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God’s
BLUE BOOK 4

The Love of the Hearts of Jesus and Mary



Volume IV

Messages received by

Rita Ring



Sub-Title - The Love of the Hearts of Jesus and Mary

Messenger: I received these messages from Jesus and Mary from July 1, 1994 - September 30, 1994.

During that time Mary began to appear daily. She first appeared July 5, 1994 to me, my two children were present. Soon a holy priest would join me and my two children daily for the apparitions. Jesus and Mary gave me the messages Rosaries from the Hearts of Jesus and Mary. These rosaries are meditations given live and transcribed from tapes. They are published in written form in several books of rosaries.

The messages given in this book tell of those beginning apparitions of Mary. Also many messages are given from Jesus of His tender love.

The first core Shepherds of Christ Chapter was held on the last Tuesday in August, 1994, at Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center. This was during the time I received the messages in this book.

The Love of the Hearts of Jesus and Mary

This book is centered on the intimacy between Jesus and Mary and the deep love for us of these two Hearts.

I experienced some of Mary’s sufferings and was given insight into her deep connection with her Son. From conception to His Ascension, such oneness in their lives together! The rosary is from her young life to her old life. I saw the faces: young faces, old faces, joyful faces, sorrowful faces, on the statue. I experienced some sufferings of Mary holding the Child Jesus and holding His lifeless body under the cross. The intimacy between Jesus and Mary is felt so deeply in their peering eyes on the way to Calvary.

I experienced the lifting of the veil throughout this book. I had such profound experiences and insights into the other side. So immense is the love of Jesus that words are too weak to describe it. I was given a real awareness of heaven, hell and purgatory and how souls will truly be lost. It is a very deep book about the sufferings and the love of the two Hearts—Jesus and Mary.







July 1, 1994

I Accept Myself - I Am The Father’s Creation

Messenger: Dear Father, I do not know You as well as I want, but I love You so.

You are one with Jesus. He is one with You. I love Jesus so much, Father. I come to You through Jesus to love You. I love You so because I love Jesus so. I know how You love me because You created me and gave Your only Son that I might get to heaven.

Oh, Father, to pray Your "Our Father" is such a delight!

"Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name, Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven."

(Smelling strong scent of flowers - none around.)

Oh, Father, I love You so much.

"Give us this day, our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us." Amen.

Father, Father, Your love is so immense! You created this whole world and all that is in it. Holy Spirit, help me now to know the Father more. Jesus, help me to love Your Father more. Mary, help me to love the Father more. I want to be close to You, my Father. I love You, my beautiful Father, so very much. My Father, my Father, my beautiful Father!

If I am loving the Father, I am loving Jesus, so to love the Father is to love Jesus because He is one with the Father.

When I pray to the Father, I feel more the immenseness of God. How truly great He is - limitless! I feel warm and good in my chest to realize I have a Father Who loves me so much. I have a loving Father and I love Him so. Such warmth in my chest for my Father!

I praise You, Father. I praise You, Son. I praise You, Holy Spirit. Such fullness in my heart to love God, all three Divine Persons. What joy I feel to be united to God through the Immaculate Heart of my loving Mother. Oh, Mother, I love you. Such honor and praise to my God and love given to all three Persons and to you, my Mother, and St. Joseph.

I can accept myself now, knowing I am the creation of my beautiful Father. All that I am was created by Him. My feet are as He designed them, my nose is perfect, since He made me. I am His creation.

So, too, is my brother, His creation. My brother is perfectly designed by my Father. We are truly brothers, created by the Father, we are brothers through Jesus.

Oh, God, what a work of love to create such things for us. We are Your beloved sons and daughters, created by the hands of our loving Father. Such love poured out to us!

My Father is your Father. We are brothers in Him. Oh, Jesus, I love You so. Thank You for leading me to Your Father and my Father. We are brothers in Christ.

"My God, my God, why have You forsaken Me?" To His death on the cross, He loved us all, our Brother Christ. This is how He asks us to love our brothers, that we would lay down our lives for them. He loved us to His death. Can we do any less for our brothers? Christ is our Brother. God the Father is our Father. Jesus is the Son of God and we are heirs to the Kingdom through the salvation achieved for us by Jesus.

Jesus speaks: Come, oh come, My chosen ones. Do you see the love of your Father to give His only Son for you? Do you see the love of the Son to die for you? Oh, how you are loved, My little chosen ones! Come to Me and experience such love. I Am Who Am, I am God. I come to you in the Eucharist and you do not adequately know the true treasure you possess. Oh, little ones, come to God and be fed. I am the one, true God, come down from the Father. I come to you, chosen ones, in the Eucharist. I am He Whose bootstraps you are unworthy to tie and you run away with such ignorance. Spread My love, read and publish this letter, for I am God and I come to you to love you and be loved by you. Do not cast Me off. I am God, My Heart cries out for your love. Love Me through My beautiful Mother. Our love is your answer to your hurting souls. Do not go to this world, come to the God Who loves you. Receive Me in Holy Communion and where I am, My Father and the Holy Spirit are. Mary is with you also.

Such foolish ones, to ignore such treasure given freely to you! Oh, you blind ones! Pray to the Spirit to open your eyes to what you possess. You are so blind, My children. It is here you find your strength. Come to Us for the love of God, one in three Persons: Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Come and be united in your hearts to God and your loving Mother. Your peace is found in union with Jesus. Consecrate your lives to our Hearts. Consecrate your hearts to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary. Such love you will find here. My little ones - such love to fill you! Oh, I love you and long for your love, My beautiful children.

I am your loving Jesus.





July 2, 1994

The Holy Spirit

Messenger: Hot air balloons filled with air set afloat by fire. We are filled up by His Spirit and set afloat by the fire of His love. We become weightless and float in the sky above. We are floating, letting His Spirit take us about. We are united with the heavenly powers. It is the power of His mighty love.

Come, Holy Spirit, fill the hearts of Thy faithful and enkindle in them the fire of Thy love. Send forth Thy Spirit and Thou shalt renew the face of the earth.

As I die to my false self, God lives more in me. Help me to die to myself. You, Lord, love my brothers, You gave the last drop of Your Blood, the last beat of Your Heart for them. The more I die to self, the more the God Who loves my brothers lives in me and He ardently loves my brother.

The more I think of myself, the less I love my brothers. As the false self diminishes, the God Who is united to me operates in me more and more.

Help me to love as You love. As I surrender to You, I become in greater union with You and it is You Who operates in me more and more. You loved my brothers to Your death. You love my brothers, all my brothers this very day. You would die for each brother this day. It is God Who loves through us that loves our brothers with His love. It is He Who operates my very being.

We die to the false self, we increasingly receive His living water. We remain alive in Him. He fills us to the brim, we are vibrant in Him. He is Life. We are made anew, like the clean water. We are filled with clean, living water. We operate with vibrancy, force and spirit.

Jesus speaks: I came to this earth out of such love for you, My beloved ones. I was born a mere human and I came to love you and they persecuted Me. Those whom I loved, they persecuted Me! They tore My flesh. They numbered all My bones. They were My beloved ones. How it hurts to love and be rejected and persecuted by those you love.

I am Jesus, Son of the Living God. I know the pain of torture. No matter what they do to you, they did it to Me.

To My death I suffered for intense love of you.

When they persecute you and holler every slanderous thing against you, pray to your heavenly Father for strength to deal with your attackers. It is in your sufferings you are drawn closer to Me.





July 4, 1994

The Father, Son And Holy Spirit And Mary Love You

Jesus speaks: I am the Lord, thy God, I am Jesus, Son of God. I came that you might have life and have it abundantly. I will hold your hand and be forever with you.

My Mother is your very own Mother. She loves you and Mothers you as she Mothered Me.

My Father is your very own Father. He created you and loves you so much He sent His only Son to be a living Sacrifice so you might partake in His life.

I give Myself to you totally in the Eucharist, Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity. I wait for you to come to the tabernacle, I love you so.

The Spirit loves you so and in Him you have the life you need to be united to God. Pray to Him for this life, beg Him for the gifts whereby you will grow in your love and union with God.

This is My Commandment to you: Love God above all things and love your neighbor as yourself.

Be united to the one, true God, for He is truly present and lives in your hearts.





July 5, 1994

Live Our Lives In The Rosary. Experience Our Sufferings.

Mary speaks: My anguish I felt to watch them persecute my beloved Jesus! He Whom I loved so dearly, my own, very own Child and they stripped Him, beat Him, hated Him, tore His tender beautiful flesh, everything that they did,...

This was my beloved Son. My heart was torn in my chest, my sorrow so great! No yelling or other human expressions could capture the torments of my heart.

My little Baby, to watch such brutality DONE to my precious Child.

Do you know the torments of the heart?

Do you know the pain to behold such vileness done to your own child?

Pain in the heart, I know, I know His love for you, my dear children. I know what He suffered for you. Put yourself there during the Passion. Meditate on His suffering for love of you. Meditate on His love. This is love, to suffer as He did for you. It is so simple, He loved you to His very own death. This is what He would give for you this very day, my little ones. Go to Him and be alone with Him. Turn to Him, love Him. He waits for your love. Praise this good God Who loves you so much to shed His very own Blood for you. Oh children, be present to Him. Live His life, pray the rosary, meditate on His sufferings for you. This will draw you close to Our Hearts. Live Our lives in the rosary. Experience Our sufferings.

Love one another, do not give in to Satan. You cannot accomplish my Son’s tasks if you do not put your differences aside. You must love each other.

Go to Him in the Eucharist. Give your whole hearts to Him. Consecrate yourselves to Us. We will be ever with you, guiding your every step. I am the Immaculate Heart of Mary. I love you as the most loving Mother. Come and find refuge in Our Hearts. We will protect you from the scorching sun. We will hold tight to you and you will never lose your peace.

Jesus speaks: Oh My child, peace I give to you, not as the world gives you peace, but as only I can give you peace. Come and let Me hold you in My Heart, deeply placed there by My loving Mother. You will find your joy inside of My Heart.

I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus. I want to be united to you, My little babies. Become as the baby at the breast, total submission, total trust, total yielding to Our ways. Yield to Me. My time is perfect. My ways are set. Yield to Me and I will handle your cares. I love you My sweet ones. Yield. Pray constantly, consecrate yourselves to My Heart and My Mother’s heart.

Let go! Surrender to Me. Let go and come to My Heart. You have been experiencing such turmoil, let go and let Me bring it to you. I have not forgotten you. You need peace. Do not be worried, I will tend to My letters, My sweet one. I want them published. I want the second Blue Book out. Surrender to Me.

I am God. I will handle My work. You love Me. Read My letters and obey them. Obey them. You know your job. Dealing with others is My job. Be at peace and let Me work around you. I love you so. I thank you for this work. Feel joy. My joy I give to you. Let Me work, no matter how hard it is. Stay off the phone, be with your children.
My job is easy, My burden light. Let go now and be at peace. Be my spouse. I miss your attentiveness to Me. Let go of all this foolishness. Let Me work. I am the Lord, your God. I will do My work. I am God. I have spoken.
Be united to the one, true God, for He is truly present and lives in your hearts.

(Blue Book August 31st, I Died in Peace)



July 5, 1994

How the Rosary Meditations Began at Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center

The message below is from June 16, 1994. Jesus told me to pray the rosary everyday with my children at the Center. When I received this message, there appeared little sparkling lights on my notebook, lights that are like the lights I saw surrounding Mary. I am including this message of June 16, 1994 at 3:15 a.m.

Jesus speaks: Soon your burden will be lifted and you will feel some relief. You must be in constant prayer. Being with your children is a prayer for you. Come to Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center. You feel the Real Presence there. I will give you miracles there. Pray in the chapel with your children. They will become closer to Me through prayer as you spend time praying with them. You need simplicity in your life. Live only for love of Me.

Note: Little white lights on my notebook.

An Explanation of What Is to Follow

Jesus and Mary give me little insights into the Father's plan, little pieces of the puzzle. They do not tell everything that will happen. In order to understand the plan, we need to study all the messages and see how the Father's plan is unfolding. We are all threads of the great tapestry, all little puzzle pieces of the big picture, all so important to His plan.

We are all being called to spread His love to this world. Each soul is so important to His plan. I see now many events as they unfold. I see where Jesus and Mary told me many things and I at the time did not understand. I was told in June that I would see as never before.

On July 4, 1994 I prayed with the children in front of the Our Lady of Grace statue in the sanctuary. On July 5, I recorded our experiences. The statue of Mary continued to glow and come alive. Jesus and Mary told Fr. Carter to pray with the children and me on July 10.

I would see Mary glow. Several weeks later I realized she was appearing in the statue as "Our Lady of Light." She then began to say she was appearing as "Our Lady of Light." She would show me a parade of faces, her clothes would all turn glistening white, and her attire would change. She would appear as a parade of different ladies. Her veils and head coverings would change. She has appeared as many different Marys. Her emotions have varied, her age has varied and her clothing has varied. She has shown me her life in the rosary. In the rosary, we meditate on the lives of Jesus and Mary, from Their young lives to Their older lives, from Their sorrows to Their joys. She takes on many roles as our mother, her mantle forever covering and protecting us.



July 5, 1994 6:30 p.m.

The Statue Of The Sorrowful Mother Was Lit Up

Messenger: I was told to go to Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center to pray the rosary with my children. There were people in the front of the church, so we decided to pray the rosary in the back before the Sorrowful Mother statue. I had the following vision at the end of the rosary.

The statue of the Sorrowful Mother was lit up as if she had fire around her. The light was very bright. Her whole gown was all-white, but the statue's gown is blue and pink. She was all aglow. It looked like the glow that comes off of a fire. Her face kept changing but remained totally sorrowful - the sorrow of an older woman. She was in such pain and sorrow! (It was hard to explain how she looked - extremely pained!) Her face looked as though she was in such pain that she could hardly bear it.

The vision remained like this for about ten minutes, having begun during the last Hail Mary of the Sorrowful Mysteries of the rosary. She was holding something - it was all bright white - the brightest light ever!





July 6, 1994 6:30 p.m.

She Was Aglow, All In White

Messenger: Vision (in front of the Sorrowful Mother statue): I was told by Mary to go alone at 6:30 p.m. to Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center. I prayed the Sorrowful Mysteries again, saying a sentence at each Hail Mary. She was aglow, all in white. She remained like this for at least 10 minutes.





July 7, 1994 - After Communion

Feel Wrapped In the Love of Mother and Son

Messenger: The vibrancy of this Heart of our Savior!

I had a vision in my heart of His Heart: big and red (not bright red, more of a dull red) and firm, surrounded by thorns that were red and blended in, almost unnoticed. His full red Heart, long and slender, a round, very firm Heart, with a flame above it.

This Heart beats with ardent longing love for each of us and my heart skips a beat at the mention of the name of God. I feel warmth in my chest for Him, my God.

Oh, how I love You so, my precious Jesus, God. How I love the Father and Holy Spirit! After Communion I am so filled with such fullness of this love of my beautiful God! Oh God, You are so good. To be with Him and our Blessed Lady! I love her so.

Oh beautiful Lady, Mother of my precious Jesus, you are so united with One another. I feel wrapped in this love between Mother and Son, and Son and Mother. My heart is overflowing with such fullness of love of God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Oh Father, my Father, I love You so. The intimacy I feel with the Spirit Who lives in me! I love You so, my precious God and Mary.

It is through this sinless heart of Mary that I beg to be united to Him, my precious God!

At the mention of His name my heart skips a beat. He is my most precious love. I love His name. I love Him. To speak of Him fills my heart with such joy. He is my Savior. He loved us to His death. Oh Mary, how you suffered for us! How you loved us and love us now! Oh, dear Mary, my Mother, there is such fullness I feel in my chest because of the love of God. To Thee I sing, Thee I praise, Thee I honor and love, My God, my precious One!

Jesus speaks: Do you really think I would leave you, child? My Heart is ablaze for such love of you. My Heart is burning for you. Speak of this love. I love all My precious ones, dear one. I love you so. Focus on My love for you and you will be set free of all worries. Focus on this feeling you experience in your chest, the love of God, so full for you!

Preach the gospel in your being. Stay united to Me this very day. Every moment, think of this burning, ardent love I have for you. Experience this feeling and you will run and not get weary, you will fly on eagle's wings. Your heart will love those you touch.

The secret is to stay in union with Me constantly. I am here. I am on fire for love of you. I am the Heart you see, red and vibrant, solid and firm. I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus. I live today. I am the ardent lover of your soul. Does your heart skip a beat at the mention of My name? This delights My Heart to know how you love Me deeply. Focus on Our love for each Other, feel this deeply in your heart. This is the fire that will light the cold heart. This is the love of God, without limits, without bounds. Such vibrancy, such power, such might! This is the love I give to you. Join in oneness with My Heart and that of My Mother's heart. We will be so united in such intimate love. I love you so, My sweet one.

Read this letter over and over again. Focus only on our love and our union and you will light the dark world through My most Sacred Heart.

You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill will shine in the darkest night. Let your light shine to this world so all can praise your heavenly Father.

Messenger: Alleluia, Alleluia, and they were made the beacon lights that shown bright in a dark world. It was the light of Christ that shown deeply from their hearts. Alleluia, Alleluia.

Jesus speaks: You must prepare for My Mass. When you spend time being with Me for long hours, the Mass is so full! When you are with Me and being close to Me for a long time and then go to Mass and Communion! Prepare yourself to receive Me. Come with your hearts united to Me in deep prayer. It is intimacy I want with you in Communion. To be close and spend time together, to be together, then to go to Mass and Communion, such intimacy! My relationship with you takes much time. To be close to Me, you must have uninterrupted time alone with Me - this means you free your mind of all distractions. You must let go of your world to be united to Me. You must let go.

Take time to be with Me. Focus on letting go of all distractions and giving them to Me. Trust Me, little baby. Be as the little baby who gives his cares to his loving mother. Give your cares to Me and be free. Then come to Mass and Communion. Such union, such intimacy. Oh, you need time alone, not just in body but time alone in your heart and your mind with Me. No distractions in your heart.

Pray to let go. Let there be total surrender, trust, consecration to the Sacred Heart and Immaculate Heart of Mary. We will be united in Our Hearts. Oh, how I truly love you, My beloved ones. To My death, I loved you ... what more can I say?



July 9, 1994

I Must Forgive All To Have Peace

Messenger: My lack of peace is coming from lack of forgiveness. I am living to love God and my brother.

To have anger toward my brother blocks the flow of God’s love operating in me. I must forgive all to have peace.

Any lack of love for my brother diminishes peace.

Say you are sorry and forgive.

I must come from a place of love rooted in Him Who first loved us.

I realize how I must forgive. I must give up angry thoughts. I reflect my emotions within when I talk to people. I must stay rooted in Christ's love. I must put on Christ. I must show love. He was silent and accepted all they did to Him!

I must love. I must realize my brothers are dearly loved by Jesus. They are a creation of God the Father. Jesus shed the last drop of His blood for them. Would I talk about my very own brothers? God is our Father, we are brothers in Christ!

I must stay rooted in love, love of God, love of my brothers. I can pray when problems occur. I must trust in God and talk about our problems from a place of love. If I act angry or talk about someone in anger, I am not spreading Christ's love.

Jesus speaks: Trust in Me, My child. I will give you peace, not as the world gives you peace. Your job is to love Me and love one another. How can I spread My love if you are upset with your brother? He who angers you is he whom you need to love. Will you love for Me this day or will you focus on yourself and how you have been wronged? Reach for the Kingdom of God. It is won in holiness, in love. Love always. When they persecuted Me, I loved them.

    My child, My child, do you know I know best? Pray - come to Me before the tabernacle.

    Pray for strength to love as I have loved you. You, child are so precious to Me. I am always by your side guarding you. Let go and pray. I will make the crooked way straight. I will restore peace and love in your hearts. Be with Me alone, let go, sweet one, come to Me. Meditate on My immense love for you and the love of the Father, Holy Spirit, and your Mother Mary. I love you, so much!
R. I was so filled after Communion with the love of God, especially the Father. I felt I could hardly breathe. The immensity of God's love and Mary's love! My heart overflows with such joy for the love of God!



July 9, 1994 6:30 p.m.

Mary's Statue Became Illuminated

Messenger: Vision: I was going to Dayton to a party. I stopped at the Center around 6:25 p.m. and prayed the Sorrowful Mysteries with my children. I prayed on each bead. Toward the end of the third mystery, Mary's statue became illuminated. Her face was brilliant, so bright! Her gown was white. Her face was beautiful! I could hardly talk for the next two mysteries. She stayed like this for a long time afterwards.



Explanation of Rosary Meditations and Visions

On July 10, Jesus and Mary told Fr. Carter to go to Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center and pray the rosary with my children and me. He came to the Center every day and led the rosary. Mary told me to say a meditation on every bead.

On July 14, I prayed a meditation on every bead as Fr. Carter led the rosary. During the middle of the fifth mystery, Mary started to change faces. I saw all different expressions, all different ages - older, sorrowful, young, beautiful, mostly joyful. The faces would first be old, then young. Lights would flash on and off.



July 10, 1994 - After 7:00 Mass - All Saints Church

Love God, Love Your Brother

Messenger: Oh, how I love you, Jesus and the Father, the Holy Spirit and Mary!

Jesus speaks: My child, feel My love constantly. This closeness you feel after Communion does not have to diminish. I remain forever in your heart and ardently love you every moment.

Do you comprehend some of My love, My sweet one? I speak to you here with such an abiding love. Open your heart and listen to the words of your Savior. Do not ever question Me, read every letter and know I am speaking to you. Tell My beloved ones how I ardently love them. Tell them I speak in every letter in God’s Blue Book with such love. Tell them to see Me speaking to them. Do not doubt My letters, you miss My sweet love for you. Focus on every word delivered to you from Me, your Jesus, Who loves you so. This produces that loving awareness in your chest.

Oh, I tell you over and over again of My love. You are not listening with sincerity. Believe this is truly Jesus speaking to you. Oh, dear ones, I love you! This is why I write this day, to give you such ardent love. Listen to Me here and experience My love for you. Oh, I love you with an abiding love, a Heart on fire with love for you. You are My beloved ones.

Alleluia, I love you. I am Jesus and I speak to you. Alleluia!

Messenger: The devotion to the Eucharist is just not what it should be.

Eucharistic Ministers should be instructed how Jesus, the Son of God, is truly present. (Ex: I heard two Eucharistic Ministers fixing pyxes for the nursing homes discussing incidental matters.)

Oh, my Jesus, I bow before You in such worship. You are the Savior of the world. I feel the indifference of many toward the Eucharist deep in my heart and beg You to help me to preach Your word and Your true presence. You are God, truly present in the tabernacle. You are the Savior of the world. I worship You. I adore You.

Jesus speaks: I love you so much, My precious child.

Note: At 11:30 p.m. I had a dream: I was holding the hand of Jesus’ statue and Jesus held my hand, then He began to tell me about the wounds in His hands.

Birds chirping.



July 11, 1994

Love Me First Above All Things

Jesus speaks: There is not division where there is love. If you love Me you will keep My commands. My commands I give to you, love God, love one another. A person fixed in love of God will do the Father’s will. That which leads to perfect peace and happiness is complying to the will of My Father.

My dear ones, there is no other way. You want your wills, your feelings are hurt, you want to do things according to your plan. I tell you, unless you follow My way, you will not enter into the Kingdom of heaven.

I call you to holiness in all things, to put aside your selfishness and willfulness and put Me first. The greatest Commandment is to love God first with your whole heart and whole soul.

Do you love Me more than you love yourself? Are you putting My will before your own? If you do not follow the greatest Commandment, how do you expect to win the reward promised to those who love and serve the Lord?

I call you to total consecration to Our Hearts. You want it your way.

There is only one road. The road is to love Me first above all things. The road is service according to the will of the Father. Doing "good works" is not necessarily doing Our will. The will of the Father is doing His will even when you do not want to, when you would rather do it your own way.

Open up your hearts. Pray first to the Spirit to open your minds and hearts, beg to serve God, give yourself to God and come. Do as you are commanded. Love of God before ALL things.

Do you love Me before yourself? The first Commandment commands you to put God first. Do you do it your way and tell yourself it is God’s will?

My way is the only way. All other ways lead you to problems. Why don’t you believe that I am Almighty, that I know all things? Why won’t you surrender and do as you are told?

Be as babies at the breast, do as you are told. Beg to know the will of the Father. This is made clear to you in the inner promptings of your heart. Sit with God after Communion and in front of the tabernacle. Your answers are given there. You must learn to listen to God. He has the plan for your life.

My children, My children, My willful children, do you want things done your way, do you ponder and arrive at your conclusions, or are you striving to do My will? The will of the Father is made clear in your hearts in front of the tabernacle, in the silent moments you spend alone with God. Beg the Spirit to give you His gifts, to open your minds and hearts.

Do not be willful, strive to do only His will. I am Jesus, Son of the Living God. I give you the way to eternal life. Give up your attachments to your own ways and follow ME.

I am the Way, I am Truth and Life (Jn 14:6), He that comes to Me will have the light of life. Come and follow Me.



July 11, 1994

I Want My Letters of Love to Circulate

Jesus speaks: You are the light that shines in the darkness.

If you put Me first, you will not get caught in such turmoil. Operate from love of Me. Do the will of the Father. Put aside your selfish promotion, be humble and live for God.

Oh, My little ones, if you knew it all, how fast you would change your ways and listen. You hold on to your life to find such discontent. These things you hold on to drive you further from My Heart. My Heart is so close and you go everywhere but to Me.

Listen, My children, to My letters here. Souls will be lost because they did not hear about My love. I want My letters to circulate. To hold on to them is to deprive many souls of My ardent love.

I am Jesus. I am speaking here to you. I am pleading with you to circulate these letters. To silence My messenger is to silence Me. I love My beautiful children. You will receive such blessings for doing as I ask. I am Jesus, Son of God. I am speaking here. Please heed My pleas. Please take Me seriously. I Am.





July 11, 1994

Put God First

Messenger: If I live to do what God wants, if I live to love God, this should be my measuring stick as to how I act.

Do I act to impress you? Who are you that I judge my actions by you? God is my Master. He is the King. It is He for whom I operate. I must always act out of the love of God. What does God want me to do? When I talk to you, I must operate to do the will of the Father. The end result is that I operate for love of God.

When I am talking to you about any matter, we are sharing the love of God that powers each of us. If you are in authority, you are in authority, but I still operate from the love of God within, to do His will and do my work. If you tell me not to do something, if you are my superior, I must obey you (unless you tell me to do something sinful) because God tells me to obey my superiors, but my actions are directed by His love and to please Him, not to please you and impress you.

People are changeable, God is consistent. We should operate for love of God. This is such freedom! I must be kind and loving as Christ is loving, I operate to do His will.

God, help me to always follow You. You are my God and I shall have no other gods.

SAY TO GOD:

My God, You are truly present in the Eucharist. You are the same Jesus that died on the cross. You are as present in the consecrated host as You were the day You died on Calvary. My precious God, help me to spread belief in Your true presence. Help me to always reverence You and never offend You when I receive You or touch the Sacred Host! You are truly Jesus Christ, the Son of God. Give us vision to live for the love of God, to put Him first in our lives, to not make other persons and things gods, but to realize You are God and treat all others with the love and respect they deserve as Your creation. Open our eyes, O Holy Spirit, so we can see where we are so blind, so we can know the truths that God wants to reveal to us.

Help me to live to put God first in my life and love my brothers as myself. You are God. To You I bow and give You praise. Who am I that God comes to me in the Eucharist and waits for me in the tabernacle? Who am I that God dwells in me in my heart? Oh, I love you so, my precious God.





July 12, 1994

1:49 a.m.

Title: The Very Hairs of Your Head Are Numbered

Jesus:

    Oh, little one, you write for love of Me this day. I will tend to My letters, I am Jesus Christ, the Son of God. These letters are My love letters for My beloved ones. No job is too big for Me, sweet one. Trust in My Sacred Heart and the Immaculate Heart of My dear, sweet Mother.

    I miss such times in the morning with you. I want your attentiveness to Me. Come every morning and be with Me. Such moments of My love poured out to you, My beloved. You need My precious love given for you.

    Oh, little one, the very hairs on your head are numbered. Do not doubt my attentiveness to you, to whom I write and ardently love. Trust Me in all things. Dear loving sweet one, I am the Alpha, I am the Omega, I am your all! Listen and be taught by Me. My Heart is ablaze for love of you, oh, little one. Do I need to tell you more? I am God. I am watching you. Just be with Me in love.



July 12, 1994 1:49 a.m.

Pray The Rosary At 6:30

Jesus speaks: I am the Way. I am the Truth. I am the Light of Life. My candle is a candle that shines bright in the darkest night for love of all. I shine with warmth and joy and love for you. Come in the night. I miss you, every day. Continue to pray the rosary at 6:30 at the Center. No questions asked. The gifts of God have unfolded upon you.

Suffer little one, suffer for Me, I am Jesus, suffer that you might partake in the cup of My Salvation. Pray always to the Holy Spirit for strength to give your all in love to do as God wants you to do.

I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus a flame with this love for you in My Heart. Do not be afraid to be drawn so close to the flame that is shining brightly in My Heart for you and you alone. I love each precious child with this unique love. The same love that led Me to die a brutal death for you. Oh child I am God and you worry, let go, see the vision of the magnificence of God and see such little obstacles in the path of God are not obstacles at all. I allow you to go through certain testing. I am teaching you. It may be part of My plan. I am mighty, I am a force, I am God and you shall have no gods before Me.

Messenger: Forever blessed is His name and He gave such love to them, they scarce could speak.

His love is alive, it is a flame of ardent love burning brightly for love of each soul.

Jesus speaks: Oh child I AM GOD, My power, My might. I have all the Power, I bestow such blessings poured out on you My beloved one. Come into My Heart and that of My beautiful Mother and dwell there and find your peace. I am peace, you are My chosen ones. Dwell within Our Hearts and you will find refuge from the scourging sun. You are the light to this darkened world. Come to Me and I will enkindle this flame ablaze in your heart. This flame of My ardent love. I love you so much. I am Jesus, Son of the Living God, come to give you such love. Harken and you shall know such love poured out to you.

Messenger: P.S. So half asleep I couldn't see, didn't want to get up.

Every letter I have ever written at home has been before my big Sacred Heart picture and Our Lady's Immaculate Heart. I carry them from the bed to the study.

I bought the big pleading Jesus statue with Sacred Heart and Sorrowful Mother with pierced Heart. I was told to buy both, they sit on my table where I write letters. I always wrote with the two Hearts.

There were 5,000,000 things on the table!



July 13, 1994

4:11 a.m.

Title: Be Unattached

Jesus speaks: Dear sweet one, you are learning to trust. You must free your mind. Leave your cares to Me. I am the Alpha. I am the Omega. I am your God, living and true and I guard you. You will have peace because you are learning My most valuable lessons. You operate for love of Me and love of Me alone. Be most attentive to your children, they are My precious possessions.

    I am God. Let all you do lead you to My Heart. Come and dwell in My Heart now and do not be afraid. I am so close to you. I love you with the dearest love.

    Play with the children, they are your joyful assets. Look at each moment with them as so precious. These are indeed precious moments.

Let go to Me as never before. I am the Lord, thy God. You shall surrender to My ways and be forever in My peace.

Your main focus comes in being in a relationship with Me.

I am Jesus, the Son of God. I love you.

Love to you, My favored one. I love you. Jesus

R. What is of most importance is my love of Jesus. This is freedom. My relationship with Him comes first. This is freedom for me. These are His letters. He will take care of them. My peace is most important.

--We must have the Holy Spirit as our guide on our journey.

--We must have peace.

--We must love one another.

We surrender to the Spirit through Mary and grow more and more into the image of Christ.

July 13, 1994

Title: You Are the Reflection of the God That Lives Within You

R. How He loves us - that He gives us a free will.

He is the Almighty God. He has all the power, but He gives us our free will. He watches us gently. He watches us with love. We do our willful things and pay Him no heed.

    It is indeed through the Spirit whereby our eyes are opened to see that which we may never see. He is our God. He leads us on our path if we come with our heart open. Implant in me, oh Spirit, vision to see where You are leading me.

   He is so pleased by a single act of mine to please His holy will! Father, help me to know Your will. Spirit, give me the strength to follow it. Jesus, let me walk in Your footsteps to be more like You. Jesus, make my heart likened to Yours in all things. Make me meek and humble in my heart, open and sinless. Let me see with the eyes of God and feel with Your gentle Heart, all that You so graciously teach me. Open me to the gifts of the Spirit.

    I am Yours to possess. I am Yours to use. I am Yours. I consecrate my life to Your Heart and that of Your Mother. Father, mold me, fashion me into the image of Christ, Your Son, so I no longer hold onto the perishable things of this world but live to please You as You created me to do. I love You so, dear God: Father, Son and Holy Spirit. I come to You through the Immaculate Heart of my Mother. I lay myself prostrate at Your feet. I am Yours Lord. I am Yours.

Jesus speaks: You are My instrument to reach many. Do not worry, pray, pray to the Spirit always before you begin anything. Let Him fill you with His grace. You are to be a humble servant, to live to serve God. You live to serve Me in all things. This is My life for you, one of service. You must be humble to do this work. Put desires of the self aside and work with your relationship with Me. I operate you. I give you all you need. Live to serve Me. Live to love your brothers and help lead them to heaven.

     I am Jesus, Son of the Living God. I have spoken to you here. Heed My word, be attentive to My promptings. I am your God and you shall have no gods before Me. Be selfless, be unattached. I live in you. Be ready to do always the will of the Father, to be busy about the work of the Lord.

R. Alleluia, they received new direction in their lives, their hearts were open to the power of the Spirit and His life was within them.

Jesus speaks: For you, My child, were hungry and you were nourished by God Himself, Who comes to feed you and warms you in the furnace of His most tender Heart. Alleluia, Alleluia, Praise the Lord. Pray for strength. It is in this strength from God that My work will be accomplished in you. You are but a servant come to serve the Lord. Look at yourself as one who serves God. You do not function for any self-promotion, you function for love of God.

R. And He came and imparted to them His strength and they knew a new dimension in their life, it was the life of God so alive within their soul and they were a vibrant force in the lives of all they touched. His might shown forth like a raging lion, but their manner was that of the gentle lamb, for He was present in them and He acted from them and all knew this God that lived within their breasts.

Jesus speaks: My child, I live in you in this world, I am in you. You are the reflection of the God that lives within you. Open yourselves up and let Me permeate your souls. Let me possess your being, let Me operate in your hearts. Be My light to this world. Be as one who lives to spread the life and love of this one true, magnificent God. Be Me to your brothers. Live to serve and love Me.

    I am God and I have spoken to you, My little scared ones. I come to strengthen you. Pray for this strength and open your hearts to Me and the will of the Father.

July 13, 1994

Title: Do Not Be Anxious Or Hurried, Your Savior Loves You

R. Forgive me Jesus, Father and Holy Spirit for all the times I focus on myself, especially to think I am in any way better than my brother.

    Help me to see the beautiful creation of God the Father, in each person, to respect and love them as you, God, love them, to realize we are brothers in Christ. God is our Father and we are brothers. To not love my brother is to not love God. How can I hate my brother whom I see and love my God whom I do not see?

    I want to love as You want me to. I am self-centered. Please give me all I need, Spirit of God, to love as God wants me to. Please remove the blinders from my eyes to see God, the Father's loving creation, in each brother.

    I am Yours, Lord, I consecrate my life to Your Sacred Heart and the Immaculate Heart of Mary. I am not going anywhere. I must be in the moment as You choose me to be. Whatever You ask of me is what I should be doing. Getting anxious is useless. Just live to do what You are asking me to do and do it the best I can, whether carrying groceries or playing with my children.

   My time is Your time. You loan it to me to work for You. I must do the best job I can for You with Christ acting out of me.

Jesus speaks: My child, don't be anxious or hurried. I am your precious Savior and I love you. You want for nothing if you know My love. I give My love to you abundantly. Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find, knock and it will be opened unto you. Stay fixed to My Sacred Heart and that of My Mother's heart. I am your all. Put things in perspective. Live to serve Me - I come first. Operate and love - this is your job. To show the love of God in your actions. Your actions must flow from your love for Me. Do not be anxious, be forever steadfast in My precious love.

Alleluia, Alleluia.

July 13, 1994

8:46 p.m.
Jesus speaks: I have chosen you for this work and you cry, My child. Do you know how special you are to Me? I am speaking to you and I am God. I am your refuge. I am your love. I am your light.



July 13, 1994 After Mass

Title: I Came Silent in the Night

Both Bare Wood

Jesus speaks: I was born in a stable.

There was not a bed for My Mother and Joseph.

They had not a pillow to lay their head.

They did not have a bed and she just had a baby.

This is the surrender I call you to.

I was born in such poverty.

I came silent in the night.

Do not be attached to your bed, your sleep, your life. Come and be attached to Me, little one.

Look how I was born with nothing.

Look how I died, in total surrender.

Not a place to lay My head, a manger for My head at birth, nowhere to lay My head on the cross.

You cry for your discomfort.

Did I show you the way? I lay in a manger at birth, I died on a cross, BOTH BARE WOOD.

Total submission to the will of the Father.

I am God, I was born in silence, I was crucified as a criminal.

I am the King. I was crucified with a crown of thorns, I was born on a bed of hay.

I was crowned King of the Jews--

What do you want? If you follow Me do you expect more?

My Kingdom is not of this world. Your crown is not the crown of glory, My child, it is the crown I wore and I share this with My precious ones.

Share My life, follow My way. I am God. What no eye has seen and no ear has heard, what the mind of man cannot visualize; all that God has prepared for those who love him; (1 Cor 2:9)





July 14, 1994

Jesus Died That We All Might Live

Messenger: He has created us in His own image and likeness. He loved us before we were born. Who are we that He cares for us? We are His creation, the creation of Him Who loved us first. Ought we not love Him with all our heart and love one another, who are ALL His children?

Jesus died that we all might live. He shed the last drop of His Blood. He gave the last beat of His Heart for each and every person. Help us to unite as brothers in Christ. God is my Father. He is your Father. He is Jesus’ Father. He is THE FATHER.

Mary is our Mother. We are His blessed children and He loves what He creates.

The rosary tells the lives of Christ and Mary. How can I be Christ-like if I do not meditate on His life? My life is to be modeled after Christ's life. How can I model myself after "how He loved" if I am not intimately involved in a love relationship with Him?

Through the sorrowful death of Jesus, we are raised to new life. His Resurrection and Ascension is that by which we are given this life. The descending of the Holy Spirit upon the Apostles gives us the Spirit so alive within us!

To stop at the Crucifixion is to miss the glory. The glory is found in the Resurrection and Ascension. That is why these mysteries are called the Glorious Mysteries. This is Glory!





July 14, 1994

The Rosary

Messenger: The rosary tells us much about Christ and Mary.

How can I be Christ-like if I do not meditate on His Life? My life is to be a model after Christ's life. How can I model myself after how He loved if I am not intimately involved in a love relationship with Him?

Christ shows us the way. Jesus went through His Passion and death for our salvation and for love of us.

The more I meditate on the rosary, the more I see the oneness of Christ and His Mother. They are one in Their Hearts. They shared each Other's pains, sorrows, joys, suffering. They were so connected to each Other.

This is shown all through the Passion, her sorrows, presentation in the temple, finding in the temple, her journey into Egypt, her watching during the scourging, her journey during the Passion when Their eyes met, (this alone could be meditated on to tell Their union and suffering) putting the nails in His hands, standing under the cross, beholding His lifeless body under the cross, and after His death, laying Him in the tomb.

Their Hearts beat as one, as she suffered so silently with Him, always by His side. No mother was ever so connected with her Son.

Sorrow increases intimacy. When I suffer and give it to Christ, I am admitting how much He is truly a Person I depend on. I want to depend on Him, to be so intimate that it is He to Whom I run when my heart is torn.

He loves us so, He knows our every thought and feeling. He loves us with such attentiveness and care, and He waits for us to run to His arms and share ourselves with Him.

He longs for our love, He longs for our time. He wants us to go to Him as our best Friend, a real Person, but what a Person and what He can do for us!

You are my Savior Lord, You saved me from my sins by Your brutal death. You give me life in Your Resurrection. I am born into Your life in Baptism and You live in my heart. God lives within me. Father, Son and Holy Spirit dwell within my breast in a most special way when I am in the state of grace. Mary is one with Jesus.

Oh, God, I love You so. I want to know You and love You and serve You.

Spirit, open me to know my precious Lord. I am Yours to possess and I live to do Your holy will.

Father, fashion me, mold me more into the image of Jesus, Your precious Son. "...yet it is no longer I, but Christ living in me...(Ga 2:20). I want to be one in You, so that You live and dwell in my heart.

Meditating on the rosary is meditating on much of Christ's Life. How can I be molded more into His image if I do not meditate on Him and His Life?

The First Commandment commands that I love God above all things. What is love? Is it lip service or is it a fire that burns within the soul?

May my love of God be this flame that burns for love of each Person in God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit and for Mary also. May I grow in intimacy with each Person and Mary, and may Joseph be close by her side as he stood close to Jesus and guarded Him.



July 15, 1994

Where Are You Going?

Messenger: Where are you going? Did you see the accident, the woman on the stretcher? She was very pretty and young. How is her soul? Is she still alive? Did she think only of her hair, her shape, her clothes or did she have a relationship with God? Where is she going?

Jesus speaks: I am the Way, I am Truth and Life. (Jn 14:6). It is only through Me that you will gain eternal salvation.

Are you busy for your earthly lives? Where do you go when you are called so suddenly? I come, you know not the hour nor the day. A continuation of life is promised to no man here. You will be called, you will have no choice. All that goes with you is how you were in your heart.

Did you put God first and love Him with all your heart, did you love your brother as yourself?

Where are you going, if you are called this day?

Live My life with Me, be united with Me in My suffering and death on the cross. Live Our lives in the rosary. Make the rosary a prayer that is so alive in your hearts that you grow in such love of Mary and Jesus from praying it.

Re-enact Our lives in the rosary, feel Our sorrow and Our joy. Be united to Our lives in the rosary.

The rosary is not just a prayer to say, it is a prayer to live. Live your life as We lived Ours.

There are so many distractions in this world. Be totally lost in the life of Jesus and Mary when you pray the rosary.

July 15, 1994

Title: Resurrection

Jesus:

    I am the Alpha. I am the Omega. I am your all. I come before you and give you My life.

    I rose from the dead to give you a special sharing in My life. Sweet one, feel My wounds, feel My side, I am God. I am the one, true, magnificent God. I want you with Me forever in heaven. You must die to yourself to live in Me. Suffer, sweet one, for this is My life. It was not a life of pleasure, it was rooted in the cross. My teachings have been passed on for all generations. I am Mighty. I am God. I can do all things, in My way, in My time. You will rise to new life in Me. You will be raised from the dead. You will enter into My kingdom if you love and serve Me and keep My commands. Continue your journey toward Me. My precious ones, come to Me and I will give you all you need. You will rise to new life. The passion has meaning. I rose triumphant on the third day. Suffer with Me, My precious one.

The Ascension:

Jesus: My ascension into heaven, My days were past and the time had come for Me to go to My Father. I raised My arms and ascended toward heaven and a cloud took Me out of sight.

    This is My might, as I died such a brutal death, I, in all My splendor, left in such glory! I am God. You will die in this world, but you will be carried to the home of My Father.

    The apostles were afraid as they watched from below. I promised to send them the Spirit to dwell in their hearts and give them strength. Rita, meditate on this mystery. It is in the resurrection and ascension into heaven you experience such joy. You will go to the Father. You will see the result of all your labors. To stop at the crucifixion is to miss the glory. The glory is found in the resurrection and ascension. That is why these are called the glorious mysteries.

    Oh, sweet one, such glory for those who love and serve the Lord! You may die what seems to be a million slow deaths, but your glory awaits you. Do not stop at the Passion. With your children, pray all three mysteries, they all teach about My life. I will teach you the glory of the Lord.

R. And He ascended into heaven and a cloud took Him from their sight, but He never left them, He lives and dwells in our hearts this very day!

Jesus: I am truly present in the Eucharist. My body ascended into heaven, but My Body and My Blood, under the appearance of bread and wine, remains with you this very day.

    Weep no more, My children, I go to the Father, but I remain in your midst this very day. Come and be with Me in front of the tabernacle. This is the act of greatest love, the Eucharist, My true presence with you this very day!



Descent of the Holy Spirit

Jesus: The descent of the Holy Spirit upon the apostles and Mary: As I promised, the Holy Spirit came upon them in the form of tongues into the room. They had been so afraid. They became fearless. They were filled with the Holy Spirit and they went into the world to preach My gospel.

    Fear not for I am with you this day. The Spirit dwells within your soul. You have been baptized into new life through the Spirit.

    You will preach My gospel as you allow the Spirit to operate from your soul. I am the Lord, your God, sweet one. You open yourself up to the fire of God's love. Enkindled in your heart will be the fire of the love of God.

    It is in this realization of God: Father, Son and Holy Spirit, you realize the immensity of the love of God. This is what warms the troubled soul. The more you are rooted in all three Persons, the more you are steadfast in the love of God.

    God will never abandon you, though the world is cold. His love is a burning flame that roars in your heart. You are protected from the cold night. The glory is found in this mystery when you realize the fire of God's love. There are many cold hearts in this world. You will experience such warmth in your chest from the fire that burns within you from His love. This flame within you does not flicker, it does not wince about, it burns and protects you from any cold on the outside. It is a roaring furnace, a bright flame and it is alive in you when you are in the state of grace.

    Keep your hearts pure and go often to the sacrament of Penance. Be pure of heart and full of My love. I will light your heart on fire with the love of God and the cold world will not harm you. You will operate from the fire that burns within your chest. My love, the love of God is this burning flame.

    You will not be afraid. You will be fixed so in My love, you will run and not get weary because your God dwells within your soul. I am on fire for love of you. This is your strength. I am your true love.

The Assumption

Jesus speaks:

    Mary was taken up into heaven. My beautiful Mother lived many years after My death. She complied, always, willingly to My Father.

    You wander this barren desert in search of water to quench your thirst, but you find none to suffice.

    Your strength is found in the interior union you have with God in your soul.

    You search in vain, you wander. My child, you were created for the love of God and your neighbor.

    You seek, you wander, you roam, but only this interior flame burning within your breast gives you the glow you wear on your face.

    Glory, child, the glory of the God who dwells within your very soul! His fire is a burning ember, burning deeply in your breast. Your union is constant. You never go from the flame. It is the source of His love, deep within your soul.

    Oh, what you feel when you know Our love! It truly is life that radiates from your being, a burning endless flame that goes on despite anything that surrounds you in this world.

    I am the Alpha. I am the Omega. I am your all, My beautiful one. I burn for love of you, in all your precious uniqueness.

    My Mother was taken up to heaven in such happiness. Her days were completed. She lived here to accomplish the work of the Father. Now she lives in your hearts as your beloved Mother.

    She did not leave you, she forever is your loving Mother Mary! Oh, child, if you knew her motherly, undying love for you! You have the ardent love of the sweetest Mother. She is always with you. She was taken into heaven, but remains forever with you as your Mother. Sweet one, you are so loved. One of your greatest glories is the love your great mother has for you. She was assumed into heaven to be with the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. What joy for her to see the face of God.



Mary is Crowned Queen of Heaven and Earth

Jesus: Mary was taken up into heaven and she was crowned the Queen of Heaven. What glory for her and for you to have your mother the Queen of Heaven!

R. Mary is our heavenly Queen. She reins in such splendor in the courts of heaven. It is through her that we receive such graces from God.

    Hail Mary, full of grace,
        the Lord is with you,
        blessed are you among women
        and blessed is the fruit of your womb, Jesus.

Visions from Our Lady:

A parade of faces, old and young, joyful and sorrowful, always behind her - the cross of Jesus.

She lived her life, Jesus lived His. The rosary is the many faces from young to old that They wore. She stood by and silently her face showed her life.

We wear many faces in our journey toward Christ. We are never the same, constantly evolving. Some joy, some sorrow, with the cross of Christ and Him hanging on it, always in the background.
He is our pillar of strength. He poured out His love for us on the cross. He is our Savior. He is love and He gives us a special sharing in His life through Baptism.
    I saw Mary alive. She wore a parade of faces from young and beautiful to very, very old. I saw her face filled with sorrow and filled with joy. Behind her I saw a cross, it remained there all through the rosary.





July 16, 1994

Be Grateful My Child, for the Blessings I Send You

Messenger: God is giving me everything I need.

Jesus speaks: The very hairs of your head are numbered, I allow all that is happening to you. Do you look for that which you do not have? Look for that which I am giving you. Do you seek love and miss the love that is given? Do you want things given the way you want, or are you accepting the way they are? This is willfulness. You think things should be this way, yet they are that way and you become frustrated. I give you all you need. It is in your acceptance of all things that you grow in your relationship with Me. Do not be willful and expect things the way you think they should be. You are receiving so much love in your life today from others, and you are looking for love the way you want it. I love you and I love you through others. Look at the love I am sending you. Accept all others the way they are. I give to you according to your needs. Do you love Me?

    I give you so much love in your world and in all those around you. Take the blinders off of your eyes and see the gifts I am pouring out to you this day. Pray to the Holy Spirit for vision. God loves you so. God is caring for your needs this day. In your willfulness you want things your way. Accept the love I pour out to you. Accept all others as they are. Strive to give love as I give to you. I am your God and I love you with an undying love. You are Mine, child, I love you so.





July 16, 1994

Our Father Loves What He has Created

Messenger: The soul thirsts after love. I have a loving Father Who created me. I am hungry for the love of God.

Jesus speaks: Do you stalk this barren world in search of love and find none? The Father is ever vigilant in His love for you. He created you and loves you as the most loving Father.

Come, My children, come and sit and pray. Pray in silence, pray to your Father. "Our Father, Who art in heaven..." Sit and focus on His love for you. He loves what He has created. You are so precious to Him.

Come and be with your Father.



July 16, 1994

Love All Persons

Jesus speaks: Do you have trouble with your brothers? Do you know they are as they are? Love all of God's creatures as persons created by God. Genuinely love all persons. I would die for them this very day. Can you offer less to your loving brothers?

Pray to love, children, as I have loved you. Pray to know how to love. Be humble, see your faults, admit your failings. This will lead you to correction of these faults. If you hide your faults, you will never correct them.

Pray to the Spirit to see what needs correcting. Pray to the Spirit to open yourself to the faults that are blocking your relationship with God. Pray to be open to the faults that constantly trip you up and allow you to be caught in Satan's snare. Know your faults child. Know your weaknesses and pray for help to overcome them.

I am Jesus, I love you so. In your pride you overlook your weaknesses, in humility you accept them and try to correct them.

Pray for vision, little one.





July 16, 1994

Title: Live Our Lives In the Rosary

Mary:   My blessed daughter, I do not ever abandon you. I am your loving Mother, your other mother is in heaven with me. Come and know I mother you constantly, my child. No one will give you the motherly love you crave but me. Your mother in all her holiness could not mother you this day as I mother you.

Come to me, my child and know I am truly by your side. I love you so, my dear, sweet one.

Jesus speaks: Live to love Me. I know how far you are from being perfect and I love you anyway.

When you see your faults beg to be given the graces to overcome them.

Messenger: When I speak of my love for You Lord, let me come from a place of love and not pride, ever, ever.

Teach me Your ways.

Jesus speaks:   Strive to be Christ-like My child. All your actions should be rooted in love.

VISION

Messenger: The bare skin, being beaten, the bare skin when He was stripped, the bare skin on the cross and taken down in His Mother's arms.

He comes to us as He was born, no coverings, He comes and gives us His all, they beat His precious skin, they pierced His tender skull, they pounded nails through His body. They tore His flesh and it hung.

He gave the last beat of His Heart, He gave the last drop of His Blood, no coverings, He gave Himself.

Jesus gives us Himself in the Eucharist, He gives Himself to you, His Body, His Blood.

What more do we want from this beautiful God to give His all for love of us.

    Yet we do not even know what He is giving us, we are so blind, we run after foolish things and He, the Son of God, waits for us to be with Him, out of deepest love for us.

    His head was pierced, His back was torn, He was beaten down to His ribs, His flesh hung from His body.

Jesus speaks: I GIVE you My BODY and BLOOD for love of you and you cry for love.

    God gives His very own Body and Blood to you.

    I am the Savior of this world, I come to save you from your sins the price I paid is My life, given for each of you. I held nothing back.

Will you love your brothers this way for Me?

I am the Alpha, I am the Omega, I am God, yet I give you Myself because I love you.

Do not ever go from My love.

Messenger: How can I be likened to Christ and model myself after His actions, if I do not pray the rosary. This is Christ and Mary's life from His beginning to end and the Ascension into heaven. It is her life from the Annunciation to her crowning in heaven.

    The love They had for us, the love we need to have for one another. We are truly brothers in Christ.

Jesus speaks: I am the Way, I am the Truth, I am the Life. I am Jesus come to love you this day with My ardent love.

July 16, 1994

My Mother

Messenger: My mother died when I was five and I missed her all throughout my life. I will now be 48 in a couple of weeks, the age she was when she died. My birthday present was and is the gift I received from her: her old, worn prayer book. The pages torn and yellow where she wore them out from her prayers. She prayed so much they were all torn. I have her crucifix from her rosary, which has her name, Alice, attached to it. I received her prayer book and the cross from the rosary.

    Nothing is an accident. She gave me the greatest gift of all, she gave me my life at birth and I have her prayer book and crucifix from her rosary as her love for me. This is one of the most precious gifts a child could ever have - her mother's prayers! Early on she shared with me her deep love of God.

    I want to lead others to meditate on Jesus' life - His life at birth and Mary's life, lived in the rosary. From the youthful face to the old woman she became, from her joy to her deep sorrow. I see Mary's face alive in the statues. A parade of faces, all the emotions of the heart, for us, relived in every rosary! This is our call: to be likened to Christ. I must meditate on Christ and His life. This will help me grow in my love relationship with Jesus and Mary in the rosary. I love the rosary because it is their lives. His life was given for love of us. He gives Himself to us this day in the Eucharist. We must live their lives to put on Christ. A Christian is one who acts like Christ. They will know we are Christians by our love. To love like Christ, we must meditate on His life with Mary.

    I am called by Mary to lead others to the love of her precious Son. When I live as Christ and Mary did, then I will preach the gospel in my life. Do I act like Christ? Look at our lives and see if we are acting like Him today. Study Him in the rosary. Learn about His love, poured out for us in the Eucharist. Sit with Him in front of the tabernacle and pray the rosary, slowly, from the heart, and meditate on His life and the life of His Mother.

    Sit alone with Him and learn of His love for us, this day. Be silent in front of the tabernacle. He will speak in the silence. We are given such gifts of His love. We should live Jesus' and Mary's lives in the rosary!

July 16, 1994

Meditation on His Agony

Messenger: He was pressed on, from all sides, His head crowned with thorns and bleedings, His face open wounds from being hit, His shoulders so hurt from carrying the cross and His flesh torn on His back, His hands pierced all the way through with nails, His head and neck ached, His feet pierced all the way through with nails.

Think of a pin prick in your fingers, His head was pierced and His hands had big nails in them, likewise His feet.



Live the rosary, meditate on the mysteries during the day.

If one little sore hurts we complain, think of these things, thorns and nails piercing His body.

It wasn't enough they beat up His exterior flesh, they pierced His insides.

Did He give His all?

We wonder how we are violated, how someone hurts our feelings with words.

He underwent such torture to show us the way to surrender.

Jesus speaks: They went inside My body Rita, I gave My insides for love of you. I gave the blood in My veins.

    Do you want more proof of My love?

Messenger:   Agony: His greatest agony was the suffering He experienced to His loving Heart. He, who loved each soul so dearly and they would reject Him and treat Him indifferently! He saw before Him all the souls that would go to hell, despite His sufferings.

July 17, 1994

Would Christ Act As I Am Acting

Messenger: I see You Jesus. Through the passion, scourged, I see You hanging on the cross, I see You taken down from the cross. I see Your flesh, You gave Your all for us.

    Nothing covering Your skin and they beat Your very own flesh. They whipped You -- nothing was between You and the whipping.

    You want my all, no coverings to cover me, to give myself totally and unreservedly to You.

    This is Your act of love for us,
    This should be my act of love for You.

Looking at Your bare body during the passion reminds me how much You dearly love us. There is nothing You hold back, there is nothing You use to separate Yourself from us.

You give us Yourself in the Eucharist. You hold nothing back. You give us You.

Oh, how I love You my precious Savior.

    This is how close He is to us. He is not afraid to get close, He gives Himself. What an act of love. What do I cover myself with to keep me from loving as He asks me to?

    We are called to model ourselves after Christ. I think of Christ and how He was. Total peace, always. Peace to His death on the cross. He did not talk about anyone. He always was loving and giving of Himself in service.

If I am to try to act like Christ, I must meditate on how He was.

Being a Christian is to be Christ-like.

Would Christ act as I am acting? I preach the gospel in my very being. I preach His word by how I am. I must be rooted in Him and His love so that I act as He wants me to act. I still will fall short. But I must try to be likened to Christ in all things.





July 17, 1994

Spirit, Open Me To The Love Of God Within Me

Jesus speaks: You were born to new life in Me.

Messenger: How do you see me? Do you see the Christ that is alive in me? Do you know I am a Christian, Christ-like, by how I act? Do you know I am a Christian by how I love?

Do I love you? Do I complain and not even know it? Do I see myself for the way I am or am I blind and never see at all?

Spirit, open me to the love of God within me. Give me vision into the God that dwells within me. Let me see how I can be more like Christ.

Jesus speaks: The more you realize the indwelling of God within you, the more you will be rooted in My peace. Peace comes from knowing God and His love. No matter what occurs around you, remain at peace. This only comes from God.

Messenger: I see constantly how far I am from Him. My son wanted my keys and wanted them now. I must remain in peace.

His will is for me to be with my son at church and to write this letter. I must constantly act as He would have me act.

I see now how He outpours His love to me in others and how I in my willfulness wanted the love given as I wanted it.

How am I when I am in your presence? Am I loving you, my brother, do I receive so much love and don’t even notice because I want it my way?

God in His goodness is sending me such love constantly. It is outpoured to me, and I am so blind I do not see.

Jesus speaks: Pray children, you are children who need to be taught. You are human, to think you are perfect is to be blind. Work against your faults and grow in union with Me. Pray for vision, pray to the Spirit. Open yourself to the new life that I give you as you grow in love with God.

Your life in God is ever evolving. It does not remain the same. You are to grow in your likeness to Me. Pray for vision, pray to see. You may wander the same valley for so many years and never find your way. You need the vision of God to see your way. Pray for His light to shine in your hearts. Pray to see, where you were blind, you now see.

When the Spirit dwells within you, you grow in vibrancy. With the descent of the Holy Spirit, the Apostles were fearless - they were on fire.

Messenger: When Mary was filled with the Holy Spirit, she spoke in a loud voice, the Magnificat.

When the Spirit is enkindled in our hearts, we will shout out with a loud cry the Good News, that Jesus is Lord, He loves us, He is in our midst this very day and we are His chosen ones.

We are called to spread the Good News.

The Lady is calling. She is calling you now.

May we be on fire with His love.





July 18, 1994 4:10

Stay Close to Me, Love Me

Messenger: My Savior, I will let go and trust.

Jesus speaks:   Trust Me now. Live only to love, when you are attacked by satan, let go.

    Have only love toward every man, if you go from Me satan will work on your mind. Stay close to Me and never wander from your love of Me.

    I am your God, you shall not have any gods before Me. I AM JESUS LET GO!

Messenger: I am attached to the car because I can't find the key and I want so terribly to get to Church in the morning.

That is so precious to me to go to Church. I love the morning, I love to go in front of the tabernacle, I love to be with You Jesus.

I want to go to Mass.

Jesus I trust in You, Jesus I give You myself Jesus, I am Yours.

This is not mine, this is not yours, this is the message, this is the good news. My heart jumps to speak His name. He is my Savior. He is God. He is my love. I LOVE GOD.

    I love You, I love You, I love You.



July 19, 1994

This Is My Body Given Up for You

Jesus speaks: I give you My Body, sweet one, flesh and all, I give you Myself, do you see now, do you see the blood in My veins I pour out to you. This is My true blood given up for you. I shed this blood, I give you My blood this very day.

Do you see how I give Myself to you in My entirety -- My very flesh, My very blood, I give it to you.

Messenger: I feel Him and hear Him say this so to us. His words are clear and direct, pleading to tell all of this wondrous mystery and what they truly share here with Him.

Jesus speaks: I am the bread of life, He Who comes to Me will have eternal life and the bread I give is Myself.

I AM THE BREAD OF LIFE. HE WHO EATS OF ME WILL LIVE FOREVER AND THE GIFT I GIVE IS MYSELF.

Messenger: Jesus gives us His FLESH. THIS IS THE ACT OF TOTAL GIVING giving your very own flesh and blood.

Like the little innocent lamb led to the slaughter, He is total surrender, He let them do as they did to Him and He could have stopped it.

Think of what others do to me, do I accept my silence in suffering and love of Him.

Jesus speaks: This is My Body given up for you...

Song:   TAKE AND EAT TAKE AND DRINK
            THIS IS MY BLOOD GIVEN UP FOR YOU.





July 20, 1994

5:00 a.m.

Title: Though The Earth Be Shaken, I Will Sustain You

Jesus:

Dear sweet one, do not worry for I am with you and you are My child. Though the earth be shaken and the sun not give its light, the heavens fall from the sky, you shall be steadfast in My love. You will progress steadfastly in the love of God.

    I am your God. You shall not have any gods before Me and the powers of heaven and earth will not fall in on you for you are shielded by the hand of God. It is in your union with Me that you will be drawn ever closer to the Father.

    The might in the heavens and the earth will not come against you for you are held by the power of God and His Might is your shield. Amen, Amen, I say unto you, not one letter of the law will ever be broken or cast aside. My words are truth, indeed. They are precepts to be studied and fixed to your minds. You are but a bubbling brook. You are filled with God and He dwells within your very soul. Come and let Me make a home in your heart. Let Me dwell there. My life I have given for you. You will not be shaken for you realize the power of My Might.

    I am your God. I am Almighty. I am to be honored and blessed from all generations and My hand is the hand of God, one, living and true.

R. If the world falls around me, I will be untouched, for I am living for the love of God.

Jesus: Though heaven and earth pass away, not one letter of the law will pass away. Let your lights shine so all may see your good works and praise your Father Who is in heaven. For the weak are made strong in Me! My power is the power. You are My chosen one. I am writing to you. Do not worry for these creatures, worry that you do not conform to the will of the Father, for He is mighty and He is ready to be praised. He is your God. You are His people. He loves you with an endless love. Let not your hearts be troubled. In Him you have found your peace.

    Amen, Amen, I say to you, not one letter of the law will ever be broken or cast aside. My words are truth indeed, they are precepts to be studied and fixed to your minds. You are but a bubbling brook. You will be filled with God and He dwells within your very soul.

    Come and let Me make a home in your heart. My life I have given for you. All power is Mine.

    I am your God. I am Almighty. I am to be honored and blessed from all generations and My hand is the hand of God, one, living and true.

    Though heaven and earth pass away, not one letter of the law will pass away. Let your lights shine so all may see your good works and praise your Father, who is in heaven. For the weak are made strong. You are made strong in Me. My power is the power.

    You are My chosen one. I am writing to you, do not worry for these creatures. Worry that you do not conform to the Will of the Father, for He is mighty and He is ready to be praised. He is your God. You are His people. He loves you with an endless love. Let not your hearts be troubled. In Him, you have found your peace!





July 21, 1994

4:45 a.m.

Title: Live to Love

Jesus:

    Dear Rita, do not be afraid, but be comforted for I am truly with you. When you feel afraid, run to My waiting arms. I will tuck you securely in My Sacred Heart and you will never be afraid.

    It is in coming to Me you find such peace. Do not get angered at your brother. Love always as I have loved you. Do not get angered, pray for the person, they are in need of many prayers as are you.

    Live in love. Time is too short to hate. Play with your children, sweet one. Be attentive to their needs. Love each child and care for them.
    I am the Alpha. I am the Omega. I am your precious Savior. Just let go and accomplish your tasks. No time to waste. My time is so important. Live for Me. Pray for holiness. Are you being holy?



July 21, 1994

His Precious Hands and Feet

Messenger: How did it feel to have the nails pounded into Your precious hands, to be bound and a nail pounded into the other hand and then to have both hands nailed down and have them nail the nails through both feet?

Oh, my Jesus, was this done for all the sins of our hands and feet? We use our hands for food, drink, to use telephones and videos, and many things we handle lead to sin.

Oh, Jesus, were Your feet nailed for all the places we walked that led us into sin? Our feet can lead us to You or lead us away from You.

What pain You experienced all the way through inside Your body! How does deep pain feel?

This is how Your Heart and Mary's heart were wounded, with deep pain, clear through, so deep. Who can express the anguish You felt for all the souls that would be lost, despite Your love? It hurts to see those we love suffer, but to see souls condemned to eternal fire!

You saw so much, my precious Jesus. Thank You for becoming a man and suffering for me. Thank You for the gift of redemption with its new life.

Oh, Savior, I love You with the most longing heart. I want You so much more. I want to be closer to You. Help me to grow in my love for You.

Mary, place me in the innermost recesses of His most Sacred Heart. I love you so much!

(Vision: Before Mass I saw a bright light, so bright, eyes were closed, but a big light - so big and bright, like a ball of fire! I had been praying to the Father and opened my eyes and saw the tabernacle in the chapel. I smelled a very sweet smell. I heard, "Jesus is Center, God is Father, Holy Spirit helps us to know God.")

Jesus speaks: My little loved one, do you worry for this life? Be not afraid. I care for the lilies of the field.

Your life is so important to Me. Put your cares aside and come and love Me. If I suffered such brutality with the wounds, do you not think I would care for you?

Oh, little one, I care and love you minute-by-minute. Do not fear, for I never abandon you. I am forever with you guarding you. You are so precious to Me.

Come to My Heart and live in Me. Dwell inside My Heart. I am in you, you are in Me. We are One in the Father Who sent Me.

The ball of fire is to show you My might. Do not ever worry. I am with you. I love you!





July 21, 1994 - 4:00 AM

Do You Know How Close I Am To You

Jesus speaks: Dear child, do you know I am this close to you? You suffer such fear, for you have fallen into another trap Satan has set. When will you learn that his whole purpose is to discredit you and get you bowed down? He is a master of deceit. He knows what will get to you.

You are suffering for souls, offer up your torments. Your life is given to Me. You will suffer. I ask you to comply to the will of the Father. Act for love of Me. I suffered for you, My beloved. I ask you to suffer for Me in love.

What are you doing? Do you know I have wrapped you in a blanket and am now holding you tightly in My arms? I am so full of love for you.

Relinquish your anger at any person. Live to love. Do not fear when you act for Me.

Messenger: Jesus said, when I went to Communion: "Do not be hard on yourself." Jesus said, "Be gentle with yourself."

Jesus speaks: Be gentle on yourself, sweet one, be gentle. I have chosen you for this work because you are willing to suffer for Me. I love you dearly. In every trial, it is a rose, given to you, My sweet one. This is a rose I give to you. I know every act ever done to you and I know your anguish. This anguish I ask you to suffer with joy, joy because you love Me. Be alone with Me. Meditate on how they hollered slanders at Me and I remained silent. In a jeering crowd of people, they hollered every insult and injury at Me, then they spit on Me and laughed at Me. I was attacked by so many. Satan works in secret. I gave My all. Everything should be in the open. I love you so dearly. I am protecting you.

"You will know they are My disciples by how they love one another."

July 23, 1994

After Communion

Title: We are One in Him

Jesus:   Dear little one, do you not know I give you just as you need? Do you not know you are constantly growing deeper in your love for Me? What on the face of the earth can compare with your union with Me? I become even more present to you in every moment of your waking days. You long to be so closely united to Me. This is the heartache, to only have this limited union with Me.

  I love you, dear one, and nothing here is even a taste of the glories to come. In your closest union with Me, it is only a foreshadowing of all that is to come.

I love you to long for Me and want Me so much! My Heart is a burning flame, an endless fire, that does not ever falter, a roaring flame for love of you. My Heart is on Fire, My sweet one. Focus on this burning flame that burns for you and you alone.

R. (Vision of His bare back) Your bare back, I have seen for days, Jesus. This has kept me in such union with You! I see Your back, willing to be scourged. I see Your bare body given to Your Mother under the cross. I see You hanging bare on the cross and feel so close to You, so intimate with You. You held nothing back. The nails penetrated the interior of Your body. The gashes, the nails in Your feet! You gave all the blood in Your veins, You gave this for ardent love of me. You are my beautiful Savior. You gave this love for each individual brother. They are so dear to You. You are love, Jesus. The Father gives us such love that He sent His only Son into the world to save us from our sins and make us heirs of heaven!

Jesus: This is My life given up for you. This is My Body, My very own flesh, the very Blood in My veins, given up for love of you.

R. Such closeness I feel to know Jesus loved us and loves us this much. In meditating on His passion, I realize His great love for me.

Jesus: My little one, I am your precious One. I am in you and you are in Me. The Father sent Me. This is the union I call you to, such oneness, such intimate union in Our Hearts.

My Mother is forever placing you in the innermost recesses of My Heart. The Holy Spirit is the fire of the love of God. Such union fused together securely by the fire of the Spirit!

Meditate on union with Me. Come close to Me through Mary's sinless heart. Be united to God - all three Persons. Focus on the indwelling of God within your very breast. God is alive within your heart. Such fullness in your chest to realize this presence within you!

This is what protects you from the world. The more you realize the immenseness of God's love within your breast, your union with God, the less anything on the outside can penetrate your spirit. You are burning with My love. Let the love of God radiate from your being, be forever fixed on this intimate union you share in God.

I never abandon you. I lead you to the courts of heaven where we will forever be united in such love.

R. The love of God within, the love of God outside us, the love of God in our brothers, the love of God poured out to us in the Eucharist!

Jesus: I give you exactly what you need. It is in acceptance of all I send you, you grow in your relationship with Me.

Do not look to your brothers and wish you have what they have. You have what you need. I pour My love out to you in the exact proportions needed. There is so much love in those who surround you. Do not in your willfulness wish for that which you are not receiving.

See all the gifts and love I send you this very day and praise your heavenly Father and thank Him for these gifts.

You, My child, are so abundantly blessed. Praise and thank God, the giver of all, for the great gifts given to you. Do not be willful and wish for that which you do not have. Know that He gives you according to your needs and be grateful for the gifts you are given.

Praise God and Thank Him. You are so favored, My precious child. You are guarded by My very own hands.

Look to the heavens and count the stars and thank Him who gives you such good things.

R. He suffered for me. To think He suffered for me! He is God. He suffered for each of us. In focusing on how He suffered for me and would do it this very day, I am in awe of Him. He walked the walk to Calvary. He was beaten. He was bloodied. He did this because He loved me. He was crucified so I can get to heaven and be with God and Mary and the Saints forever. He did this for ME!

Do I ask, Lord, do You love me? I cry and complain and do not meditate on how He gave His all for me and would do it today. He is this personal with each of us.

Mary is my mother. She mothers me as she mothered her Son. She was given to me under the cross. God loves us so much. Mary loves us so much. I accept this on faith. I am so blessed to have this love and Mary as my mother.

Mary is your mother too, which unites us so closely.

Intimacy can only be achieved in dealing with Christ as you would with a lover. He loves me. God loves me. I achieve union within, but He loves you so we achieve union In Him and we personally unite with Him. We unite with each other because we are one in Him. He can unite with us individually and unite with all of us as one. This is a mystery, but I know it in my heart. I am so united to you because we are one in Him!

The more I understand the love between God and me, the more I understand His love for you. I will love you better if I love Him. I realize better how much He loves you. How can I not love you when He loves you so much. We are one in Him! This is a mystery and not easily explained.

My love for you is deepened by understanding my own unique relationship with Him, because as He loves me, He loves you and we are brothers. We are sons and daughters of the Father. If He loves you, I must love you because I am one with Him. You are one with Him and we are one in Him together.

The more I realize your oneness with God, the more I must treat you with love because He loves you so much. I don't want to ever offend Him or you, you are His love.

I realize this, then I feel so wretched for I see how far short I am of loving this way.

July 23, 1994

Title: I am Jesus

4:00

R. Love for you, my special, loving Savior! You are the sweetest, the kindest, the most wonderful Savior and I love You with all of my heart.

Jesus:

I am Jesus. I am Son of the Living God. I truly come to you, My sweet one. I give you My love. I am the Alpha. I am the Omega. I am He whose bootstraps you are unworthy to tie and I come to you with such ardent love. Your life is to be lived for Me and Me alone. Do not worry about anything, for I am guarding you.

Sunday, July 24, 1994

After Communion

R. I am filled with the immensity of God's love, the unity of being one with Jesus, but one with the Father and Holy Spirit and Mary. It is hard to explain, to feel such intimacy with Jesus, a oneness with all three Persons. A closeness to Mary. It is in feeling this closeness with Jesus that I am one with the Father and Holy Spirit, I love each Person. My soul craves greater union with God!

Jesus:

I am the Alpha, I am the Omega, I am He Who ardently loves you and wants such union with you. Pray to the Father and Son and Holy Spirit, to be closely united to God through the Immaculate Heart of Mary. Meditate on this union with each Person of the Trinity. You, My child are so loved. The Father so loved Mary, He chose her among all women to be the Mother of His Son. Jesus loves His Mother so much and wants us to love His Mother. Mary is the spouse of the Holy Spirit.

R. Mary will lead us to closer union with God.

Speaking to Jesus: When I think of You and the nail prints in Your hands and feet and the piercing thorns in Your head, I am overwhelmed with such joy because You loved us this much. Your side was lanced, Your Heart pierced. What flows to us in the Church is Your grace. You give us the hope of salvation. I love You so, my beautiful Savior. I love You with all my heart. Mary lead us to closer union with the Father, Son and Holy Spirit! Mary is our spiritual Mother. As Jesus was formed in the womb of Mary through the Holy Spirit, may we be formed more and more in her heart, through the Holy Spirit. May this transformation in her heart make us more like her Son Jesus and lead us to the Father.

Jesus: I am Jesus, My beloved ones. You were created in such love by the Father. You were created in His own image and likeness. Model your lives after the lives of Jesus and Mary. Meditate on the rosary. Pray to the Spirit to carry out this transformation in the heart of My beloved Mother. The more you become likened to God, the more you will be filled with His love. To know God is to love, for He is love. Pray for this transformation in Mary's Immaculate Heart.

July 25, 1994

After Communion

R. My dear dear Lord,

I long to be with You, so close. I miss the tender moments. I do not get to be with You and this morning am overwhelmed with sadness, instead of joy to be with You! I want to spend my hours with You and when I do not, I miss that time so! I squandered my time. I talk on the phone or go out some nights and miss my morning prayers with You. I want to be with You for hours in front of the tabernacle. I miss You and love You so much, to tears!

I long so for You. I want greater union with You. I thirst after knowledge of You. I long to be with You. You are my all, Lord. I long so to be with You in front of the tabernacle.

I am sad for all the hours I missed today and yesterday. I miss my intimacy with You. I miss You. Nothing else can be likened to being with You. I love You so! Now I know the sorrow of my heart, the joy to behold You now, bitter sweetness, sorrow and joy, love and pain, You are my all!

During Mass I wanted to cry. I could hear Jesus say, "this is My Body, My flesh, this is My Blood." I saw the little lamb led to the slaughter. I look at the crucifix and I realize His immense love. It saddens me so to know many who do not know this love and how He loves them so. It is painful to know this and watch people miss His beautiful love.

The readings were exciting. I love to hear His words. It just excites me to hear the readings, the psalm and the gospel. I wanted to cry today because I love Him so and He is truly here. This is no myth. The readings at Mass are alive in my life today.

The Mass is so beautiful. I love it more every day. What a gift to go to Mass. Oh, Father, how little I am, but I give myself in my entirety to You. The more I know You, the more I want to get lost in Jesus, to be hid away in His tender Heart. I love You so, my precious Savior!



July 25, 1994

Title: My Beating Heart

Messenger: I went to the altar at the Center. My heart felt like it would beat out of my chest and I knew that this was of God. Jesus said: "My dear daughter, My Heart beats as one with yours." Then He told me to sing Like a Shepherd three times, and the picture was lighting up.
(The picture of the Sacred Heart was illuminated.)

Jesus speaks: My dear child,
Do you realize how much you must ponder My love for you? My Passion is the key for you to understand this love. Pray for the gift to realize this love. I would die for you this very day. For you, My sweet one. Think, "Jesus and Mary love me this much." This will increase your closeness to Me. It is in this personal love I pour out to you that we will be ever closer. My Heart is ever beating for you in such oneness.

I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus. I am your Jesus. I love you with this love. Meditate on My Passion and see how I loved you.

I am your most loving Jesus, tenderest of all hearts and I am in your midst this very day.

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July 26, 1994

Title: Believe that My Mother Mary and I Love You!

Jesus:

     My dear sweet one, I am the Son of God. You know I am longing for your time spent with Me. You awake and you wish to continue sleeping. Do you ever want to get up? You need to go to bed at night, do not get on the phone, do not talk to people - just come to Me and be with Me.

     I am the Alpha and the Omega. Satan is trying to block your union with Me with many distractions.

R. I can't believe Mary or Jesus would love me.

    I can't believe that Jesus truly loves me so much that He died for me. I can't believe that the same Mary that bore Christ and stood beneath the cross at His death is ever by my side and loving me as such a loving mother!

Mary:

     My dear child, I have come to you with such tenderness and love this morning to tell you of my great love as your loving mother. Believe all I say to you. I love you as the most dear mother.

     Love can only exist if you trust. You must realize your own preciousness and know I never leave you. I am guarding your very way. Trust in my Son Jesus. He truly laid down His life for love of you and would die for you this very day.

     Love is given to you, my child. Look to the uniqueness of this love poured out to you. Pray to the Holy Spirit for the gift of understanding to understand all I am teaching you here.

     In your heart, you will know a new love of Jesus and myself as you let yourself experience Our love, given to you.

     Center on the uniqueness of this love. It is in realizing this personal love you will be able to give His love to others.

     He loves you, so dearly. He would suffer every beating, every thorn, every laceration, every ugly word, His most bitter death, this very day for you and you alone.

      Meditate on His passion and know this is the love He has for you.

     My precious little one, thank you for responding to this call. I am calling you to wrap yourselves in the arms of my beloved Son and experience His love - His life, His flesh, His blood, given for you.

     I am your most loving mother, Mary.

Jesus:

     My dear child, do you realize how much you must ponder My love for you? My passion is the key for you to understanding this love. Pray for the gift to realize this love. I would die for you this very day. For you, My sweet one! Think: Jesus loves ME this much! This will increase your closeness to Me. It is in this personal love I pour out to you that we will be ever closer. My Heart is ever beating for you in such oneness. I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus. I am your Jesus. I love you with this love. Meditate on My passion and see how I loved you.

     I am your most loving Jesus, tenderest of all hearts and I am in your midst this very day.

July 26, 1994

Title: He Is In Our Midst This Very Day

After Communion

R. Do I realize how Jesus loves us? Do I realize how Jesus loves you? Do I think and ponder how Jesus loves me?

He is not far off, He is inside of me right now. He is truly present in His Divinity and Humanity, in the Eucharist, in the tabernacle. Do I realize that He is truly present to me in front of the tabernacle?

    We are so fortunate to be in the presence of God. We are so fortunate to have Him in a special way within ourselves when we are in the state of grace. We are indeed blessed, to be in your presence, Lord. God dwells within us. Do I realize this presence? How can I not love you when I realize He dwells within your very soul?

     Oh, my brother, I have so much to learn on this journey and how little I see! I am sorry for not seeing the God who created you, His special creation and He loves His creation!

I am sorry for not seeing the special creation of God the Father. I am created in such love by God the Father!

I am sorry for not realizing His special presence within me when I am in the state of grace. I am sorry for the moments lost when I did not recognize God's presence in my very own midst. Open my eyes, oh Spirit of God, to see You as You are present in me and my brothers. Help me to become more and more aware of Your existence surrounding me and within me. God is truly in our midst this very day. Jesus is in His humanity and divinity in the Holy Eucharist. What words can we say but that He, God, is alive in us!

    My personal journey to greater union with Him depends on my pondering how He loves me personally. The more I realize how He loves me, the more I realize how He loves you. I am one in Him. You are one in Him. How can I not love you if you are this close to Him?

    To love you, my brothers, I must busy myself about developing my personal love affair with God. The more I love Him, the more I love you. You are His creation, His child, His precious one, His beloved. I must see myself as His creation, His child, His precious one, His beloved.

    I must ponder this love poured out for me. This is the key to my loving. God first loved us and sent His only Son that we might have life. From His love given to me, I can love Him and you, but I must first realize and know His love. He first loved us! Open my heart, Lord, to know Your love for me so I can love You and others as You call me to.

    Mary, guide me to know the love of your Son. Spirit open my heart. Father, help me to see the love You pour out to me. Jesus, Jesus, my precious love, open my heart to the immense love of God and let me feel this love poured out in such abundance so I can love You more fully and love my brothers as You want me to.

Jesus: Open your heart to the love I pour out to you every day in the Eucharist. I come to you, Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity. I give you, My child, Myself. This is love: to lay down your life for your friend. I give Myself to you this day in the Eucharist, in My Divinity and Humanity. I enter your heart. My child, My child, ponder this love that God comes to you, a mere mortal, because He loves you so much. This is the secret to your life, to ever ponder the love of God and His presence with you this very day.

R. He is truly here. He is in our midst. He ardently loves us with a burning fire. He loves me personally. He loves you personally.

    This is the "Good News". Shout it from the housetops, raise the roof: Jesus is Lord and He Is With Us This Very Day with an unabiding Love, given for me, given for you!

    Mary is my most loving mother and she is ever by my side. I love You, Jesus and Mary. I love You Father and Holy Spirit. This is the Good news! Jesus Has Died and Has Risen to New Life and we are sharers in this New Life!

    Come one, come all to the altar of the Lord. Praise, Honor and Worship for God is truly present and He is worthy of all Honor and Praise.

Alleluia, Praise the Lord, Alleluia. Praise Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Love to our most wonderful Mother. We are the chosen ones. God has visited His people and is in our midst this very day!

Do I think God really does love me?

Jesus loves me so, He died for me, He gave His Blood for me!

He dwells within me. I am a temple of the Holy Spirit.

How do I treat this temple? Do I treat it with such honor because God is present there?

I am the creation of the Father. He loves me. He loves what He creates.

Do I realize He loved me first. God loved me before I was born! He sent His only Son to save me from my sins so I can be with Him forever in heaven.

Our Father Who art in heaven, hallowed be thy Name. Thy Kingdom come. Thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us, and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. Amen.

I consecrate myself to Your most Sacred Heart and the Immaculate Heart of Mary, in total surrender to be the creation You want me to be.

Thy Will Be Done...

Father, my Father, You who dwell within my breast, I am Yours. God, take me, mold me into the image of Jesus, Your Son.

Song: On Eagles Wings



Psalm 91: 1-2, 14-16

You who live in the secret place of Elyon,
spend your nights in the shelter of Shaddai,
saying to Yahweh, ‘My refuge, my fortress,
my God in whom I trust!’

‘Since he clings to me I rescue him,
I raise him high, since he acknowledges my name.
He calls to me and I answer him:
in distress I am at his side,
I rescue him and bring him honour.
I shall satisfy him with long life,
and grant him to see my salvation.’

Christ has risen to bring us new life!

Song: Night Is Over

Song: New Life

The Lady is Calling, She is Calling us Now.

Note: I was filled up with such sorrow and crying, unexplained, all the way home from church.

This is a fact, Christ is truly present and in our midst this very day.

Souls will be lost. We are being called to spread His love. We are being called by Our Lady.

What is more important? (I was filled up with such intense sorrow could hardly drive.)

This is reality. All this about Jesus, God and Mary is real. His life and death were real. The Mass is real. He is truly present in the Eucharist and the tabernacle. This is reality. This is true today. [The tears were as always, unexplained after Communion, sitting before the tabernacle as I experience such sadness for the blindness of men to not even know Him. She is calling us now! Mary allows me to experience her sadness.

(Before the tabernacle I had a vision of Our Lady holding Jesus' body after He was taken down from the cross.

On the bus when I was in Medugorje, a priest recited the sorrowful mysteries of the rosary..on Mt. Krucivec (Medugorje) - nails in Jesus' hands..also the priest did the stations of the cross, he also talked about Mary and how she suffered.) I have experiences, deep crying, experiencing the sufferings of Jesus and Mary. The veil is lifted and I am so close to the other side. I experience such joy to be so close to Them.]

Mary held the lifeless body of Jesus under the cross. We have Christ inside of our body when we receive the Eucharist. He is no less present in us than He was in Mary's womb.

Jesus: I come to you in such a special way and many do not even know what a treasure they possess. This is My Body you receive. This is My Blood you receive. I come inside of you to be so closely united to you.

Do you see the love I want to share with you. I give you the sacrament of My greatest love. I come to dwell, Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity, within your very breast!

I am love. I give My love to you in this most sacred mystery. I am so full of love for you, My sweet ones.

R. Mary held the Son of God within her body. She felt His life within her body and she knew that life was God's own Son. The baby she carried would save the whole world. Jesus is a Divine Person with two natures - a human nature and a Divine nature. Jesus was a little baby formed in the womb of His sweet Mother Mary.

What an honor for Mary that the child Jesus was formed in her body. Mary was so joined to Jesus from His beginning of life on earth. He was formed from her body. Mary was there at His death and received His lifeless body, taken down from the cross. As she delivered His tender body at birth, she held His battered, bruised body after His death on the cross. Such anguish for her tender heart - this is her beloved Son, the Lord Jesus Christ!

July 28, 1994

Title: Study His Passion

R. Think of how we ponder and look at our wounds. Oh, a splinter in my finger! Look what they did to our Savior during the scourging: raw flesh, unexamined. Such harsh treatment to our Savior God! Does my brother hurt my feelings with a word? What a baby I am to hold on to it forever and months later to still be harboring the hurt!

    Christ showed us the way, He was brutally beaten and not a whimper. He was led away, His head and eyes cast low, His crown of thorns penetrating His head, with the trickling of blood surrounding His face and head. He went as the innocent lamb, led to the slaughter. He showed us the way to accept our crosses. He carried His, even when He fell under it. He did not throw it back or try to relieve Himself, He collapsed under it, still holding on.

     How do I carry my cross? Do I complain and try to alleviate the pain by giving it to you, do I try to get out of it completely, or do I realize that He is allowing me to experience this and accept it as He did?

    He left with each of us the story of His passion. It is in meditating on this I learn about my beloved Master, and how to be more like Him. Study His passion and death. No one gave Him bandages for His wounds. I am receiving the fruits for meditating on His wounds. One wound, what a story, what a lesson for my life: He was battered from head to toe, not to mention the mental suffering, the heartache. So much to meditate on, to learn more about my precious lover. This is His love given for us, each wound graciously accepted out of such love for me.

     No little love does He have that He, my precious Savior, my most ardent lover, suffered every wound, every slander, every heartache, everything done to Him to His death on the cross for love of ME!

    How does He love me? He loves me this way: He loves me in His aching shoulder. He loves me as He carried His cross. He loves me so much He carried the cross until He literally collapsed under its weight. His love is undying. His love is enduring. His love is the love of God, beyond all human comprehension. His love is. He showed us during His life and resurrection His undying love. His life, given for love of me!

Jesus: To My very death, I loved you, My sweet and faithful child. This is not a myth, this is reality. Tell them. Tell them all, for love of them I died so they would rise to new life and be forever with Me in heaven!

    The battle is done, the victory is won. Your life lived for love of Me gives you pass into My kingdom. Spread the good news. Shout it from the rooftops. Hold not back one word from your lips that Jesus is Lord and He is truly risen! You will rise to new life if you love and serve the Lord. It is in your preaching of this Gospel, you will help others to go to heaven. By My death and resurrection, you will live forever.

    I am the Good Shepherd. I know mine and mine know Me. Follow Me. Meditate on My ways. My ways are the ways to peace and love in your hearts. My ways are the ways that lead to everlasting life.

    It is in meditating on My passion you realize more fully My immense love given for you. I Love You, Child, to My Very Own Death! Ponder My life, My ways, pray the rosary, meditate on My passion, My life given for love of you!

July 28, 1994 - Pounding Heart

Messenger: To embrace you, my Lord! I want to be united as one in my soul. I want to be united as one in my heart. My heart beats with ardent love for my Savior. Such an honor! I cannot even fathom my heart being united to Yours. If You would but tuck me in a little part, a little pocket, and let me be there, let me hear the beating of Your most tender Heart. Let me feel the warmth of Your love, poured out for me!

Jesus speaks: Oh, my precious one, do you know this is reality? The reality of My Heart and that of My Mother’s joined to your heart in such union? This is reality. My Heart beats as one with you in such love!

Meditate on the abyss of My most Sacred Heart, it is a mighty furnace burning with such a roaring fire for love of you. Think of this union. My Heart gives the fire that burns in the hearts of those who open themselves up to Me. It is this fire that burns with love in your eyes, that is emitted from you when you are with others.

Your oneness with Me is of importance to your life on this earth and the life hereafter. Strive for deepest union with Me in the burning furnace of My Heart. I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus, ablaze with love on fire for you. Be so intimate with Me, My precious child. This intimacy I crave with every soul. Speak of My Heart ablaze for love of each soul. I want their love. Tell them I wait for them with such yearning!

Messenger: I saw a heart that looked like it was a furnace inside. It was bright yellow, white in the center. I am experiencing pounding in my heart.

His Heart is truly beating for love of us. I felt my heart beating so hard in my chest. I knew it was from Him. Hearts don’t do what the mind is doing. This morning my heart was pounding, heart racing, I got this letter:

Jesus speaks: This is My love for you. The pounding in your heart is from Me. Every second My Heart is beating with intense love of you. Even when you forget about Me, I am loving you with My intense love. I love you with a beating Heart, on fire for love of you. When you are lonely think of My Heart beating so strongly for love of you.

July 28, 1994 - Jesus Loves You this Day

Jesus speaks: I am Jesus, child. I love you this way, no matter where you go. Pray the rosary and be with your children. It is My love you must pour out to others. My Heart beats like this for love of all. Respect your brothers and love them as My Father's dear creation, as the temple of the Lord, of My love. They are your brothers. Love them, sweet one, love all for Me. You are My Heart beating in this cold world.

Messenger: How can I leave You after this?

Jesus speaks: I don't leave you. I go with you as you love and serve your Lord. You must share My love with all. You are My temple in this world. Love your brothers for Me.

July 28, 1994 - 4:30am - Reach Out With the Hands of Love

Messenger: To love You this way! Jesus wants me to realize the dignity that He bestows on me. "With dignity and honor, I have clothed you, My sweet one."

Jesus speaks: Reach out with the hands of love. Be heart-centered, filled deep within with My most ardent love. You will love others proportionate to your love affair with Me. From the depth of My Heart I cry unto you to realize this love that is outpoured to you. You are My beloved. You are My sweet and faithful one. You, I ask to come and be in love with Me. Pray from your heart. Be in love with Me.

Messenger: He would do what He did because He knew the love of the Father. All love that comes through Jesus comes from the Father. He loved when they hated because He knew the Father's love. When the world is cold, jump into His Heart. He puts us in a little pocket. Little lambs, caressed by His Heart!

July 29, 1994 - Stay Ever Pure in My Heart

Messenger: Jesus told me He could withstand His bitter Passion because He knew the Father's love for Him. All love that comes through Jesus comes from the Father. He loved when they hated Him because He knew the Father's love.

When the world is cold, I run to His Heart and tuck myself inside His Heart. It is for You I live, Lord. Give me the courage and Your love to love when I would rather not. You are my Savior. I am Your servant. I want to do the will of the Father. Help me to realize more and more the Father's love for me. He loved me first to create me. I am the creation of God the Father.

Let me forever hold in my heart the vision of Jesus caressing the little lambs with such love. I want to be a little lamb caressed and held close to the Heart of the Good Shepherd!

Creatures are imperfect, I am imperfect, my brothers are imperfect. I cannot demand perfection of myself or others.

I must love myself and others despite my faults.

The Lord will be my Shepherd, nothing more shall I want.

Jesus speaks: I am Jesus, the Son of God. I am He Who loves you, My little one. Forever focus on My love. Do not be troubled. My Heart is the tenderest of all hearts. I am as gentle in heart as I was as a tender baby in Mary's arms. My Heart is tender and loving and pure. Come to Me, My beloved one. I caress you close to My Heart and you are never afraid, for I love you with strength and gentleness.

I am Jesus, Son of the Living God.

I live in you, dear one. Stay ever pure in My love. Come and meditate with Me. I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus. I am your love. Come to Me, My precious child.

Messenger: I have immense heartache when I do not get to be with Him in front of the tabernacle.

Jesus speaks: When you love Me more than you love yourself, you will find a way to come to Me in adoration.

Messenger: He told me to ask the priest for a key to the church. I didn't want to.

I want to hug others for Jesus. I see Jesus in them. He loves each person so much.

Satan always works hard on Fridays between 12 and 3:00.

July 30, 1994 - My Life Is Your Life to Follow

Jesus speaks: Come unto Me all who are weary and find rest for your soul. Be an empty vessel so My love can flow through you as an open pipe. You must rid yourself of all guilt imposed on you by the devil. Pray for humility to know the truth and deal with the truth. Forget your failings after you have confessed them. I am the Good Shepherd, I know Mine and they follow Me. My life is your model to follow, study Me and My ways and pray to Me constantly.

I am the Good Shepherd, I tend to My sheep. You are guarded. I go with you and give you all you need.

Do not stray, stay close to Me and follow Me. Do not look to the world. Keep your focus on Me.

Oh, I love you with the tenderest of all hearts. Oh, I am your most precious Jesus. Meditate on My life in the rosary, all 15 decades. Live My life and that of My Mother in your actions.

Messenger: I feel their oneness in heart. I feel this unity so strong today. To be with Him is to be united to my Mother. I am not dealing with Him alone. She is there, united to Him.

Jesus speaks: I am the Good Shepherd, I know Mine and they follow Me. Open your heart to My ways, not what you think is the way, but what My ways are for you this day.

Your children need your attentiveness. You want to please them and let them do their thing. You obey Me, they obey you. You need time alone with them every day. You need to play with them everyday. Treasure our moments together and being with your children.

I am Jesus, your ardent lover. I love you when you are doing all things. You must be with them and realize how close I am when you are doing the will of the Father.

I am with you when you play games. I am with you all day, very close, inside of your heart. My Heart beats as one with yours. You are My beating heart in this world. Spread My love to all. Your job is to love, to see My loved ones, to smile and be Me to those you touch. Love given to your brothers is of utmost importance.

I love you, I love through you. Ask yourself, how would Christ treat this person, beloved creation of My Father?

You are here to love God with your whole heart and love your neighbor as yourself. Doing My will is doing your duties. You love to pray, but you must take care of yourself and your family.

You are My hands. You are My Heart. You are Me to this world. I need you to interact with people, even though you would rather pray and be alone with Me. You are My body to this world. Act as I would act. Love for Me, My sweet one. You are My Heart beating in this cold world.

I am close to you at every moment, no matter what you are doing.

I am your precious Jesus, forever by your side and in your heart and ardently on fire for love of you. Love for Me! First and foremost - always love.

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July 30, 1994

After Communion
St. Gertrude's Church

Title: I Receive the Same Jesus That Died For Us

Messenger: I love Jesus so much. After Communion I wanted to be so close to Him and for Him not to leave. I was filled up with such longing, intense longing, wanting more.

Oh, how, sweet Jesus, do I ever tell You, God, that I love You? You are truly God and You come and dwell inside of me. I am filled with such emotion to realize You are here and to know Who You are.

I realized this is truly Jesus Who died on the cross and called out from the cross to His Father. This is He, inside of me. God inside of me! Filled with such emotion, wonder, excitement, longing for more knowledge of Him, to the point of tears, I could hardly stand it to realize this is truly the same Jesus Who was on the cross.

I felt the consecrated Host on my tongue and knew it was Jesus Who died on the cross. I could hardly stand it. I love You, Jesus, so much. I love You, I love You, I love You!

    My heart pants for love of God. He is truly God. Mary is so close to Him. I feel her union when I say His name.

    The more I pray the rosary, the more I see them so united. To be united to Jesus is to be united to Mary.

    This, I feel so intensely in my heart. I can’t even put it on paper. I love her so much that when I get near her statue I cry.

    She is truly calling us to her Son. To pray the rosary is to unite in a special way with Them. The rosary lives in my day, the mysteries of Their lives are in my thoughts. It is so wonderful to be united to Them in my life. I love Them so much.

    They are truly with us. Realizing this presence is drawing me ever closer to Them. I run to Them when I want to cry or express my joy, They are so real to me. They never ever leave. They love us so much. I love Them so much, my pen is unable to write even a minute amount of my heartfelt feelings.



July 31, 1994

After Communion 7:45 a.m.

Title: Do Not Judge, Love Your Brothers



Matthew 13: 24-43

He put another parable before them, ‘The kingdom of Heaven may be compared to a man who sowed good seed in his field. While everybody was asleep his enemy came, sowed darnel all among the wheat, and made off. When the new wheat sprouted and ripened, then the darnel appeared as well. The owner’s labourers went to him and said, "Sir, was it not good seed that you sowed in your field? If so, where does the darnel come from?" He said to them, "Some enemy has done this." And the labourers said, "Do you want us to go and weed it out?" But he said, "No, because when you weed out the darnel you might pull up the wheat with it. Let them both grow till the harvest; and at harvest time I shall say to the reapers: First collect the darnel and tie it in bundles to be burnt, then gather the wheat into my barn." ’

He put another parable before them, ‘The kingdom of Heaven is like a mustard seed which a man took and sowed in his field. It is the smallest of all the seeds, but when it has grown it is the biggest of shrubs and becomes a tree, so that the birds of the air can come and shelter in its branches.’

He told them another parable, ‘The kingdom of Heaven is like the yeast a woman took and mixed in with three measures of flour till it was leavened all through.’

In all this Jesus spoke to the crowds in parables; indeed, he would never speak to them except in parables. This was to fulfil what was spoken by the prophet:

I will speak to you in parables,
unfold what has been hidden
since the foundation of the world.

Then, leaving the crowds, he went to the house; and his disciples came to him and said, 'Explain to us the parable about the darnel in the field.' He said in reply, ' The sower of the good seed is the Son of man. The field is the world; the good seed is the subjects of the kingdom; the darnel, the subjects of the Evil One; the enemy who sowed it, the devil; the harvest is the end of the world; the reapers are the angels. Well then, just as the darnel is gathered up and burnt in the fire, so it will be at the end of time. The Son of man will send his angels and they will gather out of his kingdom all causes of falling and all who do evil, and throw them into the blazing furnace, where there will be weeping and grinding of teeth. The the upright will shine like the sun in the kingdom of their Father. Anyone who has ears should listen!



Jesus speaks: I am the Way, the Truth and the Life. He who abides in Me will have the light of life. I love all My beloved children. It is not for you to judge, "you are more loved - they are less loved by Me." I love everyone unconditionally. I love them despite their faults. You have faults, yet I love you. Never look to your brother and judge where he is with Me. It is not your place to judge and to measure. It is your place to love. Love all, be a witness to Me in all that you do. The seed you plant may germinate into a mighty oak with My water and sunlight. I constantly provide in the lives of My beloved ones.

Child, I tell you, you must love. You cannot love God, Whom you do not see, if you fail to love those you see. Each child was uniquely created by the hand of the Father. You are loved more greatly than you could ever imagine! Focus on this love, not on your brother’s faults. The love of God is abundantly poured out to you in your life. Seek after this love and not your selfish pursuits. My love will sustain the lonely heart and it is ever available to you. Look not to the right nor to the left, look to your Heavenly Father above. He is ever with you and loving you.

I am Jesus Christ, Son of the Living God. It is through Me you are saved. Come to Me all who labor and are heavily burdened and I will give you rest. Oh, blessed of My Father, need I say more? Love God and love one another. Do not judge. Do not measure. Do not criticize your beloved brothers. Love them despite all their faults. The Father loves you. You will know a treasure far greater than anything this world could give you. You are the beloved creation of My Father. See yourself and others as such. These words I have spoken to you that you will have peace and love in your hearts. Hold onto Me and you will not be led astray. I am your precious Jesus, Savior of the World. I love you with the love that bid Me lay down My Life for you. Heed My words that you will know peace, love and joy in your soul.





Sunday, July 31, 1994

Title: How Beautiful Are the Consecrated Hands of the Priests

R. When I am loved, I feel good inside and can give to others. This is reality. To experience His love makes me feel good inside. Jesus has this love for me. The more I realize my oneness to Jesus and how He truly loves me, the more I can love you because He truly loves you.

    I see the beautiful creation of God the Father in you. You are His unique child. I love you. He created you. You are His beautiful creation. I am created by God the Father! Oh, I love You, Father, You are so good.

    One day at Mass I was overwhelmed at the thought that Jesus came to this earth for love of us. What a gift of love from the Father, to send His only Son into this world.

    Every person I look at looks so beautiful. They are the creation of my beautiful Father, they are so beautiful!

    I love Jesus so much in the Eucharist. I saw a picture of the broken Host above the cup and kissed it and cried. Jesus in the Eucharist, is the true bread come down from heaven, this is truly Him, the Consecrated Host is what I receive and it is truly Jesus Christ, the Son of God! I know Him in the Eucharist. This is the closest I become to Him, this is so dear to me, it makes me cry.

    This is my Jesus. He is truly present in the Host when it is consecrated. I receive Him, my love, and I am so close to Him. This is my precious love, my Jesus. I love the Eucharist, this is truly Jesus!

    I cry to write this, I love Him so much. He is truly Jesus Christ who walked as a man on the road to Calvary, who was born of Mary. Jesus is the Son of God, who died a brutal death for love of us. This truly is Jesus in the Eucharist and I love Him so much.
    People should kiss the hands of the priest. The priest's hands are so beautiful, so blessed - kiss the consecrated hands of the priests.




At the same time, unknown to me, Father Carter received this message:

July 31, 1994

Given to Father Carter on the Feast of St. Ignatius

Words of Jesus to Members of Shepherds of Christ Associates:

"My beloved priest-companion, I intend to use the priestly newsletter, Shepherds of Christ, and the movement, Shepherds of Christ Associates, in a powerful way for the renewal of My Church and the world.

"I will use the newsletter and the chapters of Shepherds of Christ Associates as a powerful instrument for spreading devotion to My Heart and My Mother's heart.

"I am calling many to become members of Shepherds of Christ Associates. To all of them I will give great blessings. I will use them as instruments to help bring about the triumph of the Immaculate Heart and the reign of My Sacred Heart. I will give great graces to the members of Shepherds of Christ Associates. I will call them to be deeply united to My Heart and to Mary's Heart as I lead them ever closer to My Father in the Holy Spirit."

- Message from Jesus to Father Edward J. Carter, S.J., Founder, as given on July 31, 1994,
feast of Saint Ignatius Loyola, Founder of the Society of Jesus (The Jesuits)



August 1, 1994

Title: Focus On Me

Jesus: The devil is constantly working to get you focused on yourself and bowed down. I am the true bread sent from heaven. I give you such love, My beloved. Do not focus on yourself, focus on Me. Turn your cares over and jump into My loving arms.

I am the Way, I am the Truth, I am the light. I am Jesus, your Savior. I love you with the most ardent Heart.
Come and be with Me, My precious one.

August 1, 1994

9:45, Fr. Carter's Chapel

Title: Message For Father Carter

Jesus: My beloved priest-son, I love you with the most ardent Heart, My beloved one. I have tucked you forever in My Most Sacred Heart. You are so precious to Me, My beloved one. I love you with this most ardent Heart. Know My Heart forever beats with such love for you. You are so precious to Me, My beloved one!

R. At the Gospel at Mass, I heard Jesus speak to me - Jesus said: the priests need to develop a love of the Holy Spirit. They need to grow in their hearts, to make life in the spirit seminars. It is the Spirit whereby they will be led to lead the people to the love of God. The priests must know the Spirit, to have the Spirit alive in their hearts, to lead the people to life in the Spirit.

     Where they were fearful, they will become fearless. The Apostles received the Spirit in the upper room. Pray for the Holy Spirit to come in a special way to transform us from fear to fearlessness. They will preach the Gospel and men will understand the fire of God's love, God's love that is with us this very day.
     Alleluia, Alleluia.
    Jesus gave me this Holy Spirit Novena to pray -





    These are available in 4 languages.

Holy Spirit Novena

DAILY NOVENA PRAYERS

Opening Prayer

In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit. Amen.

Dear Father, we come to You in the name of Jesus, in union with Him in the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass, in the Holy Spirit. We come to You united to the Child Jesus of Good Health and the Infant of Prague. We come to You in the perfect, sinless heart of Our Mother Mary, asking her powerful intercession, uniting ourselves to her holy tears. We come to You united to all the angels and saints, and the souls in purgatory.

Prayer for Holy Spirit

We pray for an outpouring of the Holy Spirit on us, to be baptized by the Holy Spirit, that He will descend mightily on us as He did on the Apostles at Pentecost. That the Holy Spirit will transform us from fear to fearlessness and that He will give us courage to do all the Father is asking of us to help bring about the Reign of the Sacred Heart and the triumph of Mary's Immaculate Heart. We pray for the Holy Spirit to descend mightily on the Jesuits and the Poor Clares on the Shepherds of Christ leaders and members and on the whole Body of Christ and the world.

Protection by the Blood of Jesus

We pray that the Blood of Jesus will be spread on us, everyone in our families, and the Shepherds of Christ Movement, that we will be able to move steadfastly ahead and be protected from the evil one.

Healing

We pray for healing in body, mind, and soul and generational healing in ourselves, in all members in our families, and in all members of the Shepherds of Christ Movement, the Jesuit Community, the Poor Clares, the Body of Christ, and the world.

Prayer for Strength and Light

We adore You, oh Holy Spirit. Give us strength, give us light, console us. We give ourselves entirely to You. Oh Spirit of light and grace, we want to only do the will of the Father. Enlighten us that we may live always in the Father's will.

Eternal Spirit fill us with Your Divine Wisdom that we may comprehend more fully insight into Your Divine Mysteries.

Give us lights, Oh Holy Spirit that we may know God. Work within the heart, the spiritual womb of the Virgin Mary, to form us more and more into the image of Jesus.

Prayer to Be One with God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit

We long for You, Oh Spirit of Light, we long to know God, we want to be one with Him, our Divine God. We want to be one with the Father, know Him as a Person most intimately. We want to know the beloved One, the Sacred Heart of Jesus, and live and dwell in Him at all times, every moment of our lives. We want to be one with You, Oh Spirit of Light, that You move in us in our every breath.

Prayer to Be One in Jesus

Let us experience life in the Sacred Heart of Jesus, so we can say as Saint Paul, "I have been crucified with Christ and yet I am alive; yet it is no longer I, but Christ living in me...." Let us live, united to the Mass, all through the day being one in Him. Let us be able to love and know in this elevated state of oneness with our God. We long for Thee, oh beauteous God, we love You, we love You, we love You. We praise You, worship You, honor You, adore You, and thank You, our beloved God, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.

Prayer to Dwell in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary

We seek to be one in God, to live and dwell in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary, our little heaven on earth, to experience life in the all perfect, pure, sinless heart of our Mother. We want the Holy Spirit to move in us and to be united to Jesus as the Bridegroom of our souls and be a most perfect sacrifice offered to the Father at every moment as we unite in the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass around the world to help in the salvation of souls.

Prayer for the Holy Spirit and His Gifts

Come Holy Spirit, come, come into our hearts, inflame all people with the fire of Your love.

Leader: Send forth Your Spirit and all will be reborn.
All: And You will renew the face of the earth.

We pray for the seven gifts of the Holy Spirit, we ask for perfection in our souls to make us holy, holy souls likened to God.

Dear Holy Spirit, we give ourselves to You soul and body. We ask You to give us the Spirit of Wisdom, Understanding, Counsel, Fortitude, Knowledge, Piety, and Fear of the Lord.

Prayer for the Word Alive in Our Hearts

We know, dear Holy Spirit, the Word in His human nature was brought forth within the womb of the woman. We pray that His word will be brought forth in our hearts as He lives and dwells in us. We want the incarnation to go on in our lives. Dear Holy Spirit, work in us.

Little Prayers to the Holy Spirit

Dear Holy Spirit, help us not to be ignorant or indifferent or weak, help us to be strong with the love of God.

Dear Holy Spirit, please pray for our needs for us.

Dear Holy Spirit, help us to respect God and to avoid sin. Help us to live in the Father's will.

Dear Holy Spirit, help us to keep Your commandments and to respect authority. Help us to love all things as You will us to love them. Help us to want to pray and always serve God with the greatest love. Help us to know the truth. Help us to have the gift of faith, hope, and love. Help us to know what is right and what is wrong.

A Prayer for Intimacy with the Lamb, the Bridegroom of the Soul

Oh Lamb of God, Who take away the sins of the world, come and act on my soul most intimately. I surrender myself, as I ask for the grace to let go, to just be as I exist in You and You act most intimately on my soul. You are the Initiator. I am the soul waiting Your favors as You act in me. I love You. I adore You. I worship You. Come and possess my soul with Your Divine Grace, as I experience You most intimately.





August 1, 1994

Pray For The Success Of The Priestly Newsletter - Shepherds of Christ

Messenger: The following is the first official message I received before the statue of Mary at Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center. It is a personal message for Father Carter. She was appearing.

Mary speaks: I am the Immaculate Heart. My heart is glowing for love of all my beloved children. I am your most loving Mother. I am with you this day. Pray for the success of the Priestly Newsletter Shepherds of Christ. I am guarding your way. You will receive such graces to accomplish this task! Grace from God is so abundantly bestowed on you and will lead to the success of this endeavor! Pray for this cause at the Center. The priests will lead the people to the love of My beloved Son. This is no little task. It will take many prayers and graces. Pray hard, little one. Your prayers will change many hearts.

I am Mary, your Immaculate Mother. I bring this message to my beloved priest-son. I am aglow for love of you.

August 2, 1994

After Communion, 8:00 a.m.

Title: God Comes to Me

R. You are alive and inside of me. The one, true, God-made man, Son of the Father. His presence permeates my very being and I, oh God, I am raised to the realms of such life, life in the one true God. Who am I that I can thus be united with the Lord, my God!

    I am but a lowly servant, a mere creature and I am raised to such heights and honored at the presence of the Lord within my very soul. I see only a little of the true honor He bestows on me with His presence. I am a mere creature and my God comes to me!

    Holy is the name of my precious Lord and I am raised to such heights in His presence. Who, who am I to be given such an honor!

    I sing a song of praise and raise my voice in jubilation to this, the Almighty God, worthy of all honor and praise and so little received from His ungrateful creatures.

    Praise God, holiest in the heights and all generations will adore His name and give Him homage. Alleluia, Alleluia.

    What honor do I bestow on such a King? Oh my precious Savior. Do I contemplate what really goes on here or am I blind and dumb?

    You have given us bread from heaven and You will sustain us with Your body. I am but the lowly servant of the Lord. My life is dependent on You, my most giving, loving Lord. Who, I ask, who am I to be given such a great honor to receive You inside of me?

    I am raised to such heights in Him by Your very presence within me and Holy, Holy, is Your Name, You are Most high. You have indeed honored us in our lowliness with Your Divine Presence. We are but mere creatures. You are God. Bow down to Him who humbled Himself to come among us as Man and dwells with us this very day, He is truly present in the Eucharist. He is my precious Savior. He is worthy of all my love and I love Him from the depth of my soul. Is there anything that I can give to my precious Lord? He asks only for my love. Love of Him, love of His beloved ones.

    I love You, my precious Savior. Honor and praise to the name of Jesus, my Savior, Who sustains me!

(Message for Fr. Carter:)

Jesus:   And who is this man, My beloved servant and priest son? To him I will give such graces and the hand to lead so many to My Most Sacred Heart.

My Heart is ever ablaze for love of all of these, My beloved children. To you I impart this special grace to give them the knowledge and ardent love of My Heart beating for them and them alone.

    Such unique love, I do have for each and every soul.

Such fire I have for each of My precious ones and I impart to you the task to spread this devotion to My Heart and that of My most loving Mother.

    To all We are joined with such love for them. Tell them of this vibrant love that We have for each and every soul. Your love for My Heart will lead many to know My precious love for them. I tuck you deeply inside of My Heart in the warmth and love of My Heart and you will teach others about Our beating Hearts.

    Our Hearts are alive with such burning love. This is the fire of My love given for each soul when I gave Myself to My death on the cross.

    I give to you now, Myself in the Eucharist. Tell all of My ardent love and beating Heart, alive for love of each and every soul.

    I love uniquely. I love with fire, I love with vibrancy. I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus. I am on fire for love of My beloved ones. Tell all of My love.

And, for My religious, I tuck so specially in My Heart.

I call out to open yourselves up and experience this love given so generously to you, My chosen ones. But where do you go while I wait for you? Do you not know I am truly present and waiting for your love in the tabernacle? Where are you, my special, beloved sons and daughters? Where are you when I wait and want to share this love with you?

    Oh, please, My beloved priest son, tell them of My ardent love. Tell My very chosen ones how I am waiting for their love in the tabernacle. Tell them to come and be with Me and share this true love, given for them alone. This is the love of God, one true, magnificent...this is My beating Heart, alive for love of you, My priests and sisters, this very day. I am your Jesus and I wait for you this very day.

    I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus. I call out with such emotion and love to you, My precious ones. Do you harken to the call or go off to be busy for such incidental things?

    Come to My Heart and experience all you need. I fill your hearts with such love. You will run and not get weary, you will fly on eagles wings, your feet will not falter and you will know the way as you never knew before, for I go with you into the dark night and the light that shines is the fire of My love, deep in your hearts. You will shine in the darkness and your light will be the brightest light that shines. It will be powered by My hand that is forever upon you. You will cast My light from your very being and all will know the power of the Lord!

    I say unto you, Nothing in This World Can Compare to the Might of God! I have given to those who come to Me, My most precious love - the love of God is a burning ember that burns in the darkest night!

    Oh, beloved of My Father, open up your eyes. You have closed yourselves to that which is most important. You are following the sheep that are being led astray and are falling into the pit. Open your eyes, follow the Master! I am the Good Shepherd, I lead, you follow! If you follow other roads, you fall into destruction. Come, beloved of My Father, from whence I have chosen you. I will send you into the highways and the byways and you will find the lost ones and lead them home.

    Open your eyes. Keep your focus on He who leads, He Who is mighty, He Who loves you with undying love. You will lead your brothers home and the sheep will live in the home of your Father. Come home to My Heart, ablaze for love of you. Follow the call of My Mother, she calls you as your most loving Mother.

    This is love: to lay down your life for your friends. I am the Good Shepherd, I know mine and they follow Me. The way to Me is through My mother's heart. I am in your midst this very day. Come to My most Sacred Heart, alive and waiting your return. Alleluia. Oh how I love you, My chosen ones. Harken to My call. I call, will you answer Me?

    Many of My shepherds are not leading My sheep to My burning Heart on fire for love of you -

    The purpose of My Newsletter is to reach the priest shepherds to lead My sheep that have strayed, home to My Heart - tell them My priest son of My undying love for them. The fires of My Heart burn for My priest sons and My sheep - this is My Newsletter to lead them home to My Heart.

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August 3, 1994

Title: I Give You Myself

R. It would be so wonderful for me to go to church and hear the priest talk about the love of Jesus from his heart. I knew Jesus wanted us to read a message about His deep love in the Passion. He was aglow and smiling in His picture. This is what warms the cold heart. This is what is so exciting in my heart. Today the priest talked about Jesus' infinite love at Mass and it made my heart warm.

    This will light the hearts of men with the fire of God's love when the priests realize God's love within their hearts. Love of Jesus takes time spent with Him. He as our center, He as a real person, He is in our midst. I keep hearing Him say so strongly after communion, "I give you Myself."

    When He talked about His death, He said the same thing, "I gave you Myself, what more do you want to prove My love?"

Jesus: Oh, little sweet ones, it is not a story, it is truth. I, Jesus Christ, the Son of God, come to this earth, born of Mary. I lived here and died a brutal death on the cross for love of you. I Gave You Myself! I am a Divine Person with 2 natures, human and divine.

    I give to you this very day Myself, no less present in the Eucharist than the day I died on the cross.

I am Jesus Christ, the Son of God. I gave you Myself that you will have life and have it to the full.

    I give you a deeper sharing in My life this very day in the sacraments - I give to you, this very day, in the Eucharist. I am the same person that walked on Calvary.

I am the same person that called out to My Father.

I am, Who Am. I am the Son of God. I am no less present in the exposed Eucharist in this adoration chapel than when I died on the cross and rose on the third day. I am God truly present in My Divinity and Humanity -

    I come to bring you life to the fullest. Come and be with Me. Let Me give you Myself in the Eucharist and experience this intense union with God. God is present this very day and in your midst.

R. With such emotion, He says over and over again: "I give you Myself, what more do you want?"

Jesus: Ponder this My sweet one: I am God and I am giving Myself to you. What an honor for you to be so united with the Son of God and where I am so is My Father and the Holy Spirit.

Child, you are in intimate union with God. Do you comprehend a minute amount of this fact? Ponder this child, God in all His magnificence and wisdom, comes to you in such love.

    Oh, child, focus on My presence. Focus on My might. Focus on Me and then focus on the fact that I come to you out of greatest love. You will run and not get weary, you will fly on eagle's wings.

    The more you realize these mysteries, you will be filled with My immense love and presence. Will you be My light, My love alive in this world? Ponder, child, My presence, My love, My being here in the tabernacle, present in your heart.

    Your woes will be cast aside and you will know the life of the one, triune God, truly present and in your midst this day. This is the Good News, sweet one: Jesus has died, He is Risen, and He lives this very day. He lives in your hearts.

    Be as the light, shining in the dark world. Put all thoughts of Satan out of your mind. He wants you to worry. Focus only on Me and be at peace.

    I am Jesus Christ, Son of the Living God and I am with you this very day. I love you with an undying, ardent love. I love you, My sweet one, with an infinite love. I love you. Ponder this in your heart and you will know such happiness.

August 3, 1994

Title: I Don't Expect Perfection

R. Before Mass I realized I am a sinner, I make mistakes. He tells me I am not perfect.

Jesus: Who are you that you expect such perfection of your brothers? Why do you expect perfection of yourself? In all things try to be holy, like the saints. Model your life after their lives, but to expect yourself to be perfect is from the evil one.

    As you grow in your relationship with Me, you see more and more your faults. You have faults, you see them and try to change them with My help. You do not hate yourself for having your faults, you try to get rid of them.

    Satan wants you to focus on yourself and tells you how you are so awful. You are My precious child, the beautiful creation of My Father. In all of your faults and failings, you are intensely loved. You are learning to be more like Christ. You make mistakes, you are sorry, you ask for My help and forgive yourself.

    You must forgive your brothers as you forgive yourself. The truth is that you are not perfect. To think you are, is the work of the evil one. Admit your shortcomings and pray for forgiveness from your heavenly Father.

    The saints were not perfect. You are a human being. You are weak and commit sins. You do not love, when you could have loved. You are full of self and constantly struggle with the ego. Pray to be humble, pray to be Christ-like, meditate on My life and My passion. Live the life of Me and My Mother in the Rosary. Meditate with all your heart and you will be more likened to Christ during the day. Oh, sweet ones, to know how much you need to grow is not a sin, to be blind and think you are perfect is the error.

    Reach with your hearts to know the ways of God. Constantly dwell in My love and you will not be bound by your selfishness. You will run and not get weary, you will fly on eagle's wings. You will be the light of Christ that shines from your soul to this world. The world will be set aglow by the fire of My love.
Alleluia, Alleluia, Praise the Almighty God!

August 3, 1994

My Dear Ones, I Wait For You

Jesus speaks: My dear ones, I wait for you. As you see the exposed Eucharist, you know I am present and waiting for you. I am waiting, dear ones, in the tabernacle. I am so happy when you come to visit with Me.

Messenger: Jesus Christ, Son of God, remains with us in such love in the tabernacle.

Jesus speaks: Come dear sweet ones, you know I am here with waiting, longing arms for your time with Me. I pour out to you such gifts of My love. Come, I am a Person. I am Jesus Christ, the Son of God. I wait this day for you in the tabernacle. Come and be with Me. I love you so very much.

Messenger: I feel His Presence so much. He is truly there. I don't want to leave!

August 3, 1994

(On way to Frisch's Restaurant - 1:00 pm)

Title: People Thirst for the Love of God

R. If I want something so much, then learning about it is a joy, even when it takes effort. If I want something so much, I will ardently pursue and thirst after knowledge about that thing.

    If the priests preached the love of God, people would flock to the church. We were created to know, love and serve God. This is the drive in our being. Stronger than any appetite is the need to love God.

    People are thirsty for the love of God. They are hungry for His love. Their appetites crave His love. If they were given this love in church, it would be a joy to come to hear His Word, a joy to attend Mass, a joy to pray the Rosary.

    Coming from a place of love for God, I want to go to church. I want to pray. I want to be with Him. It is not a chore, it is enthusiasm to come and be with my loved one. I love Him. I want to hear His Word, it is about Him, Whom I love. I want to pray the Our Father, it is my beloved Father, to whom I pray!

    Loving God, reading His Word, attending Mass, meditating on Jesus in the Rosary, are joys because I love Him so much!

Jesus: The priests need to preach My ardent on-fire love, given for each of My precious ones. They will want to come to My altar, they will want to receive Communion, they will want to pray if they do it for love.

    I come to give you life that you may have it more abundantly. When you experience the love of God it is a life that is vibrant within you.

Song: New Life

R. Jesus came to give us new life. He gives us life in our souls. He gives us living water in our souls. His life is joy within our hearts. Jesus' love for us is the Good News. He has died, He is risen, we are raised to new life in Him!

    This is the life in the church: vibrant, full and alive, with the love of God. Love is not inactive, but active. Love of God is a mighty force within our souls that cannot be contained. It is emitted to all those we touch because it is powered by the hand of God.

    We were given this sharing in His life in baptism. God outpours His life to us through His Church. Our union with Him is the fire that is ablaze within our souls.

    Our journey to Him is to forever seek deeper union with Him. He gives us new life. This is life in Christ, it is available to each of us. We keep ourselves from union by being fixed improperly in the world. To live with the Lord, we must die to many things in the world.
    We are on the journey to new life. This life is deepened by our intimacy with Jesus. Our intimacy in heaven, our experiences of knowing God in heaven, depends on our union with Him on earth.




August 3, 1994

Mary appeared to me as I received this message from her

Title: Message for Fr. Carter

Mary: My beloved priest-son, I come to tell you that you will help save many priests from going to the pit, that you will lead them to the Most Sacred Heart of my Son. I am forever by your side and I am forever attentive to your needs in this endeavor. Come to me and be with me. I am your Mother. My Immaculate Heart will reign and you will know a reign of peace. You, I have chosen for this very important task.

    I am your loving Mother and thank you for responding to this call, my beloved priest-son. You, my chosen one, I have chosen to assist in this task to promote the love of our Hearts and lead the priests to the love of Jesus.
Thank you for responding to my call.

August 5, 1994

Mary speaks:          Every thing you do will be by the hand of God.

                            You will be given all that you need to write all

                                of my Son's messages. You will speak from

                                Him, you have been chosen to do this

                                very special work which will bring the priests

                                back to the Sacred Heart of Jesus and

                                I am Mary, I am your Mother, you will

                            be given the graces needed to accomplish each task,

                            you should never worry for you are escorted

                            by a band of angels. I am constantly by

                            your side, you are my beloved chosen one,

                            I will see to the accomplishment of this task

                            and all tasks you are called to.

                                I am Mary your mother and thank you

                            for being my beloved priest-son. I love

                                you, your loving Mother.

Messenger:        She is still appearing to me.





August 5, 1994

Mary appeared as I received this message from Jesus

R.    It is no longer I who live, but He who lives in me.

Jesus: Make yourselves likened to Me in all your ways.

Do not follow after the things of the world, focus on the Spirit as the Spirit is alive within your soul. I am the Lord, thy God and I am ever present and dwell in your hearts. Come to Me. Let My life live in you. I am the Way, I am the Truth, I am the Life. Come and abide in Me that you might live in Me and I in you. I am Jesus, your precious Savior come to prepare you for your home in heaven.



August 6, 1994

4:00 a.m.

Title: My Beating Heart

Jesus: My little sweet one, all goes according to My plan. Your work will become clearer as I help you publish My messages. Do not fume, do not fret, on eagle's wings I will accomplish this task.

    It was through much of your effort things are as they are down there. You live for love of Me alone. Your peace should not be shattered. Surrender. I love you with a beating Heart. Bring yourself back to My Heart and be with Me, My sweet one.

    Beating Heart. Beating Heart. Beating Heart.

August 6, 1994

7:15 a.m.

Title: We Are Truly Here

R. How many times this day, Lord, will I experience fear?

When, the Holy Spirit descended on the apostles, they were fearless in the upper room - they were no longer afraid. God is God. He is Mighty. He is forever inside of us.

He surrounds us. I am one in Him, then why be afraid?

    Think of Jesus in the agony in the garden. He saw every detail of His brutal suffering, yet in ardent love for us and doing the Father's will, He gave Himself.

    Oh, Lord, what a lesson, what lessons! Could I ever exhaust all the lessons You have so sweetly taught?

    To Your own death on the cross You were obedient to the Will of the Father. How do I try to alter what I think the Father's will is for me to fit my needs? One act of doing Your will pleases You far more than days of mortification, yet my precious Father, doing Your will is what gives me peace and keeps me happiest. You showed us the way with Your whole life how to conform to the Father's will - and this compliance is the way for my own best interest, yet I go to some other road of my own making and try it out!

Before the tabernacle

Jesus: There is but one way, My sweet, vulnerable child, it is the way of the Father. I come to give you life and give it to you more abundantly. The Spirit leads you to this relationship with God, to know His plan, His will for you. It is this simple, My child. I am the Way, I am the Truth, I am the Life, I am here this very day.

    Do you feel My presence and My Father's and the Holy Spirit? Do you feel your most beloved Mother? Do you see all the angels adoring Me before the tabernacle? Oh, sweet one, you come to this place and Satan said you were all alone, yet you knew I and My Mother were here with you but where you were blind, you now see! You see before you the gates of heaven. Before Me in the tabernacle are choirs of angels that adore Me. My saints surround Me. You are in the midst of a heavenly court. I am here this very second, Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity, no less present than on Calvary, or when I walked the earth. Do you see why I wanted you with Me? Strip yourself of your security, be in an old church with weak locks and Me alone and find out you are in the presence of a heavenly court!

     From fear to fulfillment. The human condition is fearful. The spiritual condition is to see with the eyes of God. Oh, child, how do I remove your own, self-imposed, boundaries from your eyes? Open up your minds, your heart, your eyes, your ears, to the real world. You do not see with your eyes, you see God in your heart. Where you were blind, you now see.

    I am Jesus Christ. I am in your midst this very day. I am the Son of God and child, look at your silly fear! Where on this earth could you be more safe than with God Himself, truly present in My, Divinity and Humanity, totally present before you here in the tabernacle? Do you see how you are so blinded by your eyes? Pray to the Spirit to see as only He can show you. Open your eyes to the ways of God.

     No matter what goes before you, I, Jesus, God, am here with you in My Divinity and Humanity. Do you feel silly to have ever feared? Oh, sweet one, how I love you - I would die for you this very day. I would die for you alone. Do you fear? I am God and I gave My life, My Blood, My Body, for love of you.

     Focus on Me, sweet one and you will have the light of life. All things here are passing and what awaits is the kingdom of the Lord, your true home.

     This is My gift to you, My beloved. Read this note over and over. My presence is here. Do you feel Me the same as when I walked the earth. Focus on Me and never be afraid.

I, Jesus, love you so much. I am God!

R. Do I wonder how He had the courage? He had to suffer so. His Father loved Him. My Father loves me. Why am I afraid to focus on the love of my beloved Father? He created me. He loves His creation. He gave His only Son for me. I have this love poured out to me from my loving Father.

     He is God. He lives inside of me. He is God. Where Jesus is, so is my beautiful Father.

     This is God's world. I am full of fear. (This church was filled with saints and angels and God!) I have such limited vision. See with the eyes of God. Pray to the Spirit. Where I was blind, I now see.

     You don't cause someone else's lack of peace, you cause your own lack of peace.

Jesus: I give you everything you need. If you love Me, you will obey the Father's will for you. Accept what I am giving to you this day, don't throw it back in My face.





August 7, 1994

Title: Forgive Yourself and Go to Confession

Jesus: You, My child, are not perfect. To think you are, is to be caught in Satan's lair. You must focus on Me and My love. If you are unkind, you say you are sorry, you confess it in confession, you tell Me you are sorry, then you let go of your sin. To think you are perfect is the work of the devil. If he can make you focused on your error, you do not shine in the world. Say you are sorry and learn from your errors.

    You are not perfect, forgive yourself! If others do not want to forgive you, they are at fault. Satan is working on your mind and he is ever present to trip you up. He works on your feelings.

    Pray, sweet one, you will be tested, you must cast him out! I love you. Jesus

August 7, 1994

5:00 a.m.

Title: I Love You Through Others

R.   I love You so much, my beloved Jesus.

Jesus: I am giving you exactly as you need. You are My precious gem. I am fashioning you for My work. Accept the love I give to you through others. I love you through others. I am Jesus, My precious child. Trust Me. The very hairs of your head are numbered, you must trust Me.

How can you love Me whom you do not see if you can't love those who you see?

     I love you through others. You are afraid to trust anyone. Trust Me and My ways. I am there to lift you up. If you trust and it fails, I am always by your side to lift you up. Nothing happens that I do not allow. I am your precious Jesus. Rita, you have one foot on, one foot off the ground. Let go and fall into My loving arms. You have been taught not to get close. In order to trust Me, you must trust others and relate with them. You must get close to others to get close to Me. You always go so far and then you think it is wrong. Love for the sake of living in Me. I am love. He who abides in Me abides in Love. Rita, let go and fall into My arms. I am first in your life. You must learn to love others.

     How can you talk about love to others and love of God when your relationship is lacking trust? You do not trust Me who you do not see, because you do not trust those who you see.

     You do not interact, you are afraid to love, to get close for the sake of love. Love is love, rooted in Me. Love as it brings you closer to God: Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

You are afraid to love Me. You can totally let go and trust Me! Love, rooted in God is from God. God's love is infinite, it knows no bounds. Your love is bounded. Let go and experience God's unconditional, infinite love.
     If anyone says, "I love God" but hates his brother, he is a liar, for whoever does not love a brother whom he has seen cannot love God whom he has not seen. John 4:20.

August 9, 1994

Cradled to Sleep by My Heart

Jesus speaks:        Trust Me My child as a child who crawls
                            into their mother's arms. The child is not
                            afraid of being hurt. The baby is picked
                            up and then ceases to cry. Be as the baby
                            who is held and caressed by a loving
                            parent. The baby is totally at peace. They
                            know the touch of the parent. They totally
                            surrender into their arms.

                                There is no stiffening in their body, it
                            becomes a total release of self into the
                            arms of the loving mother.

                                Release child, total yielding into My
                            arms. I will tuck you forever in My
                            most Sacred Heart. My Heart is warm, My
                            Heart has the tender constant beat of
                            My love. This is your soothing balm, to
                            be cradled to sleep by the sound of
                            My beating Heart. You rest in Me in
                            total peace. Total surrender, total
                            letting go. Be as the baby at the breast.

                                I am the Good Shepherd, I know Mine
                            and they follow Me. I caress you so closely
                            in My Heart. My Mother places you so gently
                            in the very recesses of My Heart. Be at peace
                            My child.

                                This is peace, total surrender to God.
                            You constantly hear a soft beating of My Heart.
                            It is constantly lulling you to sleep. It never
                            stops, it is plugged into a source of undying
                            love. It never runs out, I am the almighty
                            God with a Heart on fire for love of you,
                            My precious one. Total surrender, total
                            yielding, total trust in the God who
                            died for you, Who gave His very life for love
                            of you.

                                I am the Good Shepherd, I fondle you in
                            My Heart. Total trust to Me. Be at such
                            peace.

                                I am He who ardently loves you, every
                            minute of the day. Come to Me My babies,
                            I call you to My loving Heart.

                                You need to have this total submission, a
                            total release of anything that holds you
                            back. Total trust in Me as a loving
                            shepherd.

                                Oh sweet one, surrender your all. Satan
                            constantly wants you to hold back. Release
                            yourselves into the recesses of My Heart. Be lost
                            in the fold of My love and be lulled to sleep
                            by the beats of My Heart.

                                I love you so much My sweet one. Never
                            hold back anything from Me.



August 9, 1994

Title: You Will Have Peace In My Heart

Jesus: Come unto Me, Oh you who are heavily burdened, and place your yoke upon My shoulder and I will give you rest.

I give you rest in My Heart. I give you peace in your soul. The world will never give you this peace, it only comes from union with Me. Your soul is at unrest until it rests in Me.

    Come, children, come and let Me caress your little bodies and hold you in My precious Heart. I am the Good Shepherd. I love you with such an abiding love, yet you wander to other lands and seek other pastures and have such wantings in your souls!

    I fill you with the waters of salvation. I reach into your soul and you are cleaned by My hand. You are made pure and white and you are left in a state of peace and grace.

    I am He Who saves you, Who loves you, Who ministers to your every need and you go off the path and try to find another way! Come to Me, little babies, and let Me caress you in My Heart. Let Me warm you by the fire of My love. Open yourselves up to Me. Pray to the Spirit to be open to all that God wants to give you.

     Oh, little ones, I watch you and you wander other roads. I want to give you such gifts, I want to be so close to you!

    You long for this union with God. You look and look in this world for a closeness that can only be filled by My undying love.

   Little one, little one, it is so simple. Like the hand in the perfect glove, your hearts fit just right when it is tucked in Mine. You wander down the roads that lead you to coldness when My Heart is forever warm and waiting to comfort you. Search and seek no more. Open yourselves up to the love of God. I am He whose bootstraps you are unworthy to tie, but who waits for you with a burning Heart.

    Only in Me, My little ones, do your souls find rest. Only in Me are you satisfied. Only in Me will you have peace. Come and dwell in My Heart, I am in love with you!

R. I just want so much more of Him, to know and love Him is not enough. I love Him so much, I want more of Him. I long so intently for His deep love and deeper union with Him.

August 10, 1994

After Mass, Fr. Smith’s Chapel

And Their Eyes Peered Into One Another's Eyes

Messenger: See Mary as she beholds the baby in her arms. She looks at Him so tenderly. His sweet baby eyes look up at the eyes of His loving Mother. Such tenderness between Mother and Son, such oneness to hold her infant Son so lovingly in her arms. Oh, do we ever know the tenderness between a baby and his loving mother?

A life of close union between this Mother and this Son, a life of her looking into His loving eyes. Such silent, but strong and loving communication! Such a strong bond-Their eyes meeting-from one soul to the other soul.

Song: See the Eyes That Look at Mary (Verse l)…

Deep, deep communication, a deep bond, indescribable in words, a touching of the souls! And the peering look between Son and Mother on the road to the crucifixion. What a peering look, what communication between this Son and Mother. Seeing the other suffer was as agonizing as each's very own suffering-suffering and oneness between a Son and His Mother. A peering look, deep into the very souls. Such an intimacy between Them!

How can one describe in words this oneness, this union between the Son and His Mother? The perfect love between Him and her. Total giving of each person in such love to the other. To see the suffering of the other was as agonizing as-if not more than-each's own suffering.

How His passion and crucifixion were intensified by the sufferings of His dear Mother! How her sufferings were such a sharing in our redemption, the swords that pierced her heart! The eyes of Mary that invisibly bled as she watched such brutality to the beloved Baby she once carried in her womb and held in her arms!

Song: Little Baby Hands and Feet…

Mary held the Child Jesus when He was a baby; she watched Him and cared for Him as a little boy; she was so attentive to the needs of her little Son. Will we ever know this connectedness between Their loving Hearts? Do we know this oneness? The peering eyes on the way to Calvary tell the story. They tell the story of this oneness. They tell the story of her watching this horrid event of her beautiful baby Son and His horrible passion and death.

Her eyes! Oh, Mary, help me to see the love of Jesus through your eyes! You watched Him as a baby, you watched Him as a child. You watched Him grow into the beautiful Man He became and you, Mary, watched Him all through this bitter passion and death. Your eyes saw the love that He gave for us. Now you come, Mary. You appear to tell us to go to this Son. You knew more than anyone His love to suffer so for us. You come and appear with blood in your eyes and tears running down your cheeks. You show me your sorrowful face, your young face, your old face, your joyful face. This was the face Jesus peered at as He walked His walk to Calvary. This was the face that appears now to tell us the story of His love this very day. I see your parade of faces, Mary, old and young, sorrowful and joyful. I see these faces that Jesus beheld. Your face tells the story of His love for us.

Mary speaks: This is my beloved Son. This is my Baby. This is the Child I bore in my womb. He came to give you love. He came to be God-made-Man among you this very day. He is, my children, no less present in the Eucharist than He was at Calvary and you go after such incidental things. My Son loves you. I show you my face so you can tell the world of our love. Live our lives in the rosary. Let our lives live in your day. The way to eternal happiness is to be likened to my beautiful Son.

I watched my Son. I lead you to the ardent love of my Son, Jesus. His Heart burns for love of you. Come to Him this day. Give Him your love. Spend time with Him. He is alive and in your midst in the Eucharist.

Messenger:. Note: I smelled roses very strongly throughout this message.

Song: See the Eyes That Look at Mary (Verse 2)…

This is the Son of the Father, the Son of God, born of Mary through the Holy Spirit, and He lives this day in your hearts. Share His love for you. Go to Him through Mary's heart. She who is so closely united to Jesus! Their Hearts are so close to one another! As their eyes were joined in such oneness, Their Hearts are joined in such intimacy. Go to Jesus' Heart through His beloved Mother, through her who bore Him in her womb, her who watched Him give Himself for love of you.

August 11, 1994

I Watched You

Jesus speaks: Oh, how I watched you, child. I watched you as I gave you each little sign of My love. I watched you grow in your faith and trust in Me. I watched you suffer and stood so close you could have touched Me, but you didn't know that this suffering would be that which led you to My tender love for you.

I watched you when you surrendered and turned your will over to Me and I watched you cry, knowing this was the most joyous day of your life. I watched you see visions of doors and knew you would want to go through those doors, but they were not the doors you thought, they were the doors I gave you for greater union with Me. I watched you, child, when you wrote down My first letter to you and I saw your confusion and joy, knowing what these letters would do to touch so many hearts.

I watched you, child. I watched you when I showed you My Heart and you were so warmed by this Heart and so awed by its vision, but you didn't know what this vision would mean for many to draw their hearts to My burning love.

I watched you surrender each time as you let go of each little thing, as you were dying to self. I watched you through this surrender grow closer to Me. I watched you grow in this deep love for Me, step by step. I watched our love grow as you gave more of yourself in prayer. I watched you, child, and I loved being ever closer to you.

I watched you struggle in such trials that you thought tomorrow would never come, knowing that this trial was what would give you more freedom and love for Me. I watched you learn each lesson through hard tests and I was so close while you struggled, but did not remove the struggle, knowing you would not learn your lesson if I had.

I watched you, child, through each joy and pain and I loved you silently, always with you, and you never knew how close I truly was to you.

Song: From the Day You Were Born…

From the day you were born, I watched you. Forever by your side, I guarded you, I loved you. I know the most secret desire of your heart far better than you yourself know. I know the Father's plan for you. I know the Father's love for you. I know the love poured on you from the Holy Spirit and how Mary is forever by your side.

I watch you, child, constantly guarding you and your ways and you do not know the love I have for you. You do not know how My Heart burns for love of you. And, someday, My beautiful child, you will know what I have in store for you, My beloved.

Come and be with Me. Grow in your love with Me. I never leave you, My beloved. Remember, I am forever watching you.

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August 11, 1994

Title: Rid Yourself of All Coverings

Refer back to July 17:

R. He is teaching me about getting close to Him. Jesus: I held nothing back, dear sweet one, I gave My all. What do you cover yourself with that keeps you from union with Me.

Jesus:

Union is not separation, union is one. You cannot hold onto coverings and be close to Me. I come as a bare body, no coverings. See My bare body beaten. See My bare body hanging on the cross. See My bare body given to My Mother. My life given, given to her in total bareness, life and all coverings given up for you.

What, child, do you cover yourself with that keeps you from union with Me? Do you hold on to food or people or habits that you are obsessed with?

All your gifts, given in this world, should be used and you should not be obsessed with them. Do you eat for joy or sustaining yourself?

Do you have relationships where you give love but realize that you never possess the other person? To love, but to be unattached to - to love to draw the other always closer to God?

Do you hold onto habits that you make little gods? Try to rid yourself of inordinate attachments. They keep you from union with Me. Love others for love of God, eat to sustain yourself and enjoy the food, but be not attached to it.

I died with a bare body. I gave My life. I gave My all. I gave My dear child, the very blood in My veins, for you.

This is your way to peace - union with Me. This is your way to peace - to forever focus on the love of God: Father, Son and Holy Spirit, and also to love Mary.

As the apostles who were fearful in the upper room and their fear was turned into fearlessness, you will evolve into My soldiers for Christ - from fear to fearlessness with the love of God.

R. Spirit impact on me all I need to be guided to the ever-burning love of God: Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Help me to surrender myself totally to You and Your loving mother. I consecrate my heart to the Sacred Heart of Jesus and the Immaculate Heart of Mary.

To get close to Him, I must trust totally in Him. As the baby, I don't holler, I must let go. Not to Worry!

He Has the Whole World in His Hands!

Jesus:

I am Jesus, your Savior. Oh, dear, sweet one, I do have you tucked in My precious Heart. I love you so very much. Surrender all your cares and hear the beating, gently of My Sacred Heart.

I never leave you. The very hairs of your head are numbered, even the pores, I tend to. Let go and fall into My loving arms. Securely you dwell in the recesses of My most Sacred Heart.

R. Alleluia, and they were relieved of their anxiety and fear as their trust in Him grew.

Jesus, I Trust in You!

Song: From the day you were born, I have been here beside you!
(Note: I smelled very strong incense in the whole chapel at noon today. He is truly here!)

August 11, 1994 - Before Mass

He Loves Us, No Strings Attached

(Sitting before Mary’s statue)

Messenger: Jesus, You died for each and every one of us. You love us so much. Your love is shown by Your total giving of Yourself, Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity. You gave Your very Blood in Your veins and the flesh of Your very Body. Beaten, bruised, bloodied, for such ardent, burning, undying love for us!

To love us without any strings - just love us! I do not even know how to love someone without any strings. You love us. We constantly offend You and neglect You and sin against You. In Your love for us You paid the price for our offenses!

How many times, over and over again, You pour out Your love to us, especially in the Blessed Sacrament, and You are ignored, forgotten, and You watch us offend our brothers with such hatred.

You, O Savior, showed us the way. You loved those who tore the flesh on Your body. You loved those who spit on You. You loved those who drove nails in Your hands and feet. You loved those who crowned Your precious head with thorns. You, O my precious loving Jesus, loved and love each one of us despite all our sins, to the point of death on the cross. You showed us the way. When they persecuted You and hollered every slander against You, You still loved them.

Oh Jesus, how hard this is to follow Your way. Give me the grace to love as You want me to love all those who persecute me. I, of myself, cannot be like You. Let me realize the love of my Father more fully. Fill me with knowledge of love of God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit so I can more fully act as You want me to.

Realizing Your immense love fills me with such fullness. When the world is cold and mean, the fire of the love of God that burns in my heart keeps me focused on You.

Oh Spirit, open up my heart to the ways of God. I am weak and need Your direction. Jesus’ ways are so loving: Total surrender of His whole self in love for us to the point of bitter persecution and death on the cross.

Jesus speaks: Love, My little child, when they persecute you and holler every slander against you, when they do their vile deeds. See Me as I walked the way of Calvary. See My beautiful Mother, see her suffering, My dear beautiful one, for such love of you. This is your Mother. She is by your side, this very day. When you walk the way of Calvary, she never ever leaves you, she stays constantly by your side. This is your beloved Mother. My child, she truly mothers you as she mothered Me. No mother was ever sweeter than this Mother, whom I give to you this day at your side. She knows your pain. She knows your sorrows. She knows what sufferings are. She watched them, she watched all the horrid events of what they did to Me. She walks with you, this day, little sweet one. She is joined in her Heart with My Heart, ardently loving you.

You, child, need to pray to your Mother this day. You know how I loved you to My very death. You know how I suffered so for you. Did you realize how My Mother walks by you constantly and loves you? Pray to her, sweet one. She is so close to you. She never leaves your side. As she watched My passion and death, she watches you in all your trials. She loves you so much, My little child. Run to her arms and be so close to her breast. This is your Mother, My little child. Such tenderness and love she has for you! Your Mother goes with you on this journey.

August 13, 1994

Title: He Is In The Tabernacle

Jesus:

    My dear child, be at peace, I am with you even when you are not in front of the tabernacle.

R. There were two people cleaning the chapel which was in a mall at 7:00 a.m. The music in the mall was so loud. There were glass doors and a glass wall, so everyone in the mall could see the tabernacle. The two people cleaning would not, under any circumstances, allow me to sit in the pew. They were not vacuuming but were washing every window and changing all the vigil lights, lights to adore Jesus, but I could not get in to pray!

    When I miss my time with Him in front of the tabernacle, I want to cry. I feel His presence so strongly in church.

I know He is within me. He is in the tabernacle in His Divinity and His Humanity. He is no less present there in the church than the day He walked on Calvary. God is truly present: Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity in the tabernacle.

Jesus:

    I am the Lord thy God, thou shalt not have any gods before Me. I am the Son of God come to the world to save all from their sins. I am He whose bootstraps you are unworthy to tie, but I come in such love. The world is blind, they do not know that God is truly present. All should bow before Me in adoration. Such indifference, such disrespect. I suffered for all the sins of all time for those who offend Me in the Eucharist! I am, Who Am. I want to be worshipped. I want to be adored and glorified. The angels forever kneel before My altars and adore Me. Oh, this unseen world and they who operate so blindly to the real presence of God!

    I love you so. This is why I remain here. My ardent love for them. Tell those cleaning the church that I loved them so much I died for them and I remain this day in their midst in so much love.

    Such abuse is given to Me by those who work in church. They should be asked if they realize God, God, is truly present there! I am your God. I love each and every soul. It is with such ignorance, I am irreverently treated. Bow before My altar, kiss the ground, give Me the respect that is due to your God. Others will see your reverence. Do not be shy to adore your God. Think only of Me and I am God there, waiting for you in such love. Oh, it is for love I remain. I love you to tell Me of your love. Come to Me and love Me. I love you so much. Love, Jesus.

August 13, 1994

Be Me To Your Brothers

Jesus speaks: The world is so attached to itself. I am Jesus, Son of God. I am He Who Am. I dwell in your midst this day. Pray for your brothers. Preach the real presence, tell others about God, spread the Good News. So many are in total darkness, they are dying in their hearts. They have made other things their gods. Oh children, you do not know much about the love of God. It is not preached. Many never go to church, they live their lives with hardly a thought of God and they do not hear if someone tells them. Offer up your days for the sake of souls. Pray for them each day when you wake. Offer up your sacrifices for your brothers.

You do not have any time to waste. Time is short and many will be lost. Love your brothers, pray for them. Your hearts should reflect the love of God Who dwells within. "They will know they are Christians by their love." Oh child, what sets you apart from those who do not know Me is your love. The love of God is a mighty force. It cannot be contained. It shines from your eyes and rages burning in your hearts. You must always love. When they are cold to you, you continue to love. It is My love you are giving to them. Oh child, I love each soul. One smile given lights up a room when it comes from the love of God within. I am the Good Shepherd. I know Mine and they follow Me. Please sweet ones, spread My love to My lost sheep. You will do My work in your loving one another. I give you a new Commandment, "Love one another as I have loved you."

My child, there is no time to waste and wonder. You must be about the work of God this day. In your being, be Christ-like. I come to serve. I come to love. I come to give Myself in greatest love for you.

I come to you this day with an urgent plea: to be the light that shines in this dark world. Be My hands. Be My feet. Be Me to your brothers. I come and ask you - will you answer My plea?

I am Jesus, Son of the living God. I am not dead. I am alive and in your midst. Do not be downhearted, My little one, with so much work to do. You have the Good News. You know that I have died and I have risen. Shout it from the housetops that I am Life. I am real Life.

You cannot get bowed down. It is you who will light up the dark world. Every minute of every day is so valuable to the salvation of the world. Love My little ones. Love and let the light of Christ shine from your hearts. Be at peace, be Christ-centered. Be forever about My work, for I am God and I am forever with you. Do not ever be cast down, be about My work. My time is at hand and you are My chosen witnesses proclaiming that I am in your midst this day. I live and dwell in your hearts. To all who listen, they will receive the light of life. This is a vibrant force. It cannot be hidden. A city set on a hill will shine and cast its light to the darkened world and many will turn to the ways of the Lord.

This is your call to shine in the darkness and remain forever Christ-centered, to operate for love and love alone, love of God and love of one another. All things here must be rooted in Me to have meaning. I go with you, little lambs, you are My soldiers in the cold world. Your arms are your hearts set afire with the love of the Sacred Heart and Immaculate Heart of My Mother. I am, Who Am. I am the Almighty God. I have all the power and you will know My might, for I came to save this world from their sins and I dwell in your heart this very day. Shine to this world. I am the light of the world and I shine from your hearts. I live in your souls. You are being called to be My apostles in the dark world and spread the fire of My love. I am the Most Sacred Heart of Jesus on fire for love of you.

[Jesus told me to open the Fatima, Medjugorje book to page 72, and I began reading:

    "I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life. No one can come to the Father except through me. If you know me, you know my Father, too. From this moment, you know Him and have seen Him" (John 14:6-7)

Let your light shine for all the world to see. I dreamed I went to heaven.]





August 13, 1994

10:00 p.m.

Title: Will You Pray for Me?

R. There are so many souls to pray for: souls who are sinning and need to turn to Jesus and Mary, souls in purgatory that are suffering that have no one to pray for them, for innocent children who are victimized and do not know Jesus and Mary and their love, for all those who do not hear about Jesus and His love or close their hearts and do not hear. These are only a few people that I need to pray for. I must offer up my all, all my joys and sufferings in union with the Mass all over the world for all the intentions of Mary and Jesus' Hearts. What a loss, to not offer up my everything in union with the Mass in the morning offering, to make my living a sacrifice (offering) for the intentions of Mary and Jesus in union with the Mass.

    So many people come to me and ask me to pray for them.

If I offer my whole day up with the Mass going on all over the world, all day - what a prayer! I love Jesus so much, He is beautiful. We are so favored to know of His love for us! This is the greatest gift there is, to know Jesus, know God and know Jesus and Mary love us! Mary is our loving Mother, always at our side. We are grateful heirs to His Kingdom if we know, love and serve Him and keep His commandments. I love You, Jesus, You are the greatest!

August 14, 1994

Jesus speaks:     Sweet child, I have such work for you and Fr. Carter, the devil will attack you. You I have chosen to spread the devotion of Our Hearts to this world.

August 14, 1994

After Mass, 12:30

Title: Their Hearts Merged As One

R. While praying to the Holy Spirit, I saw a red ball of fire or tongue of fire, then saw a heart, sort of a shadow, it was on a yellow background. I then saw a heart with flowers on the top, same setting, then a plain heart. I then saw a heart made up of white flowers, then the two hearts merged into one.

    I felt so close to Jesus after communion. I had a vision of God. I saw our Blessed Mother holding me as a child. (feeling very close to her.) She put me in Christ's Heart. I saw the Father above, the Holy Spirit to the side.

Note: I saw the Holy Spirit at the tabernacle once at St. Philip's while praying after Mass last summer. I saw a little white dove. It was immensely lighted and looked like the same material as the Host that came out from behind the real Host when Fr. Carter raised the Host. It was a lighted Host that came from behind and moved into a position above the Host.

    I love You so much, my God. I don't want to leave this place, such warmth in my chest, flutter in the middle of my chest. I love You Jesus.

August 15, 1994

After Mass

Title: Let My Life Flow In You

Jesus:

    They pierced My hands and feet and pierced My head. I withstood this, little one, for you. Let go of your hurt. Words and actions of others should not stop you. Nothing can be compared to how much love I have for you. I give you Myself and I am God. Do you hear, child - nothing can compare to My love!

I am the true bread sent from heaven. I penetrate your heart with My healing. Give not into any thoughts Satan plants in your head to keep you from intimacy with Me.

Total surrender on My part to give My flesh and blood. If you want union with Me you must let go of these hurts. Holding on to anger can block your union with Me. It is the work of the evil one. Flush out the pipe, let My life flow in you. Pray for your attackers. I love you so.

    I am God. My love cannot ever be measured.

Vision, My child: you cannot even measure the love of God! Focus on My love and the love of the Father and Holy Spirit. Mary loves you so much.

I love you so much!

August 15, 1994

Title: Sins of the Flesh

Jesus:

    The sins of the flesh, My child: Those who wear clothes to lure others into sinful thoughts will answer for not only their own sin but also for the sin of leading others into temptation. Woe to you, who, with your brazen ways, lure others into sin! It is not only your own sins you will answer for but for the sin of tempting others. You are not perfect and you sin, say you are sorry, go to confession, but woe to those who wear clothing to cause others to be tempted to sin. Your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit. God lives in you. What honor and dignity is yours!

    Precious one, you are a creation of My heavenly Father. You were created with such specialness and love. Your call in this life is to do God's will, to use your talents to promote the love of God. Oh child, you need to pray constantly. Offer your day for the conversion of your brothers, lest your beloved brothers fall into the pit.

    Child, child, do the will of the Father. His plan is for you to spread My love. Be focused ever on spreading the love of God. Always promote the truth. Satan wants you to sin. The truth will set you free. Go to the priest, go to confession.

    Pray for your priests, promote My Priestly Newsletter. The priests need your constant prayers. Pray to be holy so that your prayers will ascend in much purity to the Father!

    The world is passing and many who dwell here are losing their way. Pray, pray, pray for your beloved brothers. Offer up your deeds in love for their souls.

    Constantly be about the work of the Father. They beat My flesh for the sins of the flesh, it hung from My body.

    I, in such love, gave Myself for you. I held not back. The statements being made with the bodies! Your body is a creation of the Father, it is not a sex symbol to promote sin. Woe, woe to you who lead others into sinful ways. You will be held accountable for the sins of your brothers you tempted and they will be held accountable for their sins.

    My head was beaten and bloodied and bruised. Look at the faces of those who lure others into sin. Their painted faces, their hardened eyes, made up with such ugliness, this is the work of the evil one. To sing songs of luring, vileness, what to do with your Father's gift to you. Your voice was given to sing praises to your heavenly Father, to sing praise, to tell all of Our love. What sin to use your unique talents, given to you, to lure others into sin.

    You will be accountable. How you use your talents given from the Father. You were given talents to do His work. Oh, you special children, you are given such good things from God and you make them into ugly things for sin. Pray for those who are leading others to sin. Innocent children are being subjected to sinful ways. They are not taught about God. Your prayers, your union with Me will preach the Gospel in your ways. There is no time to waste, the Kingdom of God is at hand.

    Heaven is a reward promised to those who love and serve the Lord. Without love and service, there is not a reward. Lead your brothers to the love of God. Do not be shy. Their souls are at stake. You must listen to the Spirit within you that guides you on your way. You must be an empty vessel that God can use to do His work. Your openness will lead many to the gates of Paradise. Do not underestimate what one soul, fixed on God and operated by the Spirit can do. Listen to the inner promptings of your heart.

    Painted faces, luring eyes, luring bodies and I showed you the way to be more likened to Me! You were created in the same image and likeness of God! I was beaten and bruised, I was bloodied. My head was crowned with thick piercing thorns. I showed you the way. When they flaunt themselves before you, in sin, take a stand and do not watch such vileness in any way. Turn off your T.V., pray the rosary when you know of those that promote violence and sin and pray for your brothers. My day is at hand. I will come and all will know My might. I am a God of Justice. Woe to those who cause others to sin. I have spoken that you take Me seriously. I am the Lord, thy God, and you shall have no gods before Me.

Matthew 5: 18

In truth I tell you, till heaven and earth disappear, not one dot, not one little stroke, is to disappear from the Law until all its purpose is achieved.

    I come to give you life, life eternal and the promise of a kingdom far greater than any of this world for those who do God's will.

    Pray for your brothers. This is your love, given to all, to pray for your troubled brothers and always to love. It is My love, I give to them through you, you need to be an empty vessel. Be not clogged with anger or hatred, be open only to love. Help lead all to the love of God and life eternal.

    I am Jesus, Son of the Living God. I live this very day and dwell among you. Pray for My life, alive within you. I am the Alpha and the Omega. I am to be worshipped and honored and adored. I am Who Am. I am your Savior, come to deliver you from bondage and free you from your sins. Harken to Me and My ways. Follow Me. I am your God. Alleluia.

And He gave them new life in their souls and His grace gave them the strength they needed to do His work in this world. Alleluia.

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August 16, 1994

No One, Nothing Can Ever Stop My Interior Relationship With God And Mary

Jesus speaks: My dear child, if the whole world falls under your feet, if the stars cease to shine and the moon not give its light, I will be your rear guard, your foreguard, your mighty God Who protects you from the enemy.

Messenger: My life is interior. My relationship with God is interior. If the floor gives out, if you hate and persecute me, if anything from the outside befalls me, my life is still with me, the life of God rooted in my soul. No one can ever take away my relationship with Jesus, the Father, the Holy Spirit, Mary and St. Joseph. No one can ever touch this - even if I cannot receive the Eucharist, Jesus is still alive within me. I can spiritually ask Him to be present in a special way to me.

The bottom line is, no one can ever touch my relationship with God and Mary, and nothing else that is taken away matters. If it is happening, He knows it and is allowing it. Jesus, I trust in You! What a treasure to always be assured of my relationship with Jesus. He never will leave me. He will always be there. His love is always with me. I want to shout it from the rooftop - this is my God and He loves me! He will never go, no one, nothing can ever stop my interior relationship with God and Mary. If I have that, what can harm me?

Jesus speaks: Though earth pass away, My love is steadfast, My presence forever within you, every minute of every day. I, God, am with you, child. I never leave you. What else matters?

Little child, little child. I love you so much. Focus on My love, ever present and poured out in such measures to you. I am Who Am. I am Jesus, Son of God. I speak to you, My little one. Open your heart and let Me embrace you. Your oneness with Me is achieved in your heart. You will stand as the strongest pillar against a raging storm, because My might is within you. If the winds come and the rain, if the earth shakes the roots of the trees, the Lord will hold you in your place. You are a mighty tree, standing on the earth. The roots which grow from within the tree are thick and well nourished. The wind can come. The winters with its cold and blizzard can press on the tree. Birds of prey can pick at the tree, but the strength of the mighty oak within will sustain it.

Your life is the life of God's grace flowing in your soul. The Spirit is a mighty force that rages in your soul. You are nourished and fed by My life. You stand strong against the wind and pestilence. You do not falter. My might is within you. If the earth quakes, you are held up by My might. I am, dear one, the Almighty God! The torrent winds cannot harm you. It may blow and blow and you will sway in the breeze but your roots are firm. You are fed My living water. I give you My very Flesh for your food, you drink My very own Blood, and you, child, are sustained by the Body and Blood of Christ.

I am the Almighty God come to give life to this world. I am a force that can withstand any trial. I dwell in you and live in you and you are afraid. Oh, child, pray for vision, pray for the fearlessness of the Apostles. They were in the upper room and full of fear, and the Spirit of the Lord descended upon them and they were fearless.

Pray for the Spirit of God to enkindle in your hearts the love of God. When the earth rocks and moves about, your inner candle never flickers. You are steadfast in His love by your interior union with God and Mary. Be alone with Me, be with Me. Pray to your Father and the Holy Spirit and to Mary. You, child, are never alone, for God lives in your heart. You become one in Him and you operate with this love in a troubled world. And the winds came and blew down some that were undernourished, but he who was fed by the Bread of heaven did not fall. I am the Bread of life. My life I give to you so you will have life and have it more abundantly.

Come and sup with Me. Develop your interior life, not life as this world knows life, but My life alive and in your soul.

August 16, 1994

The Invisible Wounds

Messenger: The invisible wounds of Mary: Mary stood by His cross, she had watched what her Son had suffered. She watched this horrible sequence of events that led to this final hour. She did not bleed, she did not have a mark on her body, only the teared, red ridges from her deepened crying. She stood, held up by the arms of her beloved John. This was her precious Son, her Baby at birth, her Baby at His death.

Invisible wounds: The pains of the heart, the sufferings of the mind, the sights seen with her loving, motherly eyes, the knowledge of His love for all!

She appears to me with a face, reflecting the ridges from her deep crying, so sorrowful no words could describe. What can we say for the sorrow of this face? I cannot describe it. It looked as if it was ready to crack! This face tells the story of His love for us.

Her heart was so torn inside that to know her suffering is to tear at my heart.

The invisible scars: To watch Him stripped and beaten and to silently stand by and cry. She appears to tell us of her invisible scars. She appears and shows me her faces, young and old, sorrowful and joyful. She appears to tell us the story of His love for us. Do we listen, do we see?

She saw His Blood all over. I remember seeing one of my children bleed and he had to get stitches -- it was such a horrible sight. He kept bleeding and bleeding. Blood comes from deep inside, it is scary because we have no control over it. If you bleed enough, you die. My child was bleeding, it was very upsetting! Mary watched Jesus bleed and bleed. It was as though He could not have had all the Blood He had. He stood in a puddle of Blood when He was scourged...

...it ran from His face and from His mouth -- from the blows to His head. It was so awful to watch my child bleed, but to watch others beat Him and make Him bleed more and make His body raw! There is such a bond between a mother and her children, such wanting to protect and help them. Mary helplessly watched this horrible massacre of her Son, knowing He did it for love of us. She could not help Jesus. She was not allowed, only to watch more and more bleeding!

Jesus speaks: Oh, you are so senseless. I write to you of My love and no one listens. Mary appears to tell you how much I suffered for love of you. My Passion is My proof of how I love you. I gave every drop of My Blood for you. You don't understand, this is the reality, that I am God and I suffered so brutally for love of you!

Mary speaks: Turn your lives toward my Son. What do I say to get you to listen? Life on earth is only passing. I appear, I show you my face, you will never comprehend how my Son suffered for love of you! This is the real world, this is the truth that He bled and bled for love of you, that He stood there silently in all the beatings. He accepted this awful treatment. He came to show you the way. I watched my precious little One. I watched and my heart was torn in my chest. I experienced such suffering, watching this massacre of my beautiful Son, for love of you!

I appear with blood in my eyes. My eyes shed invisible blood during His Passion, to watch Him bleed and be beaten raw by His attackers.

And what does He ask in return? He asks you to love God and love one another. Do this, for your reward is everlasting life.

Messenger: I just wanted to crawl up in a ball and feel her pain. This is how I have felt before the last letter August 10, coming home from church in the car. Such intense sufferings realizing the pain! The sufferings started when the priest raised up the Blood -- this is what Jesus did, He shed His very own Blood, the Blood in His veins. He gives it to us now so that we may have His life.

I have experienced on many occasions Jesus' and Mary's sufferings. She suffered so watching Him being taken down from the cross. I experienced such emotion seeing Mary hold the Baby Jesus in her arms and seeing her hold His lifeless body under the cross. I experienced such emotions seeing Jesus nailed to the cross and during the Sorrowful Mysteries and Stations led by Father Smith. I feel immense oneness with the sorrow and experience the sorrow.

The depth of her suffering is inexpressible in words. Mary may have cried, but there is not a way that a human being could relieve this immense sorrow. She endured the sufferings by Christ's side. She did not have His wounds, her heart was pierced with a sword.

Luke 2:34-35

Simeon blessed them and said to Mary his mother, 'Look, he is destined for the fall and for the rise of many in Israel, destined to be a sign that is opposed -- and a sword will pierce your soul too -- so that the secret thoughts of many will be laid bare.

Messenger: This is the Blood Mary watched Him shed. She watched Him from under the cross. We stand with her and give ourselves with Him to the Father.

Oh, Father, I love You so much, You gave Your only Son for love of us! Please accept my sacrifice with His as my love for You!

It just becomes evident to me -- how He truly gave His flesh and Blood for us! It is so clear to me, like a vision, this is truly His Blood given up for us! I feel this so intensely and He keeps giving me more and more to better realize His Sacrifice.

Mary is so involved with us: We stand with Mary, we suffer with Mary, we give ourselves in an act of love to our heavenly Father. What an offering, to stand under His cross and give ourselves with the Body and Blood of Christ, in union with Mary and everyone under the cross, with the Church! We offer ourselves up with Christ to the Father!

I feel so connected to Jesus and Mary and God through the Passion. It is there I see Their oneness. I see her role as His Mother and my Mother. I see Their immense love for us to undergo such suffering for love of us.

Mary speaks: I am your Mother. I am Mary. I come to bring you so close to my beloved Son. I stand with you at the foot of the cross. Open your hearts to His love for you. This is reality, that He truly died for love of you and has risen so that you will have new life! I am your Mother and I love you so very much, my precious little children. You will never fully know this great love God and I have for you. Meditate on Our sufferings, this will lead you to the life only God can give you.

Messenger: I must understand Their relationship: Baby to young life, joys and suffering. She was a mother in the fullest sense of the word, such a motherly heart -- her love for Jesus is the dearest motherly love! In order to understand the relationship between Mary and Jesus, I must not just look at the individual events of the Passion and her sorrow, but see Their lives together from the Annunciation to the Ascension. It is the relationship, the bond, the joys, the sufferings They both shared during the Passion.

This is truly where Their Hearts are united -- in the meeting of the eyes. The more I meditate on this, the more I am linked with Their immense love for us. The two Hearts -- They are so closely united! The rosary is this journey from the Angel Gabriel to the Ascension. Her suffering and His suffering during the Passion link me so closely to Them. This intensity is forever growing as They give me bits and pieces of this union between Them.

August 16, 1994

Focus On This Love. Silence Satan.

Messenger: He loves us unconditionally. From Him I do not have to hide. He loves us as we are. He calls us to be as good as we can. He calls us to be humble. He calls us to love.

He calls us to be of the heart, not to be proud, to be kind and loving. He calls us to put on Christ, to constantly die to self. I am a human being. I am growing; I am created in His image, I am learning His ways, I am imperfect.

Oh, Lord, show me Your ways. Let me realize Your love. Let me know You more so I can love more. Help me to focus on You and Your love, to silence Satan who constantly points to my weakness and tells me such things that make me unaware of Your tremendous love for me.

Jesus speaks: Satan is the great deceiver. My child, I call you to love. I call you to a new life. I am forever with you, loving you the same as the day I died on the cross. My Heart is an abyss of endless love for you. You do not comprehend fully My great love for you. I love you this much that I truly gave My life for you.

Focus on this love. Silence Satan. I am not looking at you with condemning eyes, I look at you as the divine creation of the Father. I look at you as My beloved child.

I, child, have watched you and watched you. I see you struggle and I bend low in such love and am right by your side. You need to struggle to grow in My love.

It is in your sufferings that you rise to new life. This is My life in you. To grow in your sufferings is My way, not to become bitter and spiral down to deeper depths of pain, but to rise up as I did on the third day. Realize that there is such life for you in the Resurrection!

You, child, are going to My school. My lessons I teach this day. In your pain you grow in deeper union with Me.

Trust in Me, forever focus on My immense love. Look at Mary hold My body under the cross. I truly love you this much this day. I am the Resurrection, I am the Life. He who believes in Me will never die. I am Jesus your beloved Savior. Come to Me and I will give you such love. I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus on fire for love of you. I love you!

August 17, 1994

Messenger:        As Mary appeared when she began appearing daily.



August 17, 1994 7:55 AM during apparition

she was aglow

Mary speaks:  I am the Immaculate Heart of Mary, I want you and Fr. Carter to spread devotion to Our Hearts.

    Do not be afraid, I am truly here and I want you to write this message.

    I was so close to you then, I am with you now. Continue your rosary.

    I am the Immaculate Heart of Mary. I come to give you this message. You will experience a realm of peace, but first you will know such trials.

    Do not be discouraged for My Son will be close to you in your anguish.

    You must know that all that happens is for reasons you do not comprehend.

    Do not ask questions of me or Him.

    Give yourself in total surrender to Our Hearts.

    No one can take away Our love.

    If the whole world does not believe you, you will still be steadfast in Our love. These are trials you must withstand to learn lessons you need to learn. I do not want to frighten you. You will sing, you will speak you must be patient and let the plan of the Father unfold as it will.

Do not question — give yourself in total surrender.

Fr. Carter will be persecuted, this is to strengthen him for his great works that are to come. Stay so steadfast in the love of me and my Son. You will give strength to one another. Do not be afraid, stay forever fixed in Our love.

No person can ever take away Our love.

This is your anchor in all storms, We are forever with you, guarding you and protecting you. Do not wander ever from Our love, it is that which sustains you. Your trials are necessary for your advancement. Do not question. I am forever your beloved mother and always by your side.

Pray the rosary every day here at 6:30 this will be the warmth to a cold night. I love you so much. I will continue to come and be with you here in a special way. You will know my presence. I am forever with you both. I love you so very much.

August 18, 1994

The Oneness Between Mary and Jesus

Messenger: I see her hold His lifeless body under the cross. I see her tenderness, holding Him as a Baby. I see their oneness in the peering eyes. I see her with the sword in her heart, pierced because of the sufferings of her Son. I see her giving birth to her beautiful Baby.

I see her sorrowful face, her beautiful face, her old face, her young face; all reflections of her life and His life, joined in joy, joined in suffering, joined - Mother and Son - all through Their lives, during the Passion, now joined in heaven. They want to draw us to eternal salvation.

A loving Mother, truly by our sides, waiting to listen to our problems, and Jesus forever with her.

She stands under the cross and places our burdens there with us as we, hand-in-hand with our loving Mother, give up our frustrations, our crosses to Him, our loving Savior.

This is life, to be fixed so closely united with the Hearts of Jesus and Mary, all day surrendering ourselves to Their loving Hearts.

This is warmth and security to me. I realize so very much Their presence. This is the reality of this world. It is God’s world. We dwell here in the hope of achieving everlasting life. Jesus Christ is truly present this day in the Eucharist, no less than the day He walked this earth.

Mary is so closely united to her Son. To love Jesus is to love Mary, to love Mary is to love Jesus.

Mary, help me to love your beloved Son.

Jesus, help me to love Your beloved Mother.

Mary is always leading me to the love of her precious Son. All the meditations on the rosary about Mary lead me to Him. She is our spiritual Mother. To think of His being formed in her womb is so beautiful. I ask Mary to form me in her womb so I can be more closely united to her Son. For nine months He was formed in the womb of His loving Mother. For my lifetime, I am forever formed in her womb to deepen my union with Jesus, the Holy Spirit and the Father.

The protection and security, to be surrounded by Mary’s womb, is so beautiful. She delivers us up to union with her precious Son.

The more I meditate on Their lives in the rosary (I really meditate on each bead), these beautiful mysteries of Their lives, the more I am so closely joined to the union of Mary’s heart and Jesus’ Heart. This is my refuge. This is our life, to be joined so intimately to Their Hearts!

She draws me to her and draws me to praying the rosary, like steel to a magnet. I get such comfort sharing Their lives. It is there I realize so much Their reality. They are truly here, this very day -- we are not ever alone!  I am united to Their lives. This comfort exists all through the day, for They are with me.

I pray in front of the big statue of Mary and she is alive to me.

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August 20, 1994

Mary speaks:        Dear child,

                                    Do not be discouraged, I am your mother
                                I will not let my Son's messages to you
                                go unnoticed. I will see to their publishing
                                do not worry, do exactly as you are
                                doing. Stay close to Fr. Carter, your
                                work for Us is so interlocked with
                                Our Hearts. You must trust always
                                in God. He has a plan for you and
                                you will be a big part of this plan.
                                Your messages are very important
                                to this world. Your love is paramount
                                for the spread of this message. Trust
                                always that I Mary will see to
                                the distribution of these messages,
                                you are worrying needlessly. These
                                messages are a big part to help souls.
                                Many hearts will turn toward the love of
                                Our two Hearts from these messages.
                                Continue to pray and offer your
                                whole life up for the spread of
                                devotion to the Two Hearts. I am
                                forever your most loving Mother and
                                thank you for responding to
                                this call. I, your mother, love you
                                so much my sweet child.

August 20, 1994

Title: A Light Will Come After Your Trials

R. Every time I think I have it rough, I can remember how I felt on August 16. This was only a foreshadowing of Mary's immense pain at the Passion!

Jesus:

     What will you suffer for Me, sweet one? Do you love Me this much and then say no, not that much? I never gave up My cross, I carried it and held on to it willingly. My thoughts were for My love of you. My Father gave Me strength with His love. I could withstand this because of the will to please My Father, because of the love that exists between My Father and Me, because of My intense love, dear one, for you.

     It is in the pain that you realize why you operate as you do. You operate for love of Me. You operate for everlasting union with Me. You will see a new light in your life, but first the trials, dear one. You have suffered to obey the rules of those who hold your messages. My will is that you comply with them. You will know an opening in the sky soon and a breakthrough in spreading My words.

     Dear one, I talk to you, you know this. Be so steadfast in Me. Trust Me. I am the Almighty God. Trust Me and be with Me now, dear one.

August 20, 1994

My Sufferings Were For You, Child

Mary speaks: I cannot express in words how I suffered. I have given you some experience in my sufferings.

My suffering was so deep, only by God's grace could a human person experience such suffering.

There were not wounds, there was no blood, there was, my child, only the experiences of my heart. My heart was pierced so deeply with a sword. Such deep pain, a sword piercing would not describe the pain I had. Do you wonder how deep did the sword pierce my heart? The depth was incomprehensible. My life was lived in such connectedness with my Son, in such intimacy with Him. I watched my beloved Son, to Whom I was so closely united for 33 years, suffer so dishonorably.

My sufferings were for you, child. I love you as no earthly mother ever loved a child. I am your most loving Mother. If I underwent such suffering for you, do you think I would not be protecting and loving you now? I have not gone. I am with you!

If I could only tell you what I saw: my Son suffering for love of you. If I could let you see through my eyes what He suffered for love of you!

If you meditate on His Passion in the rosary and the Stations, you see His immense love. I will help you to see His love more and more through my eyes.

I appear to tell all of this suffering. This is the key to understanding how much you are loved. Think of what I saw, look through my eyes, hold His lifeless body under the cross, meditate on the Seven Sorrows that I hold deep in my heart. It is there you will know His immense love. Look at my Son through a mother's eyes. Look at Him as He dragged the heavy cross on His way to the Crucifixion. Stand by and watch them pull His hair and drag Him away, and beat His precious bare body. Stand with me, little ones, as I walked with Him and look through my eyes. You will realize more His great love for you.

Go to Him, love Him, He is in the Eucharist this day. He longs, longs for your individual love. He is your lover, on FIRE for love of you. I love you so much.

I am Mary, your Mother.

Emotions (ecstasies):

R.    I experienced great graces and insights into Jesus and Mary's sufferings. The veil was lifted and I felt so deeply the presence of God. It is His presence that saturated my being, a connectedness to Him and this deep intimacy with Him alone. This world seems non-existent and I am wrapped into the experience. Time seems to stand still and I behold the presence of God, deep, deep in my being. On Christmas day after Mass, 1993, I had such immense pain, I could hardly stand it. Pains in the heart, not physical pain, an understanding of agony in my heart. On January 6, 1994, I was elevated to such a high level, saturated in His love, then after Communion such immense agony in my heart. Agony inexpressible in words.

August 20, 1994

Title: I Cried as I Knew the Suffering of Jesus and Mary

R. Praying the peace rosary, I couldn't look at Mary's statue. I instantly started to cry and was so connected to her suffering. Just wanted to cry--it wasn't my tears as I was really happy, but I felt so close to her. Same as when I sat in front of the tabernacle and cried. I just have to wait and feel the sorrow and cry until it passes, and then I am close to Them.

     I remember at a Friday Sacred Heart Mass, Father Carter said "they broke the legs, then they pierced Jesus' Heart and blood and water came out. I wanted to cry. I feel such sorrow every Friday from 12 to 3 o'clock - it is especially awful during these hours.

     It began on December 18, 1993: Jesus said, "I died for you-what more do you want?" I had such presence of Him. It was as though He was sitting there. I felt His emotions in myself. It felt as if He was there with me even though I didn't see Him. I am so united to Him.

     I feel Jesus' or Mary's emotions, they let me feel their emotions.

     The tears that come from my eyes, and I feel this intense pain in my heart, it is deep-seated, deeper than I can express. It is so deep, I cannot get to the bottom of it, but it is a silent, accepting cry, a wanting to scream from the very depth of my soul, but a silent surrender to the will of God and acceptance of this suffering for the greater good, knowing this is coming from God.

     This closeness in the suffering of Jesus, I receive at this point I am in this union so deep in God. An ecstasy involves so deep a connection with God - this is a suffering ecstasy. I am given this emotion--it is from God.

     A total submissiveness to express these emotions. Time stands still. I am removed in a way from this world.

     Knawing pain in my heart, and awareness of my heart. I feel so close to Mary and God now. I feel removed from this place. It is like I have been touched and have seen heaven and I know we are not to worry, only love God and help others to get there.

     My letters have progressed to such emotion when I receive them. He said, "I watched you" - such connection to Him, as if He and Mary are here!

     When I am experiencing this, such intense awareness of their presence to the point the world around me seems non-existent. I am united to God.

    This is real. We are living in God's world. We must love God and one another and help others to get to heaven. Pray constantly.

     I realize how souls are going to hell, how souls need my prayers, how souls all over the world are in darkness and I realize the urgency of this call.

    Jesus told me He wanted me to go through these experiences at His Mother's House (the old seminary where Mary was appearing to me daily). He told me to pray here and I would have such experiences. I have written most of His letters here and experienced so many deep presences of the Almighty God here at His Mother's House (the old seminary).

August 21, 1994

Am I Acting Like Christ To My Brothers?

Messenger: We must see Christ's love poured out to us through one another. He operates in our brothers. One of the ways He loves us is through others. We must see Christ in each person.

Am I acting like Christ to my brothers?

Am I the reflection of the Christ Who lives within me?

Christ wants to love His beloved ones through me. Am I loving my brothers as He wants me to?

Did I act like Christ would?

Jesus, help me to let You live through me. Help me to be the empty vessel You use to spread Your love to others.

I love You so, thank You for the love You pour out to me this day. I am Your grateful child and I love You.





August 21, 1994

Experience My Love Poured Out To You This Day

Jesus speaks: I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus. I am the tenderest of all hearts. I love you so much, let go and experience all the love I pour out to you. You do not see the abundant blessing I am pouring on you. I am Jesus and I am forever guarding you. Hold tight to My hand, focus on My ardent burning Heart on fire for love of you. Release all anxieties and fears as you find such shelter in My Heart.

You are surrounded by My enfolding love. You are warmed and cradled by My arms. I am your tender Jesus, gentlest of all hearts, come to love you so ardently this very day.

Let go into My most waiting arms. My Mother will place you in the very recesses of My Heart. She is your most loving Mother. Come to Me through her Immaculate Heart.

I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus, you are My chosen ones. Experience My love poured out to you this day, My beloved ones.

August 22, 1994

Title: You Search, You Seek, I Am Here!

Jesus: I am the Way, the truth, the life. I am He Who is ardently loving you. In your loving heart I enter and fill you with the love of God. My sweet one, I am forever on fire for love of you. You, in your busyness, forget Me throughout your day. If I made My presence known at every moment, you would know that you never have to fear for I never, ever, leave you!

    My love is consistently outpoured to you. Every single moment, I am with you in the deepest love. Why do you worry when I love you so much? Why does your heart feel empty when I never go from you? Why do you keep looking for the love your soul is craving on this earth? My love is abundantly outpoured on you every time you breathe. You are missing the great gift that I am with you!

    You search, you seek, and I am here with the same intense love I had the day I died for you. My child, I would die for you alone this day. Come and cling to Me, focus on My presence forever with you. Make your day a day of constantly sharing in our oneness.

    I am Jesus. I am the Son of God. I am He Who ardently loves you and is forever with you. I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus, your beloved Jesus. Focus on Me and this ardent love!

Messenger: What did You do, Lord, while they whipped You? What did You do when You knew the next horrifying blow would come?

Jesus speaks: I thought of My love for you. I suffered such anguish, but to know one day you would sit and be with Me in this Church, I loved you so much, I thought of you. With each blow, child, I knew how you would eagerly want to be with Me because you love Me so. I knew you would wait so anxiously to be united with Me in the Eucharist. When I received the blows I thought of you and your love. I knew constantly the love of the Father. I knew this love as I was scourged. This love that exists between the Father and Myself gave Me the strength to withstand the torture. His grace and love is being outpoured to you at every moment. Be forever attentive to such love, constantly within you. The more focused you are on Our Presence, the more you will be one in God!

Mary speaks: The young Life of Jesus grew in my womb. I felt Him as He grew and knew He was God. I felt Him inside of me. I felt Him move in my body. I knew His Life as it grew within me. I loved Him so before His birth from His presence within me. He, child, is alive in your heart. He is present in His Divinity. You are His temple. He loves you so much He chose to live in you. Do you carry this life with such awareness? His presence is forever in your heart. Who are you that the Son of God enters your heart after Communion, that He Who is no less present than the day I carried Him in my womb, enters you in the Holy Eucharist and dwells within your body?

Do you realize what honor is bestowed on you to receive the Son of God inside of you? He is alive. He dwells within you constantly in His Divinity. He is within your heart when you are in the state of grace. Child, He is no less present to you after Communion than when He was inside of me. He comes to you in His Divinity and Humanity, under the appearance of bread and wine.

Oh divine creation of the Father, open your eyes and look at the honor bestowed on you this very day. Today He comes to you with such love in the Eucharist. Shout it from the rooftop, "Jesus is Lord, and He has died and He has risen!" He is alive this day, and He comes to you and dwells in your hearts in the Eucharist in His Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity.

Jesus speaks: Oh beloved of My Father, you are given such honor by God. You are His very own creation, uniquely designed by His own hands and He gave His only Son so you could have life. His Son, He gives to you. I, Jesus, give Myself to you in the Eucharist. I am your beloved God, come to you with such love. Oh I love you so, My dear ones. I am Jesus, Son of God. I come to you. I knew that you would love Me some day.

Messenger: Jesus no more lives in the womb of His Mother. He is our Savior. He has been born to save us from our sins.

Jesus speaks: I am the Way, the Truth, the Life, and was born to My beloved Mother into this world. I came to save you from your sins and give you new life.

What this single event, the Incarnation, did to change the lives of so many! And the Word was made flesh and dwelt among you! You child, this very day, are sharing the benefits from this Incarnation.

Your life in Me is renewed in My Church. You share in My Life in Baptism.

I am the Almighty God. You are My beloved, chosen children. I come to give you new life that you may have it to the fullest.

Messenger: Oh glorious day for this world, the day Jesus, the Son of God, was born to this earth!

Jesus speaks: I am the Almighty God. You are not worthy to behold Me, yet in such love for you I was born and died for you. I remain in the Eucharist awaiting your love today. Do you come little ones? What treasure do you possess that compares to Jesus Christ, coming to you with such love in the Eucharist?

I am the Bread of Life. He who comes to Me will have everlasting life!

August 23, 1993

On His Passion

Jesus: My dear child,

I was condemned to death, death on a cross. They gave Me a big cross and made Me carry it. They stood around and glared at Me. It weighed on My shoulder and I pulled at it until it finally moved. Every step was almost impossible as I dragged it, weighing so heavily on My shoulders.

My shoulder felt as if the bones inside would crack and the cross would fall through to the ground. I couldn’t drag it any more. I tried, I fell. I fell and its weight fell on Me. A guard hit Me with something sharp. It really hurt because he wanted Me to move, and fast! People were watching -- on with the show! How dare I fall in the middle of the show! He hit Me again and the blow really stung Me. I got up because it hurt so badly. I tried to walk on.

My Mother was in the crowd. She looked at Me and her face looked red and hurt. Tears rolled down her cheeks like rain and as her eyes met Mine, I was hurt so by her sorrow! She was always by My side, silent and loving. She was My Mother of love! She is always there next to you when you suffer.

I fell again and he (the guard) really hit Me. It (the cross) was so heavy that he and I together could barely move it. It seemed as I walked, heavier with the sins of the world heaped on it. My hands were bleeding. Blood ran from the wounds of My thorns and My head throbbed, seeming to make the wounds in My head bleed even more. Some of the Blood was dried, some of it running all over My body. I had so many cuts and bruises -- and people watched and laughed!

I am Jesus, Son of the Living God, and they laughed and mimicked Me! Oh, such hardened hearts! How vile can men’s hearts become? The devil’s grip is paralyzing and crippling.

The walk was so long up a hill and over rocks -- the cross had to be lifted over the rocks. My body was bleeding so badly! My Heart was pounding. I knew that the salvation of all men depended on My love. Therefore, I went through such agony.

I thought of My intense love for you -- that many would go to heaven because of My suffering -- and I continued to the top of the hill. At the top they laid Me on the cross and with a big hammer nailed My hands to it. It was the worst (suffering) yet. My hands were nailed with big nails and the big hammer. Then, as if that weren’t enough, with a big nail they nailed through both feet.

Then they lifted the cross and banged it into (a hole in) the ground. My shoulders ached from how I hung. My head bobbed and My neck ached and they laughed and said, "Now save Yourself." I hurt so much! I suffered this way for hours -- which seemed like forever -- and they glared at Me and laughed! My Mother watched in such agony.

For love of you, to My death I gave you My Body. My child, I shed My Blood and gave you My life that you might be with Me forever in heaven -- not for a day, a month or a year, but forever with Me in heaven.

I am the true Bread come down from heaven. He who eats My Flesh will have life forever. For the drink I give you is My Blood and food you eat is My Body. Who would lay down his life for a friend? I did, for you. I love you this much, child. Forget about those who reject you. You have My life that I gave you and I give you life eternal.

I am the One true God. I am the Light of life. He who abides in Me will have life eternal, for the drink I give is My Blood and the food I give is My Body. Drink and eat and have everlasting life.

My child, that is all you need to know. Love one another and be good that you may enter into My Kingdom.

August 23, 1994

Let Me Lead You To Such Union With God

R. There was a deep bond between Jesus and Mary. The bond between a mother and son or daughter is so strong because the child grows within the mother's womb.

Mary speaks: I felt His Life grow within my very body. This connection between myself and my Son began from the first moment of conception. For nine months I carried the Son of God growing within me. What joy, what honor to carry the Child Jesus within my womb! The Spirit filled my being constantly.

Carry His Life within your being. Jesus wants to be alive in your very heart. The Spirit wants to be a force alive in your heart. The Spirit wants to possess your very being and make you alive with the fire of God’s love. The Father is present in your heart. Your Father loved you and molded you in your mother’s womb. He cares for you as no father ever cared for his child. You are His loving creation.

You are truly a child of God and my tenderly loved child. I mother you as I mothered my Son, Jesus. Oh little child of mine, turn to me as your most loving Mother. Do not try to go it alone. From the love I have for Jesus, I will lead you to His precious Heart. Come to me and let me lead you to such close union with my Son. The Father is my Father; the Spirit, my Spouse. Come and let me lead you to the unlimited love of God!

He truly guards you every minute of the day. His love is constant. Jesus forever is a burning furnace on fire for love of you. Come to His Heart through my Immaculate Heart. It is truly the love of Our two Hearts that will lead you to such union with God!

I am the Immaculate Heart of Mary. I am your loving Mother. I am here with you this moment. Take my hand and let me lead you to such union with God.

I am your Mother and I thank you for responding to my call.

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August 24, 1994

Title: Would You Give Your Life For Me?

Jesus: One lump on your head: they beat My head, they bruised My body, I was red and bloody, they tore My flesh, they hit Me over and over again and they laughed! They hollered such slanderous things at Me. When they holler at you and persecute you, remember what they did to Me.

    Suffer your little crosses, look to Me and what they did. The devil tempts others to speak harshly against you. Many are suffering inside when they persecute you. Pray for them. Anyone who is directing hate at you is allowing Satan to use them. Oh, how they need your prayers! Offer up your trials and sufferings to the Father, along with the Masses being offered at that moment. This is such a pleasing offering to My Father.

    Please, child, stay so focused on Me and My ways. One bump to the head and look how you worry for yourself. Oh, sweet one, you do not know the blows they gave to My head. Without any warning, I was smacked, hit and pierced with sharp instruments. They hit My head with big clubs and laughed.

    My child, for you I suffered! For you, I loved unto My very death! Would you give your life for Me? I love you this much. Your acts of love this day comforted Me during My passion. I love you so very much. I wait to share your love with you this very day. I wait and love you so much.

    Come to Me, My dear and tender heart. I am your beloved Jesus. My Mother is forever with you, with such love. Focus on this love in the cold world and pray, pray, pray.

Offer up your life for those in darkness. Your every action is a prayer if you are doing the Father's will. I love you so much, My precious dear one. I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus, on fire for love of you!

August 24, 1994

Title: This is Reality: Jesus Died and He Has Risen

R. To see Him and touch His crucifix and know how He died, my precious, beautiful Jesus, I love Him so much! To see Him that way is so painful for me. I keep hearing Mary's song, "I loved Him as a Baby, I held Him as a Child and I stood there on that cold, dark day, the day I knew would have to come."

  Oh, Jesus, I love Your crucifix. I love You so much. I love You and it hurts to look at Your crucifix and think people do not even know what they are doing. They do not know what You did for love of them and they will lose their souls. They will be condemned to everlasting hell, holding onto this world and their sins! This is reality: You have died and You have risen. We must pray constantly for our brothers, offer our day for those who are so blind. So many will lose their souls!

    Mary appears to tell us the love They both have for us and how They suffered.

Jesus: Spread the word. Time is so short, My precious ones. I died that you might have life and have it more abundantly.

R.   I constantly want a deeper union with Him. It is not ever enough. I want to know Him more and know all about Him and His life. I thirst after this knowledge of Him and I want to be joined closer and closer to Him. I crave this union and I thirst after the knowledge of God and Mary and the Saints.

    The gospel is so important! We must stand during the gospel. How do we treat the Word of God?

Jesus: I give you My word. It is most precious, My beloved one.
You do not write this. I will take care of you. I love you so much. Jesus.

August 25, 1994

Title: Before You Were Born, I Knew You

R. Mary's Father is Jesus' Father and He is my Father. Who am I that I have God as my Father. I was uniquely created by the most loving Father with such love. I was created in the love of the Father. Scripture says,

Jeremiah 1: 5

‘Before I formed you in the womb
    I knew you;
before you came to birth
    I consecrated you...

    We are the unique creation of God. God the Father loves His creation. We are His special, chosen ones!

Jesus speaks: I am Jesus, Son of the living God. I am so present to you, My beloved children of My Father. You were created with such love, the love that is being poured out to you this very day from the hands of My Father. Strive to do His will. His plan is your way to everlasting happiness. You are so abundantly showered with love by the Father, through Me, in union with the Holy Spirit and by your loving Mother. Focus on this love. It is in the interior realization of the love We constantly give you that you will find peace and joy.

August 25, 1994

You Are The Unique Creation Of The Father

Jesus speaks: Oh child, how uniquely I love you. You are far more precious than the finest pearls. You were divinely created by My Father. You are the product of His great love. You are the chosen child of the Father. The Spirit breathed into you His life and love and you were given the fire of God’s love. Do not let anything in this world snuff out the love of God that burns within your soul. Keep your heart ever pure and open to the Spirit of God that dwells within your very heart.

You are the creation of My Father. You are so precious to Me, child. You, I so love that I would give My life for you this very day. Oh beloved of My Father, come to Me and I will give you rest. You will be filled with the peace and love of God.

You are far more precious than the finest treasure. You are the unique creation of the Father. See your specialness to Me, oh beloved one. You are so special to God!

Messenger: Alleluia! And He breathed on their soul and the Spirit of God filled their hearts and the burning love of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit dwelt within their hearts and they were present as His love shining in the darkness and they were called to be His light shining in a dark world.

Alleluia! Praise the Lord.

The Spirit of the Lord fills me. I know not what I write. He guides my hand. I comply to His wishes, as I say: You are the divine creation of Him Who knew you before you were formed in the womb of your mother. Jesus was formed in the womb of His Mother through the Holy Spirit. You are a direct creation of the Father, given to such specialness and given such great and ardent love of God!

You are the temple of God. In Baptism you are given His Life within your soul. The Father, Son and Holy Spirit live in your heart. You must feed this life with the love of God. God is forever in your midst and ready to nourish you. You are the divine creation of the Father. Center your life first on God. Come and be with Him, worship and praise Him. Focus on His presence within you and in the Eucharist. See His love poured out to you in others.

Be as another Christ to one another. Where you were blind, open up your heart and let Christ's life live in your very soul. Operate only as He prompts you to act, living within you. Put on Christ. Strive for the greatest union with Him and with Father and Holy Spirit. Mary is your Mother. She leads you through her most loving Heart to the greatest union with God. Be open. Die to self. Be the empty vessel ready to be filled by the hands of God.

Mary, my Mother, lead me to the most loving union with God.
Spirit, lead me to union with God, through Jesus.

August 25, 1994

Mold Me Into Your Instrument To Spread Your Love

Messenger: Jesus, You died for each and every soul. I want to do all I can to lead souls to Your infinite love. You love each person so much and want to give them Your love. Help me to use my life to spread Your love however You wish me to.

You are so beautiful, Jesus. I love You so much. I want others to know Your great love, that You died for them, that this is reality, that You are God. You have died and You have risen and You are in our midst this very day with such love for each and every beloved soul!

Each child of God is divinely created by Your Father and my Father. We are brothers in Christ. How can I not pray for my beloved brothers, the sons of my very own Father? To You, Lord, I lift up my soul and ask for all I need to spread this love to my brothers.

Mold me, fashion me into the instrument of Your most precious love so it is no longer I who live, but You Who live in me. Into Your hands Lord, I commend my spirit.

Spirit of God, fill me with the fire of God’s love so that where I was full of fear, I am now fearless to spread this love of God. I am Yours Lord. Take me, mold me into Your instrument to spread Your love, the love of Your most Sacred Heart and that of my loving Mother, the love of her Immaculate Heart, to this world.

August 25, 1994

Pray for Newsletter for Priests, Shepherds of Christ

Messenger:    The most pleasing sacrifice to the Father is the precious Body and Blood of Christ. When the priest, who represents Christ, offers the sacrifice to the Father, we are giving ourselves also as a sacrifice to the Father.

    Many prayers could be magnified everyday if people offered up their lives with the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass. When you live your daily lives according to the will of the Father and offer them up to Him, with all the Masses being said around the world — this is such a powerful prayer!

Jesus speaks:    I ask you to pray for the success of My Priestly Newsletter, Shepherds of Christ. I am the Good Shepherd, I know Mine and they follow Me. I want to draw all My precious ones so close to My Heart.

    My Heart is ablaze for the love of each and every soul. I love each child so tenderly. I want to spread this burning love to My beloved ones, through My specially anointed priests.

    When the love of My Sacred Heart shines from the hearts of all, the world will be set aglow with My love. I have spoken directly to Fr. Carter in this Newsletter, in a special way, to spread My love to My beloved anointed priests.

    Offer your days in union with the Mass being offered throughout the world for the success of the Newsletter. Pray for the priests who receive this Newsletter that their hearts will be open and they will hear the voice of God speaking to them.

    Oh, children, I love each soul -- I would die this very day for each one! Please pray for your brothers. Do not waste one valuable moment of your day. Offer each moment up as a prayer to your heavenly Father through My Body and Blood being offered in the Masses around the world. Souls will be lost forever. Many souls do not know My most precious love. Pray for the priests. One priest can touch so many of My beloved ones, or one priest can lead so many astray.

    Please pray for this endeavor. I am your precious Jesus, on fire for love of you this day!

August 27, 1994

After Communion - Priests’ Residence Chapel

Her Face Tells The Story Of The Horror She Saw

Messenger: Mary, so young and beautiful, her beautiful young face, her bright eyes. She looks so tenderly at the Baby Son and His beautiful eyes.

Her face, her horror, her sorrow, looking down at the lifeless body of her Son. Her face tells the story of the horror she saw. Once a Baby, bright and beautiful, His body now bloodied, her beloved Child dead in her arms.

His side a bloody mess where He was lanced. His hands were pierced. His feet were pierced. The nails and the crown, now removed. All that remains are holes and punctures. Her precious eyes behold this sight, the dead body of her Baby.

I keep seeing the faces, the face I saw on the statue, the joyful face, the young face, the sorrowful face that looked as if it would crack, all glistening and aglow to accent the event.

Do we listen? Do we see? Do we feel? Do we know that Jesus is still pouring out His love this very day? This is the same Mother at our side. This is the same Jesus I just received in the Eucharist. He gave Himself then, He gives Himself now to me, in Holy Communion!

When will I let myself feel His true Life within me? When will I hear His plaintive cries that He loves us so much to have died for us? When will my heart be open to this reality? Life is a fleeting moment and the reality is that this same Jesus enters my soul in such love this day!

Do I hear Him? I, who hear His words, take so lightly this tremendous love. Do words even exist to describe this love? Is "tremendous" a word that sums up the love He has?

He says He is a furnace burning for love of us. These are words. These are not sufficient to explain His love. He shows me, in the face of Mary, the reality. He has truly given His very own flesh, His very own Blood. He was human. He gave Himself. He gives Himself to us this day.

I hear His pleading cries after Communion, "I give you Myself. Tell them, tell them."

And they run, they run to do useless tasks and He is still in their bodies.

Jesus: I am the Way, the Truth and the Life. I am He whose bootstraps you are unworthy to fasten and I, God, come to you in such love and you treat Me so coldly. Tell them My beautiful child, listen to My words, tell them with your whole heart what you experience here. I am God and I love them so much.

It is in meditating on My passion, on My Mother's sufferings, you will know of the intensity of Our love. Love is not described in words, love is felt in the heart. You must feel the mysteries of the rosary in your heart. To love Me is to live in Me. Live in your heart Our love for you. Feel the mysteries of the rosary. This is only a foreshadowing of the love I have this day for you.





August 27, 1994

You Must Realize You Are Not Alone

Jesus speaks: I have sent these two people as key persons to lead you to My love. It is in their great love for Me you will be led ever closer to My Heart. The devil wants you to not trust and not get too close. You need intimacy with them.

I am the Lord, thy God. You are shouldering a great responsibility with My letters. Their direction is very important in this task. They both play a very important role in guiding you along greater union with Me.

The devil wants you to go alone and feel you need to be dependent only on Me. I send you Sr. Rita and Fr. Carter as your guides to greater union with Me and to assist you in the success of these letters. They are key to these letters, their absolute authenticity and distribution. You need to develop trust in these two people sent directly from Me to be with you and guide you.

I am Jesus, forever present and at your side. I love you so much. Fr. Smith is very important to delivering these messages to this city. Your job is to speak whenever possible. Pray, little one. I am forever with you. You must trust your two guides. They will be acting as Me to you. Open your heart to be very close to them. They have spent their whole life being very close to Me.

I love you so. You must realize you are not alone. You are not to deliver this message alone. This message is for the world. My Mother appearing to you is likewise for the world. Do not hold this message back. You are not bragging, you are delivering her message. This is your call, from her, to deliver her message. She appears to you to give this to the world.

Why do you not believe what I write to you? You do not trust Me. You do not want to trust them. You must trust people. You are not alone. To work close with Fr. Carter as your spiritual director is My plan for you, you must trust him.

August 27, 1994

I Place My Children in Mary's Loving Arms

Jesus: I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life. My child, do not give in to Satan to taunt you. Trust in Me, I am ever with you! My love for you is your top concern.

Messenger: I place my children in the loving arms of their Mother. To her I entrust their lives. I love you so much, Mary.

I feel at peace in that I do not have a selfish interest in this work. God is my end.

Jesus: Fear, doubt, confusion, come from the evil one. Be pure in heart always, My sweet one, pure to the sense of truth. I am the Way, the Truth, I am the Life.

Rosary of August 27, 1994

The Sorrowful Mysteries

Messenger:

Agony in the Garden

Jesus went with Peter, James and John to the garden of Olives in Gethsemane.

..."My soul is sorrowful to the point of death. Wait here and stay awake with me." (Matthew 26:38)

Jesus fell to His knees and prayed, " 'Father,' he said, 'if you are willing, take this cup away from me. Nevertheless, let your will be done, not mine.' " (Luke 22:42)

The angel appeared and comforted Him.

Jesus found the disciples sleeping and He said, '...So you had not the strength to stay awake with me for one hour?' (Matthew 26:40)

Jesus was so alone. He suffered for all the sins of all men for all times.

Jesus suffered so for the indifference, rejection, disrespect and lack of love He receives in the Eucharist, the Sacrament of His great love for us.

Jesus did not want to leave us. He gives us Himself in the Sacrament of the Eucharist.

"... 'This is my body given for you; do this in remembrance of me.' ...'This cup is the new covenant in my blood poured out for you.' " (Luke 22:19-20)

Jesus' anguish was so great that His sweat became as great drops of Blood on the ground.

Scourging at the Pillar

Jesus loved Judas so much but Jesus knew Judas would betray Him with a kiss.

They led Jesus away as a common criminal. They pulled His hair, they hit Him on the cheek, they spit on Him.

They stripped Jesus and tied Him to a pillar.

They scourged Him, whipping Him all over His entire body.

Mary knew from the prophesy of Simeon that Jesus would suffer.

Jesus' whole body was beaten.

Jesus' flesh hung from where they had beaten Him.

Jesus stood in His own Blood.

Jesus' beautiful back, once perfect, was now so badly beaten and bruised.

Jesus suffered so for the sins of the flesh.

Crowning with Thorns

These ruthless men stripped Jesus and put a scarlet robe on Him and gave Him a reed for His right hand. Then kneeling, they mocked Jesus and called out, ....'Hail, king of the Jews!' (Matthew 27:29)

They wove a piercing crown of thorns for Jesus' precious head.

They pounded the thorns so harshly into His beautiful head.

Blood poured from Jesus' head and trickled into his eyes and ears and His hair was matted.

Blood ran from His mouth, from the blows to His head.

Then they knelt, mocking Him, spitting on Him, and saying, ...'Hail, king of the Jews!' (Matthew 27:29)

Jesus suffered for all the sins of the head.

Jesus suffered for love of us!

When Jesus suffered for the horrible sins, He was comforted by the love that we give to Him this day.

Jesus suffered for the indifference to the Eucharist.

Jesus saw us giving Him so much love when we receive Him.

Carrying of the Cross

They condemned our precious Jesus to death on a cross.

They gave to Jesus a great cross and threw it on His shoulder. It was so immense!

Jesus' shoulder felt as if it would crack, the cross was so heavy.

Jesus' beloved Mother stood by and watched this massacre of her precious, beautiful Child.

She heard the thumping of the cross and the jeers of the crowd.

Mary's eyes peered into Jesus' eyes. Their suffering was intensified by the suffering of the other.

Jesus never gave up His cross, He collapsed under His cross.

Mary walked the walk with Him, always by His side, as she walks our walk of suffering with us this day.

They poked at Jesus and treated Him with such dishonor. Our beautiful Jesus! Mary stood by and watched her beloved suffer.

They stripped Jesus of His garments and He accepted the abuse.

He allowed all this to happen.

He loves us this much!

The Crucifixion

When Mary reached the hill of Calvary where Jesus was to be crucified, she saw all the instruments prepared for His crucifixion.

The men pounded the nails into Jesus' precious hands and feet.

Mary's Heart was torn in her chest as she helplessly watched the treatment of her blessed Child.

Jesus had given His all for love of us. Battered and bruised from head to toe, He shed His Blood.

He hung there in such agony for three hours.

Mary stood under His cross, supported by her beloved John.

Jesus' last thoughts were for us, when He gave us His own Mother.

Jesus gave us the last beat of His Heart, the last drop of His Blood.

Jesus is our Savior. He merited the SAVING GRACE BY HIS LIFE and death.

Mary held Jesus as a Baby, now she sees His lifeless body in her arms after His death.

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August 28, 1994

After Communion, 7:40 a.m.

Title: It Doesn't Matter if the World Turns Against Us

R. I want to cry to know how this is truly God and people do not know how gifted they are to receive, the one, true God! I am crying for how thankful I am to receive the one, true God. If the whole world turns against me, it doesn't matter. No one can take this union with God away!

    To know I really and truly hold God within me is such a gift. Who am I that God comes and dwells in my heart? I am so thankful for Him and His great love. Love is not lip service, love is in my heart. Love is action from the heart. The Holy Spirit imparts to me the fire of His love.

Words are words, the Almighty God puts the fire in these words whereby I experience the love of God. Words are only words without the Spirit moving my heart toward the love of God.

    This is what they did to Him. He was abandoned and blasphemed, called all kinds of names, dishonorably treated, condemned to death, scoffed and He remained in total peace.

Jesus: When they persecute you and holler every slander against you, hold tight to My love. I am forever with you, sustaining you.

R. He showed us the way. He accepted the most outrageous treatment in perfect peace. When the world turns cold, I look to the Master. Watch them tear His flesh like ruthless men. Watch them spit on Him. Watch them beat Him and what, what did He do? He remained in perfect peace! I do as God prompts me in my heart. I am not perfect. I want to serve Him because I love Him so. It is not what goes into a man that makes him vile, but what comes out of a man.

Jesus: Keep your hearts pure, My little one. Never, never do I go from you. I want to constantly live and dwell, in you! Do as you think the Father wills. Doubt and confusion are from Satan. You strive always to serve the Father and then your hearts will be at peace. I call you to love, Rita. Love, My child. Satan is the great deceiver. My ways are peace and joy.

    I am the Good Shepherd, I know Mine and they follow Me. I truly love you so very much, My little child.
R. (I smelled incense twice). I love the person inside. I love a part of you I never see. I love your spirit. This is how I love God. I love God and we do not usually see Him. It is a gift when Jesus appears. It is a gift when Mary appears. The Eucharist is a gift.

August 28, 1994

Strive Always To Serve The Father

Jesus speaks: Keep your hearts pure, My little ones. Never, never do I go from you. I want to constantly live and dwell inside you! You should do as you think the Father wills. Doubt, confusion is from Satan. You should strive always to serve the Father and then your hearts are at peace. I call you to love. Love, My children. Satan is the great deceiver. My ways are peace and joy.

I am the Good Shepherd. I know Mine and they follow Me. I truly love you so very much, My little children.



August 29, 1994

After Communion

R. I cried so hard, realizing how much He loves everyone and they are blind. I love Him so much. I just feel so close to Him. God is truly here and in our midst this very day and everyone runs. He loves us so much!

    He told me to read the messages in March and I cried because He loves us so much. I am crying so hard, realizing how He truly loves me and how I have taken His love so lightly. How I have doubted! I cry so hard for this blind world, for He is truly here, I cry for the love He has for them and they do not know!

    My insides hurt to experience this feeling, so deep, like when I felt Mary's pain, and suffering, I just experience it until it goes away, it is real intense. To read my letters makes me cry because He loves us so much and everyone is so blind. I cannot express God's love in words, no words are good enough. Jesus wants us to love Him! This is why He is truly present here in the tabernacle. We should realize the great love He has for us. We should realize Mary's presence with us for she is there at every Mass, she is here in the church with Jesus. Mary and Jesus are one, united in Their Hearts.





August 29, 1994

4:30 a.m.

Title: Letter from Jesus to Fr. Carter

Jesus: I am calling you, Fr. Carter, to share in these messages from the Blue Book. I have put you two together to see to the distribution of My messages, centered on My ardent on fire love of My Sacred Heart. You are to share this as a joint effort. The contents are to be used as you see fit to promote the love of My Most Sacred Heart. This is not an easy task. You share these messages jointly to promote this devotion. I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus on fire for My beloved ones.

May 1, 1993

Title: Love For Mary At First Sight

R. My first love of the Center came through the Sorrowful Mother statue. I drove up and wanted to see it through the windows. I felt so close to her, as if the statue was alive. I took pictures of the statue just to have them as I loved it so much.

     All through the letters I received about the aching heart, in front of the tabernacle, I experienced somebody else's pain. It was Jesus and Mary's pain! I kept hearing the song, "The Lady is Calling". I heard that song as if on a little tape recorder when I first went to see Fr. Smith. I was awaken in the night and it was playing.

I was sent to Conyers in June and heard the song constantly.

She is calling me to the Center. My experiences are around her statue there.

     At Fr. Smith's Mass, in March, I saw the precious blood outside the cup when I received it. It was July 17, 1993, the first day I went to see Fr. Smith.

    Mary appeared that day in my dining room at home. It is a pail green room.
Jesus: The very hairs of your head are numbered!

August 31, 1994

Don’t Be Afraid to Love

Jesus speaks: Don’t be afraid to love. I loved until I gave My insides. Give your all in love, this is My way. I supply you with the love inside of you. My love supply is inexhaustible. This is My way, to love unconditionally and to come to God to refurbish your supply. I am consistently on fire for love of you this day. I never go in and out. Your Father still loves you, your Mother loves you, the Holy Spirit loves you! In all your actions, put on Christ. My sweet one, oh how I love you. Come to Me!

Mary speaks: I am Mary, your Mother. Let me hold you tenderly in my arms and caress your little body. I am your most loving Mother. I never leave you, child. I am caressing you now. Come and be joined in Our Hearts, cradled by Our love. Hear the beating of Our Hearts. I am your Mother and thank you for responding to this call.

September 1, 1994

Title: Do I Realize My Intense Worth to Him

R. There stood Mary, under her Son's cross. Her face, weeping, horror, distorted. We cannot comprehend! She watched the brutal death of her beloved One, hanging and calling out from the cross!

    In His anguish, He had perfect peace. See Him there hanging, nails in His hands, badly bruised, bloodied, swollen, His body one tremendous wound, stripped, almost to the point of death. He told Mary that John was her beloved son and He told her that she was his Mother. He loved us so much He gave us His Mother.

    His thoughts always were for us - He gave us His Mother! He could have, at the last moment, stopped it all, but He accepted His very own death in ardent love of us. He truly gave the last beat of His Heart, the last drop of His blood, so that we may have everlasting salvation.

    Oh, my Jesus, who am I that You love me so much. How lightly do I take this great gift, the gift of His very own life given for me, the blood in His veins, His flesh! Do I realize my intense worth to Him? Oh, my Jesus, do I realize how You, Jesus Christ, give me Your life in the Eucharist this very day! Jesus, You died for me and You rose to give me new life in You.

    Oh, my Savior, wash me, cleanse me. Spirit, open my eyes to see as You want me to see all the truths I need to see for greater union with You! I am totally Yours, Lord, through the Immaculate Heart of Your Mother forever. Place me in the most tenderest place in Your Sacred Heart.



September 1, 1994 - After Communion

Promote The Rosary

Mary speaks: My little girl, I am Mary your beloved Mother. As I have told you, you will suffer. My heart is so sad for all those who do not know the love of my Son. You know some of His intense love for all the beloved souls. I let you share in some of my emotions, to allow you to experience my suffering to know all those who would reject the love of my precious Son. Sweet child of mine, you know how He loves all. I tell you to pray, pray for each other.

Promote the rosary. I am showing you how to make the rosary alive in your life. The rosary is such a powerful prayer against Satan. Satan is running rampant. He will be squelched by praying the rosary. Promote the rosary. I appear to you as the Lady of Light. My rosary will light up the world! I am the Immaculate Heart of Mary. Who will hear if you are not speaking? Constantly be about the work of promoting Our two Hearts and praying the rosary. I show myself to you to comfort you and to lead others to my rosary. I am sorrowful to know the hearts of men. They have turned so cold when Jesus has a burning fire waiting to warm them.





September 1, 1994

They Need These Messages

Jesus speaks: I am Jesus. I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus. My Heart burns for love of My beloved children. It is through My Mother’s Heart and My Heart so many will turn their cold hearts and lukewarm hearts to hearts ablaze with the fire of My love.

Promote My Heart through My Mother’s Heart. You will continue to experience such emotions. My Mother is so closely united to Me. To know her is to know her suffering for the sinners that will be lost in eternal damnation. She appears to you in such light. You must preach the contents of these letters. Your words will be a light to the dark world. I speak through you. You are delivering My messages to those I love. Your tongue should forever preach of My intense, burning love for all. This world will shine with the love of My Sacred Heart. These words will illuminate their hearts. You hold words given to My loved ones from Me. Do not take this job lightly. You need to get My messages out. Souls will be lost forever because they did not know My burning love. These messages speak of My love as no others. This is the medicine for the sick world. They need these messages.

I am Jesus. I speak here to the world. These are My intense love letters to all. They need to hear these words. They are given from Me to each precious soul. This is an urgent message. Time is so short. You will know soon that the time delayed will hurt many souls.

Many souls will not know of My love, they need these messages! I speak so tenderly to My beloved ones here. Please, I beg you to spread these words to My hurting children.

Mary is appearing as a Lady of Light. These letters will light men’s hearts with My intense love for them. The world will shine with My love. Circulate the messages. This is an urgent message.



September 1, 1994

After Communion

Title: Wanting a Deeper Union with Jesus

R. I want such deep union with Jesus. I want Him so much more. I saw the Mary statue and I know of their intense love for everyone. It makes me so sad to know this. It makes me sad to see her and see how blind this world is. I know what Jesus and Mary are telling me. After Communion, I am so close to Him. I am so close to the other side. My heart is torn between being here and experiencing this touch of the other side. I know it so clearly after Communion. These experiences are tender moments I treasure that brings tears to know the reality of heaven - I experience such closeness to Him.

    I love Him so much. I love God: the Father, Son and Holy Spirit and I intently love my beautiful mother. I want to be in deeper union with Mary and Jesus. Oh, my God, I deeply long to have a greater union with You forever!

   I love You so intently. I want to be closely united to You, my God. I love You so much, only in my heart do I know, for words are hollow and do not express a drop of the intense love I have for You in my heart. I want to be so much closer, it hurts to want Him so deeply. Such longing for this great love and thirst in my soul. I long for You, oh Lord. My heart craves union with Him!

    I seek a place of quiet intimacy with Him. I want to be with Him and Him alone, no one around. (Now I am in the Residence chapel by myself and my heart is quieted and full of such love, to be alone here with my beloved Jesus in my heart and in the Blessed Sacrament.)

    After Communion I want to go into a quiet deep place, far off and be alone with Him. I want Him in a little space all by myself. I love Him so much. I am at such joy to be alone here with Him. I know His presence so much in the Blessed Sacrament. All I want to do is be alone with Him.

    (Inner vision: I see with my eyes closed: Hearts with a door in it, one right after the other, going upward.)

    Are we this door, Jesus, to lead hearts to heaven? Are we the instruments You are using to lead souls to the on-fire, burning love of Your most Sacred Heart, through Mary's heart? Clean my heart. Purify my soul. Make me forever holy to be pure and ever closer to You and Your most Sacred Heart. I love You so. The world stands still and Your love is so real to me. I see so clearly before me the life hereafter and the purpose of this earthly existence. You are the Almighty God and You lead us to our home, waiting for us in heaven. Anything that leads us from this, our goal, is detrimental to our journey. You are the Almighty God. I long for union ever closer to You and Mary and the saints and angels. I want to be ever closer to this home in heaven, in union with You.

(I see the ladder and souls ascending this ladder to Your Kingdom, that awaits us and I see a ladder that leads to a red, dark place.)

    I feel such intense need for us to pray constantly, to do the Father's will. At Mass I beg for mercy from God to help all my brothers to get to their heavenly home. I feel the need to offer my life for my suffering brothers in purgatory. This life has meaning to me in loving God and drawing my brothers ever closer to this heavenly reward.

    He said that we should love God as He loved us. He laid down His life for us.

    This is the call of Mary: She calls us to the love of her Son and the love of our brothers!
Oh, my Jesus, I love You so much!

September 2, 1994

Title: I Give Myself to Jesus

R. I find such comfort in the cross. No matter what is going on, I give myself to Jesus at the foot of His cross. I know Mary is always at my side.

Jesus: This is My love for you, it is not words, it is action from the heart. I gave the last beat of My Heart for love of you. I love you with the most enduring love. To My death on the cross, I loved you.

    Stand beneath My cross, see Me hanging, see My bodily position, to My death I hung in such agony for you! My blood was spent, My flesh was given, and I cried out My last cry, it is finished! I am your Savior.

    I am the true bread come from heaven. I give you Myself in the Mass. I give you My Body. I give you My Blood. Oh, child, My life I give to you with such everlasting love. Let your hearts be forever filled with joy. Come to My Mass. You are the favored ones, to be offering such a sacrifice! Praise your beloved God in heaven, He loves you so much, oh you are so favored!

R. I love Him so much. I know more and more His great love for me and I count myself so honored to be in His presence before the Blessed Sacrament. He is truly with me here, my beloved Savior, my most precious Jesus, my Beloved.

    Words seem so weak anymore to describe this. My heart knows, my soul is on fire with His love, my soul thirsts and longs for more and more. I crave Him so. I want more time alone with Him, but I have a family and other things the Father wills me to do. These are most precious moments in my life, when I am at Mass, when I receive Him in Communion. Such precious moments. I do not know how to describe them in words.

    My soul is yearning and longing for more and more each day. I cannot be satisfied. Words are not enough. My heart knows so well what my pen cannot say. I love Him so much, to the point of tears, to always be closer, united, and want more to fill my hungry soul. I love You, Jesus, with such an intense love. I love God and thirst after Him.

    This is the Father's will for me. This is what He wants for me now. To do His will is my striving with much love. I love Him so much, my beloved Father, my most beautiful Spirit. Who am I to be so favored?





September 2, 1994 - After Communion

Promote My Rosary

Messenger: Such emotion I feel, looking at Mary's statues. I can hardly take it in. I feel so close to Christ in my heart and have an intense longing for Him. I felt a burning in my chest, wanting more. I felt such sorrow around Mary, I couldn't bear to look at the statue and wanted to cry.

Mary speaks: My little girl, I am Mary, your beloved mother. As I have told you, you will suffer. My heart is so sad for all those who do not know the love of my Son. You know some of His intense love for all the beloved souls. I give you some of my emotions to allow you to experience my suffering, to know all those who reject the love of my precious Son. Sweet child of mine, you know how He loves all. I tell you to pray, pray for each other.

Promote the rosary. I am showing you how to make the rosary alive in your life. The rosary is such a powerful prayer against Satan. Satan is running rampant. He will be squelched by the praying of the rosary. Promote the rosary. I appear to you as the Lady of Light. My rosary will light up the world! I am the Immaculate Heart of Mary. Who will hear if you are not speaking? Constantly be about the work of promoting Our Two Hearts and praying the rosary. I show myself to you to comfort you and to lead others to my rosary. I am sorrowful to know the hearts of men. They have turned so cold, when Jesus has a burning fire waiting to warm them.

Jesus speaks: I am Jesus. I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus. My Heart burns for love of My beloved children. It is through My Mother's Heart and My Heart that so many will turn their cold hearts and lukewarm hearts to hearts ablaze with the fire of My love.

Promote My Heart through My Mother's Heart. You will continue to experience such emotions! My Mother is so closely united to Me! To know her is to know her suffering for the sinners that will be lost in eternal damnation. She appears to you in such light! You must preach the contents of these letters. Your words will be a light to the dark world. I speak through you. You are delivering My messages to those I love. Your tongue should forever declare My intense, burning love for all. This world will shine with the love of My Sacred Heart. These words will illuminate their hearts. You hold words given to My loved ones from Me. Do not take this job lightly. You need to get my messages out. Souls will be lost forever because they did not know My burning love. This is the medicine for the sick world. They need these messages.

I am Jesus. I speak here to the world. These are My intense love letters to all. They need to hear these words. They are given from Me to each precious soul. This is an urgent message. Time is so short! You will know soon that the time delayed will hurt many souls.

Souls will not know of My love. They need these messages. I speak so tenderly to My beloved ones here! Please, I beg you to spread these words to My hurting children.

Mary is appearing as a Lady of Light. These letters will light men's hearts with My intense love for them. The world will shine with My love. Circulate the messages. This is an urgent message.





September 3, 1994

You Will Stand As A Mighty Oak

Messenger: I am realizing there is a constant presence of Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

Jesus stood before the crowd when they condemned Him to death. He was surrounded by hatred and the mob agreed that our beloved Jesus, Who is love, deserved to be crucified. He had done nothing but give love, but through the hardness of their hearts they surrounded Him and condemned Him to death.

The devil is, oh, so cunning. He is callous. He is hate-filled. He wells up in men's hearts and acts through them. When we are persecuted by those around us, by one person, by many, the example of Jesus is what we must follow. The devil is so strong. There will be more mass persecutions of us, as Christians. By mass, I mean, several or more persons taking a stand against us and persecuting us. Whenever I am innocent and being attacked by several persons accusing me of a misdeed, Satan is at work.

But, the interior awareness of God is what will sustain us! Jesus had a constant awareness of the love between Him and the Father. Jesus knew all the men who persecuted Him and loved them. Jesus had a constant awareness of each person, the divine, unique creation of the Father. He saw all this hatred before Him and still loved these people as the Father loved them.

Jesus speaks: They may persecute you, My child, several in number, and you will stand as the mighty oak. Your roots are rooted firmly in the love of God, and you are aware of My presence within you always. You are never abandoned. Everything that happens, I am allowing. The very hairs of your head are numbered.

Messenger: Jesus stood condemned to death. Jesus, tied to a pillar, allowed men to tear His precious Flesh away. He bled the very Blood in His veins. How did Jesus still love such ruthless men? The constant awareness of men as "divinely created" allowed Him to love them as God the Father's creatures. He saw the divine creation of the Father and loved them. He is one with the Father. He knew the Father's love. He knew the Father's will and He, Who is God, could have stopped all of it, but He wanted to do the will of His Father. He thought of us and His love, so deep for us, and endured all He had to suffer for our salvation.

Jesus speaks: My Blood was spent. My Life was given. I am He Who died and has risen so that you might have new life! In every death there is the resurrection into new life.

Messenger: To constantly keep the Resurrection before our eyes when we experience suffering is a key factor in living the new life.

Jesus speaks: I come to bring you life that you may have it to the fullest. When they persecute you and holler every slander against you, keep your eyes forever set on your heavenly Kingdom.



First Saturday, September 3, 1994

Vision:

I went to Falmouth with Fr. Carter - that morning I had an experience with Mary's suffering in the back of the same chapel where Mary was appearing to me daily. I suffered so much and was so weak I thought I would not be able to go to Falmouth with Fr. Carter that day. I was suffering in the morning. At 5:00 p.m. I again went to the chapel at the old seminary. I sat in front of the Sacred Heart picture at the main altar, in front of the tabernacle and started to cry. This went on for 20 minutes. The Sacred Heart picture illuminated. The picture remained illuminated for 20 minutes. There was a candle with the Sacred Heart image on it, it was by the picture and it too was lighted. Then the light on the picture, the candle, and the sunlight in the room simultaneously grew dark. I could faintly see the image of Jesus in the picture, it was covered with a black covering. I sat there and stared at the picture, trying to see Jesus, but could barely see through the black covering or darkness - I saw Him a little. It remained this way for about 3 or 4 minutes. Then, slowly, the lights came on, simultaneously they grew brighter and brighter. It took about one minute. Then the lights were brighter than before.





September 3, 1994

Messenger: I am realizing more and more the Presence of God at all times. Interiorly, I am constantly aware of this Presence of Father, Son and Holy Spirit. This Presence is so strong that I cannot feel abandoned.

I am as the baby at the breast. I know my loving Father more and more and I know He will care for me. I know that Jesus and the Holy Spirit are forever with me. I feel as if I have a coating on me, between me and the world, and I am so protected by this interior union.

No one can ever touch this union with God. This is why I live to be forever connected as one with Him. The more I become one in Him, the more I experience this protection.

The wind may come and blow, you may be rocked in your place, but the interior life of the love of God is forever in my breast.

I have an awareness more and more that I love my brothers so much as I see them as created by my loving Father. He loves them so much. He is one with them. How can I not love them? I see less their faults and more their beauty as His creation. I know Jesus gave the last drop of His Blood for them and would die for them this very day. How could I hate anyone that He loves so much! To love Jesus is to love my brother. I cannot love Jesus and hate my brother. He is one with them. He is so good and loving. I love Him. I am one in Him and He is one in me. My brother is one in Him. If I am one with Jesus and I love Jesus, then I must love my brother because he is one with Jesus and we are all one, united in Him.

I am constantly aware that He allows everything that happens and I must accept it. If He allows me to suffer, it is with great love He allows this suffering. He forever watches us and guards us and loves us. A little child doesn't stop and think about its mother's care and love. The child knows and operates with the assuredness he will be taken care of.

Lord, give to me the assuredness of a little child. Let me know I am forever loved by You. Let me operate with this certainly of Your love.

God is loving and caring for me.

    To feel the oneness with You, Lord. I want to know oneness with Jesus. Jesus knew oneness with the Father in His passion. Help me to know God's love without stopping and thinking, "God loves me so I will be okay." The more I grow in this oneness of Him, I have a constant awareness of the love of Father, Son and Holy Spirit and Mary and I do not have to think about it. I act with this assuredness. I don't feel frightened because I know Their love. I don't have to stop and think, They love me, I know it, I am united to Them!

    Put on Christ, be Christ to one another, let Him dwell within you, become one in Him. I am living more and more in Him. I realize His presence, the presence of the Trinity within me. I am thirsty for God's love!

Jesus: I am the Way, I am the Truth, I am the Life. He who abides in Me will live forever. I give you My very own flesh. The way to the Father is through Me, the Holy Spirit is the love between the Father and Me. You, My children, are the chosen ones. The more you realize Our presence within you, the more you become one in God.
    I am the Alpha and the Omega. I Am Who Am. I am God and I, child, write this to you. In 40 minutes you receive this teaching. I love you dearly. I want you, My precious one, to share My love with this world. If you, who I talk to, hold back, who will know the love I pour out to you here? I am God, one, true, magnificent - without end. Do not tarry for I go before you.




September 3, 1994

I Cry For The Souls

Messenger: Notes: When the Host was raised, I kept hearing with emotion the song, "This is My Body". He was talking about passion before Mass. I heard, "This is My Blood". This triggered all His explanations of how He gave His very Flesh and Blood for us.

I wanted to cry. Tears came down. I was filled with immense emotion, couldn't look at Mary's statue. I love Him so much. I am aware of all the souls that will be lost because they do not know His love. I know it so well. I can't speak.

The world stands still and it is so clear to me about the existence of the other side. It is as if I am not here. I know His love so much. He is so much ONE with me. I want to help others to know this love!

He died so they would go to heaven and what do I do to tell others of this love?

I love Him so much and I love all others because they are one in Him and I want to spread His love.

My heart is torn apart in my chest for souls that I know will be lost because they did not know Him and He wants to love them so much. He loves them so much that He gave His Flesh and Blood for them.

I cry for the souls that are on the way to hell if they do not change. I cry for the senseless ones. I cry for my beloved brothers whom I love so deeply.

Crying is no way to release agonies of the heart. That is why He sweat Blood. That is why Mary appears crying blood, her face cracked.

This is reality. This is the world. These are His beloved ones. God, the Father, loves them so dearly. Jesus died for them. The Holy Spirit loves them so. Mary is by their sides and with all this, they will be lost forever to hell if they do not change.

Prayer is the answer. No drop of water will ever quench their thirst if they go to hell. Our prayers are our love for our brothers.

Mary speaks: My children, my heart was pierced with a sword to watch my beloved Son suffer so for love of you. Pray the rosary for our beloved brothers. Sacrifice, offer your days in union with the Mass for their souls. Time is so short, my beloved ones. Pray, pray, pray. Your prayers can help save the lives of your brothers. Time is short. I am Mary, your Mother and thank you for responding to my call.





On September 3, 1994 - First Saturday

Messenger: I suffered the greatest sorrow within my heart for the sorrows of Mary. I had gone to Mass and the priest had done the peace rosary.

This is what would happen to me at Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center. My heart would be in such anguish because of the sorrows of Mary I experienced. I would be buckled over in pain. This day I was before the Sorrowful Mother statue in the back of the main chapel. We were going to the Falmouth, Kentucky Farm, that day to pray. I was so drained and weak from this experience, I thought I could not go. I was weakened, so weakened, the experience lasted about an hour and was so intense. I existed in this intense pain of the Immaculate Heart.

That afternoon we came for the 6:30 p.m. prayers where Our Lady would appear. At 6:00 p.m. I went to the tabernacle in the Rosary Chapel and there was this picture of Jesus to the left of the tabernacle and a candle with the Sacred Heart of Jesus on it. There was sunlight in the room from the rosary windows. I sat before the tabernacle on the altar as I had done so many times, before the picture and left of the tabernacle. I began to experience the deepest agony of His Heart. I knew the sorrow of His Heart for all who do not come before Him in the Blessed Sacrament. I knew His sorrow so deep within me for all the blocks I had experienced in delivering the messages. I was so weakened and I was suffering. Then the lights in the room dimmed and the picture of the Sacred Heart turned black before me. I could very faintly see His outline behind the blackness. The candle of the Sacred Heart went out. I sat on the end of my chair in pain and suffering and a fear shot through me. I wondered what had happened. It remained this way for about 5 minutes.

Then the light in the room returned, the candle went on and the picture became bright, all instantaneously, brighter than ever before. I went to the back of the chapel where Mary would appear, to do the 6:30 p.m. prayers and I cried. I was so shaken from the experience. Father Carter was there for the prayers. I was told to tell Father Smith, which I did.



September 5, 1994

One In Him

Messenger: To be separate from God is to be lonely. I am to be one in Him. I was created, and my being craves union with Him. The further I am from this union, the more my soul needs this union. The craving becomes stronger the closer I get to Him.

But this union cannot be on this earth as close as my soul craves. The awareness of this desire for union makes me closer to Him. He is one in me and I am one in Him.

The more I reach an awareness that God truly dwells within me, the more this awareness brings me my peace.

The longing in my soul is a longing for completeness, only found in God.

I do not want to be alone. God unites Himself to us and we are made whole in Him.

Any existence without Him is an intense state of loneliness.

The soul craves Him as steel is drawn to a magnet. The closer the soul gets to Him, the more it is pulled as steel is pulled to a magnet. Other things surrounding the steel have little significance because the pull is so strong to the magnet.

I am pulled to Jesus. I want ever so much more. There is a pull that exists, that pulls me to Him and Him alone. In the earlier letter He said, "You are drawn to Me like steel to a magnet". I thought of a little pull, a wanting to be united. I understand this day that this pull is such a pull that it is almost impossible to be separate! It is a drawing together in power of one to the other. This is the power I feel in front of the tabernacle. I feel a sadness to leave.

I feel a presence in my chest after Communion, sometimes immense fullness when I am meditating on the Trinity and Mary. There is definitely a presence within my heart.

As I realize this presence within me, I realize I cannot mistreat others or myself. My awareness of His oneness with you compels me to love you because you are one in Him.

We are all one in Him and I see my brothers as true brothers in Christ with God the Father as our Father. It becomes harder for me not to love as I grow in my awareness of God. We are all one in Christ. How can I not love my brothers when you are the divine creation of my Father and Jesus gave His very Blood and Life for you?

How can I not love you, my bothers, when your very own Father and Mother are my very own Father and Mother?

We are all one body in Christ. To hate you is to hate part of the Body of Christ. I feel so much more united to all of humanity, the more I grow in my love and union with Him.

To die to myself and put on Christ happens in varying degrees. As I love, I love more intently. I surrender more fully. I am in a state of union with Him, to a more intense union with Him.

The more I die to myself, the more He possesses my soul, the more I am united in Him.

Love provides the warmth, the spark, the flutter in my heart, the flicker in the fire, the roaring emotion in my heart. God wants love and union with us.

Song: Let There Be Peace on Earth

    His greatest commandment: "You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind. This is the greatest and the first commandment. The second resembles it: You must love your neighbour as yourself."

    I want to know about God because I crave this greater union with God. To be as steel to the magnet, I am pulled closer to God, the closer I get. It is an attraction, it powers my very being. I am powered, I thirst after, as a dry and weary desert land, my soul is thirsting for the one I love.

Song: "Your Love is Finer than Life".

Jesus: I am your beloved Jesus. I love you with such an intense love, in your feeble minds you will never comprehend the immensity of this love for you! I impart to you secrets into My love. I want such union with you. You must realize this intense presence within your being. Remember the vision. Remember the intense light on the picture. My light never goes out. (He refers to the vision of September 3, 1994). Your days may be darkened by the times but My love forever burns brightly in your heart. The lights dim, the sun ceases to shine, your interior union with Me forever burns brightly. I am Who Am. I am the Almighty God. I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus. Do not fear for I am forever within you, dwelling and burning brightly. I am one in your soul. You are My precious one. I never go from you, My Heart is forever one in yours.

    My Mother is one with Me, our Hearts beat together in such love. This is union dwelling in the Two Hearts - meditate on your oneness to Our Two Hearts. I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus, illuminated with the most ardent love for you. I am Jesus, your beloved One. Meditate on your union with the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. It is this protection that gives you peace and keeps you from the scorching sun. This, little one, is the mystery of life: Union with God!

Messenger: Notes: I first went to the tabernacle because of my struggles. I prayed more and more. Now I am drawn like a pull so strong and do not want to leave. No matter how dim and dark my life, His love is forever there. Even if I can't attend Mass, no one can take away my union with Him. I am forever free. He is what matters. He allows things to happen. Think of God, truly inside you!

Songs:

     Lady of Light

     Remember Your Love

     I Have Loved You

     You Are Near

     Take and Eat

     Oh Lord, I Am Not Worthy

     Hail Mary, Gentle Woman

R. When I realize His presence within me, I do not want to hurt anyone. I know how He loves me and how precious I am to Him.
     I am one in God. You are one in God. I cannot love God and not love you!

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September 7, 1994

Title: This Is Reality!

R. What a feeling! I feel oneness with the Holy Trinity, a feeling of flutters in my chest, as in being in love. I am at peace to know the Holy Trinity dwells within me. I am so filled in my heart to know Father, Son and Holy Spirit. I cannot explain. I love God so much and I feel this constant awareness of God in my heart.

    He gave me intellectual visions in which I was so aware of the presence of Father, Son and Holy Spirit that it felt as if the world stopped, it wouldn't have mattered. I received such awareness of the other side, such an awareness of God's love, there is such peace to know this in my heart, my heart feels so full. I feel the presence of the indwelling of the One, Triune God within me!

   It is so clear: why do we worry when this is reality? Such an awareness of God - I feel His presence within me.





September 8, 1994

Focus On This, My Presence

Jesus speaks: Be, My child, of a clean heart. I come into your heart in a special way. The interior awareness of the Holy Trinity is what I want you to always have. Such awareness that I, God, am so closely bonded to your heart. This bond is like glue, My Godly glue. I bind Myself to you in your heart. Your interior union with Me will light up your chest and your heart will beat as one with Mine.

Focus on this, My Presence. I am united to you in the deepest love. Bonded to your heart, your heart set ablaze by My power and My might. You will have peace and joy when you realize My intense union with you.

I am here, child. I am joined to your heart in such union. I live and dwell within your breast. Die totally to yourself and live only in My love.

Read and reread this letter. Keep it in your purse. I want this complete union with you. The immensity of the Father's love for you and the love of the Holy Spirit and Mary will forever fill your chest. I am espoused to your heart. I am your most precious Jesus, Son of God. My child, surrender yourself to Me. I love you.

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September 8, 1994

Visions during the Shepherds of Christ Meeting

Mary appeared to me

Sept. 7: Mary appeared during the first decade of the first rosary and then was greatly illuminated during two decades of the second rosary. People from the chapter were present.

Sept. 8: I saw Jesus' face two times when Sr. Rita and I prayed over a baby. I saw a green square, same color of green as around Mary's statue in Medjugorje.

I saw a green square on Sept. 9th when I got a letter and was crying. I saw His face on the shroud. It was during the reading of my letter on Sept. 9th.

Mary was so illuminated, all white, she was holding something dazzling, and she remained this way a long time. I saw her eyes move and look at Cathy. Jesus' mouth moved as Father Carter read the Sacred Heart Litany.

Sept. 9: Mary's face was so beautiful. They turned on the lights and I saw her, so white and so beautiful and bright. (I had seen the same thing happening on Sept. l and 2).

September 8, 1994

I Go to Light Your Path

Jesus speaks: I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus. My child, keep your mind forever fixed on Me. You wander not this barren desert alone, I go with you to light the path. The miracles are all around you. I never ever go from your side. I dwell forever in your heart.

You may wander, you may feel as if the road is crooked and you are going alone, but never do you go by yourself -- never do I abandon you, never do I wander from your side!

Oh, sweet one, keep your eyes forever fixed on your heavenly Father. Do not take your eyes from Him. Your Kingdom awaits, your day is at hand. You counted yourself blessed by the glories of the Lord you encountered in this life, you do not know what awaits you in your heavenly home!

Eye has not seen, ear has not heard, what God has ready for those who love Him. Keep your eyes forever fixed on this reward. You wait not in vain. You wait for a treasure far beyond any words. You will see the face of God and live.

Live in My love. Let your life be filled by My life that you will live it to the full in the years to come. You are My chosen ones. You are My heirs. Keep your hearts pure and your eyes on the Father. He loves you so much. Alleluia. Alleluia.

September 9, 1994

Agonies Of The Heart

R. I realized in church that the Mary statue in the residence chapel is the same vision I had of Mary on the Feast of St. Joseph, March 19th. She was on the left side of the altar. She was holding the child, long and slender, same form, a light came down from above and surrounded her. (St. Gertrude's Church, at the Gospel, Sat. Feast of St. Joseph).

    My heart, after communion, feels as if I will break. I want union with Him so much. No tears, nothing will satisfy this intense longing to want Him ever more. I just want Him so much. I feel as if nothing can express my feelings. I know it is an intense ache for union and nothing will make it better but Him. I crave union with Him, total and complete. I want to know the Father. I want God's love so much. My heart longs for the courts of the Lord.
Such intense longing, for I love Him so much. I feel like I will die from the ache in my heart.
Jesus speaks: My soul aches for you, My precious child. How I long for your love. How I gave My very Self for you and this day I am ignored and forgotten. I am God. I am in your midst this very day, but people are so fixed on the things of this world.

Do you know how My soul longs for union with My precious ones? I allow you to experience the feeling of intense longing as if your heart will break. My love I pour out to all My beloved ones and I am ignored and forgotten. I give Myself to them. I remain with them in such intense love in the Eucharist and I am ignored.

Oh, My child, I give this to you to reach My little ones with this knowledge of My Heart. No one knows the pains of the heart as I suffered so for the neglect. To give My very own Flesh and Blood and be rejected and treated so coldly by those I died for! Agonies of the heart, the greatest of all agonies and My love so freely given for all. My Heart, a burning furnace of endless love, swelling up with such intensity and ardent love, to be ignored and forgotten!

My child, My Heart is as you cannot even comprehend, but I give Myself to you because I love them so. Tell them of My love. Your heart aches as I allow you to experience such heartache. My child, My child, suffer for Me. I love you so much. I give this to you in greatest love to be closer to Me.

You are My most precious child. I love you so very much. Draw yourself into the abyss of My love, draw yourself deep within My Heart. Let go, totally, let go and experience My Heart. My Mother leads you to My very precious Heart. It is through her Heart you are being placed so deeply into Mine. Let go and experience My most tender love for you. I am your precious Jesus. I love you so deeply, My beloved. Let go! Your resistance to let go is what keeps us from greater union. Totally surrender, giving your all to Me.

R.   I know a little how He suffered because He loves us so much. Such heartache, to love so much. He is forgotten by so many. How His Heart suffered for those souls He loved that would go to hell. For some very sinful pleasures of the body, some have lost their souls. I experience this suffering before the tabernacle or after receiving the Eucharist in Mass. He suffered immense pain. He suffered for the ignorance of so many. He is truly here this day and in our midst. This is the Son of God, truly present. I feel such connection to His pain suffered in the garden. He suffered so for the indifference, neglect, ingratitude of so many souls. He suffered for the injustices to the Blessed Sacrament, the Sacrament of His greatest love.

    He gives Himself and He is rejected. What pain, agonies of the heart. He loves us so much and He is rejected by so many. He is treated coldly and ignored.

    Jesus took on a human body. He loves us so much. He gave Himself, His very flesh and blood that we might have life! He is, this day, ignored. People have made themselves and others their gods. Many who receive Him in the Eucharist, do not realize He is truly present. Some do not have time to spend with Him and learn to know Him. Many of His precious souls know every sports star, they know all about the sport stars' lives but do not have time for the Son of God. Many souls do not have time for Jesus who gave His life for them!

Jesus: Oh, you blind world, oh you senseless ones, I am, Who Am. God created you. Many of your hearts have turned cold and forgotten your God! I come as a thief in the night. Many souls will be lost forever. What more do you want Me to do? I give you a free will, I love you so very much, and you do not come to Me. Do not live your life in vain. You wandered down roads that led you to your own destruction.

    My Mother appears to lead you to My most Sacred Heart.

My children, My Heart waits for you. I am forever loving you with the same burning love. Turn not your backs to Me. I am the Almighty God. It is through Me you will be saved. If you love and serve Me, you will live in heaven forever and ever.

Alleluia.

* Vision: (I saw a door twice, saw His face twice in an interior vision.)  Mary is the door we must go through to be placed in the inner recesses of His Heart. She carried our Beloved Savior in her womb. She taught Him how to be gentle, how to have a kind Heart. Now she is our spiritual mother, she molds us and leads us to her Son.

* Jesus wants us to pray the Prayer for Union with Him.

September 9, 1994

Be The Light That Shines In The Darkness

R. The devil wants to put out the light of Christ that shines from your hearts.

Jesus speaks: You are the light that shines in the dark night.

To be My light shining forth to this world you must come and take refuge in My most Sacred Heart. I came as a little Child into your midst. The star shone bright above Me and I entered into this world. I am He Who lights the dark night. You will cast this light to this world if you are fixed in Me. Be the light that shines in the darkness. I am the Light of this world. You are My little lights that shine so deeply into the darkness. My Heart is a burning flame. When you take refuge in My Heart you are a light to the dark world. Come and dwell deeply in My most Sacred Heart, placed there by My most dear Mother.

Be as you are called by the Father, to shine forth to this world. I am He Who calls you now to go forth and light up this world with the fire of My most Sacred Heart. The love of the one, triune God, is that which powers you. If you are in the state of grace, Our life is so alive in you. You will radiate Our love to this world. My flame of love never falters. Take shelter from every affliction in My Sacred Heart.

I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus. I want to light this world with My love. Let Me shine and operate from you. Pray My Prayer for Union with Me. Offer yourself totally to the Father with Me in the Holy Spirit at every Mass. Stand under the cross with Mary and give yourself in total surrender to the Father. He has such plans for you. He loves you so much. You are the light that shines in the darkness. Let your light shine and they will see the God Who dwells in your breast. You are so loved, My most precious child. I am Jesus, My Heart is aglow for love of you.

R. The devil comes and brings with him a mask of darkness. He is deception. He is confusion. It takes a step to willingly open our hearts to God, to let the Holy Spirit in our hearts and let Him fill us with His life! We cannot close our heart. Let go! We must be open and surrendering.

    Jesus loved us so much He gave His life. The Father loved us so much He gave His only Son. The Spirit is the love between the Father and the Son. The Son knows the Father's love. It was this that gave Him strength on Calvary. He always knew the Father's love. It is love that gives us peace. The more we realize the intense love of the Father, the greater our peace. We are so loved by Father, Son and Holy Spirit. They love us in a way we cannot imagine. God: Father, Son and Holy Spirit dwell within us in a special way when we are in the state of grace.

    It is this love that fills me and gives me peace and joy. God is love. His love within us gives us our peace.

Oh, Holy Spirit, come and fill me, as You did the apostles and Mary, with the fire of God's love, so I am no longer afraid but fearlessly in love with God, that I preach His gospel in my being to all I meet. Make me holy, oh Spirit, sanctify me with Your love. I am Yours, open and surrendering. I am Your servant, You are my God!

September 10, 1994

Prayers Will Transform Your Land

Messenger: Light comes every day. There was total darkness throughout the land and as quietly as could be the morning light shone over this same land. Do we question that there existed total darkness and then the light appeared in such grandeur?

Jesus speaks: There will be darkness throughout the earth; men's hearts will turn cold and dark and the light of the love of God will, as quietly, steal across these same hearts and transform them into hearts on fire and alive. What, My child, will do this? The power of the Almighty God can change men's hearts that are dead in sin to hearts that are alive and vibrant, radiating the love of God. Pray, My little one, more than anything you do, your prayers will be that which transforms your land from darkness to light. Only the might of the Almighty God can do this. This is a miracle. A heart, dead in sin, can be touched by the hand of God.

Live My love in your hearts. You are My hands to this dark world. You radiate the love of God from your very being. The most important thing you can do for this earth is to develop your love affair with God. Everything follows from that. If your hearts are set on the Lord, your might will be great. You will shine in the darkest night. The darker the night, the brighter your light. My light is so bright that nothing can compare to or equal this light. Its intensity shines brighter than ever against the dark night.

Oh, My children, if you only believed as you should. You worry for needless tasks. You see the world and you think you control it. You, children, control nothing. I never slumber, I never sleep, I never go away. My light is a vibrant force that shines from the hearts centered in My love.

Keep your hearts pure. Be about your love affair with Me. Come to My altar and receive the one, true God, totally present and in your midst this very day. Sit with Me and soak in My might. Come to the tabernacle. I am the Almighty God. I cast a light from the tabernacle that penetrates your soul. You are filled with My power. I am the Almighty God, truly present there. No less present than the day I walked this earth.

You, My little ones, need to spread this good news. Jesus Christ is Lord. He has died, He is risen, He is in your midst this very day! Come to Me, My little babies, and sit with Me. I await with such gifts for you to come. My Heart is burning for love of you. I penetrate your soul with My might. Come and be transformed by the light of Christ. Sit before Me in the tabernacle. You will receive such power as My might transforms your soul. You needn't fret and worry. Pray children, offer your days up to the Father, through the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass. Offer your lives for all your brothers, living and dead. You have a mighty weapon. Pray. Do not spend time in idle talk discussing the hardened hearts of this world. Offer your days in prayer. Pray constantly. I am the Almighty God. I go before you, I will light the way.

Keep your hearts ever set on the mysteries of Christ. It is through Me you will reach such heights. I am the Almighty God. I go before you. I gave My life that you would live. I loved you to My death, My sweet children. Come to Me and I will give you rest.

Alleluia.



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September 10, 1994

Glorious Mysteries



Resurrection

Messenger: The connection between Mary and Jesus is so strong. To understand Jesus' life, I can see it much clearer through Mary. She raised Him from a Baby and showed Him her gentle ways. She guided Him in all the ways a mother guides her child.

Mary and Jesus are so closely united. She held Him as a Baby, she saw Him all through His Life and suffered so when she received His lifeless body under the cross. She knew that He was dead. What an experience to feel the Life gone from His body! They locked Him in the tomb and she stayed close by, not wanting to leave Him.

Now, Mary with all her memories, all her love, in her most tender heart that lived all the moments of Jesus' life, beholds Him alive after the Resurrection! Such joy for her to see her most beloved Son in such splendor and life!

Jesus is Life. Once again, Mary through her tender heart, the heart that lived His Life with Him, the heart overjoyed while she felt Him grow in her body, the heart that held Him as a Child, that peered into the Baby eyes of the Son of God, the heart that was torn in her chest by the seven sorrows of her life, now beholds Jesus, truly alive and full of such brilliance!

Oh, Mary, let us experience Jesus through your heart. His joys, His sufferings. Let us know your Son more. Help us to love Him through your heart, to see Him through your eyes. From the first moment of conception until He ascended into heaven, let us experience Jesus through your heart. As the Child Jesus was formed in your womb, as you guided His little Life through your gentleness and love, guide us to be more and more like your Son.

Mary speaks: Oh, my beloved children, if you could see what I saw. If you could see my Son's Life. You can experience His Life in your heart. Pray to be led by the Spirit to know and love God more. I am your loving Mother. Through my heart I lead you to the Heart of my dearest Son. The Spirit will give you His gifts to lead you closer and closer to the love of God. It is through Jesus you are led to the Father. I am your Mother and I forever take you to the gentle Heart of my Son.

My Son loves you so much. I saw my Son born. I saw Him die and I saw Him rise for your life eternal. Do not throw away this great gift, the gift of Himself. He gave that you might live.

It is in your commitment to my Son, it is in your love and service to Him that you will inherit the Kingdom prepared for you. I saw Him as a Baby, I watched Him as a Child and I saw Him suffer so for love of you. He gave His Life that you would have life.



Ascension

Jesus took the Apostles to the town of Bethany and gave them His final blessing.

He raised His arms and ascended into heaven.

They stood below in utter amazement of what had happened.

He ascended to the Father. He had risen from the dead.

These are the Glorious Mysteries.

Imagine the grief in the hearts of Mary and the Apostles to see Him go!

Jesus remains truly present and with us in the Eucharist.

He gave Himself on the Cross. He gives Himself to us this very day in the Eucharist.

He loved us so much He died for us. He rose to give us new life.

Jesus is truly present Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity in the Eucharist.

He gives Himself to us this day. He wants us to visit Him in the tabernacle.

Who are we that He loves us so much?

R. Oh, my Jesus, help me to realize more how much You love me and that You gave Your life for me. You rose from the dead so I could share in Your life. You did this for me. You remain this very day, in the Eucharist! He gave us a special sharing in His life through baptism. He remains with us in our hearts. God dwells within our hearts.

Jesus: I am the Way, the Truth and the Life, My precious ones. I dwell within your heart. Keep your souls forever holy. I want to dwell in your heart.

R. We should be holy.

Jesus, make me holy. I want You in my heart. I am Yours, Lord, I ask You to sanctify my soul.

Mary, help me to love Jesus through your sinless heart.

Jesus: I am your precious Savior. I have not left you, I dwell within you, My beloved one.



Descent of the Holy Spirit on the Apostles and the Virgin Mary

R. When the Holy Spirit descended on Mary and the apostles, what joy for Mary's heart.

Jesus promised to send the Holy Spirit. A giant wind blew and there appeared over their heads, parted tongues of fire.

The Holy Spirit descended on the Apostles and the Virgin Mary.

What joy for Mary to see the apostles so fearless.

Oh, Holy Spirit, come to us, fill our hearts with the fire of Your love. Where we were full of fear, make us fearless, for we long to have the courage to do all God asks of us.



As Mary appeared at the old seminary

Assumption

Mary was taken up to heaven.

She lived her whole life in service of God: Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Now she was taken up to heaven.

Mary has not left, she remains with us. She is wherever Jesus is. She is our spiritual mother. She is forever by our side. She loves us as she mothers us with such motherly love.

Who are we to have Mary as our Mother?

Mary's statue in the residence chapel: face changed. She is so gorgeous. Like other statues, she looks so beautiful! I see Jesus and Mary, from when Jesus was a baby to His hanging on the cross, to His rising.

Mary watched it all. A young Mary and older Mary, a sad Mary, a joyful Mary.

His mother forever in union with Him.

He was carried in her womb and formed in her body.

She held Him as a child.

She peered into His eyes on Calvary.

She held Him under the cross.

Now she sees Him aglow after the Resurrection.

To know Christ is to see Him through Mary's eyes. Feel

Him through Mary's heart. Love Him through Mary.



February 5, 2004



The Coronation

The Two Hearts - the Sacred Heart - the Immaculate Heart.

Mary is crowned Queen of Heaven and Earth.

Can you imagine Mary's great joy to be crowned Queen of Heaven and Earth?

Can you imagine her immense joy to be in heaven?

Can we imagine her joy to see the angels and saints praising God?

Mary is my most beloved mother and now she reigns in the courts of heaven.

* She who carried the baby Jesus in her womb, who held Him in her arms, who walked by Him during the passion, who stood under His cross, who held His lifeless body and watched Him, locked in the tomb...Now is taken up to heaven and crowned Queen of Heaven, forever to reign in the courts of heaven with her Beloved Son!

Mary, my mother, is crowned Queen.

She forever intercedes for us, her beloved children, and cares for our every need as a loving mother.

Jesus gave to us His mother and she is the Queen of Heaven.



Mary appearing in priest residents chapel.

Note: I see the same beautiful face of Mary on the Sorrowful Mother statue, I am seeing it now.

God lives in us.



September 11, 1994

Title: Your Offering Is Pleasing to the Father

Jesus: My dear child, do your everyday activities, according to the Father's will in love. Pray for intense union with Me. I love you so very much. I am Jesus Christ, Son of the Living God. I am guarding your way. I am not far off. I am with you this very day.

Souls are being lost. Say your morning offering. Offer all your actions united to the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass going on around the world. Your life is important to your brothers. Your Father wants this offering. Pray for greater union with Me. Bind your heart to our Lady's Heart and be placed so deeply in My Heart.

I am Jesus, your precious Savior, I love you so much.

R.   If the lights in the world go out, if I am in darkness, I still have the awareness of God's presence within my being, no matter how dark. If the wind blows and sun ceases to give its light, I still am at peace because of this interior union with God.



September 5, 2001

September 5, 2001

Jesus and Mary did not appear as usual in light on the building.



Jesus: You realize this union within you. Your struggles may be times when you are deeply united to Me. Spend your moments being aware of My constant love for you. Discipline your thoughts to put worry aside and focus on My love. My love never falters, it is forever burning in your heart. I love you so much.

R. I am realizing every time I meditate on Mary and how one she is with Jesus, my heart is drawn so close to Him. It is through her I become more deeply united to Him, I am drawn closer in union with Him. Her sufferings, her love, her heart, leads me to such closeness to Him.

   A man at church could not get the lights on around the tabernacle. All the other lights were on but they would not go on. Jesus said to me, "I can light up the room. If I showed Myself, you would be blinded by the light.." That if He truly showed us His might, we may be blinded.

He is the Almighty God. He told me once: if He showed Himself to us in great light, we may fall down to the floor, we could be blinded by the rays!

Oh how foolish we are and how blind to not realize He is God and He is truly present in such love, waiting to give Himself in love to us in the Holy Eucharist, and wanting us to share His love. He wants us to love Him!

    Jesus, open up my closed heart to know You more and feel Your presence. You are my beloved. You are why I live. You I love with my whole heart!

    Today I feel a quiet awareness of Him. It is in these times my faith is strengthened. He gives me just as I need. Today I need to depend on my faith. I long for the times I feel His presence more, but it is in these moments, I grow in my faith.

September 11, 1994

Mary's Heart

R. It is through Mary's heart I know the Heart of Jesus more. She carried Him in her womb. She took Him to the temple. She fled with Him into Egypt. She lost Him for a brief time. She cared for Him all through His young life. She watched Him heal the sick and preach the love of God. She watched the gentle ways of God. She knew His joy and suffering. She knew His Heart. She walked next to Him on Calvary and peered into His eyes. She stood under His cross and watched Him die. She held His lifeless body. She cried outside of His tomb and she saw His beautiful body after the Resurrection. She saw Him ascend into heaven.

How well does the heart of Mary know and love the Heart of Jesus! She is closer to Him than is any other human person. The Father and Holy Spirit are one with Him. It is through this knowing of His most tender Heart that she wants to place us so tenderly into Jesus' Heart. She, who knows His Heart so well, she who is without sin, she who is close to Him, she who loved Jesus and knew Him so dearly, she is the way to reach the deepest part of His Heart. She is the door to Jesus. It is through her heart that I am most closely united in deepest love with my Jesus.

Mary knows the Father's love. It was He Who created her sinless and chose her to be the Mother of His Son. She knew well the love of her Spouse, the Holy Spirit. She was filled with the Holy Spirit when Jesus was conceived. She was filled with the Holy Spirit at Elizabeth's house. She was filled all through her life. She was filled on Pentecost. She knew the love of the Holy Spirit. She is the human person closest to God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit. It is through her most knowing and loving heart that we will reach the deepest intimacy with God.

Prayer: Mary, through your Immaculate Heart, place us in the deepest part of Jesus' Heart so we can more deeply love Him. It is through your heart and Jesus' Heart we want to have a deeper union with the Father.

Dear Holy Spirit, impart to us Your gifts to lead us to such love, to union with the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Lead us in Your ways to know God and love Him more fully. Give us all Your seven gifts: Wisdom, Knowledge, Piety, Fear of the Lord, Understanding, Fortitude, Counsel. Lead us to greater union with God. Impart to us the fire of Your love. Where we were once blind, let us see. Fill us with Your love, Oh, Holy Spirit, through Mary's Immaculate Heart, we pray. Amen.



September 11, 1994

Title: Let Go and Know the Love of God

Jesus: Do not let the devil talk in your head. You must know the great love I have for you. Your Father loves you with the deepest love. Let go and know His love. My child, I love you so much.

     Come to My Heart. Come and be with Me in peace. I am Jesus, the Son of God.

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September 12, 1994

Holy Spirit Center 6:00 p.m.

After Communion

R. I experience Him in my heart. To write this note I have an intense warmness and immense awareness of His presence within my heart. I hear Him talk to me in my heart. I feel Him in my heart. My heart knows what my pen cannot write. My relationship with Him flows from my heart.

I saw such a connection between Mary and Jesus' Heart and mine - I saw this connection between my heart and His Heart as if bound together.

It is so clear to me to be one with Him, I connect in my heart. To be hardened in heart is to not know that deep oneness with Him.

I Know, and Love Him in my heart - words do not describe it. When I write this letter, my heart burns. My connection is to His Heart. Realizing Mary's oneness with Him, her sharing in all of His life makes my relationship with Him so tender, so deep, so much more deeply loving.





September 12, 1994

Title: You Too Will Be Raised Up

R. As Mary held the infant Son in her arms, with such joy, she was in such joy to see Him as He appeared after His Resurrection.

As Mary held the infant Son in her arms with such joy, she saw Him as He raised His arms and ascended to the Father.

She beheld her baby child. This is the Son of God. This is Jesus who died and rose on the 3rd day. She held His tender body now. She sees Him after He resurrected from the tomb. He came to this world to bring us new life that we might have it to the full.

Jesus: I am the Way, the Truth and the Life. I come to give you new life that you may have it to the full. My Mother carried Me - she gave Me to you. I have died and I have risen and I ascend to My Father.

You, too, will be raised up some day. The gates of heaven have been opened and you are heirs of the Kingdom. It is through My Blood that you are saved. You can have the fullness of life in My Kingdom.

    You will experience this life as you live in Me. I am with you this very day. You need stay fixed in Me. I am the true bread come down from heaven. He who eats this bread will live forever.

John 6: 48-51

I am the bread of life.
Your fathers ate manna in the desert
and they are dead;
but this is the bread
    which comes down from heaven,
so that a person may eat it and not die.
I am the living bread
    which has come down from heaven.
Anyone who eats this bread
    will live for ever;
and the bread that I shall give
is my flesh, for the life of the world.’

The bread I give is My very own flesh, the drink, My very own blood. Come and receive Me for I come to you, My beloved ones that you may share My life and have it in abundance.

    I am the bread of life. It is through Me you will rise into eternal life. I am the Almighty God. I speak here that you will spread the good news this very day. Jesus Christ, the Son of God, has died and He has risen and you are His heirs to enter His Kingdom.

    His Kingdom is not of this world. Open your hearts, be not afraid to trust totally in Him. I come as a baby in the womb of the Blessed Virgin Mary. I come for you, My dear little ones. I come to bring you life. It is through Me you will have this life.

    Come and sup with Me, My children, My little ones, it is only through Me that you will receive this sharing in My life.

Children, children, come and be taught by Me. I am the Way. I am the Truth. I am the Life. I come to you, My little ones, this very day. Open your hearts. Let go and experience the God who loves you with His Heart on fire. Experience He who was born a mere human and gave His very own flesh and blood for you. Experience the life I bring you!

    Come and receive Me, God, the Son of God, truly present this day in the Eucharist. I give you Myself. I gave Myself on the cross. Open your feeble hearts. Open yourself. Let Me permeate your being and possess your soul. I want to be forever united to you, My precious ones. Open yourselves to Me, this day.
    There is no time to waste. I go before you. You are My faithful witnesses. I am Jesus Christ. I have died and I have risen that you will share in My life. Alleluia.

September 14, 1994

Title: Words Are Meaningless Without Grace

R. My messages are from Jesus, but they are words. When I read them, I unite deeper to Him. He gives me the gift to comprehend what the words say. He gives me the gift of His life. He lets us share in His life.

    Why do we call the Bible the Living Word of God? It becomes alive when He pours out His gifts on us to make it live in our hearts. I am changed when I read the Word of God! I am excited reading the Word. I am so excited at the Mass when I hear His Word! I love Him so much. I love His Word. It is His gift to me!

    I love the Mass so much. He gives me His gift to be able to come to Mass with such love and feelings in my heart I cannot express in words. I am so excited inside. This is the gift He pours out to me to participate in the Mass with such joy. I am so thankful to sit in front of the tabernacle where He pours Himself out to me. He gives me such gifts, He penetrates my very being.

Jesus: I came that you might have life to the fullest. I am living in you.

R. Lord, for You alone do I live. My heart is fluttering for I know You live in me. I long for You, my Divine God: Father, Son and Holy Spirit. My life only has meaning as it is lived in You. You bring us to new life. I thirst after greater union with You. I long for Your presence ever greater within me.
    To know You is to love You, Lord. To know You is to want more. I have known life in You and You alone. My life has no meaning without You. You are the Almighty God. I am yours Lord. I live in You. You are my life. I love You so much!




September 13, 1994

5:30 a.m.

Title: Mary Saw It All

R. Mary saw it all. She lived it all. She carried Him, she held Him, she fed Him. If I am to know Christ, I must go through His Mother's heart because she knew Him best. Her heart was filled with joy. Her heart was pierced with a sword. She saw, she felt, she lived her life with His. He was formed in the womb of the Blessed Mother by the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit gives us His gifts to know God more.

Oh, Lord, how I thirst to know You more! How I long for Your life. The Holy Spirit is God. He is a Spirit. He is on fire. He is love.

Prayer:

Spirit of God, pour Yourself out on me, release Your grace to me. Make me full of this fire for love of God. Let me know Your presence, God alive in my heart.

I love You so, God. I love you, Mary. Please work in me. I long for closer union with God: the Father, Son and Holy Spirit through Mary's Immaculate Heart.

Jesus: I am the Way, the Truth and the Life. I am Jesus, your precious Savior. My life is a vibrant force that can be actively alive in your heart. Your heart is the center of your life. Constantly be aware of its existence within you. I communicate to you in your heart. You know Me in your heart. I am alive and burning in your heart. I am God and I come and dwell within your heart. I want to have My life in you. Let go, My precious ones. I love you so very much. I want to be one in you. Pray the Prayer for Union with Me.
It is in this union you will experience such peace. The more you unite with God, the more you live your life as God the Father intended. Pray for this union. Ask Mary to place you tenderly in My Heart. The Holy Spirit is her Spouse. She will deeply place you in My Heart.


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September 13, 1994

Title: To Know Him is to Love Him

R. Mary pondered the ways of Jesus' Heart. She kept all these things in her heart. She knows Jesus' Heart.

     If I want to know someone, I want someone who knows them well to instruct me all about that person. I am thirsty. Mary knows the ways of His Heart. She instructs me in the ways of His Heart. She lived His sorrows and His joys. His Heart was formed in her womb. She is and was so close to Him.

     To love someone, I just love them. I accept them as they are, I just love them. I love their heart. I love all the things I do not touch. I grow in love the more I know them.

     To know God is to love Him. He is love. He is all good. How do I know Him more? Someone can tell me about Him. I am hungry for His love but it takes the gifts of the Spirit working in me to understand, to know, to be wise, to thirst after this love. It takes grace that He gives to me to know Him. Ultimately, it is a gift from Him whereby I know Him more. He gives me the knowledge to understand.

     Oh, God, how I thirst with all my heart to know, love and serve You more. I live for this union with You. Open me, oh Spirit, to know the things of God, to grow in deepest love of God. Impart to me all the graces I need for such union with You. I am Yours, Lord, mold me, fashion me into the creation the Father wants me to be.

     I am fullest when I am deeply united to my God and aware of my relationship with Him, spending time with Him. He fills me. I am more like the Father intended me to be. I become more one in Him. I love you more as I see God living within you. I must look for the Christ in every living being.

     The gifts of the Spirit come from God. I need the gifts of the Spirit. I cannot explain the love of God in words. He gives me graces to comprehend this love. I know His love in my heart. I cannot describe this love in words. He ultimately releases gifts whereby I grow in my knowledge and love of Him.

Note: I stopped at the Center to be with Him for 20 minutes.

I just want to be with Him. To live in this world is a cross, I want to stay here in front of the tabernacle.

I realize His presence within constantly, but it is so joyful for me, so exciting for me to be with Him in front of the tabernacle--words do not express my feeling. I realize more and more the Father and the Holy Spirit.

I saw a ball of fire, I saw hearts merging.





September 14, 1994

Title: He Gives Us His Gifts

R. He has created us in His own image and likeness.

Mary's heart: More and more I experience her heart. She carried Him as a baby, she held Him as a child, she held Him under the cross, she wept outside the tomb, see her after the resurrection and experience Him through her heart. She knew Him more than anyone, she shows me her sorrowful face, her joyful face and old face and a young face. The Rosary is Their life - it becomes so alive in my heart.

I unite in my heart. I saw hearts with doors going upward, a ball of fire, then I saw Their Hearts. It is Their Hearts, powered by the love of the Holy Spirit that sends our hearts upward.

It is through the Spirit, He leads us to God. He knows exactly what we need to go to God. He gives us His gifts.
I can have all knowledge in the world. God gives me the grace to more understand deeply His mysteries. His life must live in my heart, it is more than knowledge and words. He gives me the ability to understand and love. Pray for His gifts - grace is poured out before the tabernacle.

September 17, 1994

Holy Spirit Center 7:00 a.m.

Looking At The Pieta

R. My dear Jesus, I ask to become closer to You, to grow so much more deeper in union with You.

Jesus: This is My great desire, My precious loved one and you feel so much further away.

Messenger: I know how close You are, Jesus. It is in suffering I am drawn ever closer to Your loving arms. It is so much harder to seek You when You feel further away.

Jesus, I hear Your gentle voice say, "I will never abandon you" and I see your lifeless body held by Your Mother.

(Looking at the Pieta):

This, Jesus, is true love. You gave Your very own life for me. I see Your dead body. This is a reality. You died for love of me. I see Your body strung out in Your Mother's arms. I see her weeping face holding her beloved Son. I see You, Jesus. You gave Your all, even to death. You, Oh Jesus, gave Yourself to Your very own death for love of me!

Jesus speaks: I give you life in Me child. It is through this life you are raised to new life. I am the Way. I am the Truth. I am the Life. This period of dryness is ended by this period of realization. I am God. I am Jesus. I gave My life for love of you, My dear, dear child. Come and be with Me, alone with Me My beloved one. Be alone with Me in your heart. When you wonder and worry, I am forever with you alive in your heart, loving you with such love that you do not fully know.

I never abandon you, My beloved one. I never go from your side. I am forever loving you with the most intense love at this moment.

Oh, My child, let go of it all and let Me caress you. I will hold you forever in a pocket in My most tender Heart. I am He Who loved you to My death. Hearken to Me and love Me. I never ever leave you. I love you consistently with the same intense love as the day I died for you. This, child, is My love for you.



September 17, 1994

This Is A Special Day For The Blue Book

Jesus speaks: This, child, is the 17^th. No meeting today? I want you to have a meeting whenever possible on the 17^th. It may be changed for a good reason, but I would like the 17^th.

This is a special day for the Blue Book. I pour out My special gifts to all who work on these messages. I want My beloved ones to read My intense letters of love.

Anyone who helps My letters to get out will be blessed abundantly by Me. I love each child so dearly.

Tell all to pray every day in union with the Mass. Pray for all your brothers living and dead. It is your prayers that will make the difference. Pray for all who read My messages that they will grow in their knowledge and love of God. Pray for them, pray for your brothers.

Strive to be more like Christ in all your actions. Meditate on My rosary as We have shown you. Lead others to pray the rosary with such fervor and love.

Your hearts will grow in peace and joy as you grow in your union with God. This is the purpose of your life, to be forever drawn closer to My most Sacred Heart through the tender Heart of My Mother.

I love you each so much, My beloved ones. I am with you in a special way this day. I love you with the most tender Heart. I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus, so closely joined in love with My beloved Mother. It is through her Heart and the leading of the Holy Spirit that you will be led so closely to My Heart and to the Father.

This is the mystery of life. Union with Father, Son and Holy Spirit through Mary's tender Heart. The more you grow in this union, the more your peace and joy increase.

Pray to God to release all the gifts you need to have greater knowledge and love of Him.

Pray to the Holy Spirit to lead you through Mary's heart.

Pray, pray, pray. I love you so. I am Your loving Jesus.





September 18, 1994

Title: Comfort in the Father's Love

R. The Father loves me so much. He loves me unconditionally. He created me. He wants me to do His will. He asks for two things: love God and love one another. He looks on me with the greatest love. If my children are "not nice", it is hard not to love them. I still love them no matter what and they are still my "cute" beloved children!

God, the Father, just loves us. If I am struggling and not very Christ-like, He still loves me. I find such great comfort in His love. He gives me what I need. I need to run to my Father when I feel frightened. He pours out His love to me as no earthly father could!





September 18, 1994

Prayer

My Father, I need you so much. Come and pour out Your love to me. Help me to grow in my relationship with You.

I love You so much, my dear Father. I am Your little child.

Mold me, fashion me, into Your little one.

I am Yours, Father, Your creation. I want to live according to Your plan for me and do Your will.
Help me to be an instrument of love, help my heart to be loving - pour out Your grace to me this day that I may know and love God more. I love You so much!

September 18, 1994

Mother Teresa's Prayer:
Mary, Mother of Jesus, give me your heart, so beautiful, so pure, so Immaculate, so full of love and humility, that I may be able to receive Jesus in the Bread of Life, love Him as you loved Him and serve Him in the distressing disguise of the Poorest of the Poor.

September 20, 1994

Title:   You Are My Little Flower

Jesus: I am the Way, the Truth and the Life. I call you, My sweet one, to total surrender. I want your all, give yourself to Me. To hold onto things is to hold on. Your children will be taken care of. As you let go, you will grow more in your union with Me. You must let go of the old life to be given the new life. Your new life is rooted in Me. I call you to total surrender.

Do you want this union? If you do, you will let go of those things that you hold on to that take you away from Me.

I love you with the dearest love. You are My most precious child. You must be willing to let go. I am tending to your life. I want you in constant prayer and tending to your family.

The people you talk to are your brothers and sisters. I am using you to tell them of My tremendous love. There are special gifts I give you to draw you closer to My Mother and Myself. Your Father is forever loving you and guarding you. You are His precious creation. The Holy Spirit is forever leading you to such love of God. Be alone with Me. Realize God's presence in your heart. God is forever within your very breast.

I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus. My Heart is on fire for love of you. You are My chosen one and I love you so much. You are My little flower. Oh, how I love you.
Alleluia, Alleluia.

September 22, Thursday, 1994   (Father Carter was diagnosed with cancer
                                                        6 years later on September 22, 2000)

Message from God the Father

God the Father speaks:     My little child, I speak to you as I have in
                                        the past and you would not receive My messages,
                                        you told yourself God the Father speaks to
                                        no man. I have spoken to you many
                                        times in the past and you were afraid
                                        to write it.

                                            I am your Father my beloved child, I
                                        speak to you to tell you My love. I am
                                        the most loving Father, come and sit
                                        on My lap and be close to Me.

                                            I want to hold you as My little
                                        child and pour My love out to you.

                                            Do not be afraid, for I am forever
                                        in your heart, loving you.

                                            I am your Father I come to give you
                                        the love you need most.

                                            I am your Father little one, come
                                        to Me.

Messenger:        Saw a vision of trees -
                        so peaceful and calm -
                        ready to bloom, light,
                        but no bright light.

                           The Father created the glistening
                        trees, in the spring they are ready
                        to bud.

God the Father speaks:     You My child are ready
                                        to bud with such love of the one
                                        Triune God. Look at the trees glistening
                                        in the light, not too much light, not
                                        bright light, just light and glistening
                                        trees. Calmness, subdued light,
                                        a feeling of immense peace and joy.

            Jesus speaks:           Peace and joy will be yours My child,
                                        be wrapped in the embrace of the one
                                        Triune God. Look at the trees, soft,
                                        created by the hand of God.
                                        A little budding on the branches.
                                        Room for so much growth.
                                        What glory to watch these trees grow
                                        in the glory of the Lord. They will be
                                        in full bloom. They will turn their
                                        leaves and grow in the love of the
                                        Father who created each tree with
                                        such love. He loves you as His very
                                        own special child. Look at the trees,
                                        so peaceful, so calm, so young in their
                                        life. Such potential to grow. Such
                                        potential to be full of the life that
                                        makes them grow. Come to the living
                                        waters of your faith. Feed on the water
                                        and bathe in the sunlight. Your days
                                        of prosperity are at hand. As you grow
                                        in the love of God your heart is
                                        quieted and you know the peace and joy
                                        that only His love can bring.

                                            Look at yourself as the little trees
                                        ready to sprout into fullness. The fullness
                                        of the life of God flowing in its very roots.
                                        As your roots are nourished, as your branches
                                        bake in the basking sun, as you grow
                                        more and more in God's love, you will be this
                                        mighty oak. You will grow to such heights
                                        and strength you will not topple in the wind,
                                        you will not lose your leaves to the frost,
                                        you will bask in My sun and grow to full
                                        maturity in My love. I am the Almighty
                                        God and I have chosen you to full
                                        nurturing in My love.

                                                      Bathe before Me in front of My tabernacle
                                        and soak in My light. It feeds you and
                                        makes you grow. As you bathe in My
                                        light you drink and eat of My
                                        Body and Blood. Daily, you come and
                                        you are fed on My very own flesh.

                                            This child is life for the soul, this is
                                        participation in My life. It is in
                                        My life you are made whole. Nothing
                                        provides this life, but God. Pray for
                                        the grace to know and love Me. Pray,
                                        pray, pray, be empty, be open.
                                        Come and bake in the sunlight of My
                                        Heart. I shine from the tabernacle,
                                        sweet one, I wait there for you.

                                            Do not think you do not need to come,
                                        though I dwell deep in your soul, you
                                        are nourished by My Body and Blood, My
                                        presence is forever with you, but
                                        I am waiting for you to sit with
                                        Me in front of the tabernacle.

                                            Your interior union will grow
                                        with Me as the mighty oak that is rooted
                                        so strongly in the ground. Your life in Me
                                        is alive and vibrant, but it will be
                                        enhanced by the fire of the love of
                                        God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Mary
                                        forever with you and leading you into
                                        such loving union with all Three
                                        Persons, (God the Father, God the Son, and
                                        God the Holy Spirit).

                                            Oh child such joy I have to share with
                                        you. I give you so freely My life and My gifts.
                                        I long to be forever united in such
                                        union with you. Let go of the world and
                                        your fears and focus only on Me.

                                             I am the Way, the Truth and the Life.
                                        I never leave you My beloved child. Place
                                        all your love in My Heart. I will never
                                        abandon you. You must trust
                                        totally in Me.

                                             I am Jesus, Savior of this world and
                                        life to your soul. Feast on My Body
                                        and Blood for I come to you.

                                             Do not look only My children, for gifts in
                                        this world, come to Me and let Me pour out
                                        the gifts only God can give you. I give
                                        you a sharing in My life. This life
                                        is a vibrant force within your soul,
                                        it is not dry and inactive, it is alive and
                                        well formed in Me. Oh sweet one, do
                                        not ever lose heart, I move not an
                                        inch from you. I watch you daily,
                                        minute by minute. Live in Me
                                        that your life will be made whole.
                                        I am your God. I love you with
                                        the most enduring love. Come and
                                        let Me give you My life.

            Messenger:              And He gave them new life inside their
                                        souls. Their hearts were quieted, their
                                        bodies surrendered and they lived
                                        in the love of God. Alleluia.

September 23, 1994

Title: Live Your Life for Me

Jesus:

I come that you might have life and have it to the full. What matters child? I am with you at this moment and your heart is thinking about other things. Come to Me and release yourself to My presence. I am God and I am totally with you this day. You wonder, you search, you become very lost and before you, is He Who knows the way. I know all things, not some, - all! Come to Me and release yourself into My loving arms. I am He Who sustains you.

Messenger: The thirst in my soul for God's love. I see His love ever present in you this day. I seek with my whole heart the love of God. He has given us to one another to be reflections of His love. In our darkest hour each person is still a reflection of God who created them.

Each person was divinely created by God the Father. We were created in love, we are the product of His love. To be more like Christ we must seek the life of Christ alive in our souls. This is a gift from God! At baptism we are given new life. This life is given to us from God. This is a gift - the sacraments of the Church. This is a gift from God.

-- At baptism we receive a special sharing in His life.

-- Our knowing and loving capacity is elevated.

-- This life is not sterile, dry and inactive.

-- This life is the vibrant love of God, active in our very being. God lives and dwells in our soul.

This presence is more or less intense, depending on our union with Him.

   He is forever present in a special way when we are baptized and in the state of grace.

We must be Christ-like.

His life is active.

We receive special grace through the sacraments.

We get very much grace when we go to the Eucharist and sit before the Blessed Sacrament.

I thirst after His love. I see God in you.



September 23, 1994

After Communion

Title: To Know Him is To Love

R. The more I love God, the more time I want to be with Him. God's love is infinite. I can forever grow in my love of Him. It is through His outpouring of His life I partake more and more in His divine life. He gives me the gift to know and love Him more.

The more I know Him, the more I love Him, the more I thirst after this love of Him. To know Him is to seek Him, to want to love Him more. He gives us a share in His life. He gives us greater grace to share more deeply in His life. He is the gift giver, I am the recipient. To be more saturated with His grace that is my desire. His grace is a gift to me. I can accept His grace. I can reject His grace.

His grace is given - I am the recipient. I respond to grow in greater love and knowledge. I pray for this grace to know and love Him more. I thirst after knowledge of Him. I am drawn to Him as steel to the magnet. The pull becomes greater, the closer I get. The more I know and love Him, the more I see His life present in my fellow beings. This is what I seek to know Him and love Him more. How can I not love you, my brother, when you are created by God? To love God is to love you! I want to love Him. I see you more through His eyes. I see you more as the divine creation of the Father. I see you as the person Jesus died for and know how He loves you.

You are my brother. God is my Father, God is your Father. God is Jesus' Father, Mary is my Mother, Mary is your Mother, Mary is Jesus' Mother.

The Spirit is the love between the Father and Son. How can I not love the Spirit more and more!

God is love. He loved us first that we might share in this life of love. Who are we that He loves us so much? We are His divine creation, a product of His love. We were created in love. We are so loved. Let us then love one another as true brothers in Christ.

Song: Let There Be Peace On Earth

I must love God above all things. I must strive to love all those God created more and more.

Father Carter's writing on grace from Response in Christ

1. WHAT IS GRACE?

Grace is first and foremost the lavish self-giving or self-communication of God to man through the person Christ. This is the stress of St. Paul. Contemporary theology therefore is correct in describing grace first of all in terms of the special presence of the Triune God. The divine persons are present to give us a participation in their own life, to be a guide of our actions, and to be known and loved by us. This special presence is variously named: the divine indwelling, the indwelling of the Trinity, uncreated grace. "If anyone loves me he will keep my word, and my Father will love him, and we shall come to him and make our home with him." (Jn 14:23).

Through this special presence, Father, Son and Holy Spirit unite themselves so intimately to us in personal love that their image is left upon us. This image of the Trinity is sanctifying grace. There are, then, two great realities of grace: God’s personal self-communication, or uncreated grace, and created grace, or the life of sanctifying grace.

As we have just mentioned, God’s gift of Himself in a special loving presence is the aspect of grace which should be stressed. But the reality of created grace—the life God gives us—should also receive its due attention. Scripture so bids us. The eminent biblical scholar, John L. McKenzie, after commenting on numerous New Testament passages, observes: "Wide as may seem to be the range of these passages, they have in common the conception of grace as something given, received, a reality in the Christian and in the world in which the Christian lives."⁴ Also, looking at the thought of St. Paul, we have the words of Rondet: "In First Corinthians, Paul’s theology of grace takes a big step forward. He continues to speak of grace as a special mercy, a special goodness of God (1 Cor 1,3). But grace now also appears as a created gift, a permanent favor. It is a kind of supernatural power, and charisms in some way embody various aspects of it."5 Rondet speaks further about Paul’s theology of grace: "In chapter 4 of Second Corinthians, grace appears clearly as an interior principle of spiritual life. It is no accident that Paul goes on to talk about the interior man, the ‘inner nature which is being renewed every day’ (4,16)...."⁶Consequently, the reality of the life of sanctifying or created grace is very clear in the New Testament.

Created grace, or the life of sanctifying grace, actually inheres in us. On the other hand, the persons of the Trinity specially present to us (uncreated grace), despite their mysteriously close union with us, never become a part of our natures. Although the special presence of the divine persons and sanctifying grace always coexist, these two realities are nevertheless distinct.

Sanctifying grace is best described as a life. It is a sharing in divine life. This life is one of the great themes of St. John. In the theology of John the purpose of the Incarnation is precisely this—to reveal and communicate divine life to men.⁷ "I have come so that they may have life and have it to the full." (Jn 10:10).

God is bold and daring. Without God’s revelation, who would dare to think that God offers man a share in His own divine life? In Their self-communication to us, and in their sharing of divine life with us, the Trinity truly offers us a daring challenge. They bid us to live life at its fullest, to live a life patterned after their own. Through the new powers which grace gives us, they inexorably call us to go out of our self-centeredness and live a life of dynamic love-relationships with Themselves and man. Through this life of love They ask us to continue the work of Their love, the work of creation and redemption. Through this life of love They ask us to help change the face of the earth. Summarily, our life in Christ is a call to the greatness of love.

To talk of grace, then, is primarily to talk of the personal relationships in love which are established by our Christ-life. These personal relationships we wish to stress in our treatment of grace. First of all, however, we should briefly discuss basic ideas concerning the life of sanctifying grace, which is the foundation for ability to enter into these personal relationships. All things being equal, the more we know about sanctifying grace, the better we can understand and appreciate the nature of these personal relationships in Christ.

Although the life of sanctifying grace is a reality distinct from our natural life, it is not something superimposed upon our nature as icing is added to a cake. Rahner states: "The nature of a spiritual being and its supernatural elevation are not opposed to each other like two things which lie side by side, so that they must be either kept separate or confused. The supernatural elevation of man is, though not due to him, the absolute fulfillment of his being...."⁸

Our Christ-life permeates our persons completely. Nothing which is good is destroyed. All is elevated to a new level of existence, for through grace we enter a new life. St. Paul affirms: "And for anyone who is in Christ, there is a new creation; the old creation has gone, and now the new one is here." (2 Co 5:17)

Why are we able to live on a new level of existence through grace? The answer lies in the fact that we receive a created sharing in the divine nature. Nature, we know, is a principle or capacity of operation according to a certain level of existence. An angel can perform acts of an angel because he has an angelic nature. A man can know intellectually because he has a rational nature. Likewise, through our Christ-life of grace we can perform God-like acts because we have received a new nature. Scripture speaks to us about our participation in the nature of God. In one of the most noted passages of the New Testament on the life of grace, we read: "By His divine power, he has given us all the things we need for life and for true devotion, bringing us to know God himself, who has called us by his own glory and goodness. In making these gifts, he has given us the guarantee of something very great and wonderful to come: through them you will be able to share the divine nature and to escape corruption in a world that is sunk in vice." (2 P 1:3-4).

It is not sufficient that we possess this Christ-life, this new vital principle. Also we need the supernatural faculties through which this Christ-life can both express itself and grow. This is evident if we consider our natural life as an analogy. It is not sufficient to possess a human nature. The life of this nature has to express itself and grow through various sense and spiritual faculties. For instance, one expresses his life as a man when he uses his intellect or when he walks.

What are the supernatural faculties through which my Christ-life expresses itself and grows? These faculties are the supernaturally infused virtues, chief of which are faith, hope and love. These virtues give the Christian the capacity to channel his Christ-life into the various areas of his total existence. Or to put it in a slightly different manner, we can say that these virtues allow the Christian to relate properly to God, man and the rest of creation. They are positive modifications of the person, allowing him to act with various Christian attitudes. The virtues, in turn, are activated by actual grace which affects both our intellects and our wills.

God has given the Christian still another gift of grace. We refer here to the gifts of the Holy Spirit. These gifts are capacities which allow the Christian in a special manner to be receptive to the inspirations of the Holy Spirit. These gifts, in turn, have as their purpose the perfecting of the infused virtues. Theologians teach that the virtues do not achieve a mature stage of development without the simultaneous activity of the gifts.

Another important aspect of grace is that which is termed external. External actual grace is a person, place or thing which serves as an occasion for internal grace. We must realize the extreme importance of external grace, especially concerning persons. There are many examples. A wife can receive God’s grace through the loving presence of her husband. The witness of a dedicated Christian can inspire us to greater things. The love and encouragement of a friend can spur us to a more generous self-giving in the work of Christ. Yes, persons are extremely important in God’s plan.

How does our Christ-life grow? This growth centers around the themes of love. Our Christ-life grows as we open ourselves up to God’s love in the sacraments, especially the eucharist. We grow in Christ through the love of God and man which is expressed in various types of meritorious actions performed in the state of grace. We grow in Christ when God in His love graciously answers our prayers through which we have petitioned Him to take deeper possession of us through, for instance, an increase of faith, hope and love. In summary, we grow in our Christ-life through the various dimensions of loving relationships with God and others. Love is all important. The other virtues are important to the degree that they are influenced by love and serve love.

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September 24, 1994

Title: Grace

R. Our Catholic Church is One, Holy, Catholic and Apostolic instituted by Christ to give grace. Sanctifying grace is a sharing in His life, life is in Him. It is freely given to us by God out of His great love for us. We have a human nature. God gives His grace.

God gives us grace in His goodness. We have a free will to accept it or reject God's grace. God can give us special graces to help us avoid sin.

His grace is released in the sacraments. Man is happy when he is following God's will and in a state of grace. If we are to be happy we must follow the will of the Father.

September 24, 1994

Saturday - 6:30 - 9:30

Title: I Never Leave You

Jesus: I am your sweet one, My beloved. I never leave you. Your heart experiences Me during the day. I never ever leave you. Your jobs are many, you must be free to go wherever I send you. I am forever connected in such intense love, constantly in your heart. You never go from Me.

(Vision)

Your dark times are those times when you are not doing your private prayer with Me. I am still with you, you see Me, you love Me, you feel Me, but you do not have that intense intimacy as we do when you are spending time with Me.

Oh, how I love you, My dear, dear child! I am forever united in such intimate union with you. I forever operate in your being. Your surrender will draw you closer to Me.

September 24, 1994

Title: Trust Me

To Father Carter and Rita

Jesus: I call you to be united and working together in intimacy. This will help My work be done, as you grow in greater oneness - as you work as one mind and one heart with the same plan I give you. The devil will try to divide you, he will plant thoughts of division in your mind. Trust Me. You are both to lead one another to greater intimacy with Me through My Mother's most tender heart. Your support for one another is crucial to the deeds you must both accomplish. I am leading you both, separately, and jointly, to accomplish My task, to promote devotion to My Heart through My Mother's Heart.

     Your support and love of each other is important for this endeavor. Your love of God: Father, Son and Holy Spirit will grow as you trust one another and open up to the experiences you are having, growing in your relationship with Me. Each person will help the other see the whole picture you need to do this work. Hold not back your experiences with Me. Tell one another your intimate experiences with God. You will both grow in your relationship with Me as you share your experiences with Me. You will lead so many to My Most Sacred Heart. Trust one another and do not give into any promptings of Satan to divide you. Come to My Heart and rest forever there. I am your most loving Jesus, through My Mother's tender heart you will accomplish this task and lead so many to My Heart.
     I love you so much. I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus. You are My apostles. I will lead you to such intense union with Me, the Father and Holy Spirit. I love you so much.


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September 24, 1994

After Communion

Title: I See Jesus in His People

R. I felt as if I was so weak, so weak I just wanted to sit and I felt I couldn't move. I felt a pressing down on my whole body, as if my spirit could rise out of my body.

I want to be so close to Him. I long for union with Him. My life is a constant state of longing for Him more, wanting more, loving Him more.

He is talking to me a lot. I didn't want to wear my flowered dresses and He said I was His little flower and that is why He wants me to wear flowered dresses.

I see Jesus in so many beautiful people. I see Jesus in how they act. It is beautiful to see Him in them. I see them in their faces and hear them speaking from Him.

I see myself and Satan constantly working on my insecurities. I am weak and I feel discouraged. Last night Jesus said "it offends Me for you to focus on such nonsense, I love you so very much."

I realize the outpouring of His grace to me in the sacraments, in front of the tabernacle, in the Mass, in good works. He is constantly giving me so many graces. Who am I that He loves me so much? He is so good to me and I am so unworthy.

I realize now that all the graces He has given me to understand this and how He has gifted me to give me these writings. They are His gifts given to me to share with others. He loves us all so very much!

He gives us the grace to share in His Divine Life. Who are we that He outpours His grace to us? I feel His life within me. I am still sort of weak from communion. I feel like I do when I have seen a vision of Mary when she is illuminated. Last Tuesday we said two rosaries at the prayer meeting. During the second rosary I started to get locutions. I didn't want to say them, I was afraid, I said one and she was the most brilliant I have ever seen her. It was a locution for all there from Jesus. The wall was illuminated. The two rosaries made me feel weak. I didn't want to leave, I wanted to stay and just be there. I am having a special experience and I do not want to leave. This is how I feel now from communion. So close to Them, I love Him so much. It is so hard to leave and go to do your worldly jobs!



September 25, 1994

Title: I Forever Guard Your Path

Jesus: I am the Way, the Truth and the Life. I come that you will have life and have it to the full. My very sweet child, do not labor in your heart for anything for I am forever guarding your path. My Heart is forever taking care of your problems. I am the Good Shepherd, I know Mine and they follow Me. Follow only Me. Before your eyes should be Me leading you in every direction of your life.

You do not operate, you live only as I live and dwell in you. Let go and experience the feeling of freedom, being rooted in My most precious Heart.

I am Jesus, I am your most ardent lover and dearest friend. Come to Me and be comforted.

This day, this 25th day, I send My special love to you, My beloved. Focus on this intense presence of My love forever with you. I am the Almighty God. I have all the power. I am your beloved one. Come to Me.



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September 25, 1994

Title: See with the Eyes of Love

R. I realize more and more my self-centeredness. I realize how I need to love all God's creatures. I cannot look at one person and decide I do not like him or think I am better than him. If I am to love and be like Christ, I must look at all my brothers as God's creatures that He loves. I must see with the eyes of love, every man. I cannot look critically at anyone, I must see them with the eyes of love.

God loves every man. God, the Father, created them. God the Son died for them. God the Holy Spirit loves and sanctifies them. I must see every creature as so dear to God.

I must see with the eyes of love. This takes grace. I must pray for the grace to share more deeply in His life. I must be open to grace He gives me to love Him and my brothers.

If He pours out His graces on me to love my brothers, but I continue to look on them with unloving eyes, then I am not cooperating with the grace He is giving me.
I need to pray to the Spirit to open my mind and my heart to see. I need to see. I must see more and more with the eyes of God. I must see all men with the eyes of love.


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September 26, 1994

2:30 a.m.

Title: I Searched For You - I Love You in My Brothers

Jesus: Little one, little one, are you learning the lessons I so sweetly teach you, the lessons of My love? You, child, are never alone. If the earth shakes and the sun ceases to shine, My Heart forever burns for you. (You saw My Heart pulsate on the picture. Does My Heart ever cease to beat with such love for you?)

I am the Alpha and the Omega. I am your all. I am Jesus Christ, Son of the Living God. You, My child, run to My arms. Let My beloved Mother place you in My most tender Heart. There you will know such love, love as is not found in this world. This is the love I have for you, sweet one. My love, My ardent burning love!

R. Enkindle in me, Lord, the fire of Your Spirit.

Jesus: You will radiate with My glow within your very soul.

I want to be ever more united to you in deeper love. Let go. This union is enhanced by loving others. See the God that lives in them. Your brothers were created by the hand of the Father. I am in your brothers. Love Me in each person. Do not look to criticize your brothers, look to love them. Love your brothers, I am in them. They are the reflection of the God who created them.

Love, love, love. I loved those who persecuted Me.

Go to the Father. Dwell in My most precious Heart. Live in the love of the Spirit through your beloved Mother. You are our most precious child.

R. I forever want to be saturated with Your grace. I love Your life alive in me, God. To know You, Lord, is to seek You. I know You in my children, in my husband, in my brothers I talk to.

Oh, Jesus, how little I know You! In Your infinite wisdom, You impart to me little bits of Your love and knowledge. I have such a hungry appetite for You. I want You more and more, Lord. I seek You, I love You, I want You, I thirst after You. Help me to see You in my brothers.

I am as a speck in Your infinitude. I see so little, I want so much more. I am so thirsty, my Lord, for You. I love You with all my heart and soul. I want to be lost in the infinite love of Your Heart. I stand knocking to go deeper and deeper into Your love.

I want greater knowledge of You to love You ever more. It is for You I live. Let me go into Your Heart. I want to be so deep in Your Heart as to be lost and surrounded by Your love. I want to be deep, deep within Your Heart. I ask Your most loving Mother to place me deeply in Your beating Heart.

I love You so much! I need You, Lord.

My thirst is only satisfied by You. My longing is for You. As I grow in Your love, I seek You more. I am searching for God. I seek You, God, where I am. I have joy and peace as I seek you. It is the will of the Father that I am here at this very moment. You are alive this day. You are in our midst. I know You created the little child that smiles at me. I know You created the beauty in the green trees. I am so grateful for Your gifts given to me, God, in Your creation. I long to behold You, God. Every person was created by God the Father.

I searched, Lord, for Your love. I find You in my brothers. You live and dwell in their hearts. To put on Christ, I must love as He loved. He loved those who persecuted Him and tore His flesh. He loved all that put Him to death. He showed us the way. May I forever grow in my deep love of Him. I must see Him in you. We were created to know, love and serve God. We were created to follow His commandments. He wills us to love Him and love one another.

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September 26, 1994

After Communion

Title:  Meditate On My Passion

Jesus:   My daughter, My eyes were coated with blood from the wounds to My head. I suffered so for love of you and your brothers and you tell Me you do not want to love your brothers! There are some who are so hard to love. I tell you, dear one, look at My wounded face and see how I suffered for love of each soul.

I ask you to love. It is through your love I will reach those who are suffering and in sin. Do you want to put on Christ? I shed My blood and gave My life for your dear brothers. I gave My life that you might have life eternal.

I ask you to love your brothers as I have loved you. When they persecute you and holler every slander against you, I ask you to follow My lead, I ask you to love, always!
Pray for the grace to see with the eyes of God. See your brothers and see Me in them. You are My hands. You are My body. Live My life, meditate on My life in the rosary. I loved all to My very death. This is My way, it is the way of love! And I come to you this day, My sweet one. Meditate on My passion. This is the love I have for each precious soul.

September 27, 1994

After Communion

Title: I Laid Down My Life for You

Jesus: I am the Alpha, I am the Omega, I am your all, I am He, I am the Son of God. I give you, My beloved ones, Myself. I pour Myself out to you in the Eucharist. I give you the gift of Myself. I remain forever in your midst this very day.

Oh, My beloved ones, creation of My dear Father, you are so immensely loved. You wonder and search for that which your soul craves. Your soul was created for Me. As the hand that fits the perfect glove, your heart is only content in My most Sacred Heart.

Oh, child, My love is so deep! You cannot comprehend a minute amount of My love for you. I give you such love, that your feeble minds cannot fathom it.

I am He who laid down My life for you. I gave My flesh and blood that you would have life and have it to the full. I am He who would die for you this very day. Come to Me and surrender your all to Me. Would He who died for you not love you with greatest love this day!

Oh, My child, what do I say to convince you? You run, you wonder, you will not find what your starving soul craves, except in Me.

I am here this day. I am truly present in My Divinity and Humanity in the Eucharist, no less present than the day I died for you, the day I walked on Calvary.

Come to Me now. Feel My presence in the tabernacle. God, the Son of God, present and in your midst. I remain here because I love you so.

Will you not come and give Me your heart? I know more than you, your every desire. Trust Me! I gave My life for you!
I am Jesus, Come to Me. I love you so, My beloved ones.


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JOYFUL MYSTERIES
September 27, 1994

The Annunciation

The Angel Gabriel appeared to Mary and asked her to be the Mother of God.

She said "yes". Mary had such faith! She always complied with the Father's will.

She was filled with the Holy Spirit and the Word was made flesh and dwelt among us.

There was such a bond between Jesus and Mary from the very moment of conception!

She felt His life grow within her womb. His Most Sacred Heart was formed in her womb through the Holy Spirit.

Jesus wants to be alive in our hearts. We should carry His life with great joy in our being.

The Spirit wants to be alive in our very being with the fire of His love.

We are children of God. Mary mothers us as she mothered Jesus.

It is through Mary that we are led to intense love in His most precious Heart.

It is truly the love of these Two Hearts that will lead us to union with God.

The Visitation

Mary went to visit her cousin Elizabeth.

When she arrived, the child in Elizabeth's womb leapt for joy at the presence of Mary with Jesus in her womb.

Mary was filled with the Holy Spirit and cried out, with a loud voice, the Magnificat.

"And Mary said: 'My soul proclaims the greatness of the Lord and my spirit rejoices in God my Saviour;" (Lk. 1:46-47)

"because he has looked upon the humiliation of his servant. Yes, from now onwards all generations will call me blessed," (Lk. 1:48)

"for the Almighty has done great things for me. Holy is his name," (Lk. 1:49)

Jesus is no less present in our hearts after Communion than He was in Mary's womb.

Should we not jump up and cry out that we truly receive the one, true God in our hearts?

Are we open to the Holy Spirit to fill us with the love of the one, true God and Mary in our hearts?

It is through her pure and tender heart that we will love God more closely.

The Birth of Jesus

Joseph was filled with joy to see the splendor of the night, but with sorrow to see Jesus born in such poverty.

Not a place for Jesus to lay His head-in a manger at birth, His head on a cross at His death-both bare wood.

He showed us the way, in total submission to the will of the Father. He loved us so much that He was born a human, God-made-man.

What the birth of this baby, the Child Jesus, did to change the world for all time!

This is Jesus, the Son of God, come to free the world of its sins.

He came as a little baby. He was born of Mary in the little town of Bethlehem.

This is how it is with Jesus today: there is no blare of trumpets, no roll of drums. Jesus comes quietly at every Mass.

The only blare of trumpets and roll of drums are in our hearts.

If you are not aware of Christ truly present in the Eucharist, you miss the big event.

Jesus, the same Jesus who was born in Bethlehem, comes to us in our hearts.

The Presentation of Jesus in the Temple

Mary took Jesus to the Temple to be presented to the Father.

Simeon told Mary of the future sufferings of Jesus and Mary.

Joseph, in his sorrow at hearing of the sufferings, was comforted by the joy that so many souls would be redeemed.

They returned to Galilee to the town of Nazareth and Jesus grew in wisdom and strength.

Mary, with such love, beheld her precious Son!

She gazed into His precious baby eyes.

Simeon predicted that her heart would be pierced with a sword.

Her heart would be pierced with a sword for, just as she held His baby body at birth, she would hold his lifeless body under the cross.

How well Mary would know the Heart of Jesus! She would ponder all the events of His life in her heart.

It is through her most loving heart that we grow in fervent love for His Heart.

The Finding of Jesus in the Temple

When Jesus was twelve years old, the Holy Family went to Jerusalem for Passover.

When it was over Mary and Joseph had traveled a day's journey before they realized Jesus was not with them.

With sorrow in their hearts they returned to Jerusalem to find Him.

After searching for Him for three days, they found Him in the Temple talking to the doctors.

The doctors were astounded at His wisdom.

He said He had to be about His Father's business.

Jesus teaches us today through His Word.

"He went down with them then and came to Nazareth and lived under their authority. His mother stored up all these things in her heart." (Lk. 2:51-52)

Mary, if we ever lose Jesus, lead us back to His tender Heart.

Jesus, help us to love Mary more.



September 29, 1994

Title: Focusing On Things Keeps Us Apart

Jesus:    Little one, little one, when will you come to Me? I am here and in your midst this very moment. Feel My presence here in the dentist chair, feel My Mother by My side. You will experience such a presence both interiorly and exteriorly from now on. I am so in love with you, My dear child. Focus on this love and My constant presence within you.

I want you so close to Me. When you focus too much on other things it keeps us apart. Constant union. You have nothing to fear. Be totally engulfed in My most precious Heart. Place yourself in My Heart. Focus on Mary, she leads you to this special closeness. Remember how it felt when you were in the dentist office? When you focus on her presence, you go deeply into My Heart. Focus on her presence. She is the key to deep intimacy with Me. She is so loving to you and she is there. Focus on her presence and she will draw you to My Heart.

R. I felt Mary so close in Walmart's parking lot after we bought Joe's watch. I could feel her clothes, flapping in the wind. I felt her mothering us both. It was so comforting - a warm feeling all over. I wasn't thinking about her, she was just there. This is how it was in the dentist office. When I realized her presence, I feel this warmth in my chest - it leads me to be so close to Him!
I remember the time at the dining room table when I saw her and she said, "Go to My Son, don't focus on me." I still have that image of her and it has led me to such closeness to Him. I love Them so much. I just want to be lost in Them. I saw Jesus' statue smile in the foyer last night. It was not the face of the statue, He was smiling! His eyes were real eyes and they moved. Today I looked at the statue and they are painted-on eyes. His eyes were real last night. Both pictures turned fuzzy, as if I couldn't focus. Lights flashed on and off around His head. Mary was smiling while I prayed in my study this morning at 5:15 a.m.

September 29, 1994

Find Refuge in My Most Sacred Heart

Jesus: My Dear Child,

I bless your home in a special way. May the Sacred Heart of Jesus and the Immaculate Heart of Mary ever reign in your hearts. I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus. Please spread devotion to My most Sacred Heart. Tell people to hang pictures of My Sacred Heart and My Mother's heart throughout their homes. I will bless in a special way any home that hangs My picture and that of My Mother, her Immaculate Heart and My Sacred Heart.

Read the promises of the Sacred Heart to people and circulate them among your friends. Tell them to pray to us all through the day. Such devotion will be the key to your happiness now and in your everlasting life to come.

Tell people to carry pictures of My Sacred Heart and Mary's Immaculate Heart in their pockets and purses and to look at our pictures when praying to us. When you are having a difficult day, reach for our pictures and find refuge in My most Sacred Heart.

How deep is the love I and My Mother have for you? Our love is deeper than any human mind can imagine. Come into My Heart and be protected from all kinds of weather. The wind may blow and the fire of love may grow dim in your hearts, but it forever burns brightly when you are sheltered by My most Sacred Heart. If the wind blows and the rain comes, you will never lose the flame of My love if you have taken refuge in My most Sacred Heart.

Mary leads you to the closest union with Me. Go to Mary, see her, let her lead you deeply into My Heart. She loves you so. She is your most loving Mother. She is pure and tender of heart. It is through her you will experience such intimacy with Me. It is through her heart that you are lead to the deepest union with the one, triune God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

I am your most Sacred Heart. I am Jesus, Son of God. I am a burning furnace of endless love, waiting to shelter you in My Heart. Come to Me, My beloved ones. I love you so.

(Song: I Am Your Sacred Heart)

Note: (I saw a vision yesterday - people trying to light a match in the wind and having trouble. I was inside a door and mine lit without a problem. He used this analogy to say that our flame will not grow dim if we come into the shelter of His most Sacred Heart.)

Jesus: My dear, little children. I write these messages to you with My deepest love. Anyone who reads these messages, please pray for the circulation of these letters. People need to know of My most ardent, burning love. If you know someone who is suffering, please give them a message of My love.

    I write here that you will be drawn closer to Me. I truly love you so much. I want every child to know of My love. Please pass these messages to your beloved friends.

R.    I must look for Jesus in my brothers. He is in our midst this very day. Do I see You, Jesus, in my brothers' eyes? Do I look? You are giving me so much love, I should want to love my brothers as You wish me to love them. I ask You for the grace to help me to be loving. Do I cooperate with the grace You give me to be loving?

    My brothers are children of the Father. You gave Your life for them and You would die for them today, Jesus. Help me to love You and my brothers. Help me to have a heart filled with Your love.