and knew you would want to go through those doors, but they were not the doors you thought, they were the doors I gave you for greater union with Me. I watched you, child, when you wrote down My first letter to you and I saw your confusion and joy, knowing what these letters would do to touch so many hearts.

I watched you, child. I watched you when I showed you My Heart and you were so warmed by this Heart and so awed by its vision, but you didn't know what this vision would mean for many to draw their hearts to My burning love.

I watched you surrender each time as you let go of each little thing, as you were dying to self. I watched you through this surrender grow closer to Me. I watched you grow in this deep love for Me, step by step. I watched our love grow as you gave more of yourself in prayer. I watched you, child, and I loved being ever closer to you.

I watched you struggle in such trials that you thought tomorrow would never come, knowing that this trial was what would give you more freedom and love for Me. I watched you learn each lesson through hard tests and I was so close while you struggled, but did not remove the struggle, knowing you would not learn your lesson if I had.

I watched you, child, through each joy and pain and I loved you silently, always with you, and you never knew how close I truly was to you.

Song: From the day you were born…

From the day you were born, I watched you. Forever by your side, I guarded you, I loved you. I know the most secret desire of your heart far better than you yourself know. I know the Father's plan for you. I know the Father's love for you. I know the love poured on you from the Holy Spirit and how Mary is forever by your side.

I watch you, child, constantly guarding you and your ways and you do not know the love I have for you. You do not know how My Heart burns for love of you. And, someday, My beautiful child, you will know what I have in store for you, My beloved.

Come and be with Me. Grow in your love with Me. I never leave you, My beloved. Remember, I am forever watching you.

Song: From the Day You Were Born

Mary and the Church

"'Mary is present in the Church as the Mother of Christ, and at the same time as that Mother whom Christ in the mystery of the Redemption, gave to humanity in the person of the Apostle John. Thus, in her new motherhood in the Spirit, Mary embraces each and every one in the Church, and embraces each and every one through the Church. In this sense Mary, Mother of the Church, is also the Church's model. Indeed, as Paul VI hopes and asks, the Church must draw 'from the Virgin Mother of God the most authentic form of perfect imitation of Christ.'" (Pope John Paul II)

"In this extremely meaningful passage from his encyclical, Redemptoris Mater (The Mother of the Redeemer), Pope John Paul II tells us that Mary is the Mother of Christ, that she is the Mother of the Church, that she is Mother of each of us in and through the Church, and that she is the Church's model. All of these truths are most intimately connected.

"Being Mother of Christ, Mary is also spiritual Mother of His members whom Christ has formed into His body, the Church. She is also model of the Church as all good mothers are models for their children. Mary, the best of mothers, is the perfect exemplar, the perfect model, of what it means to be a follower of Christ. She guides the entire Church in greater assimilation to Christ."

[more coming soon!]

Mother at Our Side, Rev. Edward Carter, S.J., p. 68.

August 10, 1994 After Mass, Fr. Smith's Chapel

Messenger: See Mary as she beholds the baby in her arms. She looks at Him so tenderly. His sweet baby eyes look up at the eyes of His loving Mother. Such tenderness between Mother and Son, such oneness to hold her infant Son so lovingly in her arms. Oh, do we ever know the tenderness between a baby and his loving mother?

A life of close union between this mother and this Son, a life of her looking into His loving eyes. Such silent, but strong and loving communication! Such a strong bond-their eyes meeting-from one soul to the other soul.

Song: See the eyes that look at Mary (Verse l)…

Deep, deep communication, a deep bond, indescribable in words, a touching of the souls! And the peering look between Son and mother on the road to the crucifixion. What a peering look, what communication between this Son and Mother. Seeing the other suffer was as agonizing as each's very own suffering-suffering and oneness between a Son and His mother. A peering look, deep into the very souls. Such an intimacy between Them!

How can one describe in words this oneness, this union between the Son and His Mother? The perfect love between Him and her. Total giving of each person in such love to the other. To see the suffering of the other was as agonizing as-if not more than-each's own suffering.

How His passion and crucifixion were intensified by the sufferings of His dear Mother! How her sufferings were such a sharing in our redemption, the swords that pierced her Heart! The eyes of Mary that invisibly bled as she watched such brutality to the beloved baby she once carried in her womb and held in her arms!

Song: Little baby hands and feet…

Mary held the Child Jesus when he was a baby; she watched Him and cared for Him as a little boy; she was so attentive to the needs of her little Son. Will we ever know this connectedness between Their loving hearts? Do we know this oneness? The peering eyes on the way to Calvary tell the story. They tell the story of this oneness. They tell the story of her watching this horrid event of her beautiful baby Son and His horrible passion and death.

Her eyes! Oh, Mary, help me to see the love of Jesus through your eyes! You watched Him as a baby, you watched Him as a child. You watched Him grow into the beautiful man He became and you, Mary, watched Him all through this bitter passion and death. Your eyes saw the love that He gave for us. Now you come, Mary. You appear to tell us to go to this Son. You knew more than anyone His love to suffer so for us. You come and appear with blood in your eyes and tears running down your cheeks. You show me your sorrowful face, your young face, your old face, your joyful face. This was the face Jesus peered at as He walked His walk to Calvary. This was the face that appears now to tell us the story of His love this very day. I see your parade of faces, Mary, old and young, sorrowful and joyful. I see these faces that Jesus beheld. Your face tells the story of His love for us.

Mary speaks: This is my beloved Son. This is my baby. This is the child I bore in my womb. He came to give you love. He came to be God-made-Man among you this very day. He is, my children, no less present in the Eucharist than He was at Calvary and you go after such incidental things. My Son loves you. I show you my face so you can tell the world of our love. Live our lives in the rosary. Let our lives live in your day. The way to eternal happiness is to be likened to my beautiful Son.

I watched my Son. I lead you to the ardent love of my Son, Jesus. His Heart burns for love of you. Come to Him this day. Give Him your love. Spend time with Him. He is alive and in your midst in the Eucharist.

Note: I smelled roses very strongly throughout this message.

Song: See the eyes that look at Mary (Verse 2)…

Messenger: This is the Son of the Father, the Son of God, born of Mary through the Holy Spirit, and He lives this day in your hearts. Share His love for you. Go to Him through Mary's Heart. She who is so closely united to Jesus! Their hearts are so close to one another! As their eyes were joined in such oneness, their hearts are joined in such intimacy. Go to Jesus' Heart through His beloved Mother, through her who bore Him in her womb, her who watched Him give Himself for love of you.

Song: Mary's Song

Song: Lady of Medjugorje

July 25, 1994  -  My Beating Heart coming soon!

August 16, 1994  -  The Invisible Wounds coming soon!

August 16, 1994

Jesus speaks: My dear child, if the whole world falls under your feet, if the stars cease to shine and the moon not give its light, I will be your rear guard, your foreguard, your mighty God Who protects you from the enemy.

Messenger: My life is interior. My relationship with God is interior. If the floor gives out, if you hate and persecute me, if anything from the outside befalls me, my life is still with me, the life of God rooted in my soul. No one can ever take away my relationship with Jesus, the Father, the Holy Spirit, Mary and St. Joseph. No one can ever touch this - even if I cannot receive the Eucharist, Jesus is still alive within me. I can spiritually ask Him to be present in a special way to me.

The bottom line is, no one can ever touch my relationship with God and Mary, and nothing else that is taken away matters. If it is happening, He knows it and is allowing it. Jesus, I trust in You! What a treasure to always be assured of my relationship with Jesus. He never will leave me. He will always be there. His love is always with me. I want to shout it from the rooftop - this is my God and He loves me! He will never go, no one, nothing can ever stop my interior relationship with God and Mary. If I have that, what can harm me?

Jesus speaks: Though earth pass away, My love is steadfast, My presence forever within you, every minute of every day. I, God, am with you, child. I never leave you. What else matters?

Little child, little child. I love you so much. Focus on My love, ever present and poured out in such measures to you. I am Who Am. I am Jesus, Son of God. I speak to you, My little one. Open your heart and let Me embrace you. Your oneness with Me is achieved in your heart. You will stand as the strongest pillar against a raging storm, because My might is within you. If the winds come and the rain, if the earth shakes the roots of the trees, the Lord will hold you in your place. You are a mighty tree, standing on the earth. The roots which grow from within the tree are thick and well nourished. The wind can come. The winters with its cold and blizzard can press on the tree. Birds of prey can pick at the tree, but the strength of the mighty oak within will sustain it.

Your life is the life of God's grace flowing in your soul. The Spirit is a mighty force that rages in your soul. You are nourished and fed by My life. You stand strong against the wind and pestilence. You do not falter. My might is within you. If the earth quakes, you are held up by My might. I am, dear one, the Almighty God! The torrent winds cannot harm you. It may blow and blow and you will sway in the breeze but your roots are firm. You are fed My living water. I give you My very flesh for your food, you drink My very own Blood, and you, child, are sustained by the Body and Blood of Christ.

I am the Almighty God come to give life to this world. I am a force that can withstand any trial. I dwell in you and live in you and you are afraid. Oh, child, pray for vision, pray for the fearlessness of the Apostles. They were in the upper room and full of fear, and the Spirit of the Lord descended upon them and they were fearless.

Pray for the Spirit of God to enkindle in your hearts the love of God. When the earth rocks and moves about, your inner candle never flickers. You are steadfast in His love by your interior union with God and Mary. Be alone with Me, be with Me. Pray to your Father and the Holy Spirit and to Mary. You, child, are never alone, for God lives in your heart. You become one in Him and you operate with this love in a troubled world. And the winds came and blew down some that were undernourished, but he who was fed by the Bread of heaven did not fall. I am the Bread of life. My life I give to you so you will have life and have it more abundantly.

Come and sup with Me. Develop your interior life, not life as this world knows life, but My life alive and in your soul.

Song: Oh Holy Mary

August 18, 1994 - The Oneness Between Mary and Jesus

Messenger: I see her hold His lifeless Body under the cross. I see her tenderness, holding Him as a Baby. I see their oneness in the peering eyes. I see her with the sword in her Heart, pierced because of the sufferings of her Son. I see her giving birth to her beautiful Baby.

I see her sorrowful face, her beautiful face, her old face, her young face; all reflections of her life and His life, joined in joy, joined in suffering, joined - Mother and Son - all through Their lives, during the Passion, now joined in heaven. They want to draw us to eternal salvation.

A loving Mother, truly by our sides, waiting to listen to our problems, and Jesus forever with her.

She stands under the cross and places our burdens there with us as we, hand-in-hand with our loving Mother, give up our frustrations, our crosses to Him, our loving Savior.

This is life, to be fixed so closely united with the Hearts of Jesus and Mary, all day surrendering ourselves to Their loving Hearts.

This is warmth and security to me. I realize so very much Their presence. This is the reality of this world. It is God’s world. We dwell here in the hope of achieving everlasting life. Jesus Christ is truly present this day in the Eucharist, no less than the day he walked this earth.

Mary is so closely united to her Son. To love Jesus is to love Mary, to love Mary is to love Jesus.

Mary, help me to love your beloved Son.

Jesus, help me to love your beloved Mother.

Mary is always leading me to the love of her precious Son. All the meditations on the rosary about Mary lead me to Him. She is our spiritual Mother. To think of His being formed in her womb is so beautiful. I ask Mary to form me in her womb so I can be more closely united to her Son. For nine months He was formed in the womb of His loving Mother. For my lifetime, I am forever formed in her womb to deepen my union with Jesus, the Holy Spirit and the Father.

The protection and security, to be surrounded by Mary’s womb, is so beautiful. She delivers us up to union with her precious Son.

The more I meditate on Their lives in the rosary (I really meditate on each bead), these beautiful mysteries of Their lives, the more I am so closely joined to the union of Mary’s Heart and Jesus’ Heart. This is my refuge. This is our life, to be joined so intimately to Their Hearts!

She draws me to her and draws me to praying the rosary, like steel to a magnet. I get such comfort sharing Their lives. It is there I realize so much Their reality. They are truly here, this very day -- we are not ever alone!  I am united to their lives. This comfort exists all through the day, for they are with me.

I pray in front of the big statue of Mary and she is alive to me.

Song: Jesus, I Believe

Fr. Carter's Closing Remarks and Blessings coming soon!

Song: Jesus, My Lord, My God, My All

August 20, 1994

Mary speaks: My suffering was so deep, only by God's grace could a human person experience such suffering.

There were not wounds, there was no blood, there was, my child, only the experiences of my Heart. My Heart was pierced so deeply with a sword. Such deep pain, a sword piercing would not describe the pain I had. Do you wonder how deep did the sword pierce my Heart? The depth was incomprehensible. My life was lived in such connectedness with my Son, in such intimacy with Him. I watched my beloved Son, to whom I was so closely united for 33 years, suffer so dishonorably.

My sufferings were for you, child. I love you as no earthly mother ever loved a child. I am your most loving Mother. If I underwent such suffering for you, do you think I would not be protecting and loving you now? I have not gone. I am with you!

If I could only tell you what I saw: my Son suffering for love of you. If I could let you see through my eyes what He suffered for love of you!

If you meditate on His Passion in the rosary and the Stations, you see His immense love. I will help you to see His love more and more through my eyes.

I appear to tell all of this suffering. This is the key to understanding how much you are loved. Think of what I saw, look through my eyes, hold His lifeless Body under the cross, meditate on the Seven Sorrows that I hold deep in my Heart. It is there you will know His immense love. Look at my Son through a Mother's eyes. Look at Him as He dragged the heavy cross on His way to the Crucifixion. Stand by and watch them pull His hair and drag Him away, and beat His precious bare Body. Stand with me, little ones, as I walked with Him and look through my eyes. You will realize more His great love for you.

Go to Him, love Him, He is in the Eucharist this day. He longs, longs for your individual love. He is your lover, on FIRE for love of you. I love you so much.

I am Mary, your Mother.

August 21, 1994

Messenger: We must see Christ's love poured out to us through one another. He operates in our brothers. One of the ways He loves us is through others. We must see Christ in each person.

Am I acting like Christ to my brothers?

Am I the reflection of the Christ Who lives within me?

Christ wants to love His beloved ones through me. Am I loving my brothers as He wants me to?

Did I act like Christ would?

Jesus, help me to let You live through me. Help me to be the empty vessel You use to spread Your love to others.

I love You so, thank You for the love You pour out to me this day. I am Your grateful child and I love You.

August 21, 1994

Jesus speaks: I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus. I am the tenderest of all hearts. I love you so much, let go and experience all the love I pour out to you. You do not see the abundant blessing I am pouring on you. I am Jesus and I am forever guarding you. Hold tight to My hand, focus on My ardent burning Heart on fire for love of you. Release all anxieties and fears as you find such shelter in My Heart.

You are surrounded by My enfolding love. You are warmed and cradled by My arms. I am your tender Jesus, gentlest of all hearts, come to love you so ardently this very day.

Let go into My most waiting arms. My Mother will place you in the very recesses of My Heart. She is your most loving Mother. Come to Me through her Immaculate Heart.

I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus, you are My chosen ones. Experience My love poured out to you this day, My beloved ones.