Mary has requested that the daily message be given each day to the world. It is read nightly at the prayer service from her Image Building in Clearwater, Florida, U.S.A. This is according to her request. All attempts will be made to publish this daily message to the world at 11 p.m. Eastern time, U.S.A.


We acknowledge that the final authority regarding these messages rests with the Holy See of Rome.


I appear my children on this former bank building in Florida, Our Lady Clothed with the Sun.

December 4, 1998

Messenger: The message from yesterday was to be put on the Internet and read with the pictures. The message was most important to Our Lord and the timing crucial.

We ask you to please reread the daily message of December 3, 1998 , feast of St. Francis Xavier, in its entirety with all parts in place.

The message must be circulated in its entirety with the picture as Our Lord has instructed.

PLEASE REREAD MESSAGE OF DECEMBER 3, 1998. PLEASE CIRCULATE THIS FINAL EDITION WITH PICTURES. This is by the request of Our Lord.


Beyond the Suffering Is the Life

Messenger: I was five years old when I really had such a trauma. I learned that love relationships really hurt. I learned about love and abandonment.

I did not understand, I just learned that after the love which was warm and cuddly and filling came this tremendous sword that penetrated my heart and soul.

It was then I became immensely thirsty for that beautiful love that I once had before my mother died.

No matter how we have suffered our trauma in love relationships, we all have suffered abandonment in different ways by those who attempted to love us.

A child of an alcoholic suffers abandonment every time the parent is out on a binge and the child is left with emotional needs that are not met. A child suffers abandonment from the workaholic parent. A child suffers abandonment from a woman or man that engages in many love relationships that consume their time and energy. Children suffer abandonment in many different ways and they have wounds deep in their hearts that are usually not discussed. Children are not able to validate what is happening in their lives and their hearts become wounded. They are not able to work through these wounds because the parents do not recognize their faults. The child is left with a host of unmet needs and a deep thirst for love.

Beyond the suffering is the life. Beyond the red, blistering, bleeding wounds are the glorified wounds we see on Christ on Easter morning.

His anguish in the garden was so intense for Eve's abandoned sinful children that He sweat Blood.

My Savior and your Savior knew so much the wounds in our hearts that He gave His life to heal them.

Do we think there is not one that understands us when we cry out in pain and try with all our hearts to communicate with others and share our feelings?

There is the One that speaks to us in His Word.


Isaiah 49:14-15

Zion was saying,
    'Yahweh has abandoned me,
the Lord has forgotten me.'
Can a woman forget her baby at the breast,
feel no pity for the child she has borne?
Even if these were to forget,
I shall not forget you.


Messenger: Beyond the suffering in the garden, beyond the whipping at the pillar, the torn flesh, the bleeding crowned head, Jesus Christ knew the glory of that Easter morn. Beyond the suffering He knew the life and the glory of that life.

I can sit and cry and suffer anguishing pain in my heart, crying out sheepishly, "Lord how much longer must I endure with memories of my childhood, with memories of being abandoned in love by the death of my mother, or in other love relationships?" I learn that in every love relationship there is the life beyond.

I found life. In searching for one to know and love me, I found Him, the One Who understood my every feeling. And He spoke to me and to us all in the Blue Books. "I am the Way, the Truth and the Life."

And so I got from my bed one dreary morning and I felt as if it all pressed down on me and I remembered all the pain and it mounted up as a million crosses on my back and I said, "What is life?" And I instantly knew life is found in abundant measure in the Eucharist and I ran to Him that He would pour out His life to me before the tabernacle.

Yes, He is the Life. He knew all through the Passion that beyond the suffering is the life. He knew the glory of that Easter day and He knows the glory to come for the man that loves and serves the Lord.

We walk in a dimmed light, to whom will we talk? We must identify with the Master, the One Who loves us so much and understands our every thought and feeling. He took up His cross and carried it for us to give us life.

How precious indeed is this gift given to us.

Beyond the suffering is the life, if we endure according to His will. Why try to relieve ourselves through foolish pleasures that only deter us from accomplishing that which He desires? I am not recommending staying ill and not going to the doctor or not trying to remove ourselves from unhealthy relationships and jobs. I am saying that in the every day occurrences in our lives we must endure and realize that we must identify with Him in the suffering, that it will not last forever. We must realize that after the suffering is the light and life. After the darkest night, the beautiful sun comes over the horizon and the light of day appears.

He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. He will never abandon us. He is the Divine God. He is attentive to our every need. He understands our every feeling, desire, pain, hardship, joy, etc.

Jesus speaks: Why do you fret My little sweet one? I will take you by the hand and all your cares will melt away. I will take you to My Sacred Eucharistic Heart and bathe you in My love and you will be filled, for I come to give you life to the full. As you live and dwell more in Me, you will administer to all around you.

I will never abandon you. Sufferings will not go on forever. You will be comforted by My Blood. You will have greater and greater life in Me. I am Jesus, the King of Kings, and I love you. I have found favor with your soul.

Read My Blue Book messages, they are My letters of love to you.

I love you, I love you, I love you.

Should a mother forsake her child, I will never abandon you.

Now put aside thoughts of love relationships that ended in which you felt lost and abandoned. I am your God and I will never abandon you. The victory has been won for you already. Every love relationship in your life will end in victory when you live in the Father's will.

Suffering when encountered properly leads to greater life in Me.

I am God, Almighty, all powerful, all loving.

I have found favor with your soul.

You are My special spouse, I come to you in the Eucharist and give Myself completely to you.

I am the Way, the Truth, the Life.

Messenger: Jesus, I want people to be sweet to me and love me.

Jesus speaks: You must love them for Me. They long for My love. You must smile and be loving. You must see through My eyes. You will learn to live by the Blue Books. I ask you to print the mini Blue Books so you can read a message quickly. I wish the Holy Spirit Novena to circulate extensively. I wish all shepherds to pray this Novena daily. Pray the Prayer for Union with Jesus all through the day.


Question for married couples and those in other intimate relationships:

Q: How do I feel suffering in our relationship has led us to greater life?

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