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May 19, 2006
ERA of 2 Hearts of LOVE
ERA of Love
May 19, 12006 message continues
the hungry souls starving
How deep can we go to be ever
more united to God —
inexhaustible depth into
But likewise how bad can the evil
get — how deep is the darkness.
An old man was blind and had a little
black dog that went with him everywhere —
his wife had died and he was pretty much
He could think and pray because he
was blind — he keenly could see
ever more deeply into the Divine
Soon his hearing went out as well and
he found himself so deep
in his relationship with God.
Our senses can help us know the
world and people that surround
But inside is this special place where
I have my interior life — it can
be very private, but in the beginning
God told me to share myself —
my interior life with every one and
He would give me deeper insights
in my soul -- Help me to express
my loving relationship with Him to help
I really became aware of this interior
life very deeply at five when my
mom died. Everyone told me she
went to heaven and so I knew
about the life hereafter with
my mom. Mom died in her body,
people would say
"Rita but she went to heaven."
When mom was dying of cancer, I had
heard a lot about heaven and we
prayed — my mom went to daily
Mass and her prayer book was
yellow and worn from all the praying
she did. She was a third order
Franciscan so she was buried with
some brown Franciscan robe and
I think it had Jesus' Heart on it.
It was June 19, a Thursday night
or Friday morning, I think, it
could have been the Feast of
the Sacred Heart.
My dad went into a nervous breakdown
after that — I was the youngest of 5
children, 5 years old, my oldest
brother became a priest and still is —
he was 9 years older than me and
my sister a sister for 26 years —
on the 26th year she committed
suicide — she went through all the
changes in the convent and they sent
her to what was called a house of
affirmation, which closed after
that and there was treatment she went
through at the hospital for depression — there were
problems in the convents with nuns
from full habits and convents crowded
when she went in >> to nuns wearing
red dresses, lipstick and having jobs.
But I write this here for 2 reasons
1) God wants holy religious women giving
their lives praying for the priests,
the Church and the world and serving
like a mother praying for these
children of the Church.
2) I never planned any of this Movement —
My sister died and I loved her — She committed
suicide on her 26th anniversary of
being a sister — Mary's
celebrated birthday September 8th.
When I was 48 years old — I began working
with Fr. Carter and he celebrated the Mass
of the Sacred Heart on a First Friday
for my birthday.
Mary was appearing to me daily — what a
gift — my mom died when I was 5 and
then Mary appeared when I was 48 the
age my mom was when cancer took her
away from us.
But in the suffering — there is the joy.
There is the joy of knowing deeply about
heaven at age 5 and my mom was
probably there — I was told it and it
was great — a connection with heaven then
so young. My heart ached because my
mom was dead, but she wasn't dead
she was in a great place and getting lots
of love and God took her home and that
was our real home. A profound lesson to
know at age 5 — know about heaven so deeply.
Then the First Communion, by then I had
a wonderful step-mom, but my dad was
still so shaken from my mom's death — he didn't
go to my first communion — so when everybody
had their natural parents, I had neither so
I got real close to the Eucharist — I knew
Jesus was coming to me — I looked around —
saw all the "kids" with their moms and dads and
once again went inside to touch heaven and
be with Jesus and I did —
I feel so deeply the presence of God in
the Eucharist — it is, as I cry, the light
in the interior walls of my heart — the
place where I went to — to know happiness,
warmth of the Divine God coming to me.
I went to the Eucharist daily most of my
life and I know God outpours His grace
to give us deeper insights into the Divine
As Fr. Carter talked about dwelling in the
Hearts of Jesus and Mary and I didn't quite
understand that — my heart is full with
this knowledge of God in my interior life —
A reality of knowing God: Father, Son and
Holy Spirit more deeply every moment I live and especially
through these revelations and ecstasies God has
given to me and asked me to share in the writing.
Fr. Carter would call dwelling in Their Hearts
a little heaven on earth and he said - many
times - if I didn't have this
transforming union it would be hard
handling the problems and things
early-on in the setting up of the Movement.
Dwelling in Their Hearts is going to the
red room for me — seeing the pot bellied
stove on Blue Book II — the vision of December 17, 1991 —
the Heart of Jesus and the message — I didn't
know what these revelations would do to
draw men to His Heart and then
watching it unfold —
The Blue Books — the Mighty Medicine
for the hungry world — leading souls
to the depth of the burning Heart
of Jesus - on fire for love of souls
I did not know after the vision December 17, 1991
Our Lady of Clearwater would appear 5 years later December 17, 1996
Interior life — dwelling in Their Hearts —
Knowing the presence of God as I wrote
December 17, 1995 in the Mass Book —
one year before Mary appeared
December 17, 1995
Excerpt from the Mass Book
THE EARTH STOPPED AND TOUCHED HEAVEN
I long to unite in the deepest union with Him in the Eucharist. I long for the Mass. I long for Thee, oh God. My every moment, I join as I did to You December 15 under the cross, where I felt Your presence. You whisked me away, and I was totally absorbed in that moment of celestial union with You. For that time, I existed only in You, in the deepest union, and I was in this moment existing in You. The earth stopped, and I touched the heavens, all my bodily cares were existent in You. I existed in Your Divinity, my being was in You. There was no desire or wish or wanting, for in that moment, I had all I wanted in You. I was satisfied and wanted nothing but to remain in that embrace. You were the Being, and my being existed in You, but I was only as I was in You - merged in You, knowing and being in Your Divinity and being so full as to feel complete in myself.
You are so enormous, and You surrounded me in a burning embrace, the presence of red fire. I was not little, or "nothing", but existed in this enormous power and being so complete!
I touched eternity, and in that embrace, I knew all the waiting was worth the glory. You enveloped my being, and I was truly merged in the Divine Presence. I was merged in Your being. I existed IN You, with You, in the highest union with You, although I knew I was still distinct from You.
I was fused and absorbed in You, feeling complete and satisfied. To describe this union is far beyond any work of my pen and paper. I pray for the reader of this page to receive the grace to share this experience with Him, I will now live for this union-to be forever merged In Him, to be One in Him, to reach higher perfection as I exist in Him, for He takes the lowly and gives to them a sharing in Himself. He merges with us and we exist in Him. The word "in" - I could write pages about. I long for the deepest union with Him, where I am swept up in the heavenly embrace of the Divine God, and I am IN Him.
This is heaven on earth: to be merged as one with Divinity, although remaining distinct from God, to take our feeble hearts, our lowly status and to unite ourselves with the Divine, Almighty, powerful God and in this union to be meshed with Him, that His power dominates and our humanity reaches its heights of fulfillment in this union, in this oneness with Him.
The word I have looked for is "oneness." I understand some of the meaning of the words "One in Him." Oneness is the word to describe this union of our humanity with His Divinity. The depth to which we could meditate on oneness with God is incomprehensible. In that moment, the earth stood still, and He, my Divine Lover, the Bridegroom of my soul, took me to Himself, and I knew the embrace of the Divine God.
Nothing on the face of this earth can describe our union with Divinity. Oh, good God, that creatures are so ungrateful regarding Your divine love. I am so sorry. Let me help make reparation to Your adorable Heart. Please unite with me now that I may more deeply love Thee.
Oh, Divine Lover of my soul, let me help make reparation to Your adorable Heart for the neglect and indifference against You.
Song from Jesus: I come to you with greatest love. I am your loving Savior. I am your God. I died for you. I come to you this day.
He allowed me to experience such pain in my heart - wanting Him so badly, so many times-and then on Dec. 15, 1995 - He gave Himself to me in the deepest union.
Nothing satisfies the soul but Him. He wants the nuns and priests to love Him. He chose them to spread His love.
Souls are hungry. They will only be fed with His burning love. Priests need to talk about Jesus' love for us from the pulpit. Priests need hearts burning for love of Jesus. This will feed the hungry souls - lip service love doesn't do it.
He is alive today. He is a Person. He wants us to love Him.
end of December 17, 1995 Mass Book entry
May 19, 12006 message continues
Messenger:And I cried to know the reality of more
Oh mysteries of mysteries to contemplate
Christ's life alive in us. The
lights shining out of us as God
dwells in the graced soul:
Father, Son and Holy Spirit.
I know the oneness of God, I experienced
it so deeply December 15, 1995 and I know the
Father, Son and Holy Spirit as Persons of the
This Movement and the gifts God gives
us in the sacraments, the Church,
the priest has come alive as
He reveals Himself to me and insight
into His mysteries deep in my soul!
The joy of the interior life
The joy of life in Him here below
A mom dead at 5 — the opening of the door
of His Heart full of fire for love
of men —
Heights of knowing Him —
Having life in Him
Fr. Carter would say
if we could only see our own graced
soul — we could hardly take it.
May 19, 12006 message continues
Messenger:Study every word and sing it to
Jesus speaks: Tell them I want them to sing
this song to Me —
I will give it to you so they
will sing this love song to Me.
May 25, 1995 I had this vision.
Here is what He said.
May 25, 1995
(Apostles Manual pg. 418 - 421)
I Am Alive!
Messenger: Prayer is a lifting up of our minds and hearts to God. Who am I that I can change any event that is occurring in the lives of another, that I can affect the outcome of any event? I am a child of my Father. My Father is the Almighty God. How I love my dear Father. He is God and He has created me in His own image and likeness. My beloved, dear Father, how I love You that You give me such gifts - that You allow me to share in Your life!
You are the Father of Jesus and You are My Father. Thank You, My Father, for all Your gifts and for Your life. Who am I that I can affect the life of any person?
I am a child of God. I call on my dear Father and He loves me so, He listens to me. I lift my heart to You, my dear beloved Father and You listen to little me and You care for me so much. I call upon God and the Almighty God cares for me with such love that He listens.
Jesus speaks: Such truths have been given to you from My Father because of His great love for you. You are far more precious than the finest pearls, My beloved child. The Father so loved you He gave His Son so that you would have life. He gave His Son as a sacrifice for you. The Father gives to you His life through Jesus, His Son. You partake in His divine life.
I am Jesus, Son of the Living God. My life I give to you, I live in your being, My beloved, I impart to you My divine life.
How many turn their backs on the great gift of this life given from the Father. To know this life and to know all those who have rejected this great gift!
I am the Almighty God, My power is endless. The power and might you felt within yourself is only a small sampling of My immense power.
I am God and I am allowing you to experience what you are experiencing to spread My love to others. Your immense understanding into these mysteries will help you speak and write them for others.
I have chosen you as an instrument to touch many hearts and bring them to My divine love. Great gifts and understandings into these mysteries I am giving to you. You will lead many priests to the love of God.
I am alive. I am God. I long to be loved by man and many have turned their backs on Me and forgotten Me. You must tell them all I am allowing you to experience, these sufferings and understandings into My deep love.
This is the beginning of many days when I will allow you to experience the rejection I felt from those I loved. Your heart is in immense pain for the souls who reject Me despite My love for them.
I beg you to speak and write. Make reparation for souls that have forgotten My love. Spread the love of My Sacred Heart and My Mother's heart, throughout the world.
I love, I love, I love My beloved souls. I beg you to tell them. I beg Fr. Carter to tell every soul on this earth of My love. You will continue to suffer such pain and anguish in your heart. Suffer in silence for souls. I love so deeply and am so gravely offended!
I am Jesus, My dear, little child. I am alive and in this world. I live in the hearts of men, I live in the consecrated Host, I am forgotten and ignored and treated with such dishonor.
Speak for Me, I beg you to spread this love throughout this earth. I am sending you as missionaries into this world.
On this Ascension Thursday, I have given you great sufferings and great joy. I have allowed you to experience the highest ecstasies in My love and plunge you into deep pain in your heart for those who reject Me.
You, I send as missionaries to carry out the work I have begun. Be fearless and pray to the Spirit. This day I am giving you abundant graces to speak, and through this speaking, others are sent into this world as My apostles.
It is through the Shepherds of Christ Movement My love will be spread. Circulate My messages and rosary meditations. The love of the two Hearts will be known throughout this world through these messages and rosary meditations.
You will be fearless, everyone I send to you is a messenger to carry out My love. Circulate these letters with FIRE for I am delivering them to you in FIRE.
I am Jesus Christ, the Living God. I am allowing you to experience My life, alive in you and giving you these emotions to spread My love.
On this Ascension Thursday, I beg you to carry out the message to this world. Live My life in your life, every moment My life living within you.
I am the Way, I am the Truth, I am the Life. I have commissioned you to go out and to carry this message - the message of My immense love for ALL mankind, including My burning love for My priests and religious. Souls will turn their hearts to Me from these letters. This is the mighty medicine to turn a sick, cold world to hearts filled with the love of God.
Prayer, My beloved ones, is the lifting up of your minds and hearts to God. When you intercede to Me through My Mother's heart, I will pour out My greatest mercy.
I will not refuse hearts begging for grace for their loved ones. Pray from your whole being. Let My life live in you.
You can pray and ask God to send help. You do not know the power of a heartfelt prayer. I listen to your prayers. The Father and Holy Spirit are listening to your prayers. The more you unite with God, the greater you intercessory prayer. I am Jesus. I am alive this day. I ask you to spread My messages to the world. I am crying out in your heart on this Ascension Thursday. I ascended into heaven and I have left behind you to carry out what I began. I am with you. I am alive this day. I will unite with you and the earth will know the power of the Almighty God. I am Jesus Christ, Chief Shepherd of the flock. Lead My little ones home - home to the burning embers of My Most Sacred Heart, through My Mother's heart.
Messenger: I cried so hard, I have never been so immersed in heartache. I heard Him shout, "I Am Alive, I Am Alive." I cried so hard, I could hardly write.
I know Him. He is alive in my being. My soul is filled with His love. I live the life of Jesus and Mary in my life. I love His life, her life - their presence forever with me. From this great gift, these rosary meditations, His life has become one with mine. I feel His life in the Mass. I hear Mary under the cross. I hear the cries for the souls going to hell for their willfulness and sins. I hear the laments of Jesus in the tabernacle - how He longs and thirsts for souls and is neglected and ignored. I hear Him tell of the sacrileges committed against the Holy Eucharist.
I heard Him this day. I felt His presence and the presence of the Almighty God as He cries out, "I am alive, I am alive, I am alive."
He is alive. We have the Mass. He gives us Himself in the Eucharist. Mary is appearing, we are given this rosary. We are sent as soldiers by Him in the Shepherds of Christ. We are thirsting for union with Him, sent by Him, apostles to go out to this world and spread His love, one with the Eucharistic Heart of Jesus, one with the Trinity. He will light this earth with hearts on fire for love of Him.
Jesus speaks: I come to you with greatest love, I am your loving Savior, I am your God, I died for you, I come to you this day.
The earth shakes and the Son of Man appears. He lives in the hearts of all. I want hearts on FIRE for love of Me. I want vibrancy and love from My beloved ones. Hold not back My love from this world.
Messenger: I adore you, Oh Lord, I praise you, I worship you, I bless Him with my whole soul. My soul proclaims the greatness of the Lord and holy, holy is His name! Jesus wants souls that are holy, on fire with the love of Jesus. Make novenas to the Holy Spirit to have hearts on FIRE with the love of God. Sound the trumpet, sound the gong - Jesus LIVES - He lives this day! Alleluia.
Sunday is a special day to praise Him, to love Him, to pray to Him - His day to be honored and worshipped in a special way. Pray from a pure and holy heart, a heart that sings for love of the Lord. Pray from your whole being.
end of May 25, 1995 message
May 19, 12006 message continues
Jesus speaks: Go inside Jesus says
and I will
tell you the secrets of
My Heart is burning with fire
for My precious souls.
Our bodies die and decay — they
go to the earth and what goes
with us, the things we do not touch, the
love of our heart, the immortal soul —
Dwelling in the pure and holy Hearts
of Jesus and Mary —
The reality of the life hereafter
so deeply wedged in my soul —
LIFE TO THE FULL
Let the reality of this gift - seep in us.
How to describe it — I do not know
with His grace I try —
with His grace they were refreshed
at the table of the Lord and
He entered them with such
Love is forever —
Love in Him never dies
This is a labor of love —
To spread the Good News —
To Feed the hungry sheep with
the knowledge of the Eucharist and
His word and the love of God.
Leading the Flock to this great
era of love
AND I say yes to the
top of the mountain —
Yes to joy
Yes to love
Yes to God —
for He fills my soul
This is the timely message —
Jesus died a brutal death
Our gaze is on Him
Our gaze is on the Mystery of Christ
The hidden mystery
Excerpt from Response to
by Father Edward Carter, S.J.
The Mystery of Christ and Christian Existence
...In reference to Christianity, God himself is the ultimate mystery. Radically, God is completely other and transcendent, hidden from man in his inner life, unless he chooses to reveal himself. Let us briefly look at this inner life of God.
The Father, in a perfect act of self-expression, in a perfect act of knowing, generates his son. The Son, the Word, is, then, the immanent expression of God's fullness, the reflection of the Father. Likewise, from all eternity, the Father and the Son bring forth the Holy Spirit in a perfect act of loving.
At the destined moment in human history, God's self-expression, the Word, immersed himself into man's world. God's inner self-expression now had also become God's outer self-expression. Consequently, the mystery of God becomes the mystery of Christ. In Christ, God tells us about himself, about his inner life, about his plan of creation and redemption. He tells us how Father, Son, and Holy Spirit desire to dwell within us in the most intimate fashion, how they wish to share with us their own life through grace. All this he has accomplished and does accomplish through Christ. St. Paul tells us: "I became a minister of this Church through the commission God gave me to preach among you his word in its fullness, that mystery hidden from ages and generations past but now revealed to his holy ones. God has willed to make known to them the glory beyond price which this mystery brings to the Gentiles—the mystery of Christ in you, your hope of glory. This is the Christ we proclaim while we admonish all men and teach them in the full measure of wisdom, hoping to make every man complete in Christ" (Col 1:25-28).
May 19, 12006 message continues
Messenger: What goes
on with us — like my
mom when she died —
She loved the Eucharist —
I never knew her
Mary appeared to me at 48
I sought my love in God and
No love here below could ever
quench the hungry thirst
of my soul, but Jesus
All of you
Tell God we are sorry about
the Di Vinici Code and tell
Him you want to do His
work here with me —
I remember a great writer had a story —
a woman wanted a red dress and
the husband never gave it
to her —
when she died he buried her
in it —
why didn't he give it to
her when she was alive and
could wear it here and enjoy it?
What good does it do us to serve God
and not be loving!!
What good does it do us to do
1,000,000 good things and
not do what God wants
us to do.
Is our will more important
to us, than God's and we
block His plan that
can help billions of souls
because we just don't want to give
Him what He wants —
God is the hungry hound of heaven —
He seeks us like the
ardent lover —
He sits by our bed like
he says in the Blue Book —
We move away from Him many
times and then blame
Him when we are
Let's do what Mary and Jesus want
Give our hearts to Jesus and
Mary in love and
Pray for grace to always
do God's will!!
On the Interior Life
Excerpt from September 4, 2000
Messenger: ... That is how it is regarding the knowledge He plants in me. It's more than words.
It is a cognitive reality that exists in my every cell. It is a knowledge of God implanted in my being.
I know the glory of heaven as He has implanted this knowledge of Himself deep in my soul, and my heart cries to tell the earth.
We are so caught up in this world, our very bodies hold us back from existing in that transcendent self that wants to exist in Him completely and fully. At times my whole being is so elated at Mass and in ecstasy that I think I cannot take the experience within me. Grandeur, ecstatic heights of glory, what are the words to express the top of the mountain of God's embrace? There are none. There is not color to describe mystical lights. The picture of Mary, July 5, 2000, is only a picture, the beauty cannot be captured with lights and colors man produces. The top of the mountain is that of God's celestial gifts. There is an awe that only comes when one is at the top of the mountain and looks down on the earth below. Even gazing upward, although quite beautiful, is not like the view looking down the mountain from the summit of the place to what is here below.
Ups and downs, nights and mornings, green fir trees and burned up twigs, little tender skinned babies and old wrinkled men...
I learned about the interior life when my mother died. I knew the veil of death. I knew when something so dear to me was taken away that I had to reach for something else beyond. I knew in my heart that my beautiful mom existed. I knew she was living with God, she told me about Him in her love and holiness. Yes, at five I learned about the curtain of death and the life hereafter. I could have gotten in the casket of the dimly lit funeral home and been with her body, but I knew she wasn't in the casket anymore, only her body, clothed in a brown Franciscan garb of the 3rd order of St. Francis. When they let me touch her body and told me to kiss it, it was cold, dead in that casket, and I ran around the funeral parlor and played games, but inside I was facing a mighty jolt and no one was talking to me about how I felt. I felt alone and scared and I smelled the roses so strong that for a good part of my life I didn't like the smell because it reminded me of the funeral parlor and my mom.
But now I know that the roses meant Our Lady was there with me and it was Our Lady telling me that although my heart ached and I wanted love, someday, Jesus would reveal Himself to me and she would appear when I was 48, the same age my mother was when she died. It took a life of searching for love, I felt a sword in my heart at that early age of five. In reality, I found that God gave me a great gift in my mom's death, helping me understand about that curtain of death between this world and the next. And when Jesus spoke to me in 1991 and showed me His Heart, December 17, 1991.
Messenger: I didn't know how truly important that date was for the world, or that Mary would appear on the building for all her children to see. Five years after I saw Jesus' Heart on fire Mary appeared on the building that same day of the same month, December 17, 1996. And I did not know the first message Jesus gave me would be published December 17, 1993, with the title, "Children Need Time and Attention".
Well, I want you to look at the picture again of the graveyard, because I was directed to take it on Friday, September 1, 2000, First Friday - along with the church next to it.
Sept. 1, 2000 - FIRST FRIDAY
Messenger: Jesus' Movement helps to turn churches into little cities of light. All around us might look merry and happy, and yet the blood of the lonely souls soon runs dry, and they go through that curtain of death.
It is up to you and me to see the graveyard and the church and see our mission. It is one of helping to renew the Church and the world. It is one of praying for our priests, of loving souls so deep in our hearts that at every moment we lay down our lives for them in the Morning Offering.
My God sent me a soul to help me on this journey when I was 48 and to be a theological consultant. The gifts God has given to us all from one so quiet who dedicated His life to God as a holy priest I cannot even express. God has given us a body of people working with me to bring you these messages and pray for you all through the day, and if my name is out there because it is Ring and that is what Jesus wants so you will associate these writings with a spousal union with Him, it is not I alone that has brought this revelation to you. It is a body of people who have laid down their lives as apostles of the Sacred Heart and have given their money and have believed in these revelations and loved God and you so much that they have contributed themselves so fully to this work. We are a body of messengers delivering with one voice His message. Our president is quiet, and walks with me, giving his all for this work. So I wear a white dress and Father wears a Roman collar. John, our President, is one with us in leading the apostles to do this work and pray. He works hard to get the priestly newsletters, and prayer chapters and the rosary, etc., to the world.
Long hours are spent and lots of sacrifices are given by all the apostles of the Sacred Heart. They have been formed and trained by Jesus. They have loved Jesus and Mary these past 6 years in a special way. We operate as a body of people to bring this message to you, and I thank God for Himself and you and them and all His gifts given to us.
Study the picture of the cemetery. We are here to bring honor and glory to God. Our life here below passes so quickly. We can't take our possessions with us. Our children grow and have babies, our houses grow old, our most treasured loved ones die, and we stay rooted in Him, for He is God, constant and always with us.
Mary, our Mother, Queen of the Roses, help us get this message to the world.
Messenger: I did not know when they opened up Fr. Carter 18 days later that they would find out he was filled with cancer and had less than 3 months to live.
Excerpt from September 4, 2000
On the Interior Life
Excerpt from March 20, 2001
Messenger: It is the gifts that are given in the Mass
I must boast.
Oh my God in that moment, I was so connected
to heaven and earth. I empty myself more
and more because of my desire that grace
is released on the world.
So much goes on in that moment of
consecration. It is as if the lights are dimmed
and light surrounds the priest in those
March 20, 2001 message continues
Messenger: My heart is so one
with all heaven and
I am so one in that sacrifice being offered.
Jesus is the Chief Priest and Victim. I see
Him offer the Mass.
The lights were dim and my focus was in
that moment of consecration. The lights surrounded
the priest and I was so connected to the
miracle that transpired there.
I want to empty myself so completely. I want
the Father to look down and see this great sacrifice.
The Father sees his Son, a most pleasing sacrifice.
I unite so deeply to Jesus and offer myself
in such oneness with Jesus to the Father.
I just am in that moment. I know so
much in the moments of consecration. I know
so much of the above and the below here
Oh how to write to you for you fault me, but
with much prayer I try to express my experience
From all the experiences I have had, I have been
given knowledge of those moments of consecration
in the Mass. My knowledge reaches a greater fullness
all the time as he allows me to experience deeper
insights into this great mystery of God's gift of
love to us in the Mass.
In a split second I know so much of what
is transpiring in heaven and on earth. For me
I could write forever about the experience I have
with the souls in heaven above and my relationship
with the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit and Mary
and all angels and saints, the souls in purgatory,
the members of the Body of Christ and the souls of the earth.
I write so feebly of an experience that may come
quicker than the batting of the eye and yet words
cannot express it, nor volumes of pages ever exhaust
what I know in that split second.
Oh the joys of the mystical life, for it is God that
imparts knowledge to me and not the pages of books
and books written about the intellectual perceptions on
In a flash I see it and my depth of being so one
with God I cannot ever describe, but my participation
in it is so important in helping to bring down
great grace for the souls of the earth.
I can experience a depth of union, I cannot
describe with God the Father, Jesus as Son, Priest
and Victim, the Holy Spirit and Mary and a greater
depth I know with the angels and saints since
Father Carter's death.
I long for the Mass. I long for the Consecration.
I am so one with all parts of the Mass. The depth
I can experience in the Liturgy of the Word is that
one word of His Word can send me into an ecstatic
experience being so one in Him having been given
a special grace in which I exist so deeply in
But the Mass leads up to the Consecration and
the Communion with Him.
Jesus has been teaching me over these years about
the Mass —
Through Him, With Him, In Him
March 20, 2001 message continues
Messenger: — In so many different parts of the Mass, He
has taught me.
There are bits and pieces in the writings on the experiences I have had.
Deep insights into knowing what it is to exist in Him. The
word IN is so important to me.
From the Mass Book December 17, 1995 ( one year before Mary appeared) I quote:
The word "in" - I could write pages about. I long for the deepest union with Him,
where I am swept up in the heavenly embrace of the Divine God, and I am IN Him.
End of excerpt from the Mass Book
Messenger: I went through experiences in many different
parts of the Mass:
The drop of water into the wine at the offertory, The power in the
words of the Holy, Holy, I love the words of the Mass, I delve so
deeply into every word. I love the Mass.
I love the words of the offertory. Father Carter did
not want a song then so we could hear the
words because they are so beautiful.
I love My God so deeply in the Mass. I give Myself to
Him and He gives Himself to me. I give myself as
a sacrifice to God. I unite in this Holy Sacrifice
with the Divine God. I offer myself with
Jesus to the Father in the Holy Spirit.
I want so much to put it all on paper. To take the
movie out of my head of the events, to put forth the
expression of my whole being of what transpires there
at Mass as I give myself to God. I want to write about
how deeply I unite to all of heaven and earth and I
want to write it for you for He has called me today to do
I am so connected to the souls of the earth and so
connected to heaven. I am so aware of the souls in
purgatory. I am as I exist in the depth of the Heart
of Jesus in the Mass.
I sing a hymn of joy for it all. And you ask me
to structure it to write as men of old may write a
documentary on the Mass and I write as a soul that
goes into such depth of existing in my Love,
my God, in the Mass, I am one with God at Mass
and the souls of the earth and all of heaven.
I see the heavens above me and the earth here
below and the connection, the depth of union,
the knowing of what transpires is in my heart
as I exist so deeply in Him.
I write as a mystic, not a theologian, for me the
most beautiful drama unfolds in the Mass, it
is the song of my heart, the song I play for
my Divine God and the heavens, all the angels and
saints, and the souls of the earth I love so much.
I play the song in my heart as I give myself so completely
in the Mass to God and to the souls I love.
I empty myself for the honor and glory of God: for my sake,
for my brothers I love so much on this earth.
To love them so deeply as I do in the Mass
gives honor and glory to God and yet for me to describe it
is so hard for all this happens within me in a beautiful
symphony from experiencing the ecstasies that He has
given to me. They are implanted in my soul, they are deep
deep knowledge of the mystical insights into the
Instead of chasing me around and making it so hard to
publish what I know, I wish that you would help me
express this great gift God has given to us all in the
Oh my God, the gift of the Mass.
Oh my God, the gift of Yourself - given to me.
I saw the lights dim and I saw the priest surrounded
in a cloud of light and the earth seemed to
stop in that moment of consecration. He said the
words and I watched him, the Divine God is
here with us through the hands of a consecrated
And I cry to you my priests to wear your priesthood so
proudly for God has lavishly outpoured His
love to the earth through your hands and the
gift of priesthood is so sacred to us the
Oh I do cry. My family watches the News and I see the
money a man would spend so he could
vacation on the moon and the time for so many,
wasted, helping him.
Oh my God, the gifts you can experience in
one Mass is even greater than a vacation to
And why won't you help us to get prayer manuals
in the hands of priests to pray for the priests, the
Church and the world?
end of March 20, 2001 message
Come to me, Lord, and possess my soul. Come into my heart and permeate my soul. Help me to sit in silence with You and let You work in my heart.
I am Yours to possess. I am Yours to use. I want to be selfless and only exist in You. Help me to spoon out all that is me and be an empty vessel ready to be filled by You. Help me to die to myself and live only for You. Use me as You will. Let me never draw my attention back to myself. I only want to operate as You do, dwelling within me.
I am Yours, Lord. I want to have my life in You. I want to do the will of the Father. Give me the strength to put aside the world and let You operate my very being. Help me to act as You desire. Strengthen me against the distractions of the devil to take me from Your work.
When I worry, I have taken my focus off of You and placed it on myself. Help me not to give in to the promptings of others to change what in my heart You are making very clear to me. I worship You, I adore You and I love You. Come and dwell in me now.
-God's Blue Book, January 17, 1994
Pray for urgent intentions.
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